Ten years of life and death, without thinking, unforgettable......

On New Year's Day in 2009, on the first day of work, I wore the "equipment" you bought for me to Xinmeng, and embarked on a journey to work on foot, which was a year and a half, until you left and left me alone.

On New Year's Day in 2009, at 7:00 in the morning, it was still dark, we lived in a new building specially built by the hospital - the talent building, I went out to pass by your small garden where you exercised in the morning, and I remember that once I played a prank, secretly slapped your ass doing push-ups, you were greatly startled, a little unhappy, saw that I was a little embarrassed, patted my head and said: Naughty! Go to work.

Passing through the south gate of the hospital, walking up to the river embankment, facing the cool wind, and then entering the small alley of the Jintou vegetable market, the people who get up early to sell and buy vegetables almost occupy the narrow alley, dodging and moving to get out.

After the vegetable market and then cross the Baisha Bridge, cross the road, in order to enter the Nanhu Park, the sky has been bright, there are already a lot of people on the road who have exercised in the morning, all the way to the fragrance of flowers and all the way to sing, my happy mood almost to fly up the feeling.

In one hour and five minutes, I arrived at the unit by the South Lake, pulled out the towel you stuffed into my back to absorb sweat, and started a happy day of work.

At that time, life was already in peace, and it was the easiest and happiest day for both of us.

After work in the evening, I walked back again, crossed the flowery and tree-lined lakeside road of Nanhu, and when I went out, I would see you diagonally on the bicycle looking in the direction of my road from a distance. The military uniform you didn't have time to change out of attracted a lot of attention, and I was naturally proud.

Sitting in the back seat, naturally hugging your waist, quietly putting your fingers through your shirt, lightly buttoning your belly, you will endure the itch, talk and laugh. Laughing all the way, passing by the Jintou vegetable market, and buying dinner dishes.

When you get home, you must be behind me busy in the kitchen, rambling and nagging, and if you want to help, you must be disliked by me and just nagging. When everything is ready and I start frying, you're kicked out of the kitchen and into the study.

In the steam-filled kitchen, it's my out-of-tune singing that I ignore, I'm just happy.

When the children come back from school, they will naturally sit at the small desks to complete their homework, and we are all busy.

When the meal began to be served, I shouted at the big and small people, and came out to wash their hands and eat, but there was no one for a long time, so I had no time to wash my hands and faces, and rushed the two of you to put down the books in your hands to eat. Sometimes, when you all say, "Right away, right away," I get a little upset and ask you how long "right away"? You will come out in a panic and shout loudly to your child: Maotou, come out to eat, you little mother is not happy!

After the meal, I will go to the physiotherapy department according to your arrangement, and you will be responsible for cleaning the kitchen, washing dishes and pots.

A year and a half has passed in the blink of an eye.

The New Year's Day of 2019 has come, and all the past is unforgettable.

It's been nine years since you left me, and slowly, you won't even come back to my dreams. I also live like a normal person, and how many days and nights have changed, and my heart is trembling, you know?

No matter what I do, I can't find you!

Flowers float by themselves, birds fly by themselves, and the rest of their lives are long——