In the morning, Yuan Zhi cooked me a bowl of noodles, saying that the first bite should be rolled all the time, and it should not be broken in order to live a long life.

He said what he wanted to live so long, but he still tried to roll it up.

The noodles were not rolled well, but splashed with soup on their faces, and Yuan Zhi laughed.

I was so angry that I rolled up the dough and stuffed it into his mouth to relieve my hatred.

After breakfast, he said to take me to buy a birthday present.

Unexpectedly, he brought me into the "IDO". I've always liked the name of this brand, it's romantic, I didn't expect him to remember it.

He asked me to pick my own, and I took a fancy to a simple Perkin ring with "IDO" engraved on the inner ring, and tried it, and the more I looked at it, the more I liked it, so I said to him, "I'm going to find one." ”

He squinted at me and said, "Are you sure?

"No, that's it. "I'm determined.

He didn't say anything more and went straight to pay.

I was a little lost in my heart, but I didn't say anything.

One morning, Yuan Zhi's phone rang intermittently, but he didn't answer.

I said, "If there's something to do, you can get busy first, it doesn't matter." ”

He smiled and said, "It's okay, you don't care." ”

He asked me what I wanted to eat at noon, and I said that I would go home and cook by myself, so I went to the supermarket and bought some dishes, a hot and sour shredded potato, a braised crucian carp, and a garlic prawn, all of which are my favorite dishes.

When I got home, Yuan Zhi went to the kitchen to prepare the dishes, I said help, and he said that I am the uncle today, let me rest at ease. I was happy to sit on the sofa and watch Hong Kong movies.

Suddenly, there seemed to be a vibration sound, and I didn't care about it at first, but it kept shaking, looking left and right, only to find that it was Yuan Zhi's mobile phone vibrating, his mobile phone was in the pocket of his suit jacket, and his jacket was on the edge of the sofa.

I moved over, took out my phone, and was about to send it to him, and when I looked, the phone said "An An".

Sitting on the couch for a moment, he put the phone in his pocket again. If you want to pretend to be stupid, let's pretend to be thorough.

I called him: "Yuan Zhi, your phone is ringing, take it, it seems that you have been calling for a long time." ”

"Let it go. He didn't care.

"You can take it, maybe there is something urgent, and I keep fighting. I called him out again.

He just came out, took out his mobile phone and looked at it, and then looked up at me for a while, whether to answer or not, as if he was a little hesitant.

I suppressed the sorrow that welled up in my heart and said lightly, "Take it." ”

He picked it up and went back to the kitchen.

The movie was completely out of view, and I didn't have the courage to go to the kitchen and listen to what he was saying. I was just scared and I didn't want to face it.

After a while, he came out and sat down next to me, feeling like he couldn't say anything.

I pretended to be concentrating on the movie and asked, "What's wrong?"

When I said it, I felt stupid, why should I give a ladder?

He was silent for a while, put his hands on my shoulders and turned my body around, and said a little guiltily: "Li Ji, I have something to go out, you wait for me, I will be back soon." ”

I pretended not to care, smiled and said, "Go ahead, I'll wait for you." ”

He kissed me on the forehead and said in a deep voice, "I'm sorry." ”

I laughed even louder and said loudly, "You can go, it's okay." ”

I tried to keep my eyes wide open, afraid that tears would fall and my smile would open wider.

I don't know if my smile is very reluctant at this moment, Ali always said that I can't hide any thoughts, and I show them on my face one by one.

Yuan Zhi walked to the door, stopped again, looked back at me and said, "Li Ji, don't be sad, I'll be back soon." ”

Yuan Zhi, it's okay, you know I'll be sad, but it's good that you'll be back soon.

Look, how sensible I am.

I just sat on the couch and waited for him, unable to watch the movie again, and my mind was in chaos.

The phone rang, it was Yuan Zhi, he didn't want to answer, it seemed that he would come back if he didn't answer the phone. I put my phone on silent and let it ring.

It finally quieted down, and with a deep sigh of relief, the message beep sounded again.

I didn't dare to look at it, so I went into the kitchen, saw that the dishes were ready, tried to calm myself down, and began to stir-fry myself.

After serving the food and setting up two pairs of chopsticks, I sat down and began to eat slowly.

It's really unpalatable, but it doesn't seem to taste worse than the heart, so it doesn't matter.

The phone remembered again, I still went to get the phone, it was not Yuan Zhi, it was Zhou Sheng.

Zhou Sheng said to me happy birthday, said that she had a set of internal room resources on hand, said that she would take me over in the afternoon to have a look, and eat together in the evening, I said okay.

Hanging up the phone, I clicked on Yuan Zhi's message: "Li Ji, I'm sorry, I'm going to go abroad, wait for me to come back." ”

I smiled, dropped the phone, thought about it, picked it up again and replied, "Okay." ”

Even I have to feel sorry for myself.

When Zhou Sheng came to pick me up, I hadn't finished my food yet.

She sat down across from me, picked up the chopsticks across from me, tasted them, spit them out, and then snatched my chopsticks and said, "Don't eat them, how can you eat them so badly?"

I smiled and whispered, "No matter how bad it is, I have to endure it." ”

Zhou Sheng asked me softly, "Yuan Zhi is busy again?"

I nodded, lifted my spirits, and said with a smile, "It's okay, it's not a big day today, let's go, let's go see the house." ”

packed up and went to see the house with Zhou Sheng. The house is far away from the company, but I like the house type and sunshine, and the most important thing is that the price is not expensive. Zhou Sheng and I were very satisfied, so we discussed and decided to buy it. Use the demolition money first, and then slowly make up for it, fortunately, the deficit is not very large.

At dinner in the evening, Ali also came. Zhou Sheng said: "Why don't you bring a gift." Ali said, "Just invite you to eat." ”

And so the day passed.

After eating, I returned home, took out the ring, tied it to the necklace that Zhou Sheng gave me, the ring was close to my chest, and it was cold.

Yuan Zhi didn't show up for more than half a month, and only called once halfway, saying that he missed me and would come back in two days.

Two days and two days, and two days, he still didn't show up.

The waiting heart is getting colder and colder.

Fortunately, the house is in hand, there are more things to decorate, and I don't have the heart to think about anything else, and my insomnia is gradually getting better.

On the day Yuan Zhi appeared, I didn't feel very happy.

He's been away for so long, and it seems like I'm used to him not being with me.

That day, as soon as he entered the door, he hugged me behind his back and said, "I miss you." ”

On this day, I was as calm as if I had fallen into an evil spirit.

I whispered, "I don't love you anymore." ”

Yuan Zhi didn't speak, just hugged me tightly behind his back.

I broke his hand, looked him in the eye, and said, "Yuan Zhi, I don't love you anymore." ”

He didn't say a word, he pushed me against the wall, held my cheeks, kissed me on the forehead, and then slowly kissed me down the right side of my face until I reached the lips.

A sense of powerlessness permeated my heart, and I sighed deeply in my heart. The hands that were originally hanging slowly wrapped around his waist, and he said weakly: "I don't love you anymore." ”

He didn't speak, just hugged me tightly in his arms.

At this time, it really made me feel that he really loved me.

It's just that there is still a sensitive point in my heart that I don't want to or touch at all, and I suppress it deeply in my heart, never mentioning it, but I can't control the subconscious in my thinking and actions.

I always ask Yuan Zhiai if he loves me, he says yes, I don't believe it, if he doesn't speak, I will be sad.

The cycle goes on and on, and even I feel tired, not to mention Yuan Zhi.

In the past, there was only a small time to meet, and the phone still insisted that there would be one every day, but later, let alone meeting, even the phone call was less. On the contrary, I took the initiative to call him too much, and if I couldn't say two sentences, I didn't know what to say, I couldn't say what was in my heart, and I couldn't vomit the bitterness in my heart. In the end, he didn't want to speak, and I didn't want to speak.

Gradually, a long gap began between me and him.

It's just that he doesn't mention it, and I never mention it.

It's better to hurt each other than to be strangers.