These days, whether in a dream or awake, have been struggling with whether you are really not there?

You came back last night and told me you weren't far away!

Doudou sat behind us with a friend, and I asked Doudou, "Is this true? Your dad is back?" Doudou nodded vigorously, "Really!" I held your arm, put my ear to your chest, and listened to your sonorous "thump" heartbeat! I was sure - you are back! It was true! In the dream I told myself that it was really not a dream!

You talk and laugh the same, and smile the same!

Just like when my mentor died young, I couldn't believe it was real! I kept having the same dream: my mentor was still there, he didn't go or leave!

There was also a childhood friend who died at a young age, and I always dreamed of playing with her!

I miss you so much! I can't let go! I keep pestering!

It is destined that my soul will not be at peace in this life! What I have lost has made my heart hurt beyond measure!

I often think that if I could replace you, would you be as miserable and sad as I am? Yes! There will be more than that! Your pain hurts me even more! If I can still see your pain when I leave, why don't you just let me bear such pain! Don't let you carry such sorrow!

Can you come back and tell me how I should go?

I can't forget your love in this life!I can't forget everything I used to do!How can I start a new life with such pain?How hard is it?--You know?

If there had been a previous life, what had I done, what kind of sin had I created, and what kind of pain had I ever been happy and then could not be relieved?!

I prayed day and night for liberation and peace for my soul! I could dilute this pain a little and forget it a little! But no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't forget even a minute or a second!

Will you be sad that I am trying to dilute this longing and sadness? No! I know. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info No matter where you are, you just want me to live well! I understand this! However, how can I live well without you in my life?