In October, Nanning can feel the feeling of autumn high and cool, the morning sun rises every day, the brilliance is infinite, and the clear weather in the early morning is refreshing. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

In the autumn of 2015, another year has passed, and I often wonder if the rotation of the earth is speeding up? But seeing the child grow up day by day, from an ignorant child to a head taller than me, it shows that time has achieved something. It's just that my years have gone by.

The works that were said to be completed were stranded because of their own laziness and evasion and the censorship of the literary network, and the houses that were said to be renovated were not installed, and everything was dragging on.

However, with such good weather, the mood is still good, driving every day with music in the morning light, going to a comfortable class, doing something you like, living as you like, everything is so leisurely and comfortable, content and happy.

Parents are healthy, children grow up healthily, I accompany children to grow up healthily, filial piety to the elderly, I also slowly grow old, go through the course of life, although there is a great disaster to come, but still have to be strong to live the rest of their lives.

Nine times out of ten, life is unsatisfactory, and if you are powerless to change, you have to accept it, even if it hurts to the bone marrow and heart marrow, you have to accept it, and if you can't let it go, you have to let it go, and there are unfinished responsibilities to complete.

I often think about you to tears, I think about angina, but I have to do what to do to wipe away my tears. When people don't have the capital to show weakness to anyone, they can only bear and digest themselves, although they pity this situation, but they will never be decadent, and I have to live this imperfect life.

The osmanthus flowers downstairs are in full bloom, and the fragrance of flowers is wafting in, refreshing. It should also be beautiful in this beautiful season.

Yesterday, I watched the TV series "Youth Assembly", and the psychologist said: A person's emotions need catharsis, and speaking, crying, venting or writing can achieve the effect of catharsis. I remember that time, I cried and wrote at the same time, and I was glad that I had such a preference and a way to get through the darkness. Not to put my life on the line. Leave me to do your unfinished duties.

More than five years have passed, and although I still think about you all the time, and sometimes I think about it the same heartbreak, I am still much better and can control my emotions. I also learned to take care of my life alone, and slowly adapted to the days without you.

Next week, I went to see you, and I dreamed a few times that you were thin and weak, and my brother said that it was because of insufficient offerings, and I didn't burn paper money for you because I didn't want to burden you to go down to the netherworld, but my brother said that no matter which space you are, you must always make offerings, so I'm very sorry! I don't have such experience and experience, my parents are healthy, and my grandparents have long since died, so I basically don't know how to provide for people after they leave. Besides, I have asked the Living Buddha to do a transcendence for you, and I thought it would be enough to offer incense to you every day. When I heard my brother say this, I felt very guilty! Next week's Chung Yeung Festival, I will go to see you and bring you enough offerings.

I've been dreaming about you lately, but it's not very clear. Do you still remember my resentment when you just left? I deliberately got angry with you, you shook the cabinet loudly, don't take it seriously, I'm just because you can't love yourself, you can't avoid disasters, such a good life was ruined by you, and I was left with my children to be lonely and pitiful. Maybe there may be someone to live with in the future, but I understand that it is just to take care of the old days, and it does not involve love or betrayal by me.

Maybe I will die alone, and there will be nothing more terrible, and there will be nothing more terrible than losing you. I will take care of myself, live well, and give my children a little more love.

Wait for me to see you.