"-What kind of being is Mother?--The person who no matter what you encounter, as long as you call in your heart, you can see it when you turn around. 』

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"I never imagined that one day, your doll would reappear in front of me like that. ”

"It may be ridiculous to say it, but I want to tell you anyway...... Do you know, on that day, when your doll mother took you and appeared in front of me, my heart was suddenly occupied by a pure, great ecstasy. ”

"There are no thoughts in the head. It's a blank slate. So excited, so happy that I don't know what to say, even ...... In that brief moment, I subconsciously forgot about my wife and children standing behind me......"

Han Yu closed his eyes and leaned back lightly against the wall of the columbarium.

The whitewashed white and clean walls seemed to form a striking contrast with the deep black suit on his body, making people feel a silent silence in their hearts.

opened his mouth to speak, but he felt that everything seemed to be condensed in his throat, and he couldn't even squeeze out a single word.

"I don't like what you say. Sound...... Make her look like the kind of bad woman who seduces others. ”

Father Jin smiled lowly, and a faint self-deprecation welled up in loneliness on his middle-aged face.

He nodded solemnly, and said softly as if he was full of emotion: "Yes, how can your doll mother be a bad person." I was the one who was wrong, and in the story, of course, all the ugly people should be me. ”

"What do you ...... say" Opening his eyes, Han Yu sat up slightly straighter, turned his head and looked at Father Jin quietly, "But I don't feel any sincerity." ”

"I've always been stupid and don't know how to speak, but I hope you can believe me, everything I say to you is from the bottom of my heart. ”

Father Jin always had that bitter smile on his lips, and he also turned his head to look at the young figure beside him, who was much taller and more handsome than himself.

In his eyes, in addition to a little love that people can't help but avoid the sight, there is also a vague complexity that cannot be explained.

Han Yu stared at him silently for a few seconds, then retracted his gaze as usual, turned his head, looked at the urn storage cabinet in the corner that reflected the light in the sunlight, and asked lightly: "After that, if I guessed correctly, my mother hoped that you could take me in?"

Father Jin still turned his head, looking fixedly at his handsome side face, which was also bathed in the sun, and after a while, he nodded: "It's not all." She only said a few words when she brought you back at that time, but the general meaning was indeed that she hoped that I could keep you. ”

"Why?"

Han Yu's face didn't look like there was any extra emotion, and he said exceptionally calmly: "She is a very strong person, and she won't take me to ask for someone without a special reason, let alone come to you." ”

"You're right, if it weren't for the fact that she's dying, she probably would never have let me know of your existence. ”

Instantly.

The atmosphere seemed to freeze invisibly.

Han Yu silently turned his head to look at Father Jin.

"Your mother's heart disease, I don't know if you know it?"

Lowering his face, ignoring the subtle changes in Han Yu's quietly clenched hands and slightly clenched teeth, Father Jin muttered in a reminiscing narrative tone: "I don't know if it's because I want to live with you, your puppet's situation was already very serious at that time, and at that time, even going out and returning to Jeonju was a little difficult for her." So actually, your doll took you back to Jeonju and only told me two things. First, she felt like she was going to die. Second, she said that if she could, she hoped that after her death, I would be able to take you in. ”

"But you didn't make it in the end. When Han Yu said this, his deep voice seemed to be suppressing something, and he didn't know what kind of emotions were hidden under the seemingly calm surface.

"yes, I didn't. ”

Father Jin also nodded bluntly, he put his hands on his knees, raised his head suddenly, took a deep breath, and then, he pursed his lips tightly, turned his head to Han Yu's gaze, and said with a frank and stern face: "I don't want to use your aunt, Ji-woong, and Taeyeon as any reason or excuse anymore." The choice I made back then, wrong is wrong, and I will not deny anything again. You deserve to hate me. But I don't want there to be a misunderstanding in your heart that shouldn't exist, and I don't want your mother's image to become a situation that I never want to see in your mind. So, I brought you here today, on the day of her sacrifice. I want to tell you everything, that's all. As for whether you will forgive me after that...... I don't want anything extravagant. ”

In the process, after listening to Father Jin's deep words very quietly, Han Yu's expression didn't seem to change much.

At this point, the situation is already clear.

He is not the so-called illegitimate child that he once thought, or even Taeyeon, that they mistakenly thought.

I don't know why, after learning the truth from Father Jin, Han Yu found that he didn't feel much happiness in his heart, and even the sense of relief and relief that he should have didn't give birth to much.

He felt like he was ...... It seems that the mood is even worse.

I can't say why, but my chest is like pressing down on a stone that is not light or heavy, not particularly heavy, but exuding a depression that cannot be ignored all the time.

"You...... Did you ever hate her?"

Suddenly, he asked softly.

In Father Jin's slightly fluctuating eyes, he pursed his lips, and an indescribable look appeared on his face in an instant, and he turned his head and looked at Father Jin in a daze.

"Between ideals and love, she didn't choose the feelings between you. Or to put it bluntly, she is not willing to compromise with reality for the sake of your love. That's how she made it...... Have you ever held a grudge against her?"

Hearing his question, Father Jin was silent for a long time, and in the end, he smiled very freely, shook his head and said, "Actually, I don't think that the 'ideal' and 'reality' in your mouth are linked. Because ideals can change, but reality makes you have no choice. I understand your mother's rationality in choosing reality, but I don't agree with your view that your mother gave up the relationship between me and her for the sake of ideals. It's not because of any self-confidence, but because your doll has always been such a serious person when it comes to feelings. In her view, no ideal can be lofty enough to justify hurting a person. ”

A faint light seemed to flash in Han Yu's eyes, "The words in "Thorn Bird"?"

"Hmm. Father Jin looked at him, smiled again, and said, "Her favorite book, will I not know?"

"Unobtainable love, forever forbidden thorn bird. ”

took a deep breath, smiled at the photo in the distant glass window that looked hazy in the sunlight, and looked at the gentle figure on it that he was afraid he would never forget in this life.

"Now that I think about it, there are indeed too many things about her in the work "Dear Endong". Maybe I'm not as close as Ji Eun-ho, I don't have the affection he has had for twenty years, and I won't be as desperate as he is. But on Eundong's body...... I really saw your doll mother, the girl who dared to love and hate. Eundong's dream of becoming an actress is remembered and completed for her many years later, even though she has forgotten and given up. I can't give you such feelings. Right to separate...... Even if you do it all over again, the result will be the same. ”

Two thin lips opened slightly.

But in the end, Han Yu still couldn't say anything.

He nodded wordlessly to Father Kim, and then stood up, as if preparing to leave, to end the conversation between the two of them today.

It's just that before he could take a few steps, his figure stopped inexplicably.

Immediately after, a low and clear voice came into the ears of Father Jin, who was still sitting in place, making him stunned.

"In the notebook that my mother left behind, there is a page with the following words: God cannot be everywhere, so he created Mom. ”

Han Yu looked back at him, his dark and deep eyes seemed to be the surface of a lake at night, rippling and sparkling in the silence.

"Although I seem to have more contact with you than with my mother in the two of you as far as I can remember, and I have never really met her, I feel closer to my mother than you are. ”

"No one can decide how others live, the only one we can control is ourselves. ”

"It is not easy for a woman to live without support, and when she is barely able to maintain her own life, she still has to carry the lives of two people and try to survive...... That's not an easy task. ”

"So, the concern you had spoken of before didn't exist in the first place. I can fully understand the choice of all of you at that time, and everyone was helpless, whether it was you or Aunt Kim. I also never held a grudge against my mother. Even if I didn't even get to really talk to her, I ...... Still in love with her. ”

"Because, maybe my appearance was an unexpected accident for everyone, but my birth was the most precious love given to me by my doll mother. ”

This is the first time that Han Yu has officially mentioned the title of "puppet mother" in a conversation.

When he said the last sentence word by word, he didn't pay attention to Father Jin's completely frozen and slightly trembling face, but just looked at the window where Han Yishi's urn was stored from a distance, was silent for a moment, and bowed.

Then, turn around and leave.

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When I first walked outside the columbarium, I couldn't help but squint as if the blazing sunlight that had taken up all the space in my field of vision for a moment.

But in the next second, the warm feeling shining on the body seemed to weaken the heaviness in my heart a little in an instant.

Looking at the people who came and went quietly at the gate of the columbarium, the whole person breathed a sigh of relief, then blinked subconsciously, raised his slender palm, touched the white mask used to cover his face, and the corners of his mouth couldn't help but reveal a faint wry smile.

Speaking of which, even if I came to worship my mother, I have to always look forward and guard against reporters like this, is it considered a disrespectful behavior?

There is no answer to this question.

Of course, Han Yu knew that he could take off his mask in front of the crowd without scruples, just for a show of sincerity, but it didn't make much sense to do so, not to mention, even if those pervasive reporters didn't show up, just with these passers-by near the columbarium at this time, if anyone recognized him, things would be a little out of control.

Therefore, even if there is an unhappy emotion, it can only be suppressed in the bottom of the heart.

In front of the public, he has to be that popular star.

“OPPA——！”

Suddenly, a familiar exclamation of excitement came into his ears.

As soon as Han Yu was about to turn his head to look, his eyes were glazed, only to see a petite figure flying towards him.

Suddenly, the body quickly opened its arms like a conditioned reflex and caught this overexcited little girl, but her face was still stunned.

It wasn't until he saw clearly the cute little face that was rubbing in his arms that he blinked his eyes in a daze, and then he lost his smile, doting and unhappily glared at the little girl, and said, "Ah, Jin Xiayan, aren't you afraid that my hand will slip and I won't receive it?"

"Hmph~ I'm not afraid~ I'm OPPA, but it's very powerful~"

With an embarrassed smile in her mouth, the little girl arched her nose and gave him a thumbs up flatteringly, and winked playfully when she was done.

Amused by Jin Xiayan's funny performance, she couldn't help but smile, and she couldn't make a straight face, Han Yu looked at her with soft eyes and asked, "Why did you come from Jeonju?

"It's not~" Jin Xiayan shook her head honestly, and then smiled at him innocently, and said, "I'm here with my second brother~"

"Second brother?"

After being stunned for a moment, Han Yu looked up, and then saw two figures walking side by side towards this side.

Facing Han Woo's gaze, standing beside Kim Tae-yeon, Kim Ji-woong, who was also wearing a black suit, couldn't help but raise his hand and touch the back of his head, and smiled a little awkwardly:

“H…… Hiong, long time no see. ”