"As for why I went to Tianyou Hospital later, this is also due to Ding's authorization, that is, a period of time before the kidnapping case opened, I also saw the news on the Internet, the death of the person who killed me, the coma who was seriously injured and unconscious, and the arrest of the caught, the ending is not good, but the bad guys will be punished accordingly, only me, I was at that time... It's not that I didn't want to come back, but every time I walked out of the door, it seemed that I couldn't even see the sun, and whoever looked at me on the road felt that I was being stripped naked, so after trying a few times, I felt that it was better to be a dead man, and I didn't need to come back, and I didn't need to contact my former friends and relatives anymore. ”

“…… I also thought about really dying, while I was sober, I ran to the beach and let the sea water flood up and sweep myself away, I felt that if Ding authorized the fishing boat that didn't come to find him, I should have sunk in the sea, and dying in the sea is also a good destination, but it's ridiculous, people's survival instinct will be stimulated at the first time, the sea water is not over my head, after my breathing is blocked, I will unconsciously start to flutter desperately, I can swim, not so easy to drown, and finally I obediently climbed up from the sea...... What is this? You feel that life is hopeless and want to die, but in the end you find that you can't even die, because you still lack the courage to die. ”

Chang An smiled lightly again.

The tears were dry, and they survived the most difficult minutes just now, and the audience was so quiet that no one talked anymore, everyone stared at the people on the stage, whether it was listening, recording, or commenting with personal emotional sympathy, in fact, these things didn't matter.

"But I've had the experience of dying, after being tied to a fishing boat three years ago, I drifted at sea for more than three hours, I couldn't move my hands and feet, I could only watch the timer on the explosives beat every second, it was a real feeling..."

"You can imagine similar scenes in movies, there are often police and gangster movies, generally in this case, it seems that the people tied to the explosives are very calm, I used to watch those movies and felt that it was normal to be calm, but when it was my turn, I found that it was not at all, I was crying at first, shouting for help, and then I couldn't shout, and I also knew that there were desert islands around, and no one would come at all, I began to save myself, tried a lot of ways, and wanted to rub the rope on my hand first, but there was no way, the plots in the movie were all deceitful, there were not so many coincidences, there were not so many escapes, my legs were also tied, and my hands were tied to the iron bars in the cabinBut I can't do it when I think about it, my hands and feet are tied, if the boat capsizes and I can't swim ashore, I will die, both horizontally and vertically, so I think about it makes me even more desperate, I can only continue to cry......"

Chang An talked a lot in one breath, talking about her struggles and fears at that time, obviously thrilling and desperate, but her tone was very flat.

She has never told anyone about this experience, including Zhou Wei.

It was a nightmare for her, and she didn't want to repeat it to deepen her memory.

The people at the bottom listened carefully, this is not a story, nor is it a movie plot, this is the personal experience of this woman on stage.

Chang Jiahui's face was already full of tears.

Chang An laughed again, "Then I started to have a stomachache, and I thought that it was not good, there was still a child in my belly, I was afraid that I would not be able to keep it, but after thinking about it for a while, I was going to be blown up, and the child must be dead in my stomach, it was nothing more than a matter of being a little earlier and a little later, but I felt that it was better to stay in my stomach than to turn into blood, so I started crying again, but then I cried and I stopped shouting for help, I called my husband's name..."

Zhou Wei put his palms together on his face, he felt that Chang An had really picked a good time, when the two were together before, he didn't say it, but he wanted to say it in front of so many people, was it to punish him?

Assistant Ye Li has cried like a fool, crying while swiping the messages and barrages of online live broadcasts, all of which are a long list of crying faces, and most netizens sympathize with Chang An's experience.

Chang An can't see the messages on the Internet, she doesn't even bother to look at the expressions of the reporters below, she just wants to say what she has been buried in her heart.

“… Unfortunately, I was still in a cold war with my husband before I was kidnapped, I don't know if anyone of you was present remembered, when a few photos of me and other members of the opposite sex were exposed on the Internet, my husband misunderstood that I had an ambiguous relationship with him, Chinese New Year's Eve ran to Shenyang on a business trip, in fact, I thought about it later, it was really not a big deal, I just explained a few words, but at that time the temper was too strong, no one refused to bow down, and finally he ran to Shenyang, I didn't open my mouth until I found out that I was pregnant. ”

Chang An went to Yin, she once went to Shenyang to find Zhou Xin, but bumped into the episode of him and Zhou Xin sharing a room.

"I got the test results in the hospital and sent a WeChat message to my husband, I said that I had good news to tell him, let him come back early, I wanted to surprise him, because my husband wanted a child in those two years, but I couldn't conceive, but I had the impression that he didn't reply to me, and then there was a kidnapping,

"It's sad, my husband wanted a baby, and I didn't have time to tell him the good news in person, and he probably learned about my pregnancy from the kidnapper's phone. ”

In fact, Chang An is very sorry about this, she has always thought in the past few years, even if Zhou Wei answered her phone at that time, or she directly told him in WeChat that she was pregnant, we have a baby, and you are going to be a father, even if she just let her say it in person, she also felt that it would be better, but in the end, she didn't even give her this opportunity, and what is even sadder is that it should be the only child in her life.

Chang An turned his face away and wiped the corners of his eyes again, turned to face the camera and pursed his lips lightly.

"Speaking of which, can I use your lens to say a few words to my husband?"

"Yes, yes!"

"Absolutely, no problem!"

The reporters in the audience echoed, waiting for what Chang An had to say.

Chang An straightened her back, facing the camera head-on, her eyes were clear, she seemed to be going to see something farther, and then she slowly spoke.

She said: "Zhou Xian, I'm sorry, I couldn't give you an explanation for my brother's affairs back then, I was too temperamental at that time, and I couldn't fully trust you." ”

She thought that when she rushed to Shenyang overnight, she only heard him and Zhou Xin talking at the door of the room and was sure that he had betrayed, and he watched the "intimate photos" of himself and Chen Haodong being spread all over the Internet, and even spread to the company's intranet.

"And that child, I'm also very sorry, I didn't protect him well, I may not be a qualified mother, but I want to thank you, thank you for your willingness to accept Xiaozhi, really, I know that you have to put a lot of pressure on me this time, but I'm very embarrassed, who let you marry a wife like me who always causes trouble for you. ”

Chang An said that he laughed first.

She smiled, and the audience laughed too.