Had a particularly terrible dream. At first, it was a particularly beautiful and sweet spring dream. A very handsome and well-dressed man is talking to me, and the conversation skills are still very advanced, definitely not what you are a little weird today, strange and beautiful of this kind of earthy pick-up. I feel like my deer's antlers are about to break through the handsome guy's suit. The handsome guy said a lot of sweet things and said he was going to take me to a very beautiful place. The car became more and more remote, the people outside the window became more and more sparse, and I became more and more afraid. When I wanted to jump out of the car and run away, I was dragged by a handsome guy. I looked at the handsome guy's face in fear, and the face that was close to me slowly turned ugly until it became Li Chungen's face. The clothes also range from bright to ragged. According to my statement, maybe everyone doesn't think it's so scary, and they even think that my dream is very much Marquez's Maco

Do the magical realism of the small town, after all, the protagonist will also change his face. Maybe you'll laugh at this boundless dream. There is nothing terrible about this dream itself. But when it was connected to my real-life experience, it became terrifying. This kind of dream always reminds me of that night when I was violated. The limbs that opened their teeth and claws when they desperately resisted turned into a body like a dead corpse in the end. When I woke up, my body was still slightly spasming. In fact, I haven't dreamed of this kind of dream for many years. Some things, memories that are so long that you think you have forgotten, will stay with you for the rest of your life, and you have no choice but to bear them.

I put my head in the freezer to calm myself down. It may be possible to divert one's attention only by stimulating the nerves in the epithelial tissue. Glory didn't know when he came, so he followed me to the floor and stuck his head in the freezer. He didn't say a word, just lay quietly with me.

"Are you sleepwalking now?"

"What about you, are you still scared?"

"What am I afraid of?"

"Then what are you doing in the fridge in the middle of the night?"

"When I woke up in the middle of the night, I suddenly sighed that my face was fleeting, and I couldn't put on a cold air anti-aging mask?"

"Yes, I don't have a problem with you patenting the beauty technology that puts your face in the freezer. ”

"I heard movement in your room and couldn't hear what you were saying, but I knew you were scared. ”

"Glory, I had a dream that was so real that it was terrible. Chills all over the body. The so-called fighting poison with poison, when it is extremely cold, it may need a colder temperature, which makes me remember this pain. ”

"Why remember the pain?"

"Because the human body is a wonderful organism. Macrophages can track the chemical signals released by the fungus so that we don't die from lack of oxygen. Platelets can clot blood, so we don't die from blood loss. Our body is very smart, it has a set of self-protection mechanisms, and it knows how to seek advantages and avoid disadvantages more than we need to do. I let my body remember the cold and discomfort at the moment, and maybe next time my subconscious mind will automatically avoid this real and terrible dream. ”

"Do you always have the same nightmare?"

My nightmares may not be the same, but they all end up with Lee Chun-geun's face. I remember that before I was sexually assaulted, I didn't dream and could sleep anywhere and at any time. It's just that this kind of good sleep, since then, has never been again. It turns out that I also have dreams, and most of them are nightmares.

"Why are you still lying here, are you also having nightmares? ”

"Do you feel sorry for me?" Glory turned sideways, propped his head on his elbows, and set his gaze on my face as steadily as a mortise and tenon structure. He saw that I was a little uncomfortable, and I gradually moved my face away and stood up, "I've put on today's cold air mask, I'll go back to sleep." If you want to keep going, keep going. ”

Glory suddenly stood up and closed the refrigerator doors on both sides as he wrapped me between his arms. This kind of behavior, to be honest, is very abnormal. This action is very different from the usual Glory and my buddy hook shoulders. Truth be told, unlocking Walltone is simple. There is such a big space between the two arms, you can completely drill through. I can't figure it out, why the heroine of the film and television drama is helpless. I slowly bent my leg and slipped out under Glory's right arm. After getting out, he rushed back to his room with lightning speed.

I leaned my back against the bedroom door, still recovering from the turmoil. For me, Bidong belongs to the scope of super-gang friendship.

Glory knocked on the door, "I know you didn't sleep, do you want to get up and have a drink." ”

"No, it's too late, I'm sleepy. ”

"You escaped like this, and people who didn't know thought you were insulting me, so they hurriedly left the scene of the crime because they were uneasy. ”

Oh my God, is there such a black and white person who does not distinguish between right and wrong? Who is the infideness of whom? Why, is the thief shouting to catch the thief? But I have to swallow this loss. I don't want to rehash the embarrassing scene we just had.

"I'm really sleepy. ”

"Dare you have nightmares in the middle of the night, waking up others with a ghostly roar, and you don't have to bear a little inner condemnation. ”

"I'm sorry. ”

"So you're conscious, self-controlled, you know exactly what you're doing in your dreams, you know what you're talking about in your dreams, right?"

"You're going to talk to me behind closed doors all the time?"

"Air and wood are the medium through which sound can be transmitted. The two of us are young and not deaf, and no door can stop us from communicating. ”

"What I want to say is, if you're scared, I can talk to you. You go to bed now, and I'll tell you a story. ”

"What, you want to put me to sleep?"

"I don't know, whether adults give this honor to contemptible. ”

"Why are you so nice to me?"

"Because I want to take advantage of you. ”

"It's funny that you're making fun of me, isn't it? I opened the door and saw Glory sitting by the bedroom door, his face was cunning, "Hurry up and close the door, I'm afraid I'll be beastly and forcibly take the people's daughters." ”

How could I not have heard him sarcastically mocking me, "You're insane!"

"Are you still scared?"

"Much better, thank you, glory. "It turned out that the previous series of actions were all to dispel my fears. Being so troubled by him, I was really not as scared and scared as before.

In a sense, glory is something special to me. The moment he persuaded me to keep Xin Rong, a new page in my life began. At that time, I naively thought that by beating the children who were in high school, I could deny my past and pretend that I had never had a disgusting and dirty history of the little three. Glory He didn't know what had happened to me in the past, he just told me to do everything according to my own health. The child may or may not be beaten, but only if it does not harm his or her physical health. I still remember that sentence of glory very clearly. Glory said that there is no need to insist on killing the month-old child because he hates the child's father. Loving yourself is more important than anything else. Through Glory, I have come to understand that the best way to deal with the past is to face it, not run away from it.