In the first snow of 2002, when I was in my second year of high school, my down jacket was shedding, and the snow melted at noon, and the down jacket was wet, and the smell of duck feathers made me not want to gasp.

The school's facilities were reformed, and the classrooms were equipped with an air conditioner, with electricity at 15 degrees per week, and 50 people in a classroom were all heating by panting.

It's so cold, how can you be in the mood for class.

"Yan Xiaochang, get up and carry it. The history teacher looked at me with a smile and a distraction.

How am I again!

History class, to be honest, everyone didn't take it very seriously before, but then our head teacher resigned and quit, and the history teacher took office as the head teacher, and everyone raised their spirits. But I still can't mention it, maybe because our history teacher is too white and looks like a bully.

I stood up, didn't know what the teacher asked me to recite, didn't look at it, and said, "No." ”

The history teacher didn't embarrass me, "Sit down, listen well, and come to my office to memorize the self-study class." ”

I sat down in acknowledgment.

My classmates all felt that the history teacher looked at me differently, because he especially liked to catch me up and ask questions, but he asked me ten times, and eight times I couldn't answer, and I barely answered, and someone next to me prompted me.

I'm not a scumbag, but I'm not interested in history at all.

In the self-study class, I took the history book to the homeroom teacher's office, and the history teacher Wang Zhaoyang was talking nonsense with the female teacher in the office. He was the youngest in the office and had just come to our school last year, and I was one of his first wave of students.

The female teachers all like Wang Zhaoyang's little white face, and their classmates also like it, but I don't like it very much, and I don't like anyone except myself.

Wang Zhaoyang asked me to find a place to sit by myself, and I sat on the windowsill, looking at the ice and snow outside, and accidentally walked down again.

Wang Zhaoyang flicked the melon seeds on my head, "What about your boyfriend?"

"I'm not in early love. I replied crisply.

Wang Zhaoyang said, "It's right if you don't fall in love, how old are you." He took a bench and sat down next to me, and Head Teacher Wang expressed concern, "Come and tell me, what do you want to think about in a daze in the evening class this day?"

I'm not polite, but I say bluntly, "Would you be angry if I said that you were boring in class?"

Wang Zhaoyang became interested and asked with a smile, "Why is my class boring?"

It's not boring, it's just, "Teacher, I don't like to study history." ”

"Why?"

"I don't think it's useful. ”

Wang Zhaoyang has a very good temper, not like other class teachers who lecture at every turn, he said: "But you have to take this exam." ”

I have nothing more to say.

Wang Zhaoyang patted me on the shoulder, "Let's memorize by rote, and you will know history in the future." ”

This year, I was seventeen, Wang Zhaoyang was twenty-five, and I was unmarried.

When I returned to the dormitory that night, before I started to wash, the dormitory phone rang, and my roommate asked me to pick it up. I knew that there was nothing good, and as soon as I picked it up, Wu Yuqing scolded me, "You little bastard, a wild seed raised by a bitch, why don't you die with them!"

Wu Yuqing is my dad's lover, and I know she has drunk too much again.

At that time, I was still young and vigorous, and I knew that she drank too much and didn't remember anything the next day, but I was still willing to choke with her, and I said, "Didn't you just scold yourself from bitch?"

Wu Yuqing, "Wild seed, I can't go back, come and pick me up when you die!"

I hung up the phone, and I couldn't say that I was in a bad mood, because I was used to this kind of thing.

I have to pick up Wu Yuqing, I have my reasons.

Coming out of the dormitory, the dormitory students can't go out of the school casually, or take the old road, and the bicycle shed can climb over the wall. But I was unlucky today, and when I was climbing over the wall, I was caught by a patrol and sent me to the communication room.

The head teacher, Wang Zhaoyang, came to pick me up.

The master of the communication room was drinking tea with his white porcelain cup, and Wang Zhaoyang asked me why I left school without permission.

I made up the reason, "I'm menstruating, go out and buy sanitary napkins." ”

Wang Zhaoyang's face changed, and he said, "Can't you borrow it from a classmate first?"

"Borrowed, no, and I used allergies to them. "I have a calm face and never blink when I lie.

Of course Wang Zhaoyang didn't believe it, so I asked me not to lie to him.

Gritting my teeth, I said, "I understand or you understand, don't you believe that I can still take off my pants to show you!"

The uncle of the communication room raised his eyelids and glanced at me, Wang Zhaoyang's face was helpless, helpless, and he hid two points of anger and pulled me out of the communication room.

The students have all gone back to the dormitory, and now there is no one on the way to school, Wang Zhaoyang stood in front of me, very angry, he asked me, "Yan Xiaochang, did you talk to the teacher like this?"

"Do you talk to students like this, you have to take care of menstruation!" I really bullied him for his good temper and bullied him to the fullest.

Wang Zhaoyang still endured it, but he was already so angry that his face was cramping, "What sanitary napkin do you want, I'll go out and buy it for you." ”

"No, I'll buy it myself. Tell me to go out, or the supermarkets will be closed." ”

"Yan Xiaochang!"

In the eyes of the teachers, I was a problem girl, lying and skipping class at night and not returning home, and I had a lot of bad records, except for the grades, but I never passed history.

Wang Zhaoyang yelled at me for the first time, so loud that I couldn't speak, yelled so much that I wanted to cry a little, and bit my lip, "Don't buy it, I'll go back to the dormitory." ”

Turning my head and walking towards the girls' dormitory, Wang Zhaoyang pulled my arm, stopped me and hurriedly let go, he said, "If you tell me what reason you have, I will let you out." ”

I hesitated for at least two minutes, and finally said in a deep voice, "My stepmother drank too much, I'll go pick her up." ”

"Where's your stepmother?"

"Song practice room. I replied impatiently.

Wang Zhaoyang frowned, "Is that the place where students should go, what about your father?"

"Dead!" I glared at him, tears streaming down my face, and my eyes seemed to hate him. In fact, I don't hate anyone, I just feel wronged, but I don't want others to see my grievances, so I can only cover them up with this hateful gaze.

Wang Zhaoyang was stunned, looked at my tears, and probably estimated that what I said was true, and apologized, "I'm sorry, don't cry." ”

I brushed my face away and wiped away my tears, "Don't you let me out." ”

"It's too late, I'll go with you. ”

I looked at him and thought he was a little too busy. I have self-esteem, okay, I never tell my classmates about our family, and I don't want anyone to see it, my Yan Xiaochang relies on others to do that kind of thing to stand here.

Wang Zhaoyang had a motorcycle, which was considered a great means of transportation in those days. He drove me out of school on his motorcycle, and I sat in the back, my down jacket breathing in the air, and my knees still felt cold.

Wang Zhaoyang asked me if I was cold, and I didn't squeak. There was a little distance between us, and the motorcycle had to be crossed to sit, and I was so afraid that I would stick to him, and my fingers were gripping the iron frame under me, feeling a little embarrassed.

My stepmother has fallen asleep on the broken leather sofa in the singing room, just sleep, her hands are not honest, and she is digging out the cotton in the hole in the leather sofa, pulling out the flowers one by one and throwing them on the ground.

I walked over and pulled her, Wang Zhaoyang was watching from the side, and it was inconvenient to take a hand.

After pulling my stepmother up, the place was not far away, I said to go back, Wang Zhaoyang had to carry it back, so he put my stepmother on the motorcycle again, and my stepmother sat in the middle, and I squeezed in the back, afraid that she would fall.

Then it came to my house.

The old house where my family lived was in the 80s when my dad was still a worker, and it was divided into tattered and tattered wooden doors, which was very unsafe.

Wu Yuqing didn't cooperate to go up the stairs, so I yelled at her, "Will you lift your legs, are you a dead man!"

Wu Yuqing scolded me, "I'm dead, I'm dead to go down for revenge, don't think about it if I die!"

I have heard this kind of thing since I was fifteen years old, and now I am not surprised, I drag her upstairs with a black face, I live on the fourth floor, and every time I drag her up, I am half exhausted.

Wang Zhaoyang has been following behind, probably because he was afraid that the two of us would fall down the stairs, but he was still embarrassed to help, and used the small flashlight on the key to illuminate it.

When I entered the door, I had a fight with Wu Yuqing, and she said that I squeezed her hand when I closed the door.

She tugged at my hair, "You white-eyed wolf, I'll raise you for a few years, and you're going to kill me, you kneel down for me, kneel!"

Wu Yuqing pressed my head and asked me to kneel for her, but I didn't kneel, and kicked her in the stomach directly, Wang Zhaoyang couldn't stand it anymore, and reached out to pull us, didn't say anything, just pulled, probably still observing the situation.

Wu Yuqing only found out about Wang Zhaoyang's existence until now, she was really dizzy, and when she saw someone helping, she scolded again, and pulled my hair even harder, "Okay, you, you learned to hook up with men in your teens, I'll strangle you, a wild seed, and strangle you!"

She scolded me for nothing else, this is my teacher's ability, is it human language?

I didn't care if my head hurt or not, I kicked her away, Wu Yuqing fell to the ground, felt that she couldn't beat the two of us, and sat on the ground crying aggrievedly.

said that his life was miserable, and he was such a white-eyed wolf or something.

I rubbed my hair, I didn't want to take care of her at all, and planned to leave directly, but Wang Zhaoyang didn't leave, squatted over to comfort Wu Yuqing, helped her stand up, and said kindly, "I am Yan Xiaochang's homeroom teacher, I'm afraid that she won't be safe to accompany her alone, eldest sister, you go to rest first, I have to take Yan Xiaochang back to school, she has to go to class tomorrow." ”

Wu Yuqing did stand up, and looked at Wang Zhaoyang's spring and rainy eyes, seeing that this person was not young, he probably believed it. Holding back his tears, he glared at me viciously and staggered back to his room.

There are only two rooms in my house, one room at the door, one room inside, both as a bedroom and a living room, and Wu Yuqing sleeps there. There is a bed in this room when I enter the door, and I sleep in this one when I come back.

Wu Yuqing slammed the door shut, leaving only me and Wang Zhaoyang, Wang Zhaoyang looked at the environment, there was no place to sit, only to sit on my bed.

My bed was still very tidy, although it was covered with old sheets, but it was also clean.

Wang Zhaoyang asked me, "Your father is gone?"

I didn't reply, my face darkened.

He then asked, "You live here with your stepmother?"

I couldn't help but say the words in my heart, I said: "She is not my stepmother, she and my father are not married at all." ”

Wang Zhaoyang may have been stunned by this complicated relationship, slightly crossed Erlang's legs, put his palms on his knees, and sat quite upright. A group of teachers, he said, "Yan Xiaochang, can you tell the teacher what difficulties there are at home, and the teacher can help you." ”

"What can you help me?" I looked at him impatiently, remembering that he was my teacher, and my attitude was softer, "My parents are dead, this woman was deceived by my father, I gave her a house to live in, and she paid me rent." ”

My parents are two scumbags, when they were alive, they knew that they gambled and played mahjong, and they didn't work to make money, my dad looked a little good-looking, so he deceived Wu Yuqing, who came from other places to sell, and took him to raise at home, telling Wu Yuqing that my mother and I were her relatives, and Wu Yuqing sold meat to support our family for several years.

When I was fifteen years old, Wu Yuqing was thirty, and my parents died unexpectedly.

Until now, Wu Yuqing doesn't necessarily know what my relationship with my dad is, I didn't drive her away, because I needed someone to support me, Wu Yuqing didn't leave, she said she wanted revenge.

Wang Zhaoyang asked me, "How often does she beat you?"

I replied coldly, "I hit her too." ”

Wang Zhaoyang sighed slightly, opened his overlapping legs, glanced back at my bed, and asked, "Your sheets are very clean, did you wash them yourself?"

I bit my lip, I really didn't wash the sheets myself, I hadn't washed the sheets in two years, but it was always clean.

Wang Zhaoyang said, "She still takes good care of you." Stand up, "Let's go, go back to school, we have classes tomorrow." ”

I didn't say anything, I followed behind Wang Zhaoyang with a black face, the corridor was very dark, he was still using a small flashlight to illuminate the road, and I stared at his back and walked down step by step. Wang Zhaoyang has a flat head, his head is not big, but his shoulders are very broad, and he is wearing a stand-up collar jacket, he is a young man, although he is a teacher, but he is also easy to dress.

There are a lot of girls in the class who are quite nymphomaniac, but no one is embarrassed to say it.

I just looked at him like this, and I had an indescribable feeling in my heart, I never told anyone about my family, he was the first, and this first one meant a little bit to me.

When I got downstairs, I still had to get on Wang Zhaoyang's motorcycle, and he asked me: "Are you cold, if it's cold, go up and get a piece of clothing." ”

I shook my head. I'm cold, but this down jacket on me is already the thickest clothes, I don't have any clothes, and I basically rely on it all winter.

This down jacket is not good, after washing, it is one by one, and many places are so empty that only two layers of cloth remain. So I don't wash it if it's not necessary.

Just as I was about to get into the car, Wang Zhaoyang gave me the knee pads in the basket and asked me to wear it.

I'm not very good at this, I didn't pull it open for a long time, Wang Zhaoyang sighed, took a knee pad and opened it, and lowered his head to wrap it around my knees. This is a man's knee pad, the size is relatively large, my legs are thin, and I have to wrap around it two more times.

Wang Zhaoyang tied me very tightly, the tighter it was, the warmer it became, and when he was around the second one, he lowered his head and said, "You didn't wear cotton pants." ”

My tears fell again, I didn't know what I was thinking, I just wanted to cry.

It was dark downstairs, I didn't speak, I turned my face to the side to prevent him from seeing it, after Wang Zhaoyang surrounded him, he didn't say anything, got on the motorcycle, I sat on it cross-legged, still embarrassed to have any physical contact with him, and sat in the back carefully.

On the pitch-black road, the motorcycle headlights spread out a long fan on the ground, step by step, illuminating the bumpy and unknown road.

I looked at his head, his ears, his neck, his collar.

Wang Zhaoyang, Wang Zhaoyang.