In the third year of junior high school, Yan Rushun changed a class teacher.

This is a male teacher, and his goal is very clear: everything is just for the high school entrance examination.

He practiced almost strict militarized management, with rules, requirements, and punishment regulations for every little thing and every exam, and the students were like workers working on the assembly line, every minute was filled, and they were doing mechanical study work day after day.

And every night after self-study, it is his public "torture" time for the violators of the day, and he has to cut off the students' dishonest thoughts in a harsh way and isolate them from all luck.

At first, he just scolded, scolded the students for being shit, scolded the students' parents for being garbage, and used the school as a garbage dumping site.

"He scolded us, and I thought it was okay. But he scolded our parents, and I didn't think I could stand it anyway. Yan Rushun clenched his fists, his eyes were red and he looked into the void, like a soldier ready to rush into battle at any time, "At that time, I was very angry, and I wanted to stand up and refute him, but ...... As an honor student with one of the top grades, I think of how he is also for our good, I ...... He hesitated and did not stand up. ”

Her voice grew lower and deeper.

Xin Weiyang was very shocked: "It's just a high school entrance examination, this kind of personal attack is too much - you can report the situation to the Education Commission." ”

"I'll go back and tell my mom and dad. ”

"What do they say?"

Yan Rushun was silent and whispered: "They also think that the head teacher is too much, but they feel that during the critical period, more things are better than less, in case the head teacher holds a grudge, it may affect the high school entrance examination." ”

Xin Weiyang suddenly realized her powerlessness.

Parents want to eliminate all distractions for their children, as long as things don't affect their children, even if the sky falls apart, they don't want to pay attention.

As a child, Yan Rushun has no position to blame his parents, but he can't agree with this decision.

The attempt to ask for help failed, and she remained silent, but her heart was uneasy, angry, and painful, and she might even have a vague premonition that things would not end here, and that there would be more shocking developments.

Soon, in the face of the students who did not dare to return the scolding and violated the rules, the head teacher began to beat again.

With the whip, without mercy, without leaving a hand, the sound of whips and flesh was unusually loud in the classroom, and the palms of the hands were beaten red and swollen until at last there was a crackle - the whip was interrupted.

"It's corporal punishment! I should protest, even if it's not me who is physically punished -- but because it's not me, my parents let me endure it. In an instant, Yan Rushun seemed to bear a thousand pounds of burden, and hunched her back deeply, "I don't think it's right, but I don't have the courage to stand up." I was also afraid of the class teacher's retribution, so I shrank into a horrible corner like a coward and watched round after round of corporal punishment. ”

Xin Weiyang sensed that her hands were cold.

He had no experience in comforting people, racked his brains to come up with a sentence, and said awkwardly: "Shun Shun, it's not your fault." ”

Yan Rushun was immersed in the memories.

She didn't know if it was her fault, and she wasn't sure whose fault it was.

At that time, she told herself: It was just a palm, and the pain would pass. All for the high school entrance examination, don't think about it anymore.

She paralyzed herself and desperately buried herself in the exercises, thinking that after this time, she would see the light again.

However, late at night after self-study, her table mate and another classmate were called to the podium for secretly talking to class.

After expressing his habitual contempt for the "shit", the head teacher ripped off his coat and said condescendingly like a dog: "You guys slap each other!"

The whole class froze, and this request was beyond everyone's expectations.

The head teacher slapped the case and roared: "Didn't you hear?"

Everyone was taken aback.

Yan Rushun clenched his fists all of a sudden.

Her tablemate and the other classmate didn't know if they were scared silly, and they really slapped them for a while.

"I can't hear it!"

The sound of the slap immediately became louder, like a whip on the palm of the hand.

It must have hurt!

Yan Rushun's heart tugged, and she felt that the slap was like hitting herself.

The two of them did feel a lot of pain, and they stopped and looked at the head teacher a little timidly.

"Did I say stop?" he yelled, like a fairy tale demon, "I won't stop until I call it!"

Yan Rushun breathed heavily, his chest rose and fell violently, and his two hands almost grabbed the edge of the table to make paw prints.

This is not excessive!

This is intolerable humiliation!

Do you have to endure such humiliation for the sake of a high school entrance examination?

She roared again and again in her heart: We are human beings first, and then students! We have human rights, and no one can violate them at will!

Her forehead was bruised, and her face was flushed with angry crimson. She was almost about to shoot the case, and shouted this sentence at the head teacher with the momentum of swallowing mountains and rivers......

However, she didn't stand up until it was all over. She just posed like a statue with angry hair, but she couldn't do anything.

When the same table came to her with half of his face swollen, Yan Rushun hung his head dejectedly, only feeling extremely ashamed and embarrassed.

There has never been a moment like this moment that made her deeply aware of her weakness. She thought that she was also the pride of the sky, but she succumbed to power and humiliation, and did not dare to resist in the slightest, becoming a person she despised.

If she were standing in front of the podium instead, what other choice would she have than to be submissive?

What is the meaning of being a human being, and what is the meaning of learning?

The world that had been built for so long collapsed.

She walked in the darkness and felt that the whole world was a walking corpse, without a trace of tenderness.

After that day, the atmosphere of each day was so oppressive that it made people want to go crazy.

Yan Rushun could no longer concentrate on the textbook, she just relied on instinct and habit to draw stroke after stroke on the workbook.

A week before the high school entrance examination, the seats at the same table suddenly became empty.

After that day, he was never seen again.

No one had time to care about him.

It wasn't until after the high school entrance examination that she heard that her table mate had serious psychological problems and had to give up the high school entrance examination and go to the hospital.

On the day she received the admission letter from Q Middle School, her parents were extremely excited to prepare a table for her to eat her favorite dish, but she sat alone in her room and was silent for a long, long time.

She felt as if she had made a deal with the devil and paid a price she simply couldn't afford......

Tears welled up in their faces, blurring things in their sight into strange shapes.

Xin Weiyang clenched Yan Rushun's hand again, and the slightly rough palm had a reassuring temperature, which made her sobs gradually calm down.

She suddenly found that she still had the desire to talk, and she still hoped that someone could share these feelings and troubles with her.

The little girl who has been denied by her parents and teachers, the shadow who has to walk alone in the dark because she is out of place and out of place, is actually always looking for opportunities, hoping that one day she will stand bravely in the sun and make her cry.

"Throughout the summer vacation of junior high school, I felt like I was trapped in a cage, I felt that this was not the life I wanted at all, I really wanted to smash everything I could see, maybe like those students who killed teachers. The reason why I didn't do anything irreparable was simply because I was too weak - oh, isn't it ironic? The weakness that ruined me turned around and saved me. ”

"It's not your fault. Xin Weiyang felt that his vocabulary was poor, and he could not express one-ten-thousandth of his heartache.

He hesitated and asked, "Later...... How did you get through it?"

She did not shy away, but looked at him calmly and said: "I used to be obsessed with pursuing a right and wrong answer, and for two years I continued to torture myself, my classmates avoided me, my parents and teachers were pessimistic about my future, and I also felt that I had stood on top of the abyss of despair.

"Until one day before my junior year of high school, I don't know why, I suddenly had an epiphany in reflection: grades don't have absolute meaning for my life. I don't steal, I don't rob, I don't break the law, I don't violate morality, I don't commit any sin, I don't have any shameful behavior. I should live with my head held high, instead of feeling ashamed of myself in front of my parents and teachers. ”

Xin Weiyang's emotions were completely affected by her, and he couldn't help but ask, "What happened later?"

From that moment on, it was as if I had let go of my heavy burden, and I felt lighter. As soon as I was in my third year of high school, I suddenly jumped from four or five hundred in my grade to within one hundred. She smiled faintly, "Everyone was surprised, but I don't care." Later, my performance in the college entrance examination was slightly abnormal, and I was admitted to the city's C University and became an ordinary Chinese student. After graduating, I joined H Communications and became an ordinary clerk.

"However, every moment, I can't help but think: I used to be 'someone else's child', but I ended up in the dark. I still have a mysterious confidence in myself, but I really can't say what kind of talent I have. If every child is a genius in the first place, what makes us die?"

As a genius who grew up smoothly, Xin Weiyang found that he could not answer this question at all.

Yan Rushun asked and answered: "I used to firmly believe that it was a problem with the system, but later I found out that it was not. The system is dead, but the heart is alive. It is because we are not willing to take any risks, preferring to be slaves of the system, that we will kill the genius in our body - genius cannot be bound by the system. ”

She looked at Xin Weiyang, her calm eyes refracted the light of the stars: "You are all luckier than us, because your genius just happened to conform to the system, so you were protected by the system." But can you guarantee that your children will be like you, gifted with the system?"

Xin Weiyang shook his head involuntarily.

"I know I can't change the situation, but I always think that it would be nice to change even a little bit. At the very least, I can save my children from going through the pain and confusion I once had. ”

She held her head high, and her voice was full of unprecedented power: "For this, I am willing to do my best to be a great and wonderful mother." I hope that he can stand on my shoulders and start his life easily. I hope that even if his genius is out of step with the system, he will grow up smoothly under my care, and I hope that when he is confused, I will be his staunchest supporter, so that he will never fall into the darkness without a trace of warmth!"

Xin Weiyang suddenly felt admiration.

Although in the whole of human society, she has only a small and ordinary goal, her piety and steadfastness are beyond the reach of most people.

And he thinks about cutting-edge scientific topics and does research that will affect the development of human society, but he just lacks her pure feelings and will.

For him, it's more of a job, and if there's any added value, it's the sense of fulfillment it brings.

And for such a sense of accomplishment, he had spent so many boring years in one brick-to-brick book after another, that until now, he can't even think of anything to praise other than study and research.

When you think about it this way, her goals are actually not small or ordinary.

Isn't that a very great goal for a child?

He suddenly began to yearn and look forward to it, wanting to be with her and gently accompany their children to grow up.

The word "marriage" suddenly jumped into my mind.

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