Today, I went to see you, for four years, not a day, even a minute or a second, I forgot you, I was paralyzing myself, and there was your shadow in every minute and second of escape. Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

Often remembering any of your expressions, eyes, and body details for no reason, often ringing in your ears what you once said, as if you have always been by your side and never gone far.

I know you're not there, Doudou said he didn't want to go there to see you, she thinks you're still there, you're still by our side, what can I do but die of heartache after listening to the child's words?

My eldest brother accompanied me, and my head was full of pain, and I heard him say, "What was supposed to be done by two people, now she is the only one left to do it, and she is very hard." "I never want to show my pain to others, no one can understand and empathize, besides, my life must be my own, and I will bear any ups and downs silently. The care and kindness of the eldest brother's family are unforgettable! He expressed their true feelings in his simple language, and he knew how lonely, helpless, and frightened I was.

How many times have I made up my mind not to fall into the past and sorrow, struggling to get rid of it, but every time I retract my raised foot, I am still withdrawing and escaping, I understand that you have made it bad again and again, you are afraid that I will be hurt, but how can you not know: What you have done me in this life is a great hurt! Is there any greater harm than this?

Let's just go by slowly, get by, and get used to it, it's nothing, isn't it?

I only hope that Doudou can grow up healthy and have a safe life, and the health of my parents and relatives is the wish I can't let go of now, and nothing else matters.