Xia Qing?" His voice was soft, with an uncertain tone, "Is that you?"

I tried to speak, but I couldn't speak, so I just nodded blankly.

It's Gu Feng, it's really Gu Feng, I will even meet him again, in my lifetime.

A few years ago, I imagined reuniting with him, at a coffee shop on a street corner, at a bar, or even at a hot pot restaurant.

But later, I gradually became discouraged, understood the impermanence of fate, and even began to believe in fatalism.

But I saw him again.

He has lost a lot of weight, his eyebrows are still sharp, and there is a shallow fine line at the corner of his eyes, because he is thin, his eyes are even more dull. Once upon a time, his eyes were like the deep sea, and there seemed to be fine stars on the surface of the sea, but now they are still like the sea, but they are deep and bottomless, and they cannot see the bright starlight.

He was silent for a while before he said, "Where have you been all these years? ”

His nose was sour, lest the tears would come out in the next second. I barely managed to squeeze out a smile and shrugged my shoulders relaxedly, "I've always been here." ”

"I ......"

"Mom!"

He was about to speak, but Xiao Xifeng rushed over and hugged me, interrupting him.

"Mom, I just saw a lot of birds, they are all eating and ignoring me, I gave them milk candy and they came over. The little girl pouted and complained, spread out her palm, counted the milk candy in her palm, and then said, "Look, there are only three milk candy left." ”

I squatted down and touched her head, sweating all over her head, trying to find a tissue to wipe her sweat but couldn't find it. Just when Yu Chen came over, he found a small towel in his backpack and handed it to me, I habitually took it and helped her wipe her sweat carefully before standing up.

Gu Feng looked at Xiao Xi, then saw Yu Chen, and slowly spoke, his voice hoarse: "This is ...... Your child? you...... Married?"

I was silent. He's telling the truth, isn't it, it's my child, and I do...... Married.

I hung my head slightly, and my hand unconsciously touched Xiaoxi's head.

I saw him clench his hand, and his muscles were fully visible, and he slowly let go of his hand.

I didn't dare look up at his face, but I didn't know what to say. I said it four years ago......

Xiao Xi suddenly walked to Gu Feng's side, took his hand, and said softly: "Uncle, are you in pain, can I give you milk candy?"

After speaking, he spread out his hand and handed the candy over, and continued: "But...... I can only give you one, and the remaining two are for my mother, one for my mother...... It's Xiaoxi's. After saying that, he smiled a little embarrassedly.

When Xiao Xi took Gu Feng's hand, his body obviously stiffened.

I felt very confused in my heart, and when I just wanted to call Xiaoxi over, Gu Feng suddenly squatted down, seemed to hesitate, raised his hand and touched her head, and smiled a little far-fetched: "Thank you, uncle doesn't eat sugar." ”

Xiao Xi blinked her eyes and said, "Xiao Xi's hand hurt very much when she got the injection, so my mother gave me a milk candy, and it didn't hurt when I ate it." Uncle, where do you hurt, you eat sugar, and it doesn't hurt if you eat it. ”

I don't know where she saw that Gu Feng was sad, children don't know what sadness is, they only know what pain is, and having something they like can reduce pain.

Seeing that Xiao Xi insisted on giving him the candy, he was silent and accepted it.

Xiaoxi jumped up and ran to me, shaking my hand and smiling proudly: "Mom, the teacher said that those who love to share are good children, is Xiaoxi a good child?"

I felt sore and painful in my heart, touched her hair, and whispered, "Well, our Xiaoxi is the most well-behaved and well-behaved child." ”

The little girl smiled with crooked eyes.

"Xia Qing, are you going back? The restaurant time I booked for the evening is almost up. Yu Chen suddenly spoke, his expression faint.

Xiaoxi's eyes lit up, and she was about to leave by my hand, shouting as she pulled: "Mom, hurry up, hurry up, I want to eat pizza!"

I was pulled forward by her, and looked back at Gu Feng, who was standing in the curling green smoke, and the afterglow of the setting sun made his eyebrows lonely.

I didn't dare to look at it more, so I hurriedly said that we would leave first, and then I ran away and led Xiaoxi to the exit.

Yu Chen booked a Western restaurant, the restaurant environment is quiet, the warm yellow candlelight is soft and warm, the steak is fried just right, the outside is charred and the inside is tender, somehow I feel that I have no appetite, Yu Chen doesn't seem to eat much, only the little girl nibbles on pizza and nibbles with a mouth full of oil.

"Xia Qing, is it him?" Yu Chen put down his knife and fork, and his tone was light.

He didn't say who it was, but I knew who he was asking.

I nodded, absentmindedly paddling the steak on my plate.

He didn't say anything more after he finished asking.

After eating, Yu Chen drove us home, neither of them spoke, and they were silent all the way.

Downstairs, as I was about to open the car door, he suddenly said, "Will you go back to him?" and there was something subdued in his voice.

I was stunned for a while, shook my head gently, paused, and said in a low voice: "Be careful on your way." Then he picked up Xiao Xi and went into the building.

The little girl was tired, and she slept as soon as she touched the pillow after taking a shower. I sat at the head of the bed and helped her unfold the quilt. Looking at the familiar eyebrows and nose on her face, I felt a faint pain somewhere in my body.

The lamp emitted a warm yellow light, and through the soft light, I remembered him standing stiffly in front of the sacred hall in the curling green smoke, thin as a freshly hardened sword, sharp and lonely.

He wasn't so thin before, he had broad shoulders and a narrow waist, and he didn't look thin in a black shirt, but his thin muscles made it fit and handsome like a sculpture.

Why is he here, is he here to find me?

No, looking at the way he looks today, he doesn't know I'm here.

I couldn't help but laugh, how did I fantasize again.

I turned off the lamp and lay down on the bed, I thought I would lose sleep tonight, but I didn't expect to fall asleep quickly. Messed up a lot of dreams and dreamed of him.

He lay on the white bed, his thin cheeks sunken deeply, his face pale, his eyes closed, but his brow furrowed.

He seemed to be asleep, his mouth opening and closing slightly, as if he were talking in a dream. I tried to walk over and listen to what he was saying, but my feet couldn't move. I tried my best, but I couldn't move my feet. I was so anxious that I shouted his name, and then I woke up, broke out in a cold sweat, and the room was pitch black, and I could hear my heart pounding rapidly.

I fumbled out of bed, found my phone and looked at the time, five o'clock in the morning. It's still early, but it's already sleepless.

I tiptoed open the door to my room and went out onto the balcony.

In summer, the days are long and the nights are short, although it is only five o'clock, the sky is already gray and will not be bright. The morning breeze was cool and thin, and it was a little chilly on the body.

After standing on the balcony for a while, I felt cold all over my body, and I went into the house and put on my coat.

When I was rummaging through my clothes, I saw a royal blue velvet box, and I looked at it for a while before I hesitated to take it out and open it—it was the engagement ring he gave me.

At that time, he gently took my hand, gently put the ring on my ring finger, imprinted a kiss on it, and said, "You will have to marry me sooner or later, anyway, and wear it on this finger in advance." ”

Later, when I got on a flight to City C, I took the ring off and put it back in the box. For so many years, it has never been opened again.

The royal blue gem still shone with a dazzling light, but the world has long been different.

After that day, I didn't go to Castle Peak Temple again, and I didn't see him again.

After Xiaoman, the summer solstice is not far away. Xiaowan's wedding was scheduled for the summer solstice, and there was still a month to go.

A week before the summer solstice, Xiaowan came to City C, carrying two invitations and two boxes of candy, one for me and one for Yu Chen. She had met Yu Chen several times and became friends.

Xiaoxi likes Xiaowan very much, and the two crazy girls are crazy when they meet each other. Seeing the two of them laughing breathlessly, I couldn't help but feel a little emotional, Xiaowan didn't seem to have changed much over the years, Ling Yusen took good care of her, and she was still that sunny character. Look at yourself again, your heart has been vicissitudes.

She spent the night with me, and the two of us slept on a quilt and chatted in a low voice.

She asked me a little hesitantly, will I go over when she gets married?

I said yes, and she was a little surprised. I know why she was surprised, she thought I wouldn't want to set foot in T City again.

She looked at me for a moment and said softly, "Ling Yusen also sent an invitation to Gu Feng, I don't know if he will go then." ”

I hadn't heard this name for a long time, and I was stunned, even though the name had always haunted me.

"I met him at Castle Peak Temple last month. I looked at a little light in the void and lowered my voice.

"Huh?" Xiao Wan turned her head and looked at me with wide eyes, expecting a tone, "What's the situation?"

I couldn't help laughing, and after laughing, I felt a little sour in my heart, and smiled bitterly: "He thought I was married to Yu Chen, and he thought Xiaoxi was ...... It's Yu Chen's child. ”

Xiaowan seemed a little disappointed: "Didn't you tell him about Xiaoxi?"

I shook my head.

She was silent for a moment, then sighed.

The two of them chatted a little more, until they were so sleepy that they couldn't open their eyes, and then they stopped the topic and said goodnight and went to sleep.

The next afternoon, Xiaowan went back, and before going back, she made an appointment with Xiaoxi to get married and the little girl would be a flower girl for her. Since that day, the little girl has been talking about this matter, and she can't wait for Aunt Xiaowan's wedding day as soon as she opens her eyes. I was thinking about how I hadn't been able to do it all day, and I sighed and said, "How can people live this day." "I couldn't laugh or cry, I didn't know where she learned her tone.

Time passed very slowly for Xiaoxi, but it was so fast for me that I was caught off guard, thinking about whether I would see Gu Feng at Xiaowan's wedding, and if so, whether I should pretend not to know or greet politely like an ordinary friend, and became the most familiar stranger. Either way it's torture for me.

After thinking about it for a few days, time was still passing little by little according to the established trajectory, and the summer solstice finally came.

The afternoon before, I arrived at the airport in T City with Xiaoxi. The little girl took a plane for the first time, and she excitedly pointed to the clouds outside the plane window and said that it was a marshmallow.

The hotel was booked in advance, and I took a taxi directly to the hotel after getting off the plane.

Sitting in a taxi, looking out the window at the building, I felt that T City seemed to have changed little after a few years.

The big cities are still as dense as ever, and the pedestrians on the road are still in a hurry.

Maybe she has changed, the new building replaces the old building, and more young faces pour into this bustling city, what has changed is only the surface, what has not changed is her original face.

When she arrived at the hotel, Xiaoxi quickly took out her little dress, stood in front of the mirror and put her clothes on her body to compare, which was so stinky and beautiful.

At night, I went to bed early, saying that I had to sleep for beauty sleep tomorrow to be the most beautiful flower girl. Oh, really, where did you learn it?

The wedding started at 6 p.m. and was scheduled to be at the Four Seasons Evergreen Hotel, a five-star hotel in T City.

When I went to her room, the makeup artist was already helping her with her makeup. Seeing us coming, she stiffened her neck and said with a smile: "Hey, I can't move my neck, you two will play first, and I'll talk to you after I put on makeup...... Oh, beauty, how long will it take to finish, my neck is almost set. ”

The makeup artist smiled and said: "You can't sit still after only ten minutes, you only get married once in a lifetime, you should be more patient as a bride, I promise to make you beautiful." ”

Xiaowan muttered: "Who said that marriage is only once in a lifetime, this may be ......"

The makeup artist was stunned and couldn't help laughing, such a real bride is estimated to be rare.

"Don't talk nonsense, today is your big day, please say something auspicious. I laughed, shaking my head helplessly.

Xiao Xi was very curious to touch her east and west, and I watched her attentively, so as not to bump into her.

An hour later, Xiaowan's makeup was finally put on. Xiao Xi walked up to her, stared at her with her head tilted and her eyes open for a long time before she said in a milky voice: "Aunt Xiaowan, you are so beautiful! Uncle Ling was able to marry you, it was really cultivated in his previous life...... What's coming ...... Oh yes, bless!"

Xiaowan looked at her and then turned her head to look at me, and said dumbfounded: "Where did this little girl learn these words? Alas, it's so cute, laughing at me, hahaha......"

"That's what is said in the TV series, Aunt Zhou said that this is called romance. The little girl blinked and said very seriously.

Sister Zhou is the nanny I hired, and Xiaoxi calls her Aunt Zhou. I know where she learned all those nonsense words, it turned out that she learned them all from watching TV series with Sister Zhou.

Looking at the little girl's serious explanation, everyone laughed. She ran to my side upside down, her little face was red because she was running around, and the little girl said innocently: "Mom, are all brides so beautiful? When will you be a bride, Xiaoxi really wants to see her mother as a bride." ”

The smile on the corner of my lips paused because of Xiao Xi's words, and soon smiled again, touched her head, and did not answer her directly: "Xiao Xi will grow up quickly, and Xiao Xi can be a beautiful bride like Aunt Xiaowan in the future." ”

The little girl's mind was immediately diverted, and she began to think that she wanted to grow up and become a beautiful bride quickly, which caused everyone to laugh again.

Xiaowan finished putting on makeup and put on a white wedding dress, which was so beautiful that I almost couldn't recognize it. She stood by the window, the sunlight shining through the tulle, the pale golden light shrouded her in vain, as beautiful as if she had come out of a painting.

Xiao Xi also put on a flower girl's small dress and carried a flower basket in her hand.

It was almost six o'clock, and we went back to the hotel venue.

Xiaowan's father was waiting for her backstage, and I met her father once, the year he sent her to school.

In the background, you can hear the voice of the emcee in the hall through the microphone, and you can also hear some happy laughter, which is probably the emcee talking about the love of the bride and groom in the hot scene.

Xiaowan suddenly grabbed my hand, and her voice trembled a little: "Qingqing, I'm a little nervous......"

I couldn't help but laugh. In the room just now, I asked her if she was nervous, who said with a proud face, don't you just get married, what's there to be nervous about.

People always say that marriage is a major event in life, and different people's weddings, every process and even every sentence are almost similar, and onlookers always feel that it is not like that, the same, but when you are really in it, you can really experience the feelings.

I shook her hand and smiled to give her strength. Don't be nervous, you'll be happy. I said silently in my heart.

Xiao Wan took her father's wrist and stood behind the gate, waiting for the door to open and walk towards her happiness.

The hall suddenly fell silent, and the emcee's voice came clearly through the microphone: "The bride is invited!"

The door slowly opened, the piano song "Dream Wedding" slowly sounded, and a beam of light sparkled to the door.

Xiaowan took her father by her arms and slowly walked out of the door. Her shoulders are half exposed, and her high-curled black bun complements the snow-white wedding dress, outlining her perfect curves. The white veil stacked at the hem of the long skirt fluttered gently with her steps, and the soft light hit her like a dream.

It's really beautiful, and at that moment, an indescribable envy suddenly rose in my heart.

Ling Yusen smiled and stood on the stage to greet his bride, Xiaowan's face was full of shyness and sweet smile, is this still the big grinning female man I know?

I once read a passage: A romantic wedding is actually the warmest and most tender dream in a woman's heart, quietly dormant in the deepest part of a woman's heart, waiting for a gust of wind to rise at any time, until the heart is swaying, and the wedding dress is fluttering.

The female man is like Xiaowan, in fact, in front of the dream-like wedding, in front of the beloved man, she is just a little woman who is loved.

Xiao Xi was wearing a pink princess dress, and another flower boy was wearing a small suit, and the two followed Xiao Wan upside down, sprinkling red rose petals as they walked.

Ling Yusen took her from Xiaowan's father and bowed deeply to him, his expression solemn and cherished.

Xiaowan took Ling Yusen's hand and walked towards the stage of marriage with the petals covered with happiness.

Then, the master of ceremonies began to speak the vows in an affectionate tone, and then the men and women exchanged rings, kissed, and thundered applause.

For some reason, it was such a warm scene, but I felt a little sour and soft in my heart.

I stood in a corner of the stage, silently looking at the happy couple on the stage, and told Xiaowan in my heart to finally win the heart of one person, and the white head will not be separated.

The bright light was dazzling, and my eyes seemed to be stimulated by the light, and I couldn't help but feel sour, and when I noticed it, I realized that my face was already cool and wet.

I hurriedly lowered my head and rummaged through my bag to find a tissue, and suddenly, a white tissue was handed to me, and I instinctively looked up and looked into a deep and dark sea, but there was no longer a little starry in that sea, and it was so deep that it made people feel inexplicably sad.

I hesitated, but finally took the tissue he handed me and whispered thank you.

He didn't speak, and I avoided his gaze a little stiffly, unable to bear the heavy gaze, and my hand clenched the tissue tightly, and the soft tissue twisted and twisted on my hand.

I suddenly remembered that Chinese New Year's Eve, that night, I was in tears, and he handed me a white tissue like just now, looked at me silently, and later, we exchanged "Happy New Year", at that time, his eyes were deep and cold, like a deep and cold sea, and the fine light fell under his eyes like stars.

"This bouquet of flowers, I want to give to someone, my best friend. Qingqing baby, you must be happy!" The lively scene quieted down for some time, Xiaowan stood on the stage, and her voice came through the microphone.

She pulled back her hand with the bouquet and threw it, and the next moment, the bouquet crossed a beautiful arc in the air and flew towards me, I instinctively reached out to catch it, and my first reaction turned out to be that after so many years, Xiaowan's shooting skills still maintained a standard.

It wasn't until the cheers rang out and the spotlight hit me brightly that I realized what had happened and froze in embarrassment. The bouquet in your hand is like a hot potato, you can't hold it, and you can't throw it away.

He was standing next to me, and he was also caught in the spotlight, and I saw that the people I didn't know around me looked at me and him with an ambiguous and kind eye, and suddenly disappeared in embarrassment.

Suddenly, I saw another person's gaze fall, Yu Chen's eyes were lost and sad, and he only looked straight at me and didn't make any other moves.

"Mom, you got the bouquet, are you going to be a bride?" Xiao Xi ran over, asked curiously with wide eyes, looking expectant.

One, two, three, one after the other, I was so embarrassed that I just wanted to explode on the spot.

Fortunately, the emcee's voice sounded in time, announcing the next link - entering the table. The spotlight disappeared and the guests took their seats.

At this moment, I felt that the sensational voice was like a heavenly sound, saving me from the eve of the explosion in place.

"Mom, that handsome uncle is watching you. Xiao Xi took my hand, motioned for me to squat down, and whispered in my ear.

Little girl, you know what handsome is at a young age......

I picked up the little girl and ran to the seat.

Xiaowan and Ling Yusen are very careful, the seats are arranged in advance, and Yu Chen and I are at the same table.

When I sat down, Yu Chen had already regained his gentle expression, and when he saw me and Xiaoxi walking over, he showed a gentle smile. When eating, he still thoughtfully helped Xiaoxi pick up her favorite dishes.

I ate in silence, not knowing what to say to him.

"Eating fish, high protein and low calorie, blindly eating vegetables is easy to malnutrition. You're too thin, pay more attention to your body. A piece of white and tender fish fell into my bowl, and I looked up, and he smiled warmly.

I don't know if it's because I'm too careful, but I always feel that there is a gaze that keeps coming from behind.

"Thank you. I whispered.

There was a sudden coaxing in front of me, and I followed the sound to look over, and it turned out to be the bride and groom toasting the guests.