Chapter Eighty-Nine: Sick Thoughts
Although Sayuri's complicated remarks made Hugo feel foggy, the overall meaning was still understood.
Although Dicard's soul also existed in Hugo's body, it was a completely independent soul, so Hugo did not empathize with this fused conscious soul form.
Sayuri said, "I was terrified when I found Jennifer's consciousness in my consciousness, but I soon found out that she didn't mean anything. ”
"Due to the previous battle damage and consumption, it can be said that it is completely impossible for her to return to her previous state, and now she is only absorbing my soul power to maintain her lowest state. And the reason why she woke up at this time was only because she felt my weakness, and if I died as her last host, then she would never have the possibility of existing in this world. ”
Hugo said: "Her desire to survive is really strong. ”
Sayuri smiled, "Indeed, she can be said to be the most life-hungry soul I have ever seen." ”
"At that time, Jennifer began to trick me into banishing Thirteen's soul and reclaiming my body. ”
"I was very opposed to it at first, and I could say that I would rather die than betray Thirteen. However, I began to become silent after her continuous persuasion, and although I had no intention of betraying Thirteen at that time, an incident eventually happened that changed my state of mind. ”
"The area where we were active at that time was already on the East Island, one day we stumbled upon a survivor, and this survivor was also the subject of Simon's research in the institute, and I still remember her code name Seventyseven, unlike other children, Seventyseven can be said to be the most harmless of all the experimenters, her character is naturally cowardly, and it can be said that it is completely submissive. No matter what kind of pain they endure, they will only hide in a corner and cry silently, even if they are bullied by others, they will not resist. At the time, she was pretty much the only one who dared to talk to me and Thirteen, and she spoke in a voice as soft as a newborn bird. ”
But on the day of my reunion, her voice was very loud, and when she found out that it was me, she was very excited, and she rushed over with my name chanting. Sayuri's name refers to the code name B-21 used at the time.
And just as she came all the way, Thirteen went straight through her heart. ”
"The moment Thirteen kills Seventyseven, she finally speaks. She told Seventyseven: 'I'm not a little B-21, I'm Thirteen. ’”
Speaking of this, Sayuri's voice began to break and tremble, and the expression in her eyes kept beating.
"I... I still can't forget the incredulous look on Seventyseven's face at the time, and maybe she didn't believe Thirteen's words at the last moment before she died. ”
"Yes, I was really enraged, and I asked Thirteen why he did this, why he killed such a completely harmless person as Seventyseven. Thirteen, however, calmly told me that she just wanted to say goodbye to her terrible past. ”
"At that moment I was in utter despair, and the feeling was more than all the despair before. Because I know very well that what I represent is Thirteen's unbearable past. I suddenly understood why Thirteen did the same to me, my presence reminded her of the pain she had had, and I was a lingering thorn in her heart. At that moment, I suddenly met some kind of future, a kind of future that Thirteen erased me from this world, and in the last moments of that future, Thirteen's eyes were so cold and unforgiving. ”
At this point, Sayuri sat down slowly, looking quite tired, as if all the strength in her body had been drained, and the flush on her cheeks had disappeared, replaced by an inexplicable paleness.
"I... I can let Thirteen kill me, but I don't think Thirteen is allowed to forget me, don't care about me, I can't bear my disappearance is a relief for Thirteen, absolutely not!" Sayuri raised her eyes to look at Hugo and said, "So, I want to get her!"
Sayuri's face seemed to have suddenly fallen into some kind of madness, and her eyes shone with a sinister light.
"After thinking about it for a long time, it dawned on me that the reason for this situation was because I didn't have the strength. ”
"I have no strength and I am Thirteen's greatest burden, and even if I don't carry the pain of the past, I am a superfluous burden on his soul, and Thirteen will someday get tired of this burden. And the only way I can get rid of this is to become stronger, or maybe I want to regain this body. ”
Sayuri said: "Thirteen may not care about me, but I am definitely not like this, in my heart Thirteen is the only existence, I hope she can understand my feelings." If I become a burden, Thirteen will erase me, and if Thirteen becomes a liability, I will take good care of her, always be there for her, give everything I have for her, I hope she will understand me. ”
Hugo looked at Sayuri in front of him, the beloved idol in the hearts of countless people, the akame-mad demon who was hated and feared by countless people, the sacrificial inheritor who was supposed to be the ancient nation, at this time he was like a madman full of obsessions, in order to make the people she cared about understand her feelings.
After venting the emotions in her heart, Sayuri calmed down a lot, and leaned back in her chair a little weakly and said, "What I thought... It's really simple, isn't it?"
Staring at Sayuri's pleading gaze, Hugo nodded slowly.
Sayuri chuckled, as if she was satisfied with the understanding of others.
"So I was convinced that I wanted to be given immense strength, not to reclaim my body, but to regain Thirteen's heart. ”
Hugo only felt helpless about Sayuri's almost pathological thoughts, with Hugo's understanding of Thirteen, Thirteen would never forgive anyone who had two hearts with him except himself, and this was the reason for Sayuri's final failure.
Hugo said: "Then what method did you use?" Compared with Sayuri's sick mental journey, Hugo was more concerned about the latter.
Sayuri shook her head and said, "Haha, what you are asking is indeed important, you must know that during the time when I sealed Jennifer, although Thirteen gave many of the power of the Tritogramia Stone Tablet to others, she also learned a lot of the power of the Tritogramia Stone Tablet in the process, so that her ability has improved by leaps and bounds, and it can be said that there is a qualitative leap compared to when she first gained the ability." ”
In this regard, Yuguo didn't dare to imagine that when Thirteen had just gained the ability, he could take back the power in his body and completely shatter his memory, so even the current paper kite and circus master were not his opponents.
Sayuri sighed and said, "In the end, it was Jennifer's consciousness that told me the way, and the key to solving the problem is still on the stone inscription of Tritogramia." ”