What Li Baitian said, the contradictions that can only exist when we are together, are these things.

Yuan Ze and I were not together in the past, so getting along is very simple and there is no pressure, and we have no right or position to ask each other for anything. But there are really a lot of differences between two people and one person, when I am alone, as long as I have a clear conscience, as long as I take care of my own feelings, when I am two people, I have to take into account each other's feelings while making myself comfortable.

I'm used to being self-centered, and Yuan Ze is very used to me, and I really can't completely change it for a while. Even if Yuan Ze has simply spread out the problem now, I still feel that I haven't done anything wrong, at least I haven't made any big mistakes.

I said, "Yuan Ze, you really think too much. ”

Yuan Ze looked into my eyes, very focused, with a little patience, he said, "What I'm afraid of is that you think too simply. He looked away and fell into his own musings.

Yes, I think it's simple, what I think is that I am now Yuan Ze's girlfriend, so I am wholeheartedly to Yuan Ze, and with Li Baitian, I can't break off my kindness, and there is no need to break my grace, so I still be friends like in the past. We have been friends for 11 years, and all of them have been innocent except for one deviation, so this friend can continue to do it.

In fact, I don't think it matters whether I ever liked Li Baitian or not, maybe even if it is an individual man, I get closer, Yuan Ze will still be jealous, this is human nature.

I said, "Do you mean that if I'm with you, I can't be friends with Li Baitian?"

Yuan Ze looked at me, still very patient, and gave me an analogy, he said: "Ask Xue, if this is the case, if I am a boyfriend and Li Baitian, a friend, you can only choose one, how will you choose?"

What will I choose?

I don't want to choose, Li Baitian's friend is almost as important to me as my boyfriend. Of course, there is a self-comforting factor in this, I think that Li Baitian, a friend of me, is destined to not be able to do it for a lifetime, maybe it will be a matter of one or two years, and Yuan Ze and I may get married in the future, we will live together, we will live for a lifetime.

That's why he made such a vulgar analogy.

However, from a boyfriend's point of view, if his weight is not far greater than that of a male friend, it is not a taste. It's the same with women.

I think I should choose a boyfriend, but why, I can't open my mouth to answer.

So I went around the bend, and I said, "It's not a contradiction, and you still know each other." ”

Yuan Ze smiled a little bitterly, he didn't want to quarrel with me, nor did he have to convince me of anything, he was just expressing his opinion and letting me understand.

He said: "I have never wanted to ask anything of you, you and Li Baitian have known each other for so many years, even if you are with me now, it is impossible to have no feelings." I don't doubt your friendship either, but as a man, I don't mind, I can't help but mind, you understand?"

I understood, but, "What do you want me to do? Ignore him?"

Yuan Ze's face was not very good-looking, "I didn't ask you what to do." ”

I felt like it was a headache because I felt like it wasn't supposed to be a problem, and now it's a problem and I don't know how to fix it. Because I fell in love with Yuan Ze, I ignored Li Baitian, why do I think it's so strange, so uncandid, and there are no three hundred taels of silver here.

But I continued to date Li Baitian, and Yuan Ze couldn't help but mind, as a girlfriend, I still have the responsibility to consider his feelings, and I have the responsibility to maintain this relationship and reduce the possibility of conflicts.

I thought that I had a good grasp of the degree between me and Li Baitian, and he was going to go abroad, and I would help, shouldn't this be the right thing?

I'm in a pretty messy mood right now because I find that I can't figure out how there are so many things. How good it was when I was in school, the feeling of being depressed because I couldn't solve a question, now I think about it, what is it and what.

Seeing that I was in a bad mood, Yuan Ze said, "Okay, I don't want to embarrass you with this question." ”

Hey, people, it's inevitable that there is such a problem, that is, things have been done, and besides, I don't want to embarrass you or anything like that. I've been embarrassed by him.

I don't think it's a problem, but now he says it's a problem, and I think about it, and the more I think about it, the more it really is, and I can't calm down for a while.

We were silent, Yuan Ze gave me two minutes to sort it out, and said in a very light tone: "It's been more than six months." ”

"Hmm. "I'll say yes.

Yuan Ze said again: "You went abroad in August. ”

"Hmm. "I'll say it again.

He suddenly asked me quite seriously, "Ask Xue, in fact, we haven't been together for a short time, how do you feel?"

I feel, I feel like it's all fine except for today. Yuan Ze is such a careful and considerate person, I can't find fault, a good man with no dead ends at 360 degrees, I still pick like this, and I am not blind.

We get along, there is basically no contradiction, we are all reasonable people, and they are all willing to accommodate each other's people, there are no ups and downs in this relationship, but it is foreseeable that it can flow for a long time. This may be the state that those who are in the midst of quarrels and entanglements are most eager to get along.

It is also a state that is most suitable for marriage.

I nodded, and I didn't say anything.

Yuan Ze hesitated slightly, and he said: "I know you don't want to, and I didn't want to tell you before, my mother may be a matter of these two years, and I want to get married before she leaves." ”

I suddenly looked up at him, married, why does falling in love involve marriage, Li Baitian told me, and Yuan Ze also told me. It's not that I don't plan to marry Yuan Ze in the future, it's just that I still have to go abroad now, isn't it...... Well, I may not have had enough of my life alone.

Yuan Ze smiled and scratched my hair, "Don't be so nervous, I'm not trying to force you." I definitely support you about studying abroad, and my family also supports it, which is not a bad thing. I just want to say, if you think it's possible, don't worry, can we settle things first?"

"Ding?" I was stunned for a moment, looking at Yuan Ze's face, I suddenly felt a little strange, and I didn't know what feelings to look at him, I asked, "You mean, engaged?"

He was still looking me in the eye, probably observing my expression, and he said, "It's nothing, it's just that the two families sit down and have a meal together, talk first, and let my mother put this heart down." ”

Yuan Ze is definitely not the kind of person who deliberately cheats me and forces me to marry him when my mother is dying. He just wanted his mother to be comfortable in her last days and not have to worry too much about idleness.

I can understand, I just feel that I am still a little hasty and anxious.

Falling in love with Yuan Ze is reassuring, as if it is easy to see ahead, as long as there are no accidents, I think it is a matter of time before the two of us get married.

But he suddenly posed this question, which made me a little entangled, I couldn't just nod and agree, I think this is a big deal, not only to calm Yuan Ze's mother's heart, once this decision is made, it has to be taken in a serious direction, not a joke.

I lowered my head, Yuan Ze rubbed my hair again, and said, "I knew that you had such a reaction, think about it, if you can, I will arrange it while you go home next time." It's nothing if you haven't thought about it, huh?"

I nodded.

I'll think about it, think about it.

Before Yuan Ze left, he emphasized to me once, say whatever you have with him in the future, don't be too long-winded, he is not afraid of being verbose, but he doesn't like me to hide anything from him. Deception of this kind of thing, one or two may be nothing, but a small amount adds up, and there will always be a time to break out.

Yuan Ze doesn't want to break out, and I don't want to, so I'll change it.

After he left, I began to dwell on the matter of the meeting of the parents on both sides, remembering what my mother said about the little one next door, who took one after another to the family, each of them said that they wanted to get married, and each one did not work out, so that the family now sees the boyfriend she brought back, and they are not enthusiastic at all.

I have to be sure that Yuan Ze will be the only one I bring back, and this one is the end.

We young people fall in love, it's not appropriate, and we start all over again, I don't think it's okay, but before I am enough, to deceive the feelings of the elders, it is not appropriate.

Especially Yuan Ze's mother's health is not good.

I discussed with Wang Meili, but Wang Meili stood at my departure and couldn't come up with an idea, so she finally pushed the problem to me. Yuan Ze is not in a hurry, give me time to think slowly, there is still more than a month before I go home next time, that is, before I go abroad.

In the past month or so, Li Baitian and I will inevitably intersect.

The intersection this time was when I went out to the supermarket and forgot to pick up the keys. The gate building came in, but I couldn't get into my own small door, Wang Meili hadn't come back from work, so I could only squat at the door and wait for him.

Then Li came back and picked me up and took the poor man back to his own house.

That is, come in and sit down, nothing else. He doesn't have my spare key here, because Wang Meili can't allow it. I bought fruit from the supermarket and a big woven bag that I had a fight.

Li Baitian turned over my things, turned out the apples and washed them, if he was so conscious, I would count him down two sentences, and now I don't want to say anything.

Li Baitian asked me, "Do you have something on your mind?"

I still decided to talk to him, so I told Li Baitian what Yuan Ze asked me to consider. Li Baitian was stunned, "Ah, it's just such a trivial matter." ”

I thought he didn't have a good attitude, and I glanced at him, "How can this be a trivial matter?"

Li Baitian said, "Why don't I help you make up your mind?"

I looked up at him, "You say." ”

"Do you listen to the idea I gave you?" asked Li Baitian.

I nodded, and made a sincere gesture, "Listen, definitely this time." ”

"That's not booked. ”