Comrade Jia Yuhao:

After dropping my children off at school on September 12, I went back to my hometown to take a break from the nerves that had been strained for 18 years.

Ever since I had a baby, my heart has never been easier and I have gone out of my way to raise my children, you know. Since you left, you have been even more silent, living in fear day by day, lest your child make a little mistake.

Now, the child's future is visible and bright, and I am relieved.

My mother said that my appetite and sleep were surprisingly good, and how did she know how I gritted my teeth and persevered all these years?

I went home and helped my mother build another house, and did all the work I could, and my face and hands were tanned, and I didn't care at all, it didn't matter! I'd rather be so tired that I fall asleep every day than miss you every day in a familiar environment we are together!

My parents are getting old, and my body is also weakening, looking at them, my heart is very sad, the people I can rely on in this world are old, and the children have not grown up, I still have to stand up and support - become their support.

Every year in late autumn and early winter, my father's stomach ulcer would recur, and this time was no exception. The old man was probably afraid that I would be worried, so he kept not squeaking and carried it by himself until the day after I left, when he said that he had a stomachache and had not slept all night. In their eyes, I was just a daughter, not a doctor!

So I hurried to the town to buy medicine, bought a pair of thickened camel hair cotton pants for my father, and then bought pants with inguinal hernia, arranged everything, and was physically and mentally exhausted!

My cousin's life also fell into the ice hole, my brother-in-law went to Macau to gamble, not to mention tens of millions of family property, and I still owed a lot of debts, and my sister was getting a divorce! I don't know how to persuade you, if you are here, I just don't want the whole world to be willing! However, the sister seems to be iron-hearted, or in order to avoid risks, in order to escape debts. However, the elder brother helped them manage the contracted land, and the salary for two years had not been paid, and the poor brother had hardly slept a peaceful sleep in those two years, and he had to go out several times every night to check the watering and fertilization. Once I went back, my brother went out on a rainy day and said that it was a waterway, and he was drenched in soup and chicken, so there must have been a lot of hard work, but the salary was lost, and I was very distressed! I felt sorry for my sister who was not virtuous when she met someone, and I was even more distressed that my brother worked hard but couldn't get a salary.

Alas, this may be life, all of which are ditches and bumps.

Douzi has adapted to the life of the military school, and after two weeks of training, he told me that his classmate had a contusion on his kneecap, and asked me if it was important, and I said that it was not very important, and that I could reduce some training.

It took two weeks to tell me that it was her own contusion, that she had been off for two weeks and had not trained, and that she was afraid that I would rush to school, so she didn't tell me.

I called the instructor to understand the situation, and the other party said: She seems to be a little evasive from training, I saw that she walked fast when she watched movies, and she was still running when she went to the supermarket, that is, when she was training, she said that her knees hurt. Auntie, don't tell me that I told you, I talked to her a few times, and she was still crying, so I didn't dare to talk to her, she hates me now, and she rolls her eyes when she sees me.

I thought that the little pot friend might really be a little lazy, maybe it was my character that I had carefully raised her since I was a child, which made her a little worried.

Today, the company took her to have an MRI of the knee joint to see how it was, the young life must be very resilient, I think it should be fine.

In this life, without you, we can no longer have pain and hurt.

Returning to the city where we went to college together, walking through familiar cities and streets, I miss you and I miss you!

If you were, how wonderful would it be for us to walk the same path that we once walked hand in hand when we were young?

I couldn't help but burst into tears again and again, Jun is gone, and my heart is no longer ......

In the few days I went home, I dreamed of you several times, once you actually drank wine, your face was still red as always, your fair skin was crimson, and every time I dreamed it was your real face.

There is no king in this life, and I have no joy anymore.

Let's live like this.

Sitting on the plane, 10,000 meters in the air, I wonder if I am closer to you? A thought came to me several times: If the plane crashes, I will not be sad, and this life can be regarded as a relief.

The child has grown up, and the parents still have siblings to rely on, so I can go with you.

However, I can't kill myself, I can't be sorry for anyone who kisses me and loves me, and if it is an accident, I will not be left in debt in this life.

Where are you? miss us?

XW

2018.10.11