Comrade Jia Yuhao:

The days without you are also passing day by day, not staying for a second, except for my bitter thoughts, it seems that I can't keep anything.

Slowly, I came to understand more and more the meaning of your visit: did you come to make a wedding dress for me and my child? You brought me from the distant Saibei to this water town in the south of the Yangtze River, where the birds and flowers are fragrant and the seasons are like spring, and fulfilled my heart's desire; you gave the child life and left her love.

And you, when you're done with that, leave suddenly.

Is your life's mission for us? But you know what's the point of having a place with me without you?

Recently, the child's college entrance examination is approaching, and I remember again and again that when you just left, when I saw you in a dream, you said, "I have arranged everything for you", is it that everything in the dark is already arranged by you? The child's future is the most important thing in my life and that of the child, and you have already arranged it?

I'm getting more and more convinced of your phrase "I've taken care of everything for you." At that time, my heart was full of pain and resentment, and I couldn't understand what the meaning of your departure was to "help me arrange everything"? Now I understand your good intentions.

The child said that she would go to see you again on your death day, and I will take her to see you tomorrow.

Last year, I was very anxious, so I asked my brother to help the children take a look at the New Year's Universiade, and he said that this year's children's Universiade is in line with your arrangement, and I am somewhat relieved.

Step by step to the present, I am more and more convinced that human life is actually predestined.

Is that right?

Come to think of it, we have been through life for more than 40 years.

When I look back at "Spiritual Mongolian Plateau", the scenes are as if they happened yesterday, and in the face of reality, you have long since left, only living in my work and in my heart.

Every time I think back to our journey, it is so warm and beautiful. However, all the good things are gone, leaving only sorrow and me.

The child has finally grown up under my careful care, do you see?

It's been eight years! You've been away for eight years, how did I get through these eight years!

Finally, seeing the child grow up healthy and see a bright future is comforting to me and you.

Nanjing, you have already arranged it, Xiaolong first went to Nanjing to lay a good foundation, and then you arranged for the bean child, you have already arranged it? But I have been anxious and worried? I am also blamed for being slow and unable to interpret your words.

Now, I hope that everything goes well, and the happiness of our children is the comfort of our life.

Eight years, eight years of time have passed, you may have already made a difference, and I am still lingering in this world, just watching my children grow up day by day, giving my life some value and color.

The world is hard, and I have to deal with it.

How much is unwilling, how much grievance?!

Well, what's the matter? Or cheer up and make arrangements for the child's future, I can do anything.

Tomorrow we're going to see you.

XW

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