Comrade Jia Yuhao:

Another winter has arrived. Pen%Fun%Pavilion www.biquge.info Are you cold?

I remember when I was a child, I always liked the white and clean world in winter. You can play freely in the ice and snow with impunity. Don't think about how mom hasn't come back from the field, don't think about pulling weeds for pigs and feeding chickens......

Winter in Saibei is beautiful, free, and leisurely, and it is the most relaxing and carefree day in memory.

Maybe you're old now, right? I think about my childhood at every turn, and I want to go back to the old days.

After arriving in Nanning, I always disliked the cold winter here, I didn't like the continuous rain, and I didn't like the cold inside the house than the outside! No matter how much clothes I worn, I couldn't resist the cold to the bone marrow.

Now I hate this kind of winter even more! There is no trace of warmth! No matter life or life, it is the same cold, as if the never-ending cold fills every crevice, making people not have a little hope and warmth.

When I went to go through the procedures for buying a car today, I was feeling unwell while I had a cold, and on the other hand, I had no scheming or joy, as if I was doing something that had nothing to do with me. Thinking about it, it was more than 100,000 yuan, and it didn't feel anything about me. I still remember the embarrassment of living here at that time, and I would be full of joy when I bought a decent pair of shoes, maybe because of my youth at that time? I was full of yearning for everything, always looking for the slightest happiness in my limited life, and I didn't care about the hardships and hardships of life, and I always thought that with you, everything was not difficult.

There is no embarrassment in the life you have left for us now, but without you, it means nothing to me. Nothing material can give me the slightest joy or joy anymore. Your departure has taken away all the happiness of my life, no matter how hard I try to be happy and want to live a little more chic life, but only I understand that this is impossible, this life is impossible.

It's time for the year to end again, and you know that every holiday is a heartbreaking Good Friday for me! I want to go home and celebrate the New Year with my parents, but how difficult it is to endure your thoughts and pains in front of my parents!

The music channel is playing Gao Linsheng's "I'm the One Who Cares About You", do you remember? When I first went to your cottage to help you look at the house, this song was playing on your small radio at night! The lyrics that you wrote down casually were on your scratch paper, and you thought I wrote them myself, and I was very moved. It's been 20 years! You and I have known each other 20 years ago, and I thought that we could be together for a lifetime, and the earth would never give up, and a heart has not deviated in the slightest, and it has not changed for so many years, but you have abandoned me! You have completely abandoned me! This is more cruel than betrayal, you know? If it is a betrayal, although I am in pain, but with you, even if we cannot accompany each other until old age, I can see that you are okay, and I am satisfied! You are so determined to push me into the abyss without looking back!

I've had a cold for a few days, and I see your face in a daze every night, and I don't remember the specific plot, maybe I miss you too much. When it's cold, are you cold? I don't know that your world is like ours? Without me adding clothes and quilts for you, will you take care of yourself? It's cold again, wear more clothes, don't be reluctant to spend money. Money is only worth when it's spent, isn't it?

What do you say I should do? How can I spend this long day without you? Doudou started to study at night, and I was so lonely. I'm worried that I'm going to have a health problem like this, but what can I do? The book is still being written, and I want to write it down after I interpret our story, and I will finish it in memory of you. Doudou's growth is also being written, and I want to give it to her as a coming-of-age gift when she grows up, which records her growth and the hard work and love of her parents. With your words and deeds in it, you can also give her some information.

This book is full of my thoughts and "resentments" for you, and it is also the place where I vent my pain and sadness, if I go home for the New Year, I won't go to see you, and when I come back to see you after the New Year, I will print it out and burn it for you. I have a vague wish to buy a car, you know, that I can see you anytime and anywhere, and although I know you're not there, I still want to go there and sit quietly with you.

After this year, you have been gone for four years, and your thoughts have not been reduced in the slightest, and they are still tormenting me day by day, following me day by day, no matter what I do, I will live in your shadow, and I will remember your every tiny movement and every look......

In winter, without the warmth of your side, a person covering a huge heavy wool quilt seems to still have a chill, if the heart is not warm, probably staying in the stove will not have a warm feeling, right?

In this life, there is no fun.

It's cold, remember to add clothes!

Do you still remember Doudou's birthday? It's over, Doudou has grown up, she will take care of her birthday by herself, and remember to take care of her mother, don't worry, under my care, she will grow up healthily. It's just that you bothered a little to help me keep her safe. Help me protect her when she goes to and from school!

XW

2013.12.18