The Zayed Mosque is not in Dubai, but in Abu Dhabi, another emirate of the UAE. It's only an hour and a half drive from Dubai to Abu Dhabi, and Lian Pian and I took a taxi there. Today's sky is a little gray in the clear blue, sitting in the car, the high-rise buildings outside the window flash in front of you, bustling. However, when you walk to the outskirts between the two cities, you can see large areas of yellow 'colored' desert.

Driving on the asphalt road in the middle of the desert, my heart suddenly became empty. I fled Dubai to find a quiet power. But it's not quiet, it's empty, and it 'forces' me to miss him even more. His magnetic voice, his sad and frustrated expression, the salty and powerless taste of his tears.

How can I make him disappear from my mind? The wind and sand here are so big, maybe it can blow him away from my mind without leaving any trace.

The Zayed Mosque is the largest mosque in the UAE and one of the most extravagant mosques in the world. We were still on the viaduct, and suddenly through the car window, we saw the pure white 'color' buildings erected on the barren sandbank, and the bright sunlight shone on the white main building inlaid with gold 'color' decoration, pure and sacred, and time stopped in a trance at this moment, even I who are not Muslims were deeply shocked.

There are not many people today, and they are sparse. Lian Pian and I didn't have a headscarf, so we didn't meet the dress code to enter here, so we changed our ID for two sets of black robes to wrap ourselves.

Now I am also in a black robe, like the bride whom Moses will marry in a week's time. Will he like it? Thinking of this, I quickly shook my head vigorously. Forget to forget, how did I think of him again.

Not long after the change of clothes, I suddenly felt that there was a person behind us, who was still chattering with us in American English, talking about the history and culture of this mosque. I thought he was talking to someone else, but after a while the man took a few steps forward, patted us on the shoulder, and asked, "Why don't you listen?"

Lian Pianhu and I turned our heads suspiciously, and the man saw our faces, and his expression was stunned for a moment, and he was a little at a loss: "I'm sorry, I recognized the wrong person." I'm a tour guide, I've just brought in two clients, and I've just put on a black robe. Then he looked left and right, "I don't know where they have gone." ”

"It's fine. Lian Pian didn't mind, probably because he thought this person was good-looking, and generously proposed, "If you can't find them, you can tell us about them." ”

The tour guide listened and nodded excitedly: "It's okay, they haven't paid anyway." He held out his hand and introduced himself, "My name is Edward, an American. ”

As soon as this introduction came out, I suddenly had a familiar feeling, as if I had first heard Bill introduce himself. As it turned out, I was right, because Lian Pian turned Edward into Bill Two.

"You're visiting Dubai?" asked Edward.

"No, I'm here to study abroad. Lian Pian replied.

"Why did you want to study here? Come to us in the United States. ”

Lian Pian smiled, "Because I like the city of Dubai." ”

"What about you?" Edward turned to me.

"Me?" I recalled. At the end of my junior year, I could choose to send an excellent supervisor in China, but I wanted to study abroad in the United States or Canada, which made me entangled between studying abroad and going abroad, so that I delayed the application time. As a result, after the research program, the school came out with such a "exchange" flow project for the research students, and in line with the law of "going abroad to study for research", I went directly to Dubai to study for a master's degree.

It can be seen that the fact of coming to Dubai to study is the result of my proud and tangled personality, I wanted to "have the best of both worlds", but in fact, I chose to study abroad, and in the end, I went abroad by mistake, and I studied in Dubai, which is "second best".

And after meeting Moussa, I continued to bring this proud and tangled characteristic to the fullest, and I was both reluctant to be emotional, but also unable to let go of reason. So far, I have chosen to let go soberly, but I will never forget it in my heart. I was vaguely worried about whether it would be like my experience in Dubai, and the answer suddenly slipped from "reason" to "emotion", and it was a kind of "second-best" feeling.

There were lessons to be learned from this choice, and I had to be doubly wary of myself. In fact, a week later, when I think about this time, I can't help but feel deeply that my true 'nature' is unchangeable.

Of course, I am not going to tell Edward this long list of words. After thinking about it, he stuffed a reason for studying abroad with him: "Because, Dubai is so rich." ”

Edward smiled all of a sudden: "Dubai is not rich, Abu Dhabi is the real low-key luxury." The world's tallest building, the Burj Khalifa, was built with the support of the eldest brother Abu Dhabi when Dubai ran out of money halfway through the repair, and it was because of this that the original "Burj Khalifa" was changed to the name of the Chieftain of Abu Dhabi "Khalifa". ”

It turned out that there was this kind of insider, and Lian Pian was interested, "What is the difference between Abu Dhabi and Dubai? ”

Edward thought for a moment: "Richer and more conservative than Dubai." ”

I glanced at him: "You seem to know a lot about the UAE." ”

Edward nodded, not modest: "I have carefully studied the culture here, especially the Islamic concept of marriage and love. ”

I was stunned, but this is what I have always wanted to know. I don't understand Mouses, I don't understand why he married a 'girl' who has no emotional foundation, I don't understand what it means for them to "marry first and then fall in love"? I think this is a kind of "coercion" of human "nature", but Musa does not think so.

I put this question to Edward, expecting him to give me the answer.

Edward said: "As far as I can see, Muslim love is based on faith and has the purpose of marriage. They believe that love above faith is stronger, more skillful, and more responsible. But I think, without love, what about the responsibility?"

He added his own comments at the end of the exposition, which was exactly what hit my heart.

I asked him again, "Then tell me, why are the requirements for men and women here to be so strict?"

"Muslims have heard the saying 'When men and women are alone, the devil is their third party.'" In order not to test the endurance of the believers, they had to keep their distance. Because of the lonely man and widow 'woman',* it is easy to have problems under the instigation of the devil. After Edward finished speaking, he added his own comment, "Actually, this is more depressing and easy to make mistakes. ”

In this way, Moses and I have been alone many times, and the demon has appeared I don't know how many times. And Edward's comment struck me again in my heart, as if I really felt the depression and pain of Moses.

I bit my lip and felt some sympathy for Moussa's future life: "That...... Can you really get married without falling in love?"

This time, Edward simply didn't explain, smacking his lips and saying, "So the divorce rate in the UAE is very high! I think that's the reason for the lack of understanding before marriage." After speaking, he raised a smile, looked at me, and then at Lian Pian, "So...... I think it's important to have an in-depth understanding before marriage. ”

I didn't hear his last words very clearly, but I even held my hand and trembled. I was still thinking back to what Edward had just said, and he was obviously explaining the Muslim view of marriage and love in an American way, but I was more or less shaken, and my heart felt sorry for Musa, and suddenly I felt an urge to save him.

Think about it, if I were to marry a man I never knew or who I had only met a few times, it would be really sad. Moses had lived in such an atmosphere and teaching for more than twenty years, and he was used to it, but my presence caused him to feel a crack. I am the perpetrator, and I should not make him so sad, but should give him 'female' and 'sexual' care, at least let him experience the beauty of fiery love before he gets married. I have some regret in my heart, perhaps because of my hedgehog-like resistance, he missed the experience of pursuing free love in this life......

This thought may be self-inflicted, or it may be an excuse I made for myself, but it really exists in my heart at the moment. But what can I do now? I have already said goodbye, isn't it precisely because this is the most sensible and correct thing to do?

I sighed, and my train of thought broke again.

"Okay, okay, you two are talking about 'messy' nonsense, don't say it. Lian Pian interrupted us and handed the camera to Edward, "Here, take a picture of the two of us 'girl' students." ”

After speaking, she pulled me, walked up the steps quickly, and in front of this clear and holy white 'jade' mosque, she made the classic shape of the five heroes of Langya Mountain. Edward raised his camera, and before he could press the fast door, the security guard who was still standing by the carved 'flower' pillar rushed out and shouted to stop him: "I'm sorry!

Lian Pian retreated stupidly, glanced at Edward, suddenly remembered something, and said angrily: "Didn't you say that you are a tour guide?

Edward laughed at this time, and embarrassedly 'touched' his head: "Actually, I'm not a tour guide, but I just made a little joke." I saw you before I entered the 'door', so I had to think of a fair reason to approach you. ”

I was a little dissatisfied with his lies, but Lian Pian seemed a little happy. I guess it's because she found Bill's shadow in Edward, or ...... Bill is also just a shadow of her European lover in her heart.

As soon as Edward's mind was honest, Lian Pian and him quickly became one. I knew I was going to be left out again in the cold, so I was so happy to leave alone, and the better I would be with them in an hour.

It has to be said that the Zayed Mosque is definitely worth visiting. The white 'jade' wraps the hall and the ground, looking up at the 'fine' carved dome and the 'forced' real murals are attracted, and under the graceful rotating color 'color' leaves, there is a giant totem glass crystal lamp, and the workmanship is 'fine' and flawless.

Outside the hall, the sky is dyed with the 'color' of the pool, clear and without a trace of pollution. On the other side of the pool, I happened to see a man in a white robe walking quietly, alone, very lonely. Now, like him, Musa is silently trekking through the city, with regrets.

Should I make excuses for myself so that Moses would have less regret in his heart before he got married?