"Ho...," Jiang Qin smiled again, "This money is probably only enough to pay for the hospitalization, what about the rest?"

"Find a way to raise it. ”

"Where?"

"Public welfare funds, charities, or online posts, there will always be a way. She just didn't want to give up, and thought for a moment, "Or I have a contact here, I'm in the UK, but the foundation he manages..."

"Okay, okay!" Jiang Qin interrupted Chang An's words at the right time, pinching his eyebrows, "To be honest, I am also tired of taking these children, after so many years, one day at a time, I am not a saint, not a bodhisattva, I can't do everything." ”

"But don't you just watch Xiaozhi's condition go down?"

"I want to manage, but I don't have the ability!" Jiang Qin pointed to the courtyard outside the door, the courtyard was surrounded by walls, and the walls were full of colorful balloons, blue sky and white clouds, looking like heaven.

"Sunflower, the name sounds good, but people outside know that this is an orphanage, a children's shelter, which child who comes to this place has nothing wrong with him? ”

Jiang Qin also took out his heart.

Chang An held the stack of test sheets in his hand, feeling that every breath made his chest hurt.

Jiang Qin patted her on the shoulder, "Xiao Zheng, I know you like Xiaozhi and have a good relationship with her, but you have to do what you can when you talk and do things." This disease is a bottomless pit, not to mention whether it can be cured, even if it can really be cured, it can't be brought down without hundreds of thousands, even if you go to borrow it, if it can't be cured, all of them will be lost, and so many debts will have to be carried to death by you. ”

Chang An does not squeak.

Jiang Qin sighed, "Don't blame me for speaking badly, the child is in my hands, Xiaozhi is a well-behaved and sensible girl, and I am reluctant to give her up, but there is no way, her life is not good, we can only help this as outsiders, and the rest ......"

"Director Jiang, a car came to the door, saying that he was here to deliver donated materials. The old man who was guarding the door suddenly came and interrupted.

Jiang Qin immediately replied: "It's something that Boss Zhou asked someone to buy, hurry up and let the car in." After that, he glanced at Chang An again, "Okay, that's it, you think about it yourself, I still have something to do." ”

She turned off the computer monitor, grabbed a pair of gloves and went out.

Chang An stood there stupidly, feeling that the stack of test sheets in his hand weighed a thousand pounds.

"An An's mother..."

A voice suddenly came out of nowhere, Chang An turned around and saw a villain hidden in the shadow outside the door.

The villain slowly moved out and stood half in the sunlight.

Chang An was taken aback, "Xiaozhi?" walked over and asked, "Why are you hiding here?"

The little girl drooped her head, "Just now they said that you were here, I waited in the house, and I waited for a long time and didn't see anyone, so I ran to Chang Jiang to find it..."

Chang Anxin twitched, "How long have you been here?"

"It's been a long time. ”

"Did you hear what I said to Director Jiang?"

The little girl paused for a moment and nodded, "Well......"

Chang An felt as if he had been whipped a few times in the chest.

"Xiao Zhi, you..."

"An'an's mother, don't worry about me, I'm fine, I don't hurt, it's just a little disgusting sometimes, just endure it, and I'm not afraid, the other big children in the garden said, if I die, I can go to heaven, there are beautiful houses, delicious sweets, and I can see my parents, I don't care, Mom, but Xiaozhi thinks about Dad, do you think Dad will wait for me there?"

Childish words are immature and innocent, but they are the most likely to pierce people's hearts.

Chang An touched Ding Xiaozhi's head, held back tears, and slowly squatted down.

"Daddy will watch you from heaven and bless you, but Daddy may not want you to go to him so soon. Also, doesn't Xiaozhi want to accompany An An's mother here?"

The little girl rolled her dark eyes, "I want to accompany you too." ”

"Then you still said that you were going to heaven to find Dad?"

"But just now Director Jiang said that it costs a lot of money to see a doctor for me, I know that you have no money, and Director Jiang doesn't have any money, so Xiao Zhi thought, let's go to my father. ”

Five or six-year-old children, whose consciousness is in a period of ignorance, do not have much concept of death, but can already distinguish between reunion and separation.

"Xiaozhi, listen to me. Chang An touched the top of her hair, and for a while, as if she was cheering her up, she was also cheering herself up, "An An's mother will find a way, money is not a problem, don't say such stupid things again, huh?"

Ding Xiaozhi blinked his eyes and nodded as if he didn't understand.

Outside, there was the sound of trucks, workers unloading goods, and the energetic and excited voices of young girls.

"Let's go out and have a look. ”

Chang An put the stack of test sheets back into the file bag and led Ding Xiaozhi out.

A truck was parked in the yard, and a striking red banner was hung on the body barrier - "Rongbang Real Estate Donates Winter Quilts and Winter Clothes to Children in Sunflower Orphanage". Three or four unloading workers were throwing bales of bulging quilts down.

Chang An saw that there were several large cardboard boxes piled up in the corner, which contained children's winter clothes, children's shoes, school supplies and complete sets of books.

A photographer-like person next to him was setting up a camera to follow.

Jiang Qin counted and signed the order next to her, and there was a chirping girl standing next to her.

The girl wore a black hooded sweatshirt, a small leather skirt, over-the-knee boots, and a ball on her head, fashionable and energetic.

Chang An recognized her.

"Xiaozhi, let's go, go back to the house and paint with you. ”

She planned to take Ding Xiaozhi to the dormitory silently, but unfortunately one big and one small were too conspicuous, and she still didn't get past it.

"Miss Zheng!" Tian Jiaqi ran over excitedly, "What a coincidence, you are also here, do you remember me?"

Chang An smiled awkwardly and shook his head.

"I don't remember? Xiaozhi was sent to the hospital a few days ago, and I'm here too. ”

Chang An still shook his head.

Tian Jiaqi frowned, but quickly stretched out again: "It's okay, I remember you." ”

“……”

It seems to be a self-cooked personality again.

Tian Jiaqi bent down to tease Xiaozhi, and touched the red rash on her face due to allergies.

"Well, it's almost clean, and in a few days I'll be a smart little beauty again. ”

Ding Xiaozhi was amused and giggled and shouted, "Sister Jiaqi." ”

Tian Jiaqi answered and touched her head: "Really good, my sister brought you snacks, in the car, and I will give them to you in a while." ”

"Thank you!"

Tian Jiaqi straightened up and looked at Chang An again, her eyes swept around her face, and she suddenly stretched out her hand with a smile.

"Meet Tian Jiaqi. ”

“……”

Chang An was a little dumbfounded.

Tian Jiaqi's fingers stirred in the air, "Come on, shake hands." ”

Chang An had no choice but to touch her.

"I'm sorry, I still have to accompany Xiao Zhi to paint, Xiao Zhi, can I go?"

Although she knew that it was rude, she seemed to resent too much interaction with this girl.

Fortunately, Ding Xiaozhi was very cooperative and nodded.

"Then we'll go first. ”

Chang An pulled Ding Xiaozhi away.

Tian Jiaqi thought for a while: "Eh..."

Chang An frowned and turned around: "Miss Tian is still in trouble?"

Tian Jiaqi: "Forget it, I'll look for you later." ”

Chang An: "......'

Chang An accompanied Ding Xiaozhi for about two hours, and only came out in the evening, still alone, and did not say hello to Director Jiang.

There is no bus stop at the entrance of the sunflower, so you need to walk a little way to get on the bus.

She was smoking a cigarette all the way, and her mind was full of Xiaozhi's illness, so she didn't pay attention to what was around her.

"Didi" two car horns.

"Miss Zheng!"

Chang An looked up and saw a Porsche parked on the side of the road, and Tian Jiaqi was leaning out of her little body and beckoning to her.

Chang An, such a big living person, couldn't pretend not to see it, and reluctantly walked over.

"Get in the car!"

"No need. ”

"Get in the car, I'm just going to see you off. ”

"I really don't need to, it's very convenient for me to go to the front and take the bus. ”

"What's convenient, the roads in this country are frozen, the snow hasn't melted yet, it is estimated that even the bus will be temporarily canceled a few times, hurry up, come up." ”

As she spoke, she leaned over to the co-pilot's side and opened the door, as if she had to sit down.

Chang An wanted to refuse, but felt that it might be a little unreasonable to shirk it again.

"Trouble. ”

She extinguished the cigarette butt and walked around to the car and sat down.

"Seat belts!" Tian Jiaqi reminded happily.

Chang An's lips hooked, which was a perfunctory politeness, but Tian Jiaqi didn't seem to care at all, humming a little song and starting the car.

Wheels run over snow on the side of the road.

She turned the wheel and asked, "Miss Zheng is smoking?"

Chang An: "Hmm. ”

She added, "SOCOOL!"

Chang An: "......"

Tian Jiaqi: "But I think you look very well-behaved, not like a smoker." ”

Chang An: "......"

Tian Jiaqi: "What do you usually do?" ”

Chang An: "Odd jobs. ”

Tian Jiaqi: "Odd jobs?"

Chang An: "All kinds, as long as you can make money." ”

Tian Jiaqi said "oh", and glanced sideways at Chang An, Chang An could feel the pity in her eyes, and it was from sincerity and inner pity.

"Then you usually work hard, right?"

Chang An smiled, "It's okay." ”

The conversation was unnutritious, and Chang An couldn't figure out what the purpose of this girl was to intercept her halfway.

Until she asked, "By the way, did you and Brother Zhou know each other before?"

Chang An didn't understand quickly at first, "Brother Zhou?"

"It's the boss of Rongbang who funded sunflowers this time. ”

Chang An came back to his senses at this time, smiled, and laughed very self-deprecatingly: "How is it possible." ”

"Huh?"

"How can I know him, you see, we are fundamentally people of two worlds. ”

Tian Jiaqi next to her was speechless for a moment, and even turned around to look at her in the middle of the car.

Chang An still has that face and that expression, as if he is always cold and does not enter the oil and salt.

"Oh~~" Tian Jiaqi replied in embarrassment, and there was no communication after that.

It wasn't until the car was about to get off the outer ring that she asked again, "Where do you live?"

"Gang Gang. ”

Chang An finally didn't let Tian Jiaqi drive the car to the mouth of the alley, first, there was no need for this, and second, the other party didn't seem to have this level.

The road conditions around Yugang are too complicated, twists and turns, full of small roads, and congested.

Although Tian Jiaqi is a native of Yunling, he has been abroad for so many years, and it is estimated that he will never come to this kind of "slum", and he has no sense of direction.

Chang An found a good U-turn intersection and asked her to stop.

"Just put me down in front. ”

The girl driving next to her seemed to be faintly relieved, but she was still stubborn, "It's okay, I'll send you in." ”

"No, I just happened to go to dinner in the alley diagonally opposite. ”

"Okay, that's it. ”

Tian Jiaqi cautiously pulled over the car, Chang An thanked him, and got out of the car.

Tian Jiaqi leaned out of the window and seemed to say something, and a van drove next to him, and seven or eight migrant workers were dragged down in the car, unkempt and wearing dirty work clothes, but they whistled at the white Porsche, so frightened that Tian Jiaqi immediately closed the window and inserted it into the main road after turning a corner.

Chang An stood on the side of the road and smiled helplessly.

The cold wind blows, and the leaves drift away.

She wrapped her scarf back and turned the corner and walked down the alley.

There was also a tomato at home, and two more eggs were beaten.

Boil water, toss the noodles, and pour the chopped tomatoes into the pot with the eggs.

She feels that she has grown up in everything over the years, but "cooking" is really talented, but fortunately, her mouth is not so mouthful, if she lowers her standards, she feels that her current cooking skills are still improving, at least she will not burn and burn anymore.

Ten minutes later, Chang An sat on the lazy sofa with a bowl of noodles like a hodgepodge and tasted it.

She was satisfied, put the bowl on the small table, got up and went to the kitchen to get a small bag of vacuum-packed braised beef, cut a few slices and threw it into the bowl.

Just as he was about to start, the lock of the door was suddenly turned around, the door opened, and Zhou Wei walked in from the outside, took off the cashmere scarf around his neck, and threw the car keys.

"Eaten?"

He follows his own home as well as he knows nature.

Chang An was still in the posture of eating noodles at that time, but the whole person was in a static state.

Zhou Wei had already walked over and glanced at the contents of her bowl.

"Just eat noodles?"

“……”

"I'll give you some food!"

He put the food boxes he was carrying on the table, and took off his coat again.

Chang An struggled to recover from the shock.

"You... What do you mean?"

"What do you mean?"

"Why are you here again?"

"Come and eat!"

He spoke in a normal tone, and began to look for stools all over the house, and finally found a small wooden bench in the corner, moved to the small table and sat down, and faced Chang An face to face.

Then he began to roll up the sleeves of his shirt, layer by layer, revealing a small half-shaped forearm.

"Don't eat noodles, I asked Cuihuaju to make a few dishes and eat them together. ”

He untied the plastic bag and laid out the food box inside, which instantly smelled fragrant.

Chang An didn't care.

"No, thank you!" she continued to eat her noodles.

Zhou Wei was not in a hurry, drew his chopsticks, and put the packaged cup of soup in Chang'an's hand.

"Then drink some soup, your favorite old goose soup before, with dendrobium and fish maw in it. ”

Chang An chewed the tasteless noodles in his mouth, not looking at the soup or looking at the people.

"Eat, get out of my house when you're done!"

She got up, picked up the bowl and went into the kitchen, and directly emptied all the noodles that she had eaten in two bites into the trash.

Zhou Wei heard a "bang", and Chang An entered the bedroom.

He pinched his chopsticks and took a breath and began to eat......

A few minutes later, Chang An opened the bedroom door.

The room is very small, standing at the door of the bedroom just facing the "living room", or not even the living room, just a lazy sofa with a few pieces of furniture and some miscellaneous compartments.

Zhou Wei sat there eating alone, the bench was short, and he was tall and big, so it seemed a little difficult to nest on it.

But he was indeed eating, and he ate seriously and quietly.

Chang An felt that this scene was too weird, and wanted to rush over to question, but countless words rushed to his lips and all stirred up.

She felt like she was going insane.

Forget it, wait until she's done eating.

Chang An returned to the bedroom, sat on the bed and held his face in an effort to adjust his emotions.

A few minutes later, I heard the sound of someone walking outside.

It should be finished eating, throwing plastic bags, and then the sound of the door opening, the sound of the door closing, leaving?

Chang An held back in the room for another half a minute, and opened a crack in the door to look out.

Sure enough, the living room was empty, but the soup was still on the table.

Let's go!

She breathed a sigh of relief, and then walked out, first to the table, the aroma of the soup was still spreading everywhere, hooking people's taste buds wirelessly.

Chang An swallowed his saliva hard and licked his lips again.

In fact, it's not really completely unmoved, who doesn't have desire, but Chang'an has practiced best over the years is "restraint".

Restrain greed, restrain indulgence, and restrain all desires and thoughts.

She picked up the soup and walked back to the kitchen, intending to dump it all in the trash, but she suddenly changed her mind after a second.

Chang An put on his coat again, walked to the opposite side and knocked on Grandma Chen's door.

"Grandma, give you something good..."

She would definitely throw it away directly, what is the use of keeping things she doesn't want.

But over the years, she has been constantly surrendering, constantly bowing her head, constantly removing the hard scales on her body, while preserving her bottom line and principles, the current Chang An can stretch and bend.

After disposing of the soup, Chang An began to settle the score.

Because she didn't have a bank card, she rolled all the money she saved into small rolls and hid them in various places around the house, which were not as low as under the sofa, such as the cabinet......

She took out a roll, counted it again, and connected all the pocket money on her body, and 50,000 yuan was dissatisfied.

Chang An took a piece of paper and calculated, renting fees, transportation expenses, meal expenses, telephone bills and basic water and electricity bills, all of which add up to the minimum cost of at least about 2,000 per month.

Recently, the weather has been too cold, and the Chinese New Year is approaching, so I basically can't get any work.

I still have to get through this year, so I can only make up 40,000 yuan.

What can 40,000 do?

In the past, I used to buy her a coat, a bag, or even just a few sets of paintbrushes, but now ten years of feng shui are taking turns.

She wanted to use the 40,000 to buy a life.

In the words of Director Jiang, this amount of money is probably not enough to pay for hospitalization.

Chang An felt very stuffy in his heart, and opened another pack of cigarettes.

In fact, her addiction to smoking is not particularly serious, and she has been trying to quit in the past six months, but it seems to be aggravating recently.

After holding my head and smoking a cigarette, my throat was a little tingling, and I felt that I might be cold again.

There was no air conditioning in the house, let alone heating, it was too cold.

Chang An washed up briefly, filled a hot water bottle and climbed into bed, and his mind swirled around what had happened in recent years.

It's very strange, she rarely recalls the events of three years ago, as if she really had amnesia, she doesn't know anything about the past years, it seems that she is Zheng Qiuzhen for more than 20 years, and she has been living in Yigang.

The last memory is frozen on the picture of Ding Xiaozhi saying those words during the day.

She knew she was a little overwhelmed, but she really couldn't afford to ignore it.

Forget it, I don't want to think about it for the time being, it's too cold!

Chang An retracted his head into the quilt together, curled up his hands and feet, and hugged the hot water bottle in his arms, which felt like a small animal hibernating in the ground.

Thankfully, her insomnia has also improved a lot in the past six months, probably because she is too busy and tired during the day, so she doesn't have extra energy to spend at night.

After more than ten minutes, Chang An gradually fell asleep, but her sleep has always been shallow and she is prone to dreams.

I faintly heard the sound of the door opening, footsteps.

At first, she thought it was a dream again, but until the bedroom door was opened, Chang An "swished" out of the quilt.

Zhou Wei stood there wearing a coat and carrying a shopping bag.

"Why did you go to bed so early?" he was covered in the cold, as if he had gone to a long house, and then carried the bag in his hand, "There are no decent supermarkets near you, and I ran a few laps to buy all the things." ”

Chang An's sleepiness that had just gotten up was suddenly awakened, and when he raised his eyes, the bag seemed to contain towels, toothbrushes, facial cleanser, toiletries, and a cardboard box.

The carton is boxy and has a pattern printed on the outside.

It is men's panties.

Is he going to stay overnight?

Chang An erupted with the anger he had just accumulated.

"What the hell do you want to do?"

Zhou Wei frowned slightly, "Live here!"

"Why do you live here?"

"Why can't I live here!"

"This is the house I rented!"

"I know this is the house you rented, but I have to be where you are, after all, we are still husband and wife!"

Chang An was speechless for a while, but after a short period of sluggishness, all that swept over was anger.

She uncovered the quilt and got out of bed, rushed directly to the door and pushed Zhou Wei out.

"You go, you go!"

"This is not the place you should be. ”

"Get out, get out!"

Helplessly, Zhou Wei's golden knife horse went to that station, and she only pushed him to the living room for a short distance with her breastfeeding strength, but in the end she was hooked by Zhou Wei's arm.

Chang An struggled to get out again, but he didn't allow it, and his arms were tightly entangled.

She thumped him in the chest.

Why is it so dead-skinned, why can't you walk cleanly?

"Interesting?"

"What can you do if you stay here!"

"Everyone is an adult, I have already made it clear to you what to say before, we have long since ended, I have a new life now, a new life, what do you still want me to do?"

Chang An screamed while thrashing and pushing.

Zhou Wei wrapped one hand around her writhing waist, and pinched her wildly waving wrist with the other hand and buckled it on his chest.

From top to bottom, she watched her scream, she annoyed, she went crazy, and he didn't speak until she had drained all her strength and her voice was hoarse.

"Chang An, I don't know what you've experienced in the past three years, and I don't know what happened back then, if you don't say it, I won't ask, but I won't leave, because there is no place to go. ”

“…… If you say that our previous relationship is over, yes, no problem, I will depend on you. ”

"You have also started a new life, if you feel ......" he held Chang An's hand and looked around, the cramped hut, the dilapidated furniture, he said angrily, "If you think this is really your new life, it doesn't matter, I respect you and accept you,...... We can totally ...... here Restart ......"