Chu Qingchuan said to me that he could show me, but he asked me to wait for him to come along.

I wrote and deleted the text message in reply to him, deleted it, and it was not sent after all.

I understood that he was concerned about me, afraid that I would be cranky. What's more, he's not having a good time now.

At this critical juncture, I don't want to mess with him anymore.

When I took the elevator upstairs, the people in the back were whispering: "Have you seen the hot search? ”

"Don't you know? It was his ex-wife who jumped off the building, and she came to the company yesterday with her daughter. ”

"Oh my God! Could it be that we can't get back together, and we will force each other to die!"

"Mr. Chu is going to be skinned now. If you want me to say, the responsibility doesn't have to be on anyone!"

"A man who can make a mother abandon her child and commit suicide is definitely not a good person!"

"Cut, I don't know who used to talk about Arthur every day, but now the wind has changed?"

"One yard to one yard, I'll talk about things. If it were me, I wouldn't have chosen this path even for the sake of my children. ”

"So you may really encounter difficulties, and sometimes the death of the heart is a matter of a moment. ”

"Hey, I've heard about ...... before."

I numbly stepped out of the elevator amid their tapering chatter.

It seems that the impact of this incident on Chu Qingchuan will be far beyond my imagination.

However, the baptism that awaits me is yet to come.

As soon as I walked into the office, I felt strange eyes looking at me from different corners.

The reason why I decided to come to the company was that if I escaped, I would be even more discredited and become the target of public criticism. It's also important to note that I don't want to be alone at home.

But I did underestimate the power of rumors.

"What did I say last night? Now believe it? Kill people!" Xiaomei's voice was not loud or small, and I happened to hear it.

"It's really ruthless enough to know people and faces. ”

"Hehe, it's better to stay away from this kind of person, otherwise you won't even know how you died one day. ”

"Look at her neckline, she must have hooked people again last night. ”

"Quick, let's go...... Sinan is here......" The voice gradually dissipated.

In the midst of gossip, I walked to my desk, turned on my computer, and stared at the screen in a daze.

A message from Xia Xue and Song Fangfei popped up in the lower right corner, asking me if it mattered, it was better to go home and rest.

I replied to each of them with a smile, pretending to be relaxed and saying that it was okay, and that the mouth was on others, and the police didn't look for me, so they didn't get in the way.

"Jiaoyang, change the topic in the afternoon, and discuss it tomorrow. Two days later, I went to Tianshu Group to do a plan demonstration, and the time was very tight. Sinan walked up to my desk and knocked on the table.

I said okay, I'm working on it.

"Separate work and life. As he passed, he left a word.

I brace myself, get rid of distractions, and pull my attention back.

"Live up to it, be respected. Those six words pierced my eyes.

Am I being too selfish? I only think about myself all the time, I don't want to be let down, I just want to be respected?

Because I insisted on going my own way, I married my husband by mistake and killed my grandfather......

Because of my willfulness and stubbornness, Chu Qingchuan was embarrassed.

Because of my possessiveness, Han Lu jumped off the building with an illness.

And what I feel most desperate about is that I not only indirectly killed a vivid and beautiful woman, but also caused a child to lose its mother.

I can't forgive myself, it's my sin, I can't forgive, I can't excuse myself.

I'm a vicious woman, and if I knew the truth, I would hate me for the rest of my life, right?

I experienced shadows in my childhood, and instead of returning the love to the world, I let another child experience the shadows again.

If, if Xiaoxiao saw Han Lu fall from a height, if Xiaoxiao saw the horrific corpse of her "aunt", she would know that it was her biological mother in the future, and the symptoms of PTSD would definitely plant dark seeds in her young heart.

Even if she wanted to kill me, I had no doubt and understood.

I fell into the strange circle of the trough again, and began to deny myself, doubt myself, and think that I was useless, unbearable and cheap.

I'm still the same pufferfish, and I've never changed. Beneath the bravado façade is an endless void.

The impression left on me by Han Lu's last side is indelible, and I can't get rid of it whether I open or close my eyes.

"Blazing Sun, are you satisfied now?" I suddenly heard her voice, looking to the left and right vigilantly.

After returning to his senses, he realized that the Si people had passed away.

My head started to hurt, and the scene of seeing Han Lu last night and this morning and her voice and smile swirled and jumped in my mind without my consent.

When the text message sounded, I was taken aback.

I rubbed my temples, breathed deeply, and relaxed as much as I could.

It was an MMS message from an unfamiliar number, and I clicked on it without much thought.

However, in the next second, the phone shook off my hand and fell to the ground with a click.

I almost screamed, but I was able to cover my mouth with my hand just in time.

It was a selfie video of Han Lu, smiling the same as this morning and wearing the same clothes.

She said in a soft voice with a slight smile: "Bright Sun, I'm sorry, please accept my belated apology." Bless you, please take care of me funny, thank you. ”

A chill felt in my back, Han Lu, isn't it dead?

Han Lu, what did you say to Chu Qingchuan?

The appearance of this MMS message made me even more confused, and I didn't have the slightest energy to focus on the task at hand.

At noon, Xia Xue and the others came to call me for dinner, and when I thought of the scene of the fall, how could I still raise my appetite.

"Don't do anything bad in the future, otherwise you won't even be able to eat. "Bad words began to linger in my ears again.

"It's been peeled and posted, it's not Mr. Chu's ex-wife who jumped off the building, it's just his cousin, stop talking nonsense. ”

"Who knows if it's a smokescreen? To protect some sluts. ”

I suddenly thought it was ridiculous, there have always been more people who fall into the well than there are people who send charcoal in the snow.

This is probably human nature.

I was lying on the table with my head in my hands, and just as everyone was going out to eat, Chu Qingchuan called me.

He first asked me where I was, and I said that in the company, and his tired tone immediately became displeased.

"Why don't you listen to me?" he reproached.

"If I don't come, I'll be what they say it is. I replied stubbornly.

"Do you think they'll shut up when you go?"

"I'm sorry, I just don't want to go home, I don't want to be alone. I'd like to see you. "I'm weak.

He hesitated, agreed, and then gave me an address and said I'll see you in half an hour.

At this time, I should avoid suspicion, whether it is for my good or his good, I understand that he will not come to pick me up.

I didn't care about the task assigned to me by Sinan, so I took a temporary leave, saying that I had a stomach problem and had to seek medical attention.

After Chu Qingchuan picked me up, he hugged me gently, and then drove me all the way.

I was silent, just reached out and grabbed the armrest above, looking worriedly at his resolute side face.

The car finally stopped at an empty and simple pier with the sea at the edge.

It's a fishing moratorium, and there are no fishermen, just old fishing boats lined up along the wharf.

In the distance, the sea and the sky stretch as far as the eye can see.

The sparkling sea and the salty smell of the sea made my heart sink.

Chu Qingchuan opened the passenger door, I didn't get out of the car, turned around, and sat facing the sea.

He leaned against the back door, stood beside me, pulled out his cigarette case, and pulled out one.

He caught the wind, landed it neatly with his hand, and set it on fire.

I took a breath, looked ahead, and told him the answered call that I had seen Han Lu in the early hours of the morning.

He mumbled and said he understood.

"This is the MMS I received in the morning, you see. I handed him my phone, and he took it with one hand, and the smoke was torn apart by the wind.

The word "Chuan" in the center of his eyebrows became deeper and deeper, and after a long time, the deep voice sounded slowly: "Sure enough, it looks like suicide." ”

I looked at him suspiciously, "Like, isn't it?"

He turned to look at me, "I know her. If she wanted to die, she wouldn't have waited until now. ”

"Did she text you something about it?" I asked.

His deep eyes locked on me and overwhelmed me.

"What's wrong? does it have anything to do with me?" I asked subconsciously.

He stared at me for more than ten seconds before he put the phone in front of me and acquiesced to me opening it with his eyes.

I entered my birthday password and found Han Lu's text message.

It's a long content, and I've been watching it for a long, long time.

"Qingchuan, I'm really happy to see you and Jiaoyang get back together. I think it's time for me to leave.

Cheng Xun came to me again last night and made love to me. I've endured this torture for so many years, and I'm ashamed of you.

Qingchuan, do you know? In many cases, I can't tell the difference between you and Cheng Xun, and I will imagine you as him, especially when I call you dad with a smile.

In my sober state, I knew that this was wrong, but I couldn't help but miss you.

I want to be with you, I want to hear a smile and call me mom, imagine that we are a real family of three.

Even, imagine that you and I are husband and wife, you are such an attractive man, let me be ashamed of myself in front of you.

I'm a woman who has given birth, and in other people's words, I'm still a woman of Kefu, so what right do I have to like you?

I told myself that it was because I loved Cheng Xun too much, so I needed to use you to divert my emotions in order to make myself feel better.

And that's what my psychiatrist told me, and I was convinced.

But it wasn't until later that I found out that you are you, the person I love, it turned out to be you.

And Cheng Xun, it's just an excuse for me to rely on you, the person I longed for, I don't know when, has become you.

I feel sorry for Cheng Xun and I'm sorry for Yanran, so contradictory that I can't control my emotions and behavior.

Qingchuan, Jiaoyang is different from Li Yutong, because after I saw her for the first time, I knew that she had entered your heart.

Her appearance made me feel frightened and made me truly realize that Xiaoxiao and I were going to lose you.

So I did something wrong, and it was the worst mistake I've ever made in my life, and I'm ashamed of myself, but I'm afraid to explain it to you.

I always thought that Jiaoyang's character was very stubborn, she was not suitable for you, and she was not worthy of you. But I was wrong, and now I understand that to love someone is to want them to be happy.

You are with the sun, unlike ever before. It seems to let me see the sunny and energetic you when I was with Yanran in the past.

I'm sorry, please forgive me for my hostility towards her, I will confess my mistake to her.

Harukawa, I want you to remember me all the time, and I want to stay in your heart, no matter how it is.

I love you, but it's just that I love you. ”

If Han Lu is still alive, then this text message is like introspection and confession. It can be understood that she is determined to start a new life, and speaking out about the past represents letting go.

But now that she is dead, this text message has become her last words, as if she couldn't do it because of love, and chose an extreme way to seek relief.

Especially the last two sentences, combined with the later fall from the building, it is obvious that he wants to use death to occupy a place in Chu Qingchuan's heart.

But now Chu Qingchuan said to me, it's like suicide?

At that moment, I was so engrossed in the cause of Han Lu's death that I ignored the other person she mentioned in her text message.

I looked at him in bewilderment, and as he took the last puff of his cigarette, I noticed that his eyes were already bloodshot.

The police judged from the location that she fell from the bathroom on the floor where the restaurant was located, and the police who arrived at the scene first classified it as a suicide, and preliminarily ruled out the suspicion of homicide, because there were no traces of struggle and struggle at the window of the bathroom. Chu Qingchuan said in a deep voice.

Then why do you ...... "disbelief?"

He looked at me and said in a firm tone, "She won't." ”

I don't know if Chu Qingchuan's self-confidence is because he is unwilling to accept reality, or if there is a special basis. However, didn't Han Lu commit suicide in front of him many times?

He seemed to see through my mind and said to himself: "She has died so many times without success, which shows how much she wants to live." ”

I think it makes sense.

"Do you have any clues?" I asked.

His eyes darkened, and he told me no, but the police were collecting evidence.

I suddenly remembered one thing, that is, he just said that Han Lu fell from the bathroom on the first floor of the restaurant.

After Chu Qingchuan and I left the restaurant, I asked him to wait for me in the lobby because I had to go back to the room to get my bag.

After he left, I took the passage to the bathroom.

But I didn't meet Han Lu inside, and the time when she fell from the building should be after I left, right?

I raised my eyes and saw that Chu Qingchuan's gaze was unfathomable.

"What do you want to say?" I asked him.

"It's fine. He turned his face and stared into the distance.

"The police have turned on the surveillance, right?" I began to feel a chill in my fingertips.

"Hmm. He replied softly.

"So you saw me and Han Lu in the bathroom from the video?" I panicked.

There could be no cameras in the women's bathroom, and the police should only be able to see us coming and going from the hallway surveillance.

Chu Qingchuan ...... "I want to say that you believe me, but it seems so redundant."

He finally turned around, and I thought he was going to treat me as indifferently as he did last time, even accusing me of being a murderer.

But what I saw was a face full of guilt.

He stood in front of me, took my hand, and looked at me as if a mist had risen.

"I'm sorry Sunshine, I didn't expect to see you on the surveillance. As a last word, I showed Han Lu's text message to the police and made a record. But after the initial judgment of suicide, I felt that something was wrong, because Xiaoxiao told me that my aunt said that she should wait for a while and come back immediately, and before that, Xiaoxiao said that my aunt also received a phone call. Xiaoxiao and I confirmed that Han Lu left with her mobile phone, but her relics did not find the mobile phone.

It was only after I told the police about these analyses that they decided to look for surveillance. But I didn't think that you didn't go straight back to your room at that time, but went to the bathroom first. ”

After listening to his statement, I asked in a sneering manner: "So what? I became a suspect? The police confirmed my information with you, and I was the Jiaoyang mentioned in her text message, and I took possession of the man she loved." So, I'm suspected of committing a crime? Should I confess and forgive me now, or should I wait for the police car to pick me up?"

"Sunshine, don't do this. I told them it couldn't be you, you didn't have the time to commit the crime. Chu Qingchuan looked at me with furrowed eyebrows, and his tone was filled with chagrin.

I really think it's ridiculous, what kind of weird oolong incident is this?

Because of one of his suspicions, a subjective judgment, I became a murderer?

"How do you prove it? You were waiting for me in the lobby at that time, what proof did you have?" I asked rhetorically.

"As long as you confirm the specific time when Han Lu fell from the building, you can clear the suspicion with the video time record when you left the bathroom. Chu Qingchuan stared into my eyes and said.

I pushed him away and got out of the car and walked forward.

He followed me, and just as I was about to reach the edge of the high dock, he grabbed me and pulled me back, carrying me into his arms.

"I'm sorry, Sunshine. "He's already told me twice he's sorry.

"I'm sorry for what? If you really believe me, why do you want to apologize to me?" I didn't break free, I didn't mess with him, I just let him hold me.

I felt his body froze, and then he grabbed me by the shoulders, pushed me in front of him, leaned over and looked me in the eye and said, "Because I caused you trouble, because I didn't protect you, because you suffered for me." But you have to believe that in this matter, I have never doubted you. ”

I stared at him, looked closely, and the emotions in his eyes were complicated, and my heart softened.

"I was impulsive and didn't need to apologize. You are right, if Han Lu was really murdered, you should avenge her. My tone softened, but fortunately, the misunderstanding did not continue.

Chu Qingchuan regained a trace of his vigor as if relieved. From this small gesture, I could feel the importance he attached to me.

It seems that he is also afraid of the repetition of the old play, and the man who has always been unfazed because of my blame and misunderstanding, actually showed a little imperceptible panic.

"Jiaoyang, it is precisely because I believe that it is not you that I feel that this matter is strange. Han Lu has been staying in the United States for so many years, and her interpersonal relationships are simple, not to mention having grudges with others or having any enemies. She has only been in Jiangcheng for a few days, and she has been plotted by someone, and I am afraid that the murderer's target is someone else. When Chu Qingchuan said this, he hugged me into his arms.

"Then do you see any other familiar faces in the surveillance? According to your previous reasoning, Han Lu left after answering the phone, could it be someone asking her out? Who could this person be? Who can make her jump off the building without struggling or resisting?" I forgot about the unpleasantness just now, and speculated with him.

Chu Qingchuan shook his head and said, "In the video ten minutes before the fall from the building obtained by the police, except for you, there is no one I know. But it cannot be ruled out that the murderer may have entered early and has been lurking inside. However, I can't interfere with the police's handling of the case, and I will arrange for a private investigator and a lawyer to investigate this matter, and I will also use some connections. ”

"Does Han Lu know many people in Jiangcheng?" I asked again.

Chu Qingchuan shook his head, and at the same time his gaze was pressed, I knew that he was the same as I thought, so he said directly: "Li Yutong?"

"If it was really her, this matter might not end easily. Jiaoyang, I'll send you abroad for a while, okay?" Chu Qingchuan really had the same worries as me.

"You've already made arrangements, and now tell me that you're just trying to get me to a conclusion step by step. Chu Qingchuan, can I go? If she has the intention of harming me, she must be prepared. I took him by the hand and told him with my eyes that I wasn't leaving.

"I want you to go, and you can go. He was sure.

I smiled, reached out and rubbed my thumb against his face, and said, "Since love has to go through hardships, I will not choose to run away." I'm here to stay and face all these trials. You asked me the question this morning, and when I am cleared of suspicion, I will answer you. ”

"Aren't you really afraid?" the fog in his eyes had cleared.

"Don't be afraid, as long as you accompany me. I replied earnestly.

"But I'm afraid. "He had clearly made up his mind and insisted on sending me away no matter what I said.

"Chu Qingchuan, don't do such meaningless things. Why are you stupid? What good will it do me to get me away with all your efforts? When the time comes, gossip will be overwhelming, saying that you will do anything to clear your former nephew and daughter-in-law, and everyone will come to see the jokes of the Chu family.

When the time comes, your position will be lost and AC's reputation will be damaged. Viewers don't care about the final truth, or who the alleged murderer is, we will become the despisable dog men and women on the hot search. Do you think I'll be able to avoid it all when I'm abroad?

Chu Qingchuan, I don't want you to bear all this by yourself. I don't want to be your weakness, I want to be your comrade-in-arms. "I plucked up the courage to tell him what I really thought.

He looked at me with a look of hesitation, but then it disappeared, but I was already happy that I convinced him.

"Now that you've foreseen what's going to happen in the future, do you want to stay at AC?" he suddenly asked me.

After thinking about it, I told him, no, the world is big, and there is a place for him.

He finally showed a rare smile and said that he would take a long vacation from tomorrow.

I said that I couldn't let go of the Tianshu Group's plan, and it was my hard work anyway.

He asked me what I thought.

I said that I should finish this plan, change it according to the advice he gave at the beginning, and then leave my job.

He didn't speak, so I took it as a default.

Then I asked him how he was smiling, and he didn't tell the child the truth, as I expected.

"Do you want to tell her?" said this, I was faintly worried.

Before, because I thought that Han Lu was committing suicide, I blamed myself and felt guilty, especially for Xiaoxiao.

But now, if I am really said by Chu Qingchuan, although the blow to Xiaoxiao is also not small, relatively speaking, my guilt will be less.

But in any case, the truth is cruel to this seven-year-old girl.

"Not yet. "Chu Qingchuan's thoughts are the same as mine.

This twist and turn has brought a new turn in our relationship.

Just as we were about to drive back, Chu Qingchuan's mobile phone rang, he connected to Bluetooth, and the caller was displayed on the screen.

"Sister Meng. ”

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