In the evening, Yuelan's father, Liu Kaiyi, came to Meng Xiangkun's house with dozens of eggs from half a basket of his own hens, put the basket on the ground, and said to Meng Xiangkun very guiltily: "Brother Xiangkun...... Alas—— Zhenhua is fine, right?" Seeing this, Meng Xiangkun politely stretched out his hand to push: "Brother Bolt, what are you doing?!—— what big deal can a child's family have!" "Brother, listen to me tell you......" Liu Kaiyi's nickname is Bolt, and the people in the village call him by his nickname, when he pinned a dry tobacco pouch from the middle of the big belt around his waist, Meng Xiangkun saw this and hurriedly took out a foreign fire to help him light it, so he first stretched out his hand to Meng Xiangkun and asked: "Do you smoke?" Meng Xiangkun waved his hand busily: "No, no, no!" ......" Liu Kaiyi put the mouth of the cigarette pouch to his mouth and took a sharp breath, let out a long breath and said: "Today's matter, no matter what, complain about me, complain about Yuelan, it's all wrong!" "Sigh! What are you talking about, brother, it'——s okay—— "What do I mean in the future! You enlighten Zhenhua, Yuelan is in vain! Crazy that no one knows anyone-no matter how speculative they played before, how good they were, don't have that mind in the future-didn't Zhenhua say it? Don't let the woman know about this matter............" Meng Xiangkun nodded when he listened: "I know! I know! Brother Xuan, now Zhenhua's mind is always on Yuelan, this is still a problem-after all, it's still young, I can't figure it out" "If Yuelan is okay, maybe we won't ask about it, the key is that if it continues like this, it will hurt the two children...... You still have to take this matter seriously, enlighten him more...... Then I'll go back!Brother-" Liu Kaiyi said as he retreated to the gate, turned around and strode towards the dark night. "Brother Shu, you go slowly—— I remember everything you said, heh-" Meng Xiangkun stood under the eaves of his house and waved his arm behind Liu Kaiyi's back, and when he turned around, he saw Zhenhua sitting on the top of the teng chair at the door of the hall and lying up, Meng Xiangkun stood in the courtyard and said to him: "Take care of yourself at home these days, and go to work in the police station in a few days—— find this matter!" Zhenhua still looked upwards and didn't say a word.

Later, not long after, Zhenhua went to work at the town's police station under the repeated persuasion of everyone, and after a while, he married Juxiang and moved to a new house assigned by the town. Meng Liuyao he didn't go back often, occasionally came back and saw Yuelan standing at the entrance of the village crazy and stupid, how much he actually wanted to go over and pull her hand and say some words of comfort to her, once he plucked up the courage to walk over, he saw the unkempt Yuelan looking at him in horror with a pair of big eyes of rejection from a distance, snorting and moving, he looked at her gently, just like when he was a child, as before and asked her: "Yuelan, what are you doing here?...... Who knew that Yuelan only waved her hand at him when she heard it: "Get out, get out......" Zhenhua realized that she was really naïve, and her eyes were moist in an instant, so she turned her face away, and left in tears. So the next time he saw her, he quickly walked around to the side, and he knew that it was an embarrassing, The wordless ending, slowly he hardened his heart, and slowly he didn't know when he was no longer the innocent boy he used to be, and he didn't know the height of the sky, and the working life in the town had already polished a person's original nature to all sides, only occasionally he inadvertently saw or touched the scar on his neck, and remembered the past many years ago, and then just silently, helplessly shook his head and laughed, because every story in the annual ring we have experienced will leave a track, and slowly the trajectory is more, and we can't find the original traces; But it is, always has been, and has accompanied us throughout the course of our lives.

Yingying still likes to play with Sister Yuelan, just like before, as if in her heart, in her impression, Sister Yuelan never seemed to be crazy. If she saw Sister Yuelan standing at the intersection of the village, she would definitely run over to play with her. One day, when the two were playing in the poplar forest in Zhuangnandi, how far away they saw Xiaoguang's daughter-in-law Xiaobin was bare-chested on the big stone in Zhuangnanmen and opened her arms to breastfeed the child, Xiaobin was pregnant several times and did not keep the child, Xiaoguang didn't know where to spend money to buy a girl, I didn't expect Xiaobin to really hurt her, and opened her arms all day long to hold the child in her arms to feed, she always had a cowardly look and never dared to talk to people, since she had this child, she has changed, she has become very angry, dare to hold the child and wander around, and her mouth is still verbosity shouting"Oh...... Oh oh...... "Strange is her child's name, and no one knows why she gave her child such a strange name."...... Yingying really didn't want to see her, crazy, stupid and sloppy, especially the shallow or deep scars on her chest, she felt very good at a glance, she heard that she came with her mother, but her mother was gone, and she was crazy and stupid. I heard that she came here when she was very young, and she was still a student, so she was as old as her, and she felt terrified at the bottom of her heart when she thought of this.

I don't know what kind of psychology she had, Yingying walked over, and Yuelan followed her. Before she could get to the front of her, she smelled the rancid body odor emanating from her mother and son, Yingying stopped, looking at her like this for the first time in her life, in her impression she only knew that he was a crazy woman, a stupid woman, she never knew what she looked like, on that yellow-skinned face, a pair of eyes were as dry as a burned-out oil lamp, but the pair of double eyelids had been dusted like a mosquito and fly hanging on the dry branches of the years and swaying.

"Do you know my mother?—— Yingying looked at her and said deeply, although she knew how weak this question was, but after all, she had exhausted her last courage.

Xiaobin didn't react, still coaxing the child in his arms with a "howl ......", and twisted his body as if he was afraid of being robbed when he saw someone standing in front of him. When Yingying was sad and desperate, she suddenly thought strangely that Sister Yuelan had said that her mother's name was Lin Hong.

"Lin Hong, you know——? the two of you came together! Lin Hong!" Yingying said vividly.

Xiao Bin still sat blankly facing the sunset, the sun shone on her mother and son, and the world seemed so peaceful. After a long while, Yingying thought that she probably really couldn't remember her mother coming, and she was such a person with a bad brain, when she suddenly heard something muttering something in her mouth: "...... Forest...... Red!...... Forest...... Red - Lin Hong was ...... by that bad bear "......Xiao Bin said so eloquently, if she didn't listen carefully, it would be difficult to hear every word she said, but in the last two words, she said it very clearly, not only clearly, but when she said those two words, the originally chaotic eyes immediately became terrified and vicious.

Yingying looked at Xiao Bin in a daze, Xiao Bin's words buzzed in her mind for a long time, she still didn't react to Xiao Bin's words for a while, but this impression was deep in her life for a lifetime.

This summer vacation is destined to change something, and Yingying can feel her embarrassing situation in this family. As the relationship between Li Jinfeng and his grandmother intensified, Liu Dazhu also blew on both sides like the grass on the wall, on the one hand, he was more inclined to his mother's side than the halfway husband and wife Li Jinfeng, on the other hand, he was subject to Li Jinfeng, the mother-in-law and daughter-in-law chattered endlessly every day for trivial things, and the contradiction also affected Huaibei and Yingying, Huaibei didn't go to school for two years, so he went outside to find a job to dry the lees, and came back once every two months; , The old mother was speechless and helpless, only one ear went in and one ear out, but the cheeks of a twelve- or thirteen-year-old Yingying were red and red all day long. And what made her even more frustrated was Huaibei. It wasn't so much frustration as it was more disgusting to her. Yingying didn't know if it was her subjective consciousness, or if Huaibei was really disgusting, as soon as she saw his appearance, she couldn't help but hold her breath, frowned, and her eyes immediately swept to the side. Every time Huaibei came back, he was tanned, and he wore a nondescript brightly colored gown, Yingying became more and more disgusting, especially disgusted with the two pinches of fluffy beard above the corners of his mouth, and his voice suddenly became surprisingly hoarse and ugly, he was no longer as deliberately difficult as before, but always wanted to get close to her from time to time to say a few words, whenever this time, Yingying always had a long face, and her eyelids drooped, "Well!" "Ah!" After he finished speaking, he hurriedly left.

And the secret began to know from Huaibei's mouth, one day after Huaibei performed carefully in front of Yingying, he saw Yingying's elongated impatient face, he was impatient first, his expression changed, his mouth was pulled, and he took the pair of dead fish eyes that looked exactly like his mother to glance at her, and then said: "Don't think that your status in this family is higher than anyone's——? Let me tell you, in this family, I still have my mother to support me, who do you have? Just grandma——? I don't know when I die, you will have to have your teeth when you drink cold water! Who are you?—— do you know who you are? Don't be arrogant all day long......

Yingying felt more and more disgusted when she heard his words, and she turned her head angrily to him, "What are you talking about? I don't understand! Get out of the way!"

Huaibei listened and looked at Yingying and retreated a little, but his face looked even more corrupted, he looked at Yingying fixedly for a while, and finally spoke: "Do you know who you are? Liu Dazhu, he is not your father, you are the wild child that your mother brought back from outside—— wild child, do you know the wild child? Your mother doesn't want a wild child! She is ashamed of you, so she threw you into this house——

Yingying listened to him in a daze, Huaibei's words pierced into the depths of her heart word by word like an awl, she looked at Huaibei with a blank expression, who knew that Huaibei was so frightened that he turned his head and ran away when he saw her looking at him like this.

Huaibei's words were indeed like an awl, and they were pierced too deeply, but she felt that her nerves were numb and dull, and that word by word was like a spell that struck her heart, carving an eternal imprint on her life. However, Huaibei was like a cunning cat, he jumped away as soon as he saw her, Yingying knew that the miserable and sad stories she had seen were actually not far from her, maybe they were on her.

After another day like this, Yingying finally saw Huaibei sitting alone on the manhole cover at the back of the house in a daze, with extreme anxiety and excitement, she quietly walked over, also sat in the corner of the manhole cover, and asked quietly: "Brother Huaibei, what you said the day before yesterday, is it true?...... Who did you listen to?" she deliberately set up, in fact, she hadn't called him Brother Huaibei for a long time in her memory.

When Huaibei heard this, he turned his head in a little shock: "What did I say ?—— day before yesterday?"

Yingying looked at him stunned and helpless when she heard this, and after a long time, she muttered: "The day before yesterday, you said...... I'm a wild child......" she said as she snorted awkwardly.

Who knows, Huaibei seemed to be a little unbearable when he heard it, he shook his head again and again and jumped away: "I didn't ...... I haven't said anything like that to you, and I didn't say that, I ...... I heard from others, too!" As he said this, he jumped and ran away.

At this point, Yingying had pursed her lips aggrievedly, tears swirling in her eyes, she knew that the secret that had been tangled was being broken layer by layer, and she finally understood why her mother, who had been haunted by her dreams, abandoned her so decisively, Xiaobin's words were like an empowerment,—— she felt that the dark sky above her head was surging down and wrapping her up, and she actually felt that the last remaining trace of helpless weakness seemed so ethereal.

From then on, her little sky seemed to be shrouded in a thick layer of clouds that could not be dispersed, and this thick, thick cloud surrounded her, and she could not go out, nor did she want others to see her depression. So she likes to sit alone in a daze where no one is, or play with Sister Yuelan, or take a novel that she has chewed all over and immerse herself in, so that she can give herself a place in that beautiful chapter, in the sad and sad stories of others, and the thick melancholy seems to have been dissolved, and slowly she put her sorrows, troubles, and thoughts into paper, emotion and flesh, so when Lily put her "Old Jujube Tree" written by her When I showed it to the head teacher, who knew that the head teacher just looked at it and threw it on the table with a disdainful laugh: "I must have copied it somewhere!" Although Lily said on the side: "I didn't copy it! I wrote it myself!" Yingying's heart still sank again and again, as if it had sunk to the depths of the sea, and since then she has become silent, and then in the silence she loves writing more unbridledly, but she no longer takes it out for others to see, but Lily can sometimes read it to the fullest.

Soon, the menstruation on her body came, before this Yingying felt that her heart was depressed and depressed every day, as if she was going to die, and she even felt that if she really died like this, no one would be able to relieve her sorrow and sorrow, just like the girl in the Thousand Eyes Lake, when her unrelieved mind turned into a pool of still water, when others walked by, could anyone also be able to understand her original sorrow.

One afternoon, everyone sat under the neem tree in front of Yuelan's house, and said that Xiaoqi's daughter-in-law Xinxia was greedy and willing to eat and ran away with the longitudinal hair cake, Yingying sat aside and listened to the feeling of wetness, but she didn't want to pee, so she didn't care about sitting for a while, and when she was together, she inadvertently noticed a large blood stain on the ground, which was red and red, and actually seeped into the soil. Xiaoguang, and Xiaojun followed his mother Shufen to see this scene, it happened that Li Jinfeng was taking off her shoes and sitting barefoot on the ground at that time, she reacted quickly, and picked up the sole of the shoe and covered it with the blood stain, and then rolled her eyes at Shufen who was sitting opposite, Shufen met Li Jinfeng's gaze although she was silent but understood, Xiaojun sat with his mother sitting down, looking very dazed about what happened in front of him.

Yingying looked at the scene that suddenly happened in front of her, and was stunned for a moment, and when she came to her senses, she screamed "Ah!" and ran away.

Yingying ran home in one go, and didn't see her grandmother, so she broke into the east house, she randomly found a pair of pants and replaced the bloodstained pants, but after putting on clean pants, it still didn't work, so the clean pants were dirty again. So she searched everywhere again, but couldn't find anything suitable, then Li Jinfeng came, holding two big cotton covers in her hands, and handed them to her: "Well—— take this mat and take care of it, I don't care about it, and I run into the crowd!"

Yingying's eyes immediately filled with tears when she heard this, she wanted to say that I didn't know I was going to have this, but the tears fell and she didn't say anything.

On the dirty cotton sleeve, Yingying lay on the bed and cried motionlessly, she didn't have a mother, and her grandmother didn't tell her about it, she seemed to have seen someone take out the blood cotton sleeve from under her buttocks, she didn't dare to look at it, she didn't expect such an embarrassing thing to fall on herself again, and in front of so many people, she felt really unbearable, the worst thing was that the thing didn't leave for several days, Yingying felt that she was exuding a thick bloody smell all over her body, and she was so depressed that she was really going to die, Li Jinfeng saw the piles of blood cotton condoms in the toilet, and muttered to her in private"I've never seen someone like you, once I come so much, I'll be over in a day or two!" Yingying only felt pitiful and unlucky when she heard this, and couldn't help but feel sad.