Chapter 601: It's Not That Easy to Leave (4)
In the face of interests, feelings are secondary. People with the same interests, people who hate people can also become allies. Conflicts of interest, even the closest friends can turn enemies into friends.
After many years in the capital, when I was about to leave, I felt incredible when I thought about it, and suddenly I looked back and realized that I had worked and lived here for so long, and I had no real friends all the time, except for my old classmates, there seemed to be no one to say goodbye to.
I keep moving without any neighbors, I have changed units a few times, and even my colleagues have not known each other for a long time, and I have worked abroad for a long time, and even my colleagues in a department of the unit who have worked for several years are not familiar with them, because they are also constantly changing jobs from one place to another!
Who wouldn't want to fight for a better life?
But there was only one reason why he really had to make up his mind to go back.
The parents who gave birth to him and raised him are old!
After his lively party, you stagger and slowly pace home, a convenient but extremely small, cluttered space, a place called "home"!
It was already late at night, and the neighbors had gone to bed quietly, ready to get up early the next day and work hard.
After boiling water to make tea, you finally have a little time and mood, and finally throw the clothes that you wear and wear that you are still too lazy to wash into the washing machine, thinking that when you have time, you must wash them, otherwise you will really have nothing to wear!
Lying on the bed, open it and look at the letter I received from home this afternoon, very strange things, what age is it, except for the elderly, there may be few people who use such outdated methods, but why don't you call when there is something?
With doubts, he slowly opened the envelope and read it slowly......
"In '98, you took the initiative to be laid off two years after graduation, and you still want to go out and break through like many people, no matter what, you don't want to leave too many regrets when you are young.
I can't bear to let you leave to work!
But who and what can be done?
What can the parents of a laid-off worker take care of themselves?
Mom and Dad are finally retiring now, and they don't get much, but at least they can solve the living expenses of food and clothing.
If you don't have a good time outside, come back! Around our old couple, there is still a care for everything, and the pressure is less.
I've always heard about the difficulties of your young people wandering outside, loneliness, staying up late and working overtime, renting a house and being cheated...
Do you also encounter such problems when you are alone in Beijing?
Even if you say every time that you handled it well and lived well, your parents also know how hard it can be for a young person who goes out alone to start from scratch in a strange city.
Every time I come back, my family actually wants to ask you: Are you really doing well?
But every time we don't dare to say it, because we know it.
This is the price that everyone needs to pay for growing up independently, and no one can lead you for a lifetime, only after experiencing more wind and rain can you grow from a small seedling to a big tree, supporting a small piece of sky for your future family.
Young people are more out of the world, even if they don't have a successful result, at least they have opened their eyes and increased their abilities.
I am writing this letter today, but my family wants to tell you: work hard and try to integrate into that society. Don't be afraid to tell your parents if you have any bitter or unhappy things, your parents will always welcome you home......"
It was the first time he felt that reading a letter would make him feel so much, when was the last time he was moved by someone when he read a book?
He has forgotten how long it has been since he has been pursuing the so-called ideals and career success since he was studying, and how long has it been since he has talked to his family, especially his parents, and asked them if they also need care or help?
What happened to my parents who once thought they would be happy and strong at all times? And I seem to look at a simple letter, why do I always feel like I want to burst into tears?
Why does the coarse tea and light rice that I once hated always feel so beautiful when I think about it now?
Why does such a simple home feel so warm now?
I don't know what I'm thinking in a bit of dementia, he has been reading the letter in a constant way, but his eyes have long been out of focus......
Until he felt some soreness in his arm that he had to put down the letter, took a long deep breath, quickly picked up the hot tea that was not too hot and took a big sip, and with some urgency found a cigarette, lit it a little tremblingly, and took a deep breath.
"Why do you feel a little sentimental? Shouldn't you? Isn't this mentality unique to those old people? Am you already a little old?
I haven't even married a daughter-in-law, and my children don't even know what it will be like.
Quitting and going home!
There is no poetry and distance, and there is no need for flowers and joy, it seems that all that is needed is a small home!
He has been very assertive since he was a child, and he knows very well what he likes and wants. But it's one thing to know, it's another to fight.
After failing the college entrance examination and repeating his studies for a year, he wanted to be far away from home and force himself, and he didn't want to study the normal major, so he chose a major that he didn't know and forced himself.
"The family has three buckets of food, don't be the king of children!"
There was no one around him to support him, but he believed that as long as he persisted, it would be useful, and he always said to himself, "I have won so many times, and I will win this time." ”
But he failed in the end! The logical thinking of everyone turned out to be wrong!
In the case of helplessness in reality, he gave up the so-called profession and the so-called iron rice bowl. Later, I was running around because of work.
I saw the snow in May in the Northeast, not because of some earth-shaking grievances.
What is a gentle and virtuous Jiangnan woman in Jiangnan, and there are also shrewd and capable men.
I know what "I can't figure out"!
In the land of Qilu, I know the tall women who are responsible but arrogant, and the boundless sea, but there are no beautiful bikini beauties on the seaside, more middle-aged aunts and uncles with big bellies!
In the northwest ravines, he saw what real poverty is, the coolness of the earthen cave in summer, and also knows what the original is!
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"Such a big person, why wait for someone else to give it, can't you reach out and ask for it? You don't want it, you don't grab it, who knows what the final result will be?"
Isn't that what life is all about?
It is enough to have seen and experienced this beautiful world!
When you go out when you're young, you have to learn to pay attention when you're old.
Home is not only a place to enjoy, but also a place to work hard to contribute to it!
Parents raise their children young, and children have to take care of their parents' old!
It's better to go back, it's better to go back, dust to dust, dust to dust, isn't life like this?