Every rainy spring day makes me anxious. Pen % fun % Pavilion www.biquge.info

Five years have passed like this, and the days without you have been lived silently alone, and I have never been able to get out of the sadness of not being accompanied by you.

I don't dare to count the days and months of the past five years, how I survived. I only know that five years of life don't seem to have lived, and it doesn't mean anything to me. I'm just next to this withered lifeless day.

Your face began to wither on the day you left, and your soul fell on that day. It's just a shell that lives, living with the flow. No one can really understand me anymore, no one knows my every thought and thought like you do. There can no longer be soul resonance, I know very well.

The child is growing up day by day, and the day of leaving home is just around the corner, and I panic every day that the day when I will be left alone will come.

After the vicissitudes of life, the heart is no longer dust-free, but full of dust of the years, even if there is a real fate to come, but I can not accept and respond wholeheartedly. My mother forgot you for the sake of me, saying that you who can't accompany me to old age are not my lover, but just come to pay off the debt you owed me in your last life. I'd rather be like this, I'd rather believe such words, but my heart is against my thoughts, and I can't erase the deep meaning of your and my love for more than ten years.

Qingming Festival, these days have been dreaming of you, every time is a chaotic and unpeaceful scene, last night I actually dreamed that you and I killed someone, and played with the dead as if nothing happened, although in reality I have dissected the corpse, I am not afraid of such things as the dead, but how can I treat human life so indifferently?

I want to see you, although I know that you are not there, you are no longer a part of this world, and I can't find any other way to contact you except to go there to see you. Although my heart is always thinking about you, what is the use of thinking about you? You are destined to be only a pain that I will never forget in this life.

I know that I have to look forward, I have to plan for myself, and I have to live the days ahead, and as Mr. Ba said, I should find my own fate, and living happily is the comfort to you. But it's so hard!

Doudou is still the same Ma Daha in this year's high school entrance examination, not in a hurry, not nervous, not very hard, and her grades are okay, although friends said that she can be arranged to study in a key high school, but I think: with her ability, it is okay to go to a model high school, the pressure is not so great, don't hurry up and grow up a little easier. You have arranged the foundation of her life, she doesn't have much pressure in life, and I don't want her to work so hard, just usually verbally supervise, accompany more, and don't fall behind. Anyway, this kid doesn't have any ambitions, so he just lives an ordinary life and lives comfortably.

After living half a life, I feel that being an ordinary person, without too many ideals and aspirations, only happy with a porridge and a meal in life, and living a plain life is also the happiness of life. It's not like us who pursue excellence and the pursuit of perfection, and live a heavenly life on earth, but looking at the mortal world, isn't it happiness and satisfaction that everyone rejoices and is happy for a delicious meal and a piece of clothing? Now I yearn for such happiness, but it is so difficult to find out! We have long been accustomed to the pursuit and pleasure beyond the material and the world, and I have been deprived of the right to return to the mortal world, and I can no longer find such a way back to life.