No one will have the patience to be so persistent and indifferent in the face of another person's rejection, and there really is such a person, which can only be described as a stumbling person.

There has to be a time for emotions.

Wang Zhaoyang nodded, sighed lowly, and left me all the clothes and umbrella.

I sat here with my forehead propped up, not knowing what else to do, my dance partner was gone, the competition was gone, and the training wasn't very meaningful. I'm very bored, I can't do anything, everything goes wrong.

God, can't you be nice to me?

After being annoyed for a long time, Shao Siwei called me, "I heard that you are in a bad mood? ”

"Where did you hear about it? I asked.

Shao Siwei took a breath, "Hmm......"

"Okay, you don't have to say it, I know who it is. "Who else knows that I'm not happy now, only Wang Zhaoyang. He will find a way, his comfort is useless to me, so he will find Shao Siwei, Shao Siwei will speak, and I can really listen.

Since Shao Siwei sent it to the door, then I won't let it go.

"If you're thirsty, bring me two packs of beer. "I commanded. It's nice to have a friend in your life who comes and goes at a moment's notice.

Shao Siwei's ass is upside down.

The two of us just sat cross-legged on the floor, filling beer in three packets of small dishes, fans squeaking.

As I drank my wine, I said, "Shao Shao, have you noticed that I have changed?"

"How?"

"I feel like I'm so selfish and boring. I said.

"How?"

After thinking about it, I said, "Call you, Wang Zhaoyang." Am I delusional, or does he really care about me?"

Shao Siwei was sure, "He really cares about you." ”

"But I'm very bad to him, as soon as he cares about me, I'm very fierce, don't you say it's bad to do this, why do people put hot faces on my cold ass. ”

"Then why are you so cruel to him?"

I didn't even think about it, "Because I'm married." ”

Shao Siwei slapped his face, "That's it, if he treats you well, you feel scared, you just have a weak heart." ”

Even Shao Siwei said that I was weak in heart, and last time Wang Zhaoyang also said that I was weak in heart. Well, I admit it, I do have a weak heart. I said, "I don't know what I think of him in my heart, and when I broke up, I thought I would never see him pull down again for the rest of my life, and I would forget about it sooner or later." It really was possible back then, because I thought he was pretty bad, but now that he cares about me, I ...... and shake my head, "I don't want that." ”

Shao Siwei took a sip, thought about something, and asked me curiously, "Actually, I've always wanted to ask you, why did you marry this now, is it because of Wang Zhaoyang's incident?"

I shook my head, "How can I be angry, and if I am angry, can I joke about the rest of my life? I am angry, but I can't get married." Do you know what I'm betting the most?"

Shao Siwei shook his head.

I said: "What I can't stand the most is the man lying next to me, and he may lie next to other women tomorrow, just to share, I don't want to share anything with others, I think being a junior is the most unproductive behavior." Of course, I'm not talking about you, you see that the ratio of men and women is unbalanced now, so many men can't find a partner, and women don't worry about no men, why do you want to be a junior. ”

Shao Siwei said, "You mainly did things too much, and you didn't give him a chance to explain." ”

I sighed, "How can I explain, and then explain that I still sleep with someone else's man, I don't want to ask, I don't want to compare myself with the other woman, I will feel very shameless." So I ran away, in fact, just to feel comfortable. I didn't want to think about it before, but something happened recently, which made me think about it, in fact, I just don't love him, true love, can I be so ruthless, I didn't think about him at all, I really didn't have it at all. ”

Speaking of which, it's a little sad to drink the bar.

Shao Siwei said, "It's not that you don't love, you're just bound by some other things, just like now, you feel that if you get married, you can't think about it anymore." ”

"Maybe," I said, "I was moved when I married Feiyang." Shao Shao, you don't know, Feiyang and I took Wu Yuqing back to my hometown, and I watched her cry on her brother's grave, and I felt very uncomfortable. You don't know what it feels like to have no home, your whole heart is floating. At that time, Chen Feiyang bought a house, and his trick really lowered me, that is, no matter how windy or rainy it is in the future, you will have a place to live, what you have suffered outside, and you can go back to a home. I can't stand it, I really can't stand it, I'm so moved. Then the urged me to give me an answer, and I thought, if I want to go on like this, it's okay. ”

"But you're starting to hesitate now. Shao Siwei asked.

I shook my head, "I didn't want to change, it's good to fly, it's really good." If he doesn't show up...... I don't know if it has anything to do with Wang Zhaoyang's appearance, someone asked me that day, are you satisfied with your current life, I didn't think about it before, he asked me and I started to think, I always felt that there was really something missing. Looking at Shao Siwei, I asked seriously, "Am I too greedy?"

Shao Siwei didn't answer, and asked me what I felt was missing.

I said, "Don't be excited, when I look at Chen Feiyang, I'm not excited at all, I think I may not love him." I'll be honest with you, I think now for me, love is not so important, and there is no way to even guarantee life, what kind of love to talk about. Besides, I don't want to hurt him. ”

Shao Siwei said something very philosophical, "It's not a laugh from the heart, you will get tired after a long time." ”

"Stretch it, stretch it one day at a time. I said.

Shao Siwei commented, "It's irresponsible. ”

I continued to drink, maybe a little irresponsible, but from the beginning when I married Chen Feiyang, I was not responsible enough, but things have come to this point, even if I had to go back and go again, I might still choose that way when I didn't experience this state of mind.

Just like Wang Zhaoyang said, he has never entered marriage, so he doesn't understand. I thought it was too simple at first, and even though my marriage hadn't gone too far to make me unhappy, I did feel a little bit unhappy.

After another sip of wine, my head was already starting to feel a little dizzy, and I said, "He's divorced, Wang Zhaoyang." ”

Shao Siwei, "I know. ”

I said, "I don't know how to face him, I don't dare to think about it," my eyes were red, "Actually, I feel distressed, I think he must be very bitter in his heart, more bitter than me, but I can't help it, it's like this now, I'm worthy of one, I have to live up to one, I really let me choose, I can't choose." ”

Shao Siwei handed me a tissue to wipe my tears, and he asked, "Who do you think loves you more?"

I shook my head.

He asked, "Who do you think needs you more?"

I still don't know, I just said, "I don't think I'm so good, in fact, I've never been a very good person, I've been selfish since I was a child." Whatever I do, I always think about myself first, and if I think it is beneficial to me, I will choose that. At the beginning, when I liked Wang Zhaoyang, I chased him, was it really for him, I felt that it was also for myself, for my own comfort. So I don't feel worthy, I'm not worthy of him at all. ”

He chuckled, "Stupid or not, how can there be a match in the relationship, as long as people are willing." ”

I smiled bitterly, "Don't say that, I feel sorry for him when you say that, but I've already flying, I've flying." ”

Sighing, Shao Siwei looked at me seriously, "Actually, I think you're just not brave." If you go back to when we went to school, you would have kicked Chen Feiyang and walked with him, but you don't dare now. ”

"Why?" I asked.

Shao Siwei, "I don't know. Let's live, grind people more and more courageless, can't afford to gamble, can't afford to hurt, can't afford to live up, want to be perfect, want a bowl of water to be flat, think too much, want to balance too much, the more I think about it, the more I feel that nothing is boring, and then I don't want to do anything. ”

I smiled, "Shao Shao, you are not married, and you still know life." ”

Shao Siwei poured a sip of wine, "What are you, buddy has experienced this, it's not much more abusive than you, hey, anyway, if you don't die, I'll follow and flutter." ”

We were both so miserable that we were left to drink.

Drinking with your best friend is very refreshing, and while drinking, you don't feel so burdened. Can the burden be crushed to death immediately, and if you can't crush it, you can enjoy a moment first.

I told Shao Siwei that I still didn't want to give up that pas de deux competition, I used to be lazy in school, and I thought that the competition was someone else's business, so I was never keen to participate, but now I feel that I have found a passion in dance, and I am beginning to understand what dancing is.

And I also said bluntly, I have to pay back, "I can't owe him, if I let Feiyang know, Feiyang won't allow me to owe him, but Feiyang is still young, and his heart is straight, I don't want him to know about his crankiness." ”

Shao Siwei joked, "If you don't dislike it, I'll accompany you?"

"Hehe, are you in love?" I laughed at him.

"Damn, if you don't say it, who can see that I am GAY, Leslie Cheung can still play pure masters, why can't I. ”

"All the prize money is mine?"

Shao Siwei thought about it for a while, "Okay, who made you pitiful." ”

As soon as Shao Siwei said this, I was still energetic, and I had to stand up and compare with Shao Siwei. So we kicked the empty bottles and we were in the dance studio.

In pas de deux, there is always some lingering contact.

Dance is a play that requires selflessness, and it would be good if people only had to live in the play. In any way, the drama is purer than real life.

The scene of the two of us dancing was seen by Chen Feiyang. He came back from a day's drive and came to the school to find me, and he watched for a long time outside the glass window of the dance studio with his fists clenched.

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