It was probably the first time I logged in, so I waited a while to get on, and after entering, it was the initial ad, and the finger swiped over a few pictures, and finally the real > I don't know how many times the version has been upgraded in three years, and the interface and operation are not quite the same, but overall it has not changed.

Chang An's avatar is still the little rabbit, cute, staring at himself with a pair of naughty big eyes and smiling.

When she entered the circle of friends, there were not many people who added WeChat to each other before, and she was less than 100 in her address book, and she disappeared for so long, and many people have deleted her.

Chang An clicked in, and the first few in a row were advertisements for selling products, colorful pictures, what health products, cosmetics, clothes, shoes and socks and even deodorants for the bathroom, etc., anyway, there was everything.

In recent years, micro-businesses and purchasing agents have risen suddenly, and it seems that there are so many people in everyone's circle of friends.

Chang An probably glanced twice, because the avatars have changed, and some people have even changed their WeChat nicknames, Chang An can't correspond to who is who, but Luo Xiaoyu's name has not changed.

The third one in the row is her, Chang An clicked in and took a look, the avatar is no longer the cartoon little character before, but replaced with a photo of her and a little girl, the girl is fleshy, with two pigtails, Chang An thinks it should be her daughter, count the days, her daughter should be four years old.

As for the content of her circle of friends, it is updated so frequently, just looking at the time, seven or eight articles have been updated in one day today, what milk powder, liquid calcium tablets, DHA, etc., although Chang An doesn't understand, but looking at the packaging and introduction, you should know that they are all baby products.

Is Luo Xiaoyu also doing micro-business now? Doesn't she draw?

Chang An wanted to flip through a recent photo of her, but when she went in, there were a lot of product pictures, and she was impatient after a few brushes, so she gave up.

There are many articles in the public account, all kinds of chicken soup, recommendations, what to learn English check-in records, small videos, etc., Chang An only briefly glanced at them.

Brushed until the very back, Chang An brushed Chang Jiahui's circle of friends, the avatar is a pair of hands held together, and a delicate ring is worn on the ring finger.

In the past few years, various Meitu beauty apps have also emerged in an endless stream, and anyone can take photos that look very high-quality, so it's not clear whether the photo is from the Internet or taken by herself.

Chang An didn't pay much attention to it, and entered her circle of friends, and the latest update was three days ago.

"Sister, it's been another year, come and choose a bottle of wine for you......"

The accompanying picture should be a supermarket or winery wine shelf, with rows of wine on it.

Chang An remembered the goblet he saw in front of the monument in the evening, half a cup of scarlet liquid in the cup, and calculated the time, three days ago should have been her "death day".

Chang An felt a stream of air in his chest go up.

For three years, she disappeared completely, did not socialize, did not contact, and did not even want to look back, always telling herself that if she became so unbearable, she didn't have to come back, how to face these people, they would either be sad or disgusted, so she just blindly avoided, maybe she felt how great she was, but now that she thought about it, she didn't come back, but she left all the pain in place, so that those who loved her lost themselves.

As Zhou Wei said before, she is not great, she is selfish.

Now it seems that Chang An feels that he is not only selfish, but also cowardly and incompetent.

has been running away for so many years, in fact, she really doesn't dare to face the past, she doesn't dare to face herself.

It's just that she can't pass her own level, her heart is not strong enough, and she can swallow her with just one of them.

Chang An threw his head back on the sofa.

Love has made her weak, but love can also make her strong.

……

Chang An sat on the sofa for almost a night, thought about some things, sorted out some things, and figured out a lot of truths.

She knows that there will be a very difficult road ahead, about the experience of the past three years, her stories and encounters, she can't hide it, as long as she stays by Zhou Wei's side for a day, those dirty, ugly, and unbearable will be exposed to the sun sooner or later.

This is what she has been worried and afraid of, and it is also the reason why she has been reluctant to appear for three years, because once exposed, she will not only face the fingers of the people around her, but the flood of public opinion as a whole.

It doesn't matter if she is devoured by herself, but she doesn't want to affect Zhou Wei, it is not easy for him to get to where he is today, his future road is a broad road, and she can't be a stumbling block for him.

Chang An has always thought so, and this idea has been going on for almost a full three years, but now?

She can't allow herself to hesitate, just like Zhou Wei said before, at least give him a chance, in other words, give herself a chance.

If this is a battle, if she becomes the target of public criticism, she cannot directly disarm and surrender.

She's not without nothing, is she?

She also has Zhou Wei, Xiaozhi, family, and love!

She's going to fight for herself

……

When the sky was slightly bright, Chang An sent a message to Chang Jiahui on WeChat; After careful consideration of the words, she originally edited a long paragraph, but it didn't seem appropriate to say anything, so she left the first sentence in the end.

"Jiahui, I'm Chang'an!"

When the message was sent, she didn't expect an immediate reply from there, because it was too early, and according to the girl's habit of sleeping lazy, this point must still be in the dreamland, but a few seconds later, there was a change at the top of the dialog box, and the words "The other party is editing" appeared.

Did she see it?

She's replying to messages?

What will you give me back?

Chang An was inevitably nervous when he pinched his phone, and his palms were even about to sweat, but the words "editing" on the dialog box stayed there, and no new information came over the interface.

What's going on?

Chang An was about to write the second article, when the interface moved, and Chang Jiahui's reply finally came.

"Who are you? How do you have my sister's login password? If you dare to make a joke about this again, I'll kill your whole family!"

“……”

Chang An was stunned for a moment.

She just thought about it, that girl might cry directly, or she would throw a long list of questions, but this style of painting is wrong, it's swear words and killing the whole family, so fierce, it was completely unexpected by her, but after thinking about it, Chang Jiahui didn't believe it, it was normal, she was fat, in other words, a person who had been "dead" for three years suddenly sent a WeChat message to himself, and he was scared of his guts, and he could kill the whole family!

Chang An felt that her nose was sour, but the corners of her mouth couldn't help laughing, she slowed down, and with this slow effort, Chang Jiahui sent a few more > in a row "Who are you?"

"Speak!"

"Who the hell are you, don't kid me!"

One by one, like a small cannon battle, Chang An thought, it's been three years, and Jiahui is almost thirty years old, why hasn't her anxious temperament changed at all.

Chang An waited for his mood to stabilize a little, picked up his mobile phone again, and sent a voice.

She said: "Jiahui, I'm really Chang'an..."

……

In recent years, the air pollution has been serious, and the clouds have been foggy for many days.

Chang An put on a mask and went downstairs, ten minutes ago she had received a call from Chang Jiahui, saying that she had gone down the second ring road.

There is no traffic jam at this point in time, it should be almost there, Chang An was afraid that she would not be able to find the ward, so she deliberately stood at the door of the inpatient building and waited.

At this point in time, there are no family members, it is rare to see a nurse or doctor on night duty passing by, and the sound of brushing can be heard in the thick fog, which should be a cleaner sweeping the floor.

Chang An waited for about seven or eight minutes, in addition to nervousness and anticipation, there were also inexplicable emotions slowly piling up.

She put her hand in the pocket of her coat, and the tighter she clenched, the tighter and tighter, as if she was condensing some kind of strength, until the sound of tuk-tuk tuk shoes came from the thick fog, although she hadn't seen anyone yet, but for some reason, Chang An could be sure that the person who came must be her sister.

Sure enough, within a few seconds, the figure in the dense fog changed from blurry to clear, as if wearing a yellow coat, oh no, when I approached Chang'an, I found that it was not yellow, it was beige, and there was a silk scarf around my neck.

The most important thing is that she didn't see Chang An at all, maybe she was walking too fast in front of her, or maybe the fog was too big She didn't notice that there were people standing at the door, anyway, she walked in front of Chang An so gorgeously.

Chang Jiahui quickly entered the lobby of the inpatient building, and Chang An didn't stop her, just turned around and followed silently.

Chang Jiahui was waiting for the elevator and pressed the floor, but the elevator hadn't come down yet, she seemed to be in a hurry, and she kept making small movements, taking off her hair for a while, and dragging a hanging ring on her bag with her fingers for a while.

Chang An looked at her back from the side, well, thin, beautiful, knowing that she was wearing a skirt and makeup, and she also grew long hair, dyed the most popular chocolate color, and the hem was slightly hot, as long as she didn't speak, she stood like that, Chang An thought that her sister was still quite feminine now, but no, such a ladylike image could not last for half a minute, the mobile phone in Jiahui's pocket rang, and she took it out and looked at it.

"Mom, I just arrived... yes, it's so foggy, I can't drive slower on the road? Ouch, why are you crying, let me see her first, I haven't gone up yet, the elevator is coming, let's do this first!"

Chang Jiahui hurriedly hung up the phone like a machine gun, just as the elevator came down and opened the door, she was about to go in.

"Jiahui!"

At the second when he stepped out, Chang An shouted.

Chang Jiahui's back in front of the elevator froze there, and she didn't turn back immediately, but she didn't enter the elevator.

Chang An took two steps forward and said again: "Jiahui!"

Chang Jiahui pinched the fingers of the mobile phone tightly, slowly turned around, and saw the woman in front of her take off her mask......

What kind of general experience is this, I feel like I am in the gap of time, as if there is no past, there is no future, just standing in the hospital lobby in the early morning looking at each other, emotions and reason are blank at that moment, including breathing, it seems to stop automatically, until the elevator door behind him "bang" shut.

Chang An watched Chang Jiahui come to her side, walking faster and faster, walking more and more urgently, the hem of the coat seemed to blow a circle of wind, until she walked in front of Chang An, she raised the bag in her hand and threw her face on Chang An, shoulders, chest, arms, thrown down, scolded and shouted: "I know that you are not a good thing, I saw you at first sight when I was a child, selfish, vicious, hypocritical, and a bad stomach...... You woman with a bad stomach, you woman with a bad stomach... I really want to strangle you, I really want to strangle you!!"

The hatred is ruthless, Chang An could bear it at first, but he couldn't bear it after being smashed a few times in a row.

This girl really plans to beat her to death.

"Okay, okay!" Chang An grabbed her bag strap, her movements were restrained, Chang Jiahui dragged it twice, but she couldn't pull it open, she almost fell down, and finally Chang An held the person up.

"It's okay to fight twice to relieve hatred, and you can really do it!"

She rubbed her smashing shoulder, while still dragging the bag strap, Chang Jiahui stopped, the two looked at each other, first the eye circles were red, moist and transparent, and they were about to cry, but Chang An suddenly patted it on the bag, "Your bag is crocodile skin, the material is so hard, it hurts to beat people to death!"

The reunion scene, which was supposed to be quite sad, was suddenly changed by her words.

Chang Jiahui couldn't hold back, and laughed out loud.

She laughed Chang'an and laughed, face to face, and the tears slipped down after laughing, and everyone passing by had to look at them, probably thinking that they were two fools running from somewhere.

Chang Jiahui went to the ward with Chang An.

The nurse had already gotten up, but Xiaozhi hadn't woken up yet, Chang Jiahui walked to the edge of the bed and took a look.

"It's a little one. She sighed as she reached out to pinch Xiao Zhi's face in her sleep, but Chang An slapped it off in time.

"Shhhh

"Stingy, I'll just pinch it. ”

"What's there to pinch, she's not a cat or a dog, come here, don't wake her up!"

Chang An pulled Chang Jiahui aside, Chang Jiahui glared, and muttered in a low voice: "I haven't seen you for a few years, but it's a lot more fierce." ”

Chang Anwu smiled to himself.

"Let's go, find a place to talk. ”

Chang An remembered that the day he took Zhou Wei to Fuhua some time ago was also foggy, and it was a foggy day when he met Chang Jiahui today.

It seems to be a bit foggy this winter.

Chang An took Chang Jiahui across the road at the entrance of the hospital and into a small alley diagonally opposite.

At this time, many restaurants have not yet opened, and the shopping mall opposite has not yet reached working hours, so the stalls and breakfast shops in this alley have already begun to open.

In the end, Chang An entered a small snack bar.

"Come in?" she looked back and saw that Chang Jiahui was still stunned at the door, beckoned, and she had already pulled a chair against the wall and sat down.

Chang Jiahui moved into the store with a stunned expression, and almost glanced at it one step at a time, and looked at the small store several times along the way.

In fact, there is nothing to look at, just a very small shop, with a few tables and chairs, which is so shabby that it is even shabby.

"Sister..."Chang Jiahui was a little unsure, but Chang An raised her chin towards her, "Sit!"

Chang Jiahui could only sit opposite her, and just as she wanted to speak, Chang An asked, "You haven't had breakfast yet, have you?"

"Huh?" Chang Jiahui looked blank, and before she could clear her mind and answer, she saw Chang An raise her hand and beckoned to the door, "Boss, two bowls of tofu brains, two tea eggs, and a drawer of xiaolongbao!"

"Okay!" The boss who was busy frying fritters in front of the big iron pot at the door answered, and soon the things Chang An ordered were served.

Tofu brain, tea eggs, and xiaolongbao, steaming with fragrance, are all eaten in the market.

Chang An took two pairs of disposable chopsticks from the chopsticks bucket next to him, took two plastic spoons from the small basket, divided them one by one, and poured a little vinegar with a small saucer, and finally pushed one of the bowls of tofu brain in front of Chang Jiahui.

She did all these actions in one go, and she was obviously very familiar with them, but God knows that in Chang Jiahui's memory, her sister, who does not eat fireworks in the world, has never entered this kind of small shop to eat, or let alone eat, even if she is allowed to come in and sit for a while, she will feel uncomfortable.

She is a person who has eaten Western food and high-end cuisine for many years and even needs to take a napkin and spread a layer on her knees, but now she is ......

"Would you like to come some?" Chang An suddenly asked.

Chang Jiahui's train of thought was interrupted, and she saw that she was digging a little chili oil with a small spoon.

"What's the matter, what about asking you?" probably seeing that she had been stunned, Chang An asked again.

Chang Jiahui shook her head, Chang An poured the spoonful of chili oil into her bowl, and the whole shot took less than five seconds, but it made Chang Jiahui feel terrified.

Yes, it's a thriller.

Although I saw Chang An for the first time in the hospital just now, I felt that she had changed a lot, not simply from long hair to short hair, not to mention dressing style or appearance, but a change that emanated from the bones.

"Sister..."

"Huh?" Chang An looked up from the big bowl containing the tofu brain.

Chang Jiahui paused, but still didn't say anything after all.

Chang An didn't ask much, he just fanned it with his hand, "This chili oil is so spicy..."

There must be no waiter to pick up the clothes in this kind of small shop, and there will be no shelves for her to hang up, so in the end, she folded the clothes in half, rested them on her laps, and fished back the hair hanging from her ears, and then buried herself in eating.

At that moment, Chang Jiahui felt that it didn't seem to have changed, even in the breakfast shop in the alley, even if she ate tofu brain and xiaolongbao, she still sat on the waist pole very straight, and her gestures were a kind of lightness that was not impatient or impatient.

"Sister, get me some chili peppers!" Chang Jiahui opened the disposable chopsticks.

Chang An handed her the jar of chili peppers at hand, "Pick less, the chili peppers here are very spicy." ”

"Yes!"

Chang Jiahui said that after all, she still took chopsticks and dug a large piece into the bowl, stirred it, and then blew the hot air on the bowl noodles, buried her head and began to eat......

Chang An laughed.

In fact, she has already expected a hundred scenes of reunion with Chang Jiahui during this time, maybe she may go to the place where she works, maybe go to the place where she lives, etc., or meet by chance in a shopping mall, restaurant or street, after all, Yun Ling is so big, it is not without this probability, but she never expected that the first meeting between the two in three years would be in a small and simple snack bar.

Two bowls of tofu brains, two tea eggs, and a drawer of xiaolongbao, accompanied by these most ordinary foods, Chang An and Chang Jiahui sat in it for more than three hours, talking about their plans to adopt Xiaozhi from their experiences in the past few years, and then talking about the daily experience in the drug rehabilitation hospital to the white radish pork rib soup stewed for her by Grandma Chen.

The tears on Chang Jiahui's face were dry and flowing, flowing and dry, and finally drained a box of tissues on the table.

There were no customers in the store for a long time, it was already past breakfast time, and the boss couldn't drive them away, probably thinking that something had happened to the two women, and after cleaning up the table halfway, he also gave the two two cups of hot boiled water.

For more than three hours, Chang Jiahui knew what Chang An had happened to her in the past few years, her worries and unbearable, evasion and timidity, and Chang An also knew what had become of each of them during her absence.

Wei Suying still lives in the countryside, Chang Jiahui moved back to Yunling for work reasons, and she has long since stopped working in Xinghe, but she is still in the circle of architecture, although she has been immersed and tempered for three years, she is no longer the internship assistant she just graduated from, and she can already be responsible for the case alone.

In three years, everything has changed, and everything seems to be growing, but it only took three hours to finish speaking.

Three hours later, Chang An paid for the boss, and Chang Jiahui walked out with a pair of goldfish eyes.

It was past ten o'clock in the morning, and the fog had long since cleared.

According to the laws of nature, the foggy day must have been sunny, and sure enough, after the fog dissipated, the sun showed its face, and the stalls selling breakfast in the alleys had already been closed, and there was another wave, selling old books, gloves and scarves, selling pirated CDs, and the flow of people shuttled, and the ears were full of talking and shouting.

Chang An and Chang Jiahui walked out of the alley and back to the hospital.

Chang Jiahui's car was parked in the parking lot, and Chang An accompanied her to the side of the car.

"Sister..."Her eyes were swollen from crying, and she gasped and said, "I have something to do today, so I'll leave first, and let my mother come to see you later." ”

Chang An hurriedly shook his head, "No!"

"My mother is definitely coming, you sent me WeChat last night, I called her and she was so excited, you ......"

"I know. ”

Seeing that Chang Jiahui was about to cry again, this was really ...... Selling tears in the morning, she went over and helped her shoulder, "When Xiaozhi is discharged from the hospital, I will find a free time and go to see Aunt Ying in person." ”

Chang Jiahui paused and nodded, "Okay, then I'll tell my mother, and we'll keep in touch!"

She turned around three times and got into the car.

Chang An waved at her.

Chang Jiahui started the car, fastened her seat belt, and suddenly shouted outside, "Come back for dinner during the Chinese New Year." ”

She used the word "come back".

Chang An nodded and smiled, "Okay, I'll see the situation, you can go quickly." ”

Chang Jiahui covered her face, as if tears were coming down again, she waited inside for a while, probably pulling a tissue, and turned her head after wiping it.

"Let's go, I'll > at night Chang An watched the car leave and slowly drove out of the hospital, at that moment, the sun seemed to come through the winter clouds, and the boulder on his back seemed to be a little lighter.

Look, it's not as hard as you think.