But it didn't take a toll either.

The day before my birthday that year, Zhou Sheng took me to the mall to buy gifts, and she gave me a Swarovski necklace, a very simple collar, thinking that Yuan Zhi would buy me a ring and hang it around my neck.

Coming out of Swarovski, I saw from a distance that the back image was Yuan Zhi, but he was followed by a tall woman with an elegant temperament.

I wasn't sure, I unconsciously quickened my pace to keep up, but when I turned the corner, I couldn't see anyone.

Zhou Sheng followed up and asked me what was wrong.

I shook my head and said it was okay, my eyes looked around, and I didn't notice.

Zhou Shenghu stared at me suspiciously, I gathered my thoughts, smiled, took her hand, and said, "Let's go, let's eat." ”

At dinner, Zhou Sheng said to send me home, but I said no, I wanted to go.

Zhou Sheng didn't force it, but only asked me, "Is there something wrong?"

I smiled and said, "No, I just want to walk." ”

She nodded and said, "Okay, call me if there's anything." ”

The mall is not far from the bridge, and I walked directly to the bridge.

Standing on the bridge to the bottom of the building, looking up at the top floor, it was pitch black.

I took out my phone and called Yuan Zhi.

The phone never went unanswered.

Standing downstairs, looking up at this uniquely designed high-rise building, the waist-length back of the long hair and Yuan Zhi intertwined in my mind, which made me feel ashamed of myself, their backs looked really matched.

Over the years, because of Ali and Zhou Sheng, I have seen everything good, but I have never gotten rid of inferiority complex and sensitivity in my heart. Yuan Zhi has always been very good to me, I thought I was unique in his heart, and this complacency made me forget my inferiority complex in front of him.

Today, standing here, there is a feeling of being out of place.

I don't know how long I stood downstairs until someone greeted me: "It's you." ”

It turned out to be the man I saw in Yuan Zhi's office last time, and there was a man in his 50s behind him, with a strong aura and a serious expression.

I nodded at them and said, "Hello. ”

The man I saw last time said gently, "Hello, are you going to find Mr. Yuan?" ”

I hurriedly shook my hand and said, "No, I happened to be passing by." ”

His eyes involuntarily focused on the man behind me, and his gaze fell on me, as if looking at me.

I hurriedly lowered my head and pretended not to see.

The man in front looked back at the man in the back, and then asked me with a smile, "Miss, do you want to go up and sit down?"

I waved my hand and said no.

He was not reluctant, nodded with a smile, and said, "Then the chairman and I will go up first." ”

Chairman, isn't it Yuan Zhi's father, I raised my head sharply and stared at him, why didn't I notice that their eyebrows and eyes were really similar. I froze in place, not knowing what to say.

Yuan Zhi's father walked up to me, paused, and said seemingly casually: "The little family is a little angry." ”

Then he strode in.

I watched like a fool as they walked in.

Leaving from the bridge to the building, the bitterness in my heart continued to spread.

I tried to call Yuan Zhi again, but no one answered.

The mood is even more discouraged.

As I walked, I didn't even know where I had got.

Although I have lived in this city for a few years, I am not familiar with many places because I have never remembered.

Thinking of taking a taxi back, he stood on the side of the road and waited for the car, but his thoughts were confused, and several cars passed by, but they were not stopped.

A car suddenly stopped in front of me, and it was Ali.

Rolling down the window, Ali said, "Come up." ”

I sat down unceremoniously.

Ali saw that I was fastening my seatbelt, and then asked, "Why are you still outside at such a late hour?"

I smiled awkwardly and said, "Lost." ”

He gave me a disdainful look, then asked me again, "Lately, are you still sleepless?"

I nodded and said helplessly, "Hmm." ”

Yuan Zhi has never asked this question, except for Zhou Sheng, no one knows when insomnia has become the most feared thing in my heart.

Every night at 11 o'clock, I feel anxious.

Zhou Sheng took me to see a Chinese medicine doctor many times, and the doctors said that it was a psychological effect and asked me to relax, but it had no effect.

I want to prescribe sleeping pills, but I am worried that I will become dependent, and most of the time I still rely on alcohol.

When I was at work, Ali stared at me for a tight meal, and Zhou Sheng would come to me on weekends when he had nothing to do, and both of them treated me as a patient. Ali asked me to drink less, saying that drinking is not a long-term solution, but there is no way to do it. In the end, I had to move boxes of red wine to my house. He said that if you want to drink it, you should drink it well, and it will do less harm to the body.

Zhou Sheng always laughed at me and said: "I feel that my husband is too partial, why didn't he think of giving me such a good wine?"

I can only smile and put Ali in my heart to be grateful.

One day, I took Zhou Sheng to the mall to buy a gift for Ali, and spent more than 6,000 of my money to buy him a shirt, and I didn't know if he liked it or not, so when he gave it to him, he only said thank you, and didn't say anything.

Anyway, I never saw him wear it, and I didn't buy it anymore. I owe too much, and then it becomes logical. In the past few months, the intimacy with Ali has gradually increased, and the fear of him in my heart is still a little, but most of the time it is formless.

He asked me again, "What's going on in your mind?"

I said lightly: "I didn't think about anything, with you, Zhou Sheng, and Yuan Zhi, there is nothing better than this." ”

He looked at me and didn't speak for a long time.

After a while, he asked softly, "Yuan Zhi is still so busy?"

I didn't reply, I looked intently out the window, thinking about the woman's back and what his father had said.

"Ah Li, am I not worthy of Yuan Zhi?" I wondered if everyone felt the same way.

Ali looked back at me and asked, "What's wrong?"

I didn't want Ali to worry, so I pretended to be calm and said to him: "That's how I feel, I feel that the gap between myself and him is getting bigger and bigger." ”

Although I never said it, nor did I think about it. But today I suddenly found out that what Yuan Zhi was doing was something I couldn't understand and couldn't help. He has been moving forward, only I live a life without oil smoke while guarding love, not thinking of progress, waiting in the same place all day long.

He smiled, stretched out a hand, touched my head, and said in a deep voice, "In my heart, you are the best." ”

I smiled at him and said, "Ali, you're the best." ”

He chuckled softly and said, "Don't be cranky, your insomnia is just too many thoughts." ”

I stuck out my tongue and didn't speak.

In a doting tone, he said to me, "Be kind to yourself, don't let me worry." ”

"Hmm. I looked at Ali gratefully.

Who said that I have no complaints about Yuan Zhi, I complain that he doesn't have time to accompany me, I complain that he doesn't care about me at all now, I complain... It's just that I put up with it. Because I'm afraid of him, because I'm afraid of losing, because I love him too much.

When I got out of the car, Ali said to me again, "Drink less and don't think too much." ”

I nodded deeply, tears coming out. Ali, you are so good to me.

Just went upstairs when the phone rang. It's Yuan Zhi.

He asked me what was wrong.

I said it was okay and I missed him a little.

He was on the other end of the phone, smiled easily, and said, "I miss you too." ”

I asked him nervously, "Why did you go tonight and don't answer the phone?" ”

There was silence for a while, and then he replied, "I've been working overtime in the office." ”

Lies, Yuan Zhi, you lied.

I suddenly felt cold in my heart, and snorted and laughed in a low voice, afraid that he would find out that something was wrong with me, and I didn't have the courage to face another quarrel, so I said to him: "Yuan Zhi, I'm a little tired, hang up." ”

The voice was a little hurried. It was quiet for a long time before he whispered, "Okay." ”

After hanging up the phone, I called Zhou Sheng, I was a little godless, his lies were confirmed, and I didn't dare to guess what was going on.

After listening to my words, Zhou Sheng only asked me: "If it's true, what should you do?"

yes, what should I do, break up? No, I can't let go, and I can't do it.

I definitely can't do it now.

I remembered that when Lu Yiping woke up in the deep rain and rain, she didn't accept the book with another woman in her heart.

At that time, when I watched it, I thought about something, thinking that I would definitely not accept it, and the love I wanted must be pure.

But today, in reality, I think that as long as you don't leave me, I should not see it, and it should not happen.

I hung up the phone without answering, squatted on the ground, hugged myself tightly, and only thought it was funny, and tears flowed down my eyes with a smile.

I opened two bottles of wine and drank directly to the bottle, and when I was almost drunk, I called Yuan Zhi and asked him pretending to be drunk and hazy: "Yuan Zhi, do you still love me?"

He sighed and said, "Have you drunk?"

I was aggrieved and said, "Hmm".

"Wait for me. He said, and hung up.

I sat on the floor, my head resting on the couch and waiting for him, my mind in a mess, my heart looking down on myself, but helpless.

Sitting, sitting, unconsciously falling asleep.

When Yuan Zhi came, it was already past 12 o'clock.

He came in and carried me to the bed, and I woke up.

I closed my eyes and asked him dimly, "What time is it?"

He whispered, "Half past twelve, go back to sleep." ”

"Yuan Zhi, it's my birthday after 12 o'clock. You can't make me unhappy. "My eyes were still closed, and I was afraid that it would give away my emotions.

Yuan Zhi half lay down, pinched my nose, kissed my forehead, and said softly, "My little pig, happy birthday." ”

I smiled and said coquettishly, "Yuan Zhi, I love you so much." ”

When I said this, I couldn't express the grievances in my heart, but it made me feel even more sad.

He hugged me tightly in his arms and said to me, "Li Ji, don't drink anymore, I'll be distressed." ”

I looked up, got drunk and messed around anyway, looked him in the eye and said, "Yes, as long as you don't lie to me." ”

He looked at me deeply for a long time before he said, "Fool." ”

I rested my head on his heart and asked him delicately, "Yuan Zhi, I want a birthday present." ”

He asked me, "What do you want?"

I said, "I want a ring." ”

He looked at me, nodded, and said, "I'll buy it tomorrow." ”

I'm a little disappointed, don't you want a ring and don't make it clear?

Originally, I wanted a ring, just an ornament, but after tonight, I wanted a little more, to prove what I really was in his heart.

He yawned and said to me, "Tomorrow will be with you for a good day, and now let's go to bed early." ”

I remembered that I hadn't taken a shower yet, so I went to take a shower first.

By the time I came out, he was asleep.

Squatting on the edge of the bed, I slowly touched his face, and the stubble on his mouth was a little prickly.

Yuan Zhi, you look so tired. I can't bear to force you, forget it.

I looked down and kissed him lightly on the lips.

The next day, when I woke up, Yuan Zhi had already woken up, and he had been looking at me sideways. When he saw me wake up, he smiled at me and said, "Happy birthday, my little pig!"

I didn't realize that Yuan Zhi's eyes would be electrified, as if they could suck me deeply.

I looked at him stupidly, he smiled even more, his hand took my hand, crossed his fingers, and said sincerely: "Li Ji, it's so good that you are by my side." ”

No matter how much sweet talk you have, you won't get tired of it.