Comrade Jia Yuhao:

I went to see you yesterday, and I couldn't cry again!

A lively person is suddenly put in a little box! Everything is so unreal! But look at your little picture on it! Isn't that you?!

In the face of it, I don't have the feeling of facing you! But my sorrow cannot be restrained! I cry to it about the thoughts and pains of the past few days! I cry about my powerlessness and helplessness! I cry about my panic and despair for the future!

I really want to go with you, but I can't let go of Doudou! Everyone else can survive without me, but Doudou can't live without me! No one can replace me! I'm also afraid that you will resent me and ruthlessly leave Doudou and ignore me!

Senior brother went with me, you also saw it, the senior brother has been cooking and helping me from beginning to end! I can still have something to rely on while grieving, and I still have my senior brother's care when the six gods have no master! I am very grateful!

There is no way to repay it, if you have Lingduo to bless him with a good life, let it be safe!

I want to buy you a cemetery in the cemetery in Qinglonggang, so that you can be buried as soon as possible. Pen Fun Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 infoI also want to leave me an extra place for me to come to you! Be patient with me, or I'll be sad and angry!

Aren't you afraid that I will be sad and angry and ruin my body? Now my body has declined rapidly, my hair has turned gray by half, and I lose a lot of money every day, and my whole body is very weak! But when Doudou grows up and stands on his own, there shouldn't be much problem. I forced and told myself not to get sick, because I couldn't afford to give birth, there was no one to take care of me, and when I was sick, Doudou had no one to take care of me.

With you, I am a person who loves life so much, and now I don't have any emotions to do anything! Every day except for sleeping, I chatter and nag with you, and make something to eat for Doudou at night. It wouldn't be a good thing if my life went through like this!

Last night I thought you'd come back, but you didn't.

It just so happened that yesterday was the birthday of Guanyin Bodhisattva!

On the way there, a friend of my brother called from a monastery in Shandong to ask about the acupuncture points, saying that yesterday was Guanyin's birthday! Is it a coincidence? Everything has its own fixed number! If you really have entered the Pure Land, it will be your blessing and my efforts will not be in vain! I am at peace even though I am in pain! As long as you are good, it doesn't matter if I suffer a little, I am willing to do it for you! You know that my heart has never left you!

Senior Brother and Master Xie both said that your ancestors could not raise your big tree with yin virtue, and the barren land harmed your yang world! If you die because of your father's lack of virtue, and your departure is the saddest thing! It is me and Doudou! It is us who suffer!

In this life, your departure is a disaster for me! And this disaster has caused me a lifetime of pain!

Have you read the letters that were burned to you yesterday? Do you feel sorry for us? I know that you will not be doing well without me! Are you? You clearly gave me a dream to reassure me! Okay?

Don't worry, I'll settle slowly, calm slowly, and take my time!

xw

2011.3.24