Chapter 227: I'm Still Here
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Holding hands after seven days of love, hugging two weeks later, kissing a month later... A lot of wrong news was disturbed together, and Ruan Qingning always felt that the rhythm between her and Lu Ling seemed to be a bit fast.
But Lu Ling clearly doesn't think so, if you love someone, shouldn't you pay with all your heart!
Being able to restrain the deepest desires in his heart is already Lu Ling's general perception of the general public, as well as taking care of Ruan Qingning's mood and thoughts, and finally suppressed the impulse.
If he really did it according to Ruan Qingning's orthodox love rules for that child, Lu Ling felt that he couldn't help but post a high reward on the Internet to kill all the people who gave Ruan Qingning a wrong idea.
It's a pity that Lu Ling's hard work, Ruan Qingning didn't feel it at all. For Ruan Qingning, the appearance of Lu Ling gave her much more spiritual satisfaction than physical satisfaction.
Therefore, although she is very happy with Lu Ling, if Ruan Qingning is asked to choose between the two, she will definitely choose the former without hesitation. Lu Ling's idea of taking care of her, and the sadness she endured patiently, Ruan Qingning really didn't notice it at all.
Now she has the bitter fruit of ignoring this, and she uses her phone as a mirror, making sure that the red on her neck will not disappear for a while.
Thinking about how she would face the interrogation of her parents, brother and sister tomorrow, Ruan Qingning was angry, and she couldn't wait to bite Lu Ling, who was so embarrassed but still laughing.
"Don't frown!" stretched out his finger to try to smooth Ruan Qingning's frowning brows, but was almost bitten by Ruan Qingning's sharp teeth, Lu Ling shook his finger and touched his chest with palpitations, "The baby gave you the whole person, but you treat the baby like this, the baby is so sad!"
"Vomit~~~" Covering her mouth and wanting to vomit, Ruan Qingning moved out with a disgusted face.
"What are you running around!" grabbed Ruan Qingning, who almost moved off the bed directly because he didn't look at the back, Lu Ling shaved the small and delicate bridge of his nose on Ruan Qingning's face with palpitations. "How old are you and so careless. โ
"Who do you think I almost fell because of?" Ruan Qingning didn't accept Lu Ling's affection, Ruan Qingning shook off Lu Ling's hand and wanted to get out of bed and go back to his room.
"This is leaving?" Lying on his side with his arm on his pillow, Lu Ling sighed heavily, "I am the only one left on the first day of the new year, this year, it is really sad!"
Ruan Qingning stopped leaving.
"Thinking about it this way, last year was also my own New Year, could it be that I am a lone star, destined to be accompanied by loneliness?" Lu Ling continued to say words that stimulated Ruan Qingning's nerves.
"Forget it, maybe that's my fate!" Turning over and facing the ceiling, facing the bright light, Lu Ling slowly closed his eyes.
"You big villain!! stomped his foot angrily, Ruan Qingning turned back, his desire to beat Lu Ling was really uncontrollable at all!
However, when he really walked back and saw Lu Ling's long eyelashes casting a fine shadow under his eyelids under the light above his head, Ruan Qingning's heart softened inexplicably.
No one's life is perfect, compared to the troubles that he might guess if he knew a little, the reason for the hollowness in Lu Ling's heart was really unknown but real, and the sting pain in his heart was like a maggot on the tarsal bone.
Many times Ruan Qingning wanted to ask Lu Ling what was the thing that made him occasionally show his vulnerable side. Although this impulse was finally wrapped well under various rational analysis, the curiosity generated in my heart would not easily dissipate.
Love is to give and give to each other, and any unilateral giving and giving is wrong.
Ruan Qingning is very grateful to God for letting her meet the right person at the right time, and this right person has brought changes and joy to her life. So she also wants to be like what Lu Ling did for her, to become the sunshine that illuminates and warms Lu Ling's heart.
"You... Carefully grabbing Lu Ling's hand, Ruan Qingning said what she had been hesitating for a long time and was embarrassed to say in the new Chinese New Year's Eve, "You still have me!"
Lu Ling opened his eyes, the importance of the New Year to a person from country C is really difficult for people from any country other than country C to understand.
Even in country K, where the script used a long time ago was transmitted from country C, and the major festivals and customs are very similar to those in country C.
The New Year should be a day for the family to sit together and celebrate, but in Lu Ling's memory, he has never had such an ordinary but warm day.
There are always family members who can't get together for work, and there is always a cold atmosphere that can't be dissipated even if they gather together and sit at a table.
The reunion dinner is exquisite in style and varied, but the people who eat it have their own thoughts, and they don't even know what the taste of the dishes they eat, the Spring Festival that Lu Ling spent in his past life is really more and more deserted every time, and no one has said a word about the time of eating a meal, what is the point of eating such a reunion dinner?
Therefore, Lu Ling has been very envious of other people's families since he was a child, and they share the appearance of the New Year on the day of the New Year.
This kind of atmosphere that he has been looking forward to for many years, but with the passage of time, he felt it in Ruan Qingning's house when he didn't have any extra expectations.
Ruan's mother kept picking up vegetables for him, Ruan's father secretly rolled his eyes, as well as Ruan Qingzhe's unconvinced eyes, and Ruan Qingcheng's funny face that was not squeezing his eyebrows at him, Lu Ling could clearly feel that this was the taste of home that he had been looking for but couldn't get.
I got what I wanted, but Lu Ling's heart was full of fear, what was more sad than not having it, was that I had it and then lost it again.
Lu Ling has never been an unconfident person, and he has secretly sworn countless times that when he has a home of his own, has someone he loves, and loves his family, the tragedy that happened to him must not be repeated in his family.
But when the things that he had fantasized about countless times and longed for countless times really came to him, Lu Ling realized that he was so unconfident that he could have a home.
"Can I do a good job?" "Will such a family always belong to me?" "Will I lose them by accident?"
For more than 20 years, the emotions that had been hidden in his heart broke out bit by bit, causing turmoil that Lu Ling himself did not expect.
He was a little out of control, which Lu Ling had already noticed when he couldn't control his strength and caused a mark on Ruan Qingning's neck that shouldn't have appeared.
However, if you can control it, it is not called out of control, although you are trying very hard to control it, the sincerity hidden under the joke was finally noticed by Ruan Qingning...