Thinking about my situation, I have already lost, and I have lost completely. Of course, Qiao Yu didn't know that I was a loser.

After sending Qiao Yu away, I stood alone on the rooftop, reminiscing about the bits and pieces here. Whether it's happy or unhappy, it's been my life experience. When you come, you are full of expectations, and when you leave, you don't regret it. I watched for a while, and then resolutely stepped out of the place.

"One day in the future, I will be full of nostalgia for this festival. "Before leaving, I deliberately left a lonely back.

When I got home, the second elder was not there. I was fine, I picked up my phone and saw a very interesting topic. She said that when you don't want to work anymore, just go to these places... Hospitals, homes and train stations.

For hospitals, I don't say unfamiliar, but I can't say familiar either. The aisle of the hospital carries how many people's desire for life, and also witnesses how many people's sadness.

I still remember a little boy, with a snorkel, who asked in a weak voice, "Brother, will I be okay?"

I said, "It's going to be fine." ”

Actually, I already knew at that time that he couldn't get better. In the face of high medical bills, their parents also intend to give up on him.

"Mom, my brother said, I'll be fine. "His smile is the purest and most beautiful I have ever seen. All they could hear was their parents sobbing from the side.

The little boy's mother covered her mouth and ran out. The boy's father followed suit. Seeing that his parents were gone, the little boy lowered his voice and said, "Brother, I know I can't get better." ”

I said, "Don't talk nonsense, you'll be fine." ”

"The day my father and mother didn't let me go to school, I knew I was sick and I wouldn't live long. I don't want my dad and mom to be sad and cry. So, I pretend to be happy every day. I want my mom and dad to see me at my best. "He obviously knew I was lying.

At this moment, I really didn't know that this five-year-old boy would say such a thing.

The boy said, "What will become of me when I die?" ”

I asked, "What do you want to become?" ”

The little boy said, "Grandma said that grandpa became a star." I want to be the brightest heart. I want my mom and dad to be able to see me when they look up. ”

I asked him, "What do you want to do the most?" ”

"I want to go to school and play with children. I—" The little boy began to breathe rapidly and his tone was choppy. I saw it and quickly pressed the panic button. For a time, many medical personnel rushed over. It was also the first time I watched a living life pass away from me.

At that time, I couldn't describe my feelings in words. I walked out with the professor in charge of the child's condition, and saw the little boy's parents crying.

The boy's mother, crying, asked, "How is my child?" ”

The professor guiltily said, "We did our best. ”

The little boy's mother heard the news and fainted.

The boy's dad said, "Thank you, doctor." ”

I followed the professor out of the place. The departure of the little boy also destroyed a home.

Hospital, in addition to birth, old age, sickness and death, there is also a ruthless contest between fate and money. If their parents had been in better condition, perhaps, the little boy would have lived a few more years. But, the reality, sometimes it's very cold and cruel.

At this moment, no one talks about the quiet years, no one looks for poetry and distance. How powerless it can be in the face of a sudden illness.

At this time, it also made me understand. Why do many people work so hard, is it because he loves money? Yes and no. At least he understands that money is what he uses to protect against unknown risks.

I'm no stranger to train stations.

From childhood to junior high school, I was a headache for my parents and teachers. I can change myself, in addition to being at the same table with Hongjiao, betting with Xu Jianchuan with youth, and my father took me to a place... Railway station.

I still remember that day because I contradicted the head teacher, I was asked to be a parent. At that time, I didn't want to study at all. I naively thought that I could grow up without studying.

After being lectured by my teacher, my father asked me, "What are you going to do if you don't study?" ”

I said, "As long as you don't read, you can do anything." ”

My father didn't speak for a long time, nor did he persuade me to study, but sighed and said, "I'll take you somewhere." ”

My dad took a taxi and took me to the airport. My dad asked me what I saw, and I didn't see anything different except the crowd running in a hurry.

My dad took me to the train station again and asked me what I saw.

I saw a lot of people in the square of Noda. Dad didn't say anything when he saw me, but he knew from the look in my eyes what I was trying to say.

Dad asked, "If you don't study, it's your choice." Would you rather choose a train, or would you rather choose a plane. ”

I said, "I'd rather soar in the clouds than crawl on the ground." ”

"I'm sure you'll make your own choice. My dad looked at me and said, "It's up to you to choose what kind of life you want to live and what kind of life you want to have." Reading books doesn't necessarily change your destiny. But, it can change your horizons. ”

So, at that moment, I chose to study hard and work hard in the future. Reading books doesn't seem to change my destiny, but it broadens my landscape.

Think about the past. I paid more attention to my father's words, 'Young people have to be ambitious, they can't complain.'" At this moment, I also know that the bad things will pass. When I look back in the future, I don't regret it.

I stayed at home for a few days and couldn't sit still. This kind of life is not what I want at all. I want to go to the end of the world with a sword, I want to cross mountains and rivers, and I want to cross rivers. In the face of unemployment, I want to pick myself up quickly. I'm going to see the world outside, and I'm going to embark on a new journey.

However, my idea was instantly rejected by me. Because, I know my mother won't let me out.

A few days later, it was Chinese New Year's Eve. I accompanied my parents, had a reunion dinner, and then sat by the TV to celebrate the New Year together. I don't know how long it's been since I've been like this with my parents. But, I know, it should be a long time.

Perhaps, as I grow older, with the implementation of work, and after starting a family. This feeling will only fade away. At the moment, I don't think about what the future holds. All I know is what a beautiful night it is for a family to keep a New Year's vigil.

As the New Year's bell rings, colorful fireworks pierce the night sky. On the first day of the new year, it officially begins.

Dad said, "Happy New Year." ”

My mother also said, "Happy New Year." ”

I also said, "Happy New Year, Mom and Dad." ”

Dad, Mom, one handed me a red envelope. This is the second elder's intention, so I naturally accepted it. Then, I took out two red envelopes and handed them to the second elder.

My mother took the red envelope and said, "You've grown up." ”

yes, I did. I'm no longer the kid who asks my parents for money.

The first and second years of junior high school... Fifteen, day after day, I silently calculated. I really want to tell the second elder that I want to go out and see the outside world. When I looked at the second elder, I couldn't open my mouth anyway.

Ten days later, I still haven't opened my mouth.

At noon that day, I woke up from a nap and saw the second elder sitting in the living room. I looked into the living room and saw that my luggage was packed. On the desk, put my ID card and train ticket.

When my father saw my surprised eyes, he said, "You kid, how long do you want to live at home for nothing?" Why, you quit, you don't want to find another job? ”

I shouted, "Mom, Dad... I..."

My mother looked at me and said, "Let's go! When you go out, remember to come back more often. ”

My voice was a little choked and I said, "I will." ”

My father said, "You young people often say that there is a place to have a home, but there is no job. There is a place to work, there is no home. The hometown can't accommodate the body, and the other country can't accommodate the soul. I want to tell you, where there is a home, there is a home. ”

Looking at the second elder, I didn't know what to say. The hometown can't accommodate the body, and the other country can't accommodate the soul. It's because you think too much, you want too much. Where there is a home, there is a place to go, and there is a place to be.

My soul has stayed in my hometown. My flesh has remained in another land. I want to carve out a place with a soul and a body. It will be home, not a foreign land. It is the home of home.

"There are some things that you don't do when you're young, and you really don't have a chance. Then he said, "Let's go! I'll send you away." ”

I said, "Mom, Dad, I've grown up." You don't have to send it. ”

No matter what I said, Mom and Dad insisted on taking me to the train station. I waved goodbye to the second elder, and when I turned around, my heart was very uncomfortable. But, I can't shed tears, I want the second elder to look at me and leave with a smile.

I made my way into the pit and found my seat. I put my luggage away and took out a book to read. I pulled out my headphones, hung them on my ears, and listened to the melody of the music.

Moving forward, I am afraid that my ability will not be able to support my dreams, and I am even more afraid that the years will pass. My tears flowed down my eyes inadvertently.

Seeing my eyes blurred with tears, the station attendant asked, "Sir, what's wrong with you?" ”

I picked up the sadness in my heart, "Although my homeland is good, I will eventually part." ”

With a smile, the station attendant said, "Have a nice trip." ”