I tried to calm myself down, and looked at Jin Junchi for a moment: "What do you want to explain to me? You didn't leave the church before the wedding for no reason, because Xie Yunjing dug up Chu Yunsang's ashes, and she said that if you don't go, she will scatter Chu Yunsang's ashes in the sea?"

"Xiao Wan, how do you know about Sangsang?" Jin Junchi narrowed, his eyes were like two sharp swords, wanting to pierce my soul.

"I didn't know at first, but I asked a private investigator to investigate. I looked at Jin Junchi calmly, his pupils constricted, and the pain and worry were like mist, gradually covering the clarity at the bottom of his eyes, "I think I'm qualified to figure out what kind of woman is the one who snatches you away from me every time at the most critical time." ”

"What do you mean by 'snatching me away'? She no longer exists, what can she rob?" Jin Junchi's eyebrows were gloomy, and his eyes looked at me like he was looking at an unreasonable child.

"It's because she's no longer alive that you feel at ease in what you do for her, and no matter how much you do, you don't feel like it's enough......" I tried to suppress the bitterness in my chest and not let myself cry.

"We've been through so much together, I thought you could understand me, she used to be my lover, and there are some things I won't sit idly by. The disappointment in Jin Junchi's eyes was very straightforward without concealing it, but his tone still softened, "Don't think about it too much, just know that I only have you in my heart." ”

"I'm sorry, I don't know. Seeing Jin Junchi's calm appearance, all kinds of emotions continued to accumulate in my heart, and after reaching a limit, I actually calmed down, "Who were you who pushed me into the swimming pool before? Because of whom, I ran out in the middle of the night after being scarred by spurs? Who was it because I was struggling on the edge of anemia to give her mother a blood transfusion? And because of whom, you left me alone in the church and faced the pity of others? Is it Chu Yunsang, is it Chu Yunsang, or Chu Yunsang!"

So don't tell me, 'There is only me in your heart', because what I see is that you only have Chu Yunsang in your heart. ”

"Xiaowan, can you be fair, you can't wipe out everything between us and my love for you because of this!" A thin anger shrouded Jin Junchi's face, "Isn't everything I did for you nothing in your eyes?"

"Everything you gave me is engraved in my heart, and even fused into my bones and blood. It's you, do you know why you do those things?" a barren smile tugged at the corner of my mouth, "We haven't been together for a long time, but we've been through a lot. But those are not actually experienced with us in your heart. Jin Junchi, you have always regarded me as Chu Yunsang!" Jin Junchi opened his mouth as if he wanted to refute, but I didn't give him this chance, "Don't you dare to admit it? What did you call me when you first saw me? Why did you send me home? We don't know each other at all, why did you take me to register my marriage first?"

You don't know how deeply you have been touched by the love you have given me, the kindness you have given me. With such a sincere heart, I want to return more love to you. But when I knew that I was just Chu Yunsang's stand-in, those happiness and touches that were remembered in my heart turned into sharp knives, poking my heart into a thousand holes. ”

"Little Evening...... It's not what you think...... I didn't think of you as a stand-in for her......" Jin Junchi almost roared.

And I just understand that the more fragile a person's heart is, the more they need to rely on seemingly powerful language. It can already explain everything that can make Jin Junchi, who is usually moody, lose control so much.

"Jin Junchi, although you hurt me all the time by doing this, I am really touched by your affection for her so deeply. I envy Chu Yunsang, even if she is no longer there, your love for her is still there. Touched is moved, but there is no way not to mind. Your love is so sacrosanct, so what am I?You say let me be fair, but is it fair to me that my love is shrouded in the shadow of a stand-in and is so desecrated?" I didn't want to cry at all, but the tears fell uncontrollably, "Do you know how glaring it seems to me when you miss another person through me? Actually, from the very beginning I noticed that your eyes were sometimes empty when you looked at me. When we escaped death in the snowy mountains of Abiscu, and you told me that you couldn't lose me 'again', I already understood that Xie Yunjing was right—I was just a stand-in for Yunsang.

But I still refused to let go, and kept convincing myself not to think too much, she was gone, and I had nothing to worry about. I really tried my best, and even every time I wanted to ask if you thought of me as Yunsang again, I thought again that when we were hanging from the cliff, you said you wouldn't leave me. But you always keep destroying my efforts.

Yesterday, I heard Xie Yunjing say that he wanted to sprinkle Yunsang's ashes into the sea, but in fact, you don't have to go. Just one Xie Yunjing, you can completely let Ah Zheng go, or let someone more trustworthy deal with her. However, when I and Yunsang need to make a trade-off together, it will always be me who is abandoned.

So, when the priest asked me if I would like you to be my husband, I suddenly didn't know how I should accept you......"

"I love you, little late. Jin Junchi held my tear-covered face, staring at me with straight eyes, as if to engrave me in his mind.

I smiled miserably, I was already dead, Jin Junchi's sentence of 'I love you' couldn't move me anymore.

"I feel sorry for you crying like this, you need to calm down. Jin Junchi took me into his arms.

I pushed him away, and as soon as I stood up, the knee that I had just been knocked on hurt hard, I gasped and subconsciously touched the injured position.

Jin Junchi picked me up and put me on the sofa, then lifted the trousers of the pajamas, and a large bag was swollen on the knee, showing a hideous blue and purple: "How did you hurt like this?"

"Just apply some medicine in a while. "It took me so much energy just now, I don't even have the strength to speak now, "I'm fine, you go first." ”

Jin Jun was stunned for a moment, and then grabbed his hair angrily. However, he quickly controlled his emotions: "Where is the medicine, I'll treat your knee injury first." I closed my eyes and sat quietly on the couch. Jin Junchi held my hand, "Xiaowan, you are like this, I feel very distressed......"

"If you really feel sorry for me, just go, I can't rest when you're here. "I'm not lying, as long as I see Jin Junchi, my heart hurts irrepressibly. It hurts when you can't see him, but it's not as unbearable as this.

Jin Jun looked at me for a long time, and then walked to the balcony, as if to make a call. After about twenty minutes, there was a knock on the door of the apartment.

I was just about to answer the door, but Jin Junchi turned back to the room from the balcony, with a strong smell of tobacco on his body.

He opened the door, and I heard Jiang Dong say: "Mr. Jin, this is the ointment you wanted, the pastry chef of the shop you said asked for leave today, and I went to another store to buy cranberry mousse cake." ”

"Hmm. When Jin Junchi folded back, there were two more bags in his hand, he first found the ointment and applied it to me, then took out the cake and opened the box: "Eat some cake to see if you like it or not." ”

I was still nestled in the sofa, and when I heard Jin Junchi speak, I even closed my eyes again. Jin Junchi didn't seem to have anything to do with me: "You rest first, my phone will be on all the time, and when you want to see me, call me......"

I suddenly remembered the saying I once saw, 'Mourning is greater than the heart not dying'. Hanging like this is actually more cruel to us, I blinked my eyes, and two tears crossed my cheeks and fell directly into the neck socket: "Do we still have to live like this, no one mentions Yunsang, when nothing has happened? She is in your heart, and it has been ingrained to the extent that it cannot be shaken." You can't forget it, so you choose not to think about it, but I can't. Let's separate......"

"Xiaowan, don't be like this!" Jin Junchi's voice was wrapped in a subtle tremor, but I could hear it, "Things are not what you think, I admit that when I first met you, I did ...... But that's not the case now, I know very well that I love you, can you trust me once?"

"I ...... It doesn't seem to be possible. Loving someone deeply is not an unforgivable mistake, let alone hiding it. You let yourself go and let me go, stop being stubborn. I raised my head and looked at Jin Junchi's eyes, deep and painful, "I will find a lawyer to draft a divorce agreement as soon as possible, there is no deep hatred between us, we should be able to break up peacefully, right?"

"Little Evening ......" Jin Junchi leaned down, it was already twilight, I couldn't see his expression clearly in such a light, his face was half enveloped in soft light, and half was hidden in shadows. But the pure smell mixed with the smell of tobacco on his body was forced over strongly. I involuntarily leaned back: "I've made everything I need to say clearly, and you should think about it, in fact, separation is the ...... Hmmm......"

Jin Junchi suddenly grabbed my shoulder, and pulled me towards him with a strong force, and when I reacted, I was already tightly held in his arms, as if I was about to rub into the depths of my soul. Jin Junchi grabbed my lips, and his breath poured into my mouth like a tide, not giving me any respite, and frantically robbing my breath. He kissed too strongly, and the taste between his lips and teeth spread to my mouth, with a bitter tobacco taste, just like our mood at the moment.

The kiss ended entirely because we both reached the limit of our breathing, and both of us were about to suffocate.

I used all my strength to push Jin Junchi, but it was in vain, except for the lips of the two people to distance themselves, my body was still imprisoned by him. Jin Junchi's eyes were rolling with a burning **, I know him too well, when he can't tame my will, he will always retreat to tame my body first.