When a person is desperate, then all the reasons are excuses. This is inevitably heart-wrenching for life.

I forgot how anxious I was when I returned to the room, and my heart was like a thousand tons of boulders, heavy, and I didn't know how to advance or retreat.

When he returns, what will his life become? Will it be evil or auspicious, willing or resentful? If it is a transmutation that is bound to come, why do he stubbornly have to take a risk?

I have no way of knowing, and I have no position to ask. But if there is sorrow in his eyes, my heart will fall with it.

Longing for love, the most difficult to rest.

When Lian Pian called, I realized that I had been asleep for several hours. I woke up too early, had too much fun, and ended too heart-wrenching, and my body and heart were a little tired. Lian Pian jumped on the phone and said, "Open the 'door' quickly! I'm outside your 'door'." ”

I ran over with my slippers in my hand, and opened the 'door' with my eyes open. She was in high spirits, but when she saw me, she was startled: "You are still sleeping at this time?"

"I took a nap to catch up on sleep, and accidentally overslept. ”

"Don't sleep, I have good news for you. She jumped into the house, blinking at me, and even her steps were very light, "Ahem, listen up." ”

I 'rubbed' 'rubbed' my eyes that hadn't fully opened: "Don't pretend, say it quickly." ”

She covered her face with joy, and suddenly opened her arms, raised her voice an octave, and shouted word by word: "I-talk-love-love-!"

"Oh......" My reaction was extremely unusual, and even mixed with a sense of loss.

Lian Pian folded her excited arms: "What's wrong?"

"Nothing. I scratched my head and asked her, "With whom?"

She raised her eyebrows and crossed her waist with one hand: "What do you say?"

"Jia Yi?" I knew it couldn't be him, but I was able to remind her of this person's existence.

"No!" Lian Pian's hands crossed in front of his chest, and he no longer bent around, and smiled happily, "It's Bill." ”

I nodded and reminded her, "You only met him last night." ”

"I know. She was a little anxious, "But I just like him." ”

"Why?"

She pondered for two seconds, then shook her head, "No, I can't say that I like him. She paused and said very seriously, "I like the exoticism I feel when I'm with him." ”

I was slightly stunned and repeated, "Exotic?"

Lian Pian nodded, and said quite firmly: "Isn't the essence of love the feeling that falling in love with someone brings you? Exotic customs are always fresh, so they have a different kind of vitality." If it wasn't Bill yesterday who met him, but another blue-eyed, tall, athletic, handsome and gentle exotic man, I would have been equally tempted. Because I'm looking for feelings, not people. ”

She said it in such an orderly manner that I felt a surge of panic in my heart that I had never experienced before.

If I meet someone else instead of Moses, will I still be tempted, will I just be coveted by a feeling, not a particular person?

This realization made it difficult for me to accept, so I took a deep breath and asked Lian Pian again: "When the novelty is over, aren't you afraid of separation?"

Lian Pian smiled lightly: "When we part, I will fall in love with the heartache of being separated from him again, and he will stay in the heartache at that moment, which can be regarded as a complete end." If a relationship has a beginning and an end, what regrets are there? Separation is inevitable, and the feeling is eternal. After four years in Dubai, you have to feel something, right?"