I seemed to see my own satisfactory answer, and I was not in a hurry to say what to sit on.

He sat up slowly, not facing me, his face was like ashes, "It's okay, it's really okay, I know you're scaring me and testing me." ”

He chuckled, as if laughing at himself, but still with a hint of hope. He hoped I was just scaring him, even though the joke wasn't funny at all.

I couldn't go on, and my tone was light, "It's not good to be deceived, right?"

He suddenly turned his eyes to me, probably wondering what kind of medicine was sold in my gourd. I sat up a little and curled up on the bed to distance myself from him.

He wanted to come closer, probably to clean me up, or to break my head and take a look.

But my posture is very evasive, I unplugged the charger of the mobile phone charging at the bedside, and after turning on the phone, I accurately found a text message from the unfamiliar number, opened it, and I couldn't bear to look at it again, and threw it directly into Wang Zhaoyang's hand.

He picked it up from the bed, looked at the content of the message, and froze.

I kept looking at his expression, his side face, his still delicate skin, a slight pull, fingers trembled, and he slowly spoke, "What did she tell you?"

I shook my head, but he probably didn't see it. I hugged my knees, still looking at him, and asked him, "Wang Zhaoyang, are you married?" ”

He didn't speak, his eyes were on the ground, and it was the slowest and most honest nod I've ever seen.

He nodded, and I understood. Brushing my face aside, tears flowed down my face, and after holding back, I said, "You can go." ”

He turned his head to look at me, he didn't want to leave, I said, "I don't want to hear what you explain, you can go, I won't be a third party." ”

"Xiao Chang," the voice that called me was a little broken, and he said, "It's not what you think, I didn't want to lie to you." ”

I couldn't control it for too long, so I yelled, hysterical, and imitated Wu Yuqing's appearance, "But you have lied to me!"

He wanted to hug me, but he didn't dare, he said, "I'm ...... with her"

"When?" I relaxed, still wondering about the question.

He lowered his head, "You're a sophomore." ”

Oh, it's been three years, he was married three years ago, and he was twenty-seven years old three years ago, which is a good age to talk about marriage.

When I was a sophomore, I basically had no intersection with Wang Zhaoyang in terms of games or reality. It wasn't until I graduated from university and went to work in a nightclub in Beijing that I was close to being overwhelmed again on the Internet.

Then I intervened between them like this, from online dating to reality, and became the third party referred to by Qianfu.

"Can you do that?" I asked.

He nodded again, and I said, "Didn't you break up before?"

I thought they broke up, because when I saw Zhao Zhao Mu Mu change his name, I saw him sign when "Ten fingers clasped and met a fork in the road, sorry Mu Mu". That's what I thought, but I didn't actually ask him.

"Later," he said, he ......

It's him, breaking up doesn't mean a complete end, there may be a later after the breakup, and then they reconciled again, and then when they reached the age, they broke up when they looked suitable.

When I wandered wantonly in Wang Zhaoyang's arms, thinking that I was the woman he loved the most in his life, how could I forget the sweetness between them, "There are four steps to happiness, 1 you, 2 me, 3 our hearts, 4, together." ”

Once their hearts were also closely together.

I said, "Ke Keru should be a good woman." ”

"But I'm not a good fit with her," he said. ”

"So you're coming to me?" I looked at him accusatory.

Wang Zhaoyang frowned, it was about a lot of pain, and he didn't have much time to think about it, so he thought of something to say, he said: "I didn't want to at first, but I can't refuse, you let me ......" found that it was useless to explain this, and directly came to the point, "I will divorce her, we are already talking about this matter now." ”

I sneered, "Then what did you do earlier?"

Wang Zhaoyang was speechless.

I choked back tears and tried to control my emotions, but in fact, I complained, "You're trapping me in injustice, so we're together, is it my fault? Because I'm too good to you, I'm too proactive, so you can't resist? Is this the reason for your cheating?"

Tears began to flow, Wang Zhaoyang pursed his mouth and did not speak, I continued, "At the beginning, yes, I didn't ask you, I was observing, observing with my own eyes, I didn't want to ask, because I was afraid that asking would not be the answer I wanted." Then I believed it, I didn't think about it, I never thought about it, you know," the voice was full of crying, "You're married, you've been hiding from me for so long, you've made me the person I hate the most!"

His eyes were also red, seeing me crying like this, a little helpless, wanting to wipe my tears, I opened his hand, "You go!" I pointed to the door, "I don't want to see you, I don't want to see you again, you go!"

"Xiao Chang," Wang Zhaoyang still wanted to approach me, he wanted to hug me, and I endured to let him hug him, he said: "Don't be like this, I will definitely get a divorce, soon, okay?"

He was a little heartbroken, and mine was even more heartbroken.

I shook my head, "No, it's not that we can be together if you are divorced, why should I be with you for at least ten years? Why should I pry away her youth like this, just because you are not suitable! Or because I am younger and more beautiful than him." ”

I cried more and more excitedly, and the strength with which he held me became lighter and lighter, and I was not wrong at all.

Why should I, how miserable I should be if I were Fang Keru.

How painful he was for me.

Pushing Wang Zhaoyang away, I cried ugly, and my nasal voice was very heavy, "Wang Zhaoyang, let's finish, it's like never started." I will still remember you, remember what you have helped me and done for me over the years, remember that you are my teacher. ”

Wang Zhaoyang also had a tear under his eyes, but it shouldn't be crying, at least not as hard as I cried, he was still comforting me, "I'm going to divorce her, Xiaochang, it's not just because of you, you don't understand marriage yet." I'm sorry I didn't want to involve you. ”

"But I've been involved! It's up to you whether you want a divorce or not. Don't say it's not me because of me, I know what kind of person you are, even if you are not suitable, as long as you don't mention it, you won't take the initiative. How can it not be because of me, because of me you have come to this point, I can't do it, even if you get divorced and let me continue to be with you with peace of mind, I can't do it!"

Finally, I also said a word of conscience, "I'm still young, I can start all over again, so if it's not too young, you can go." ”

He sat still, looking down at something.

I whispered, "Let's go, you go." ”

When he finally looked at me, his eyes were full of unbearable and broken, and he couldn't break my decision. At least for now, I'm dead on my head here, and it's useless for him to say anything.

Probably he really has to go now, and if he doesn't leave, I'll jump up and leave.

"Okay, you calm down first, I'll deal with it and then I'll come back to you. He spat out the words word for word, raised his hand to touch my face, and shrank back halfway through.

I turned my face away and didn't deliberately look at his back as he left, but I could still see it in the end.

He walked slowly, step by step, to the door, opened it, walked out, and without looking back, he closed the door with his backhand, and closed it very lightly.

Like the time I yelled I want you, and then we almost rolled the sheets, he walked like that, but the door was closed heavier.

After he left, I cried even more presumptuously, and I hope that this is the last time I see him, because I am confident that after crying, after a short period of broken love, I can still get up and fight life again.

I am Yan Xiaochang who can't be defeated.

Crying, crying, feeling tired, lying on the bed and not moving, pretending to be a corpse with himself. Then the phone at my feet vibrate, and after a long hesitation, I hooked it with my foot.

I thought it would be a text message from Wang Zhaoyang.

In fact, even if I made up my mind again, I still couldn't help but want to read the text messages he sent, and I still couldn't help but want to see every word he said to me.

Determination can cut off care, but it is never possible to cut off feelings right away.

But this message is not sent by Wang Zhaoyang, this is an MMS, my mobile phone screen is not big, open the MMS, what I see is a white snow, more than two small purple-red flowers bloom in the middle of the snow, they break out of the blood, the color is delicate, round petals, like the smiling face of flowers in a children's book.

MMS followed by a text message, the letter was from Chen Feiyang, he said: "This is when I went for a run, I took it on the side of the road, I named it Xiao Changhua, small and delicate, Chang smiled." ”

I looked at the two flowers again, and there were wildflowers blooming everywhere, no matter what season it was. I don't know what kind of flowers bloom through the snow, but I'm just curious if they feel cold.

Looking at the information and laughing, I barely had a smile in my heart, and the words had a strong appeal.

I cried so hard that my fingers were weak, and I replied with a few words, "Illiterate learn to compose poetry." ”

When I put the phone down, I don't know what he said, I just know that I was tired, like I had just fought a bad battle, and I was so tired that I didn't want to eat or sleep.

Leaving Wang Zhaoyang and starting over is my decision.