I felt so painful, as if I was being pulled, half to the left, half to the right, so painful that I couldn't breathe, so painful that tears fell straight down on the white sheets, and the water stains slowly swam away.

I couldn't answer, so I buried myself in the thick quilt, let my tears wet the quilt, and kept whispering "Mom, Mom......".

She stroked my head and rubbed it gently, but her tone was so resolute that it frightened me: "You promise me, promise Mom!"

I cried for a long time, but she didn't waver, and finally, I agreed, and when I said that, I felt as if my heart was empty, as if I had stripped the most important part of my flesh and blood organs from my body.

She fell asleep again, and my father came over, put his hand on my shoulder, and sighed softly.

On the bench in the porch, my father told me about the past.

Back then, after my mother received a call from Xu Zhengfeng, she almost collapsed, she went to jump into the river in a trance, but fortunately she was rescued, and her grandparents only knew about it. They were afraid that she would not be able to think about it, so they guarded her day and night, but she locked herself in a world of one person, and only looked out the window in a daze every day. It was then that she learned that she was several weeks pregnant.

My grandparents wanted her to get rid of the child, but she refused and was determined to keep the child.

It was also at that time that her father came into her life. They were high school classmates, and after graduation, she went to college, but he didn't get into college and entered social work.

He has silently liked her for so many years, never wishing to be with her, only hoping that she can live happily and happily.

When he learned that she was sick and hospitalized, he went to the hospital every day to see her. After being discharged from the hospital, he still went to her home every day to look for her.

Gradually, her mood improved a little, and she was willing to go out for a walk. When he found out about her pregnancy, he didn't hesitate to propose to her.

At first she didn't agree, but maybe she was moved by his sincerity, or maybe she liked him too, and finally she nodded, and he was as happy as a child.

When she gave birth, she had a difficult birth, and the doctor informed the mother's family that if there was any accident, the hospital would give priority to saving the mother and let the family sign. But she refused, and she begged him bitterly to keep the child no matter what.

He had no choice but to promise her. Fortunately, she gave birth smoothly later, but she was bleeding profusely and her body was very weak.

The father recalled that she was too weak to open her eyes, but when the nurse showed her the child, she insisted on holding the child and kissed the child's forehead gently.

At the end, my father looked at me, sighed, and said, "Xiaoqing, don't blame your mother, she has been too bitter in her life. ”

I don't blame her, I don't blame Xu Zhengfeng, if I want to blame, I can only blame this impermanent fate.

I lowered my head and said softly, "Dad, don't worry. ”

I sat on the bench for a long time, and when the phone rang, the sun was about to set, and the remnants of the sun were like blood, and I was shocking.

"Xia Qing, where are you?" Gu Feng's tone was very happy.

"Me, I'm on a business trip. "I'm telling you a lie.

"And when are you coming back?" he seemed a little disappointed.

"I'll be back tomorrow. I said.

"Okay, then I'll wait for you to come back. He said softly, with a smile in his voice.

Hanging up the phone, I ran to the bathroom, cried until I couldn't stand up at the buoshing faucet, and slowly squatted on the ground, burying my head in my arms.

Early the next morning, when it was still gray, I left the hospital.

On this day, I went to the company and started to organize the work at hand.

By the time I got off work, I had finished the work at hand, but I was still struggling to tidy up and tidy up.

"Hey, you're about to peel off a layer of skin on this folder. Huang Li suddenly leaned his head over and said with a grin, "Miss Ben is going on a date, do you want to be a light bulb?"

I pulled out a smile and pretended to be relaxed and said, "Then what nonsense are you talking about, hurry up and make an appointment with you." I ......"

Before he finished speaking, the phone rang, and Gu Feng said that he was waiting for me downstairs.

"Yo, no wonder I'm rubbing here, I'm waiting for my boyfriend!" Huang Li said with a smile on his face.

I started to panic, but I smiled at her, clasped my hands, and packed up for work.

From afar, I saw him leaning against the car door, one hand in his trouser pocket, the other playing with something. Handsome and handsome, it attracts a lot of young girls who come down from the office building.

I walked over slowly, just in time to see a girl walking towards him, blushing slightly and saying something to him, and he replied with a faint expression.

When I arrived, I heard him say, "My girlfriend is here." With that, he stretched out his hand to me.

The girl turned her head and saw me, deflated, pursed her lips, and walked away dejectedly.

He took my hand and leaned over to me, deliberately keeping a straight face, but his voice couldn't help but smile: "Hey, your boyfriend was almost snatched away, why aren't you in a hurry?"

I barely pulled out a smile and didn't speak.

He raised his hand, ran his fingers over my eyes, and frowned slightly: "I haven't rested lately, my eyes are swollen." ”

His fingers were slightly cold, and there was a faint smell of tobacco between his fingers, and I took a deep breath greedily and shook my head: "I'm fine." ”

"Let's go, let's go eat. "He seemed to be in a good mood today.

"Is there anything fun about it?" I asked.

"Won a project. He was understated.

I didn't know how he solved it at the time, but later I learned that in order to persuade Gu Changxiang to agree to the engagement, he promised him that he would definitely win the project.

Later, he really won the project on his own, and Gu Changxiang also acquiesced, and no longer mentioned the marriage with the Tang family.

I didn't know this until a long, long time later, when I thought I would never see him again in my life.

After eating, he drove to the house by the sea. Once, on this seaside, under the fire trees and silver flowers, he said to me affectionately: "I love you".

This night, as lingering as the night, I burst into tears, and the sadness in my heart reached its peak at this moment, almost unbearable.

He put his arm around me in fear and asked, "I'm sorry, did I hurt you?"

I could only shake my head, not daring to speak, for fear that I would cry out loud as soon as I opened my mouth.

"Don't cry, I don't want to see you cry. He tenderly kissed away the tears from my face.

I buried my face in his arms, the faint smell of tobacco lingering in my nose, and I greedily inhaled his intoxicating scent.

He lifted my chin and leaned in to kiss me deeply, so gentle that it was intoxicating.

Xu was too tired during this time, and he quickly fell asleep. I pillowed his arm and looked at him greedily. The long eyelashes cover down, leaving a small shadow under his eyelids. The straight bridge of the nose, the thin lips, and the newly grown stubble on the hard chin were gently rubbed by me, and some of them were slightly piercing. I was reluctant to go to sleep, because once I did, I would never see him again.

After a sleepless night, when the sky was gray and hazy, I couldn't resist the tiredness and fell asleep in a blur.

When I returned to the company the next day, I handed over the resignation letter, Ling Yusen was very surprised, I only said that I was leaving T City for personal matters, and he asked me if I would come back in the future, I was stunned for a while, and then smiled bitterly and said, "I don't know, maybe I won't come back." ”

He didn't ask any more questions, just stood up and shook my hand cautiously, and said that if I wanted to come back, Yushen would welcome me at any time. Whether he said it sincerely or in the scene, I was moved at that moment.

Before leaving his office, I asked him, the Changhe Group project that I handled and followed, if someone over there asked why there was a change, please don't say that I left, just say that someone else is responsible.

He looked surprised, but didn't ask anything more.

Knowing that I was going to resign, the biggest reaction was Huang Li. She and Shen Hong are already together, and she has heard more or less about me and Gu Feng. She thought that I was leaving my job to get married and become the wife of a wealthy family, and she insisted that I be invited to dinner.

I haven't been with Huang Li for a long time, but I really like her, her rectum and a bit of a secondary character sometimes make people cry and laugh, but this innocence seems pure in this materialistic society.

When He Xiaowan said that I was going to leave T City, she cried so much that I was embarrassed to cry, so I had to comfort her all the time. After crying, she asked me why, and I was silent for a long time, and finally I didn't answer. There is no answer, but it is already an answer, but this answer cannot be spoken.

Once upon a time, I looked at "Poems of Mountains and Trees": "There are boats to cross the sea, and there are roads to the mountains." This love turns over the mountains and seas, and the mountains and seas can be flat. "At that time, I only felt that the artistic conception was very beautiful, and love could probably cross mountains and seas and do anything.

But now, I feel that the mountains are so high, the sea is so far away, I can't climb to the top of the mountain with all my strength, I can't swim to the other side, I am exhausted......

After packing up for a few days, there is not much to clean up, but I don't want to leave so soon. However, the day of departure will come eventually. Finally, when there was nothing to pack, I booked a ticket to City C.

City C is not far from City S, and she chose City C because it is her grandmother's hometown, and she said that it was there that she met her grandfather. Qingshan Temple, with smoke curling and distant bells ringing in her ears, she met him in the vast sea of people, opening a beautiful story. In that difficult era, marriage even followed the words of his parents, but his grandmother and grandfather loved freely and romantically.

Under that big locust tree, on those sunny days, when my grandmother touched my head and half-squinted and told me about the past, her eyes flashed softly, as if she had returned to that eighteen-year-old age.

At that time, I was thinking that the best love is probably like this, that is, when we are so old that it is difficult to walk with gray hair, and when I recall that time, I still have light in my eyes and love in my heart.

On the day I left, it was drizzling in the sky, and the sky was clear the day before, but the next day it was cloudy, and it was gloomy and gloomy. Air traffic control, the flight was delayed by two hours. For two hours, I was on pins and needles, and every minute and second was tormented.

Finally, the mechanical female voice on the radio read my flight, and the people who had been waiting in the waiting hall for a long time began to surge, and some people waited for a long time for fear that they would not be able to get on the plane, so they scrambled to squeeze forward. I don't know who stepped on me, and the stinging pain came from my foot, and I suddenly felt very painful, and the tears fell directly from the pain.