In a trance, a woman dressed plainly, but with an unusually sweet appearance, slowly walked into the ward.

"Gu Fan, you're awake!"

This surprised voice overlapped with the sound of footsteps, Gu Fan looked over and found that the person who came was actually one of his former female colleagues, Zhao Zhiwei.

The mood was too heavy, so Gu Fan couldn't squeeze out a smile, and he didn't want to speak.

Zhao Zhiwei didn't mind, slowly sat down on the edge of the bed, and said in a low voice: "I know all the things you have experienced, people can't be resurrected after death, I hope you can see a little bit, there is still a beautiful side to life, isn't it." ”

Gu Fan knew that Zhao Zhiwei had always had a good impression of him, but a few years ago, he was in the pain of falling off the altar, and he didn't think about any feelings in the past, and then he met Liu Ruyan by mistake, so he had this love, and he felt a little guilty about Zhao Zhiwei.

Now it can be seen that although Zhao Zhiwei is as simple as before, her face is a lot more beautiful, and it is obvious that she has no longer worked, and her life is getting better and better.

Gu Fan lay on the hospital bed, his eyes blank and murmured: "Did you pay me for the medical expenses in the past six months?" ”

Zhao Zhiwei didn't deny it, because this was undisguiseable, there was no one around Gu Fan who could afford such a high cost, and even if there were, no one would help him.

"Thank you, but I actually wish I had died in that car accident and would not have to face these realities now. Tears flowed from Gu Fan's eyes, and his voice was hoarse.

Gu Fan's appearance made Zhao Zhiwei's heart ache, in the past days of working together, Gu Fan took good care of her, and it was inevitable that she would have feelings in the process, even if she later knew that Gu Fan and Liu Ruyan were together, she did not forget this one-way relationship.

However, in the face of a man full of gloom, she didn't know what words to use in order to smooth out the haze in the other party's heart, perhaps, she could only accompany her.

A month later.

Gu Fan was discharged from the hospital and returned to his rental house of less than ten bungalows, and he used most of the savings he had saved over the years to buy wine, all cheap two-pot heads.

He gave himself a psychological hint that when the wine was finished, he would hit the road.

A miserable life, full of negative energy, reflected from Gu Fan, is the heaviest despair in the world, he is an ordinary person, but different from ordinary people, because he has the past of a strong man.

Sitting on the edge of the bed, Gu Fan took the second pot head and poured it into his mouth fiercely, one bite after another, tirelessly, the sky had just darkened, and there were four or five wine bottles on the ground.

Gu Fan's face was flushed, his eyes were swollen and blurred, his tears had dried up, the room was extremely dark, and the cockroaches in summer were scurrying all over the ground, even the cockroaches were more comfortable than him, full of irony.

At this time, the door of the rental house was pushed open, and the bright light of a flashlight shot Gu Fan couldn't open his eyes, and he drunkenly shouted: "Who!"

"Y-Why are you drinking like this, get up. ”

Zhao Zhiwei exclaimed, quickly turned off the flashlight, and after turning on the light, she wanted to help Gu Fan up.

"Get out of the way!"

Gu Fan put aside Zhao Zhiwei, laughed like a maniac laugh: "Don't be pitiful to you, I want my past to be brilliant and dazzling, all the way through the thorns and thorns, to achieve the peak of the yang spirit, once reduced to this, you all want to see if I joke or not, get out, get out of me!"

"What nonsense are you talking about, what Yang Spirit Realm, what's wrong with you. Zhao Zhiwei was so anxious that she was about to cry.

"Get out !!"

Gu Fan roared hysterically, which frightened Zhao Zhiwei into retreating, she had never seen Gu Fan like this, and now she was judging the two of them, which made her feel extremely strange.

Zhao Zhiwei pear blossoms brought rain, both worried and frightened, and finally ran out crying, but Gu Fan was indifferent and continued to drink.

After two days of drunken dreams, one night, Gu Fan woke up with a splitting headache, raised his head, and found that Zhao Zhiwei had already made a table of dishes, was sitting there, and smiled for a long time: "You can be regarded as waking up and eating." ”

Unconsciously, Gu Fan felt a warmth in his heart, thinking carefully about the previous events, he still had a vague impression, and he said embarrassedly: "I'm sorry, I didn't hurt you the day before yesterday." ”

"How can it be, don't say so much, come over and eat, I've been drinking wine for three days, and I haven't eaten at all. Zhao Zhiwei smiled like a flower.

dragging his heavy steps, Gu Fan sat opposite Zhao Zhiwei, his face was full of embarrassment, and he didn't know how to face her, and Liu Ruyan's matter always lingered in his mind, and he seemed a little uneasy.

Abruptly, Zhao Zhiwei stretched out her hand, pressed it on the back of Gu Fan's hand, and said softly: "Are you still thinking about her, Siren has gone, you have to face the reality, if she has a spirit in the sky and knows that you are living this kind of life, can you rest in peace." ”

As if someone had touched a scar, Gu Fan quickly retracted his hand and said lightly: "You go." ”

Zhao Zhiwei's face was condensed, her eyes quickly turned red, and she said aggrievedly: "I never thought of taking advantage of the situation, I just can't bear to see you fall like this, you can ignore my sincerity, I don't blame you, but can you not practice yourself like this? Do you really live only for yourself!"

"I'm sorry, I really can't forget her, thank you for always caring about me and caring about me, but I think, I can't get out of this life, and I can't hug the second person again, you go, you can have a better life, you don't have to waste feelings and youth for me, a waste person. "Gu Fan's persistent way.

"You ......"

"Let's go!"

Gu Fan suddenly burst into tears, so that what Zhao Zhiwei wanted to say, she held back stiffly, she didn't remember that she was crying for Gu Fan, her heart was really broken, and then she resolutely ran out.

There was heavy rain in the air, Zhao Zhiwei was in the rainy night, running wildly, but before she could run far, she slipped on the slippery and muddy ground and sprained her foot directly.

She lay on her stomach on the dirt, soaking wet and embarrassed, facing the torrential rain, crying profusely.

Gu Fan was in the rental house, he could clearly hear the crying outside, he wanted to go out and have a look, but finally suppressed this thought, he really didn't want to delay Zhao Zhiwei, only by letting her really give up can he not affect her.

Until the early hours of the morning, Zhao Zhiwei still couldn't get up, but she was already crying and had no strength, falling to the ground and letting the rain wash away.

Suddenly, Zhao Zhiwei felt that the rain had stopped, slowly opened her eyes, and saw Gu Fan holding an umbrella, standing in front of her, and immediately bent her waist, "You ......"

Yes, Gu Fan couldn't continue to turn a blind eye after all, he struggled in his heart for several hours, but he still chose to come out.

Gu Fan squatted down and said in a low voice, "Don't wait for me, can't you." ”

"No, I have identified you, as long as you are in my life, if you don't nod for a day, I will wait for you for the rest of my life!" Zhao Zhiwei threw herself into Gu Fan's arms and choked softly.

At this moment, Gu Fan faced a dilemma.

On the one hand, Liu Ruyan's voice and smile are still in his mind, and on the other hand, he knows that if he still doesn't dare to face it and refuses to accept it, it may lead to a second woman and a lifetime of pain.

The so-called love calamity has been vividly embodied at this time, this is the spiritual world, but it is also the refraction of Gu Fan's subconscious thoughts, he is a man who is indecisive in terms of feelings, so now, he can't avoid the same problems - face, bear, and responsibility.

These are the inherent defects in the personality of Gu Fan, he knows that several women have a secret promise to him, and the rock has not been transferred, but he does not dare to face it, invisibly, it will become a disease in his heart, if this disease cannot be cured, it will not be able to break this calamity, and the cultivation of the "Three Lives Sutra" will also end in failure.

The inherent personality defects, even in this spiritual world, are also shown very thoroughly, he looked at Zhao Zhiwei helplessly, and the war between heaven and man in his heart was unbearable.

However, if you don't even dare to face a feeling, what kind of man is you!

Just as Gu Fan was about to overcome his demons and hug Zhao Zhiwei, an inexplicable voice suddenly appeared in his mind: "Accept her, she will soon follow in the footsteps of willows, you are an ominous person, don't hurt people anymore." ”

This is another inner demon derived from the "Three Lives Sutra", and it is also a test that attempts to hinder Gu Fan's pace of completing his personality defects.

Just when Gu Fan's heart was shocked and he was about to push Zhao Zhiwei away, he heard Zhao Zhiwei crying: "Fortunately, you came out, otherwise I would definitely jump into the river later, I don't know why, I like you so much, I feel that without you, my world is blank." ”

These words hit Gu Fan's heart fiercely, making him have a splitting headache in an instant, and his face was extremely pale.

"Why are you in such pain, do I really make you so scared. Zhao Zhiwei cried and shouted: "Have you ever liked me, you answer me!"

"I like it, I like it!!"

With Gu Fan's burst of applause, he reached out with both hands, wanting to hug Zhao Zhiwei, but Zhao Zhiwei disappeared out of thin air.

In the next moment, all the memories poured into his mind, and Gu Fan seemed to have completed a sublimation of personality.

He finally understood that this was a false world, and everything that happened was derived from his own mind, but the memories brought by the things he experienced were extremely real.

He finally understood where his heart was, and in this place that suddenly became empty, Gu Fan shouted loudly: "Fuck your desirelessness is rigid, if people have no emotion, how can they be called people!"

The love catastrophe has been broken.

At the most critical moment, Gu Fan learned to face it, and his attempt to hug Zhao Zhiwei can be regarded as making up for the defects in his personality, and he also understands what is truly ordinary.

In the face of birth, old age, sickness and death, in the face of force majeure, there is nothing to be done, this is the general public.

However, the ordinary has the wonderful of the ordinary, no matter which class it is based on, if the heart is sunny, the spring flowers are blooming.

Gu Fan had an epiphany in advance, if he was still in a state of confusion, then Jiang Qiaoshui would appear in the spiritual world in the future, and what it would bring would be even more terrifying mental torture.

The other two of the other three lives and three lives are family and friendship respectively, Gu Fan has no parents and does not have any memory in this regard, therefore, there is no way to give birth to the spiritual world.

As for friendship, Gu Fan has no flaws in this regard.

The personality has been completely sublimated, the "Three Lives Sutra" has been completed, and the realm of semi-saints has finally arrived!