I should say that when I started the last single chapter, I thought that this would be the result.

I just didn't expect it to come so quickly.

The problem is much more serious than I thought.

Yesterday it could have been changed, at least I could have sent a single chapter to explain.

But what do I have to explain? Is this a break or worse?

I do not know.

I've always had enough reasons to write about it, there's no doubt about that.

But the reasons to stop are getting stronger.

I'd love to write it down, but I'm probably not ready yet.

It's that I'm not capable enough.

I could easily write about anyone else, but I found that I wouldn't write about her.

I didn't have the courage to continue portraying her, I was afraid that I would end up writing beyond recognition.

The thought that I might be writing about someone else left me with no motivation to stick with it.

Maybe the timeline opened too early, or maybe the plot reached a key turning point.

I can't stop at her appearance, I have to try to read her deeply.

But the more I got to know her, the more I felt like I didn't understand her.

Everyone is as esoteric as a book, even if she stands in front of me and tells me all about her past.

I don't necessarily understand it all.

What's more, all I can find are some scattered videos, and all I know about her is in front of the camera.

The most memorable woman may still be in "Love Rain".

I believe she has those good qualities as well. But in reality, she is smarter, more stable, and more thoughtful.

And since she was a child, she has also changed a lot. She rarely reveals her nature now, or rather she's used to disguise.

She became very strong and mature. Perfect is a bit strange.

This will give me some inexplicable emotions.

It's also a bit weak.

I hope you can understand my hypocrisy.

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In fact, there is another opportunity.

That's when you finish the part in front of you and enter the main part.

I can start over like I'm writing a new book.

Maybe there will be a turnaround.

The style can be completely different, and the way it is written is completely different.

Strengthen language and movement. It's no longer a blockbuster narration and inner drama.

If I could use it comfortably, I might have written more easily.

I don't dare to say how novel the whole story is, but some interesting plots are designed later.

But more likely to be necessary but uninteresting transitions, which would kill my interest in writing about them.

How can this be done?

Or I'd come up with a whole new way of writing: with my understanding of the outline, skip all the transitions and foreshadowing, and focus on everything.

Leave the middle to your own brains.

How about it, do you want to give it a try?

The plot that is about to be written is really explosive and complicated to the extreme.

is the most typical, the kind I don't want to write about.

It took me a lot of brain cells to come up with it and finally make it sense.

But in the end, I still want to be lazy and save trouble.

I knew what I should write, but I still couldn't write it.

It's not a conflict, and it couldn't be more normal.

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I haven't planned to be a eunuch for the time being, so please rest assured.

Until I think about it though, the update may be less stable.

Even if I give up on writing a full story, I won't stop writing.

I'll probably update it in another form: like dozens of fun extras.

No matter what, you will never fail to live up to those inspirations.

Please give me a moment.

I'm sorry.

Thank you so much.