In the evening, Yuelan's father, Liu Kaiyi, came to Meng Xiangkun's house with dozens of eggs from half a basket of his own hens, put the basket on the ground, and said to Meng Xiangkun very guiltily: "Brother Xiangkun...... Alas—— Zhenhua is fine, right?" Seeing this, Meng Xiangkun politely stretched out his hand to push: "Brother Bolt, what are you doing?!—— what big deal can a child's family have!" "Brother, listen to me tell you......" Liu Kaiyi's nickname is Bolt, and the people in the village call him by his nickname, when he took it off from a dry tobacco pouch pinned to the big belt around his waist, Meng Xiangkun saw this and hurriedly took out a foreign fire to help him light it, he first stretched out his hand to Meng Xiangkun and asked: "Do you smoke?" Meng Xiangkun hurriedly waved his hand: " No, no, no, no......" Liu Kaiyi put the mouth of the cigarette pouch to his mouth and took a sharp breath, and took a long breath and said: "Today's matter, no matter what, complain about me, complain about Yuelan, I can't help it!" "Sigh! What are you talking about, brother, it's okay to ——" "What do I mean—— in the future, you enlighten and enlighten Zhenhua, Yuelan is in vain! Crazy that no one knows anyone anymore - no matter how speculative they used to play and how good they were, don't have that mind in the future - didn't Zhenhua say it right? Don't let the woman know ......about this matter!" Meng Xiangkun listened and nodded: "I know, I know!" Brother Xuan, now Zhenhua's transfer is being arranged, what I am worried about is that Zhenhua's mind is always on Yuelan, this is still a problem - after all, she is still young, and she can't ......figure it out" "If Yuelan is okay, maybe we won't ask about this matter, the key is that if it continues like this, it will hurt the two children...... You still have to take this matter seriously, enlighten him more...... Then I'll go back!Brother—" Liu Kaiyi said as he turned and retreated to the gate, striding towards the dark night. "Brother Bolt, you go slowly—— hehe——" Meng Xiangkun said and hurriedly walked out of the eaves of his house and waved his arm towards Liu Kaiyi's back in the dark, and when he turned around, he saw Zhenhua sitting on the top of the teng chair at the door of the hall and lying up, Meng Xiangkun stood in the courtyard and said to him: "Take care of yourself at home these days, and go to work in the police station in a few days to —— this matter!" Zhenhua still looked upwards and didn't say a word.

Later, not long after, Zhenhua went to work at the town's police station under the repeated persuasion of everyone, and after a while, he married Juxiang and moved to a new house assigned by the town. Meng Liuyao he doesn't go back often, occasionally come back and see Yuelan standing at the entrance of the village crazy and stupid, how much he actually wants to go over and pull her hand and say some comforting words to her, once he mustered up the courage to walk over, he saw the unkempt Yuelan standing far away, looking at him with a pair of big eyes of repulsion, moving his steps in horror, he looked at her gently, just like when he was a child, just like before and asked her: "Yuelan! what are you doing here?...... Who knew that Yuelan only waved her hand at him when she heard it: "Get out, get out......" Zhenhua realized that she was really a fool, her eyes were moist in an instant, and she turned her face away, crying and leaving. So the next time he saw her, he quickly walked around to the side, and he knew that it was an embarrassing, The wordless ending, slowly he hardened his heart, and slowly he didn't know when he was no longer the innocent boy he used to be, and he didn't know the height of the sky, and the working life in the town had already sharpened a person's nature to all sides, only occasionally inadvertently saw or touched the scar on the neck, and remembered the past many years ago, and then just silently, helplessly shook his head and smiled, because in the annual rings we have experienced, every story will leave a track, and slowly the trajectory is more, and we can't find the original traces; But it is, always has been, and has accompanied us throughout the course of our lives.

Yingying still likes to play with Sister Yuelan, just like before, as if in her heart, in her impression, Sister Yuelan never seemed to be crazy. If she saw Sister Yuelan standing at the intersection of the village, she would definitely run over to play with her. One day, when the two were playing in the poplar forest in Zhuangnandi, how far away they saw Xiaoguang's daughter-in-law Xiaobin was bare-chested on the big stone at the south gate of Zhuangnan, and opened her arms to feed the child, Xiaobin was pregnant several times and did not keep the child, Xiaoguang didn't know where to spend money to buy a girl, I didn't expect Xiaobin to really hurt her, and she opened her arms all day long to hold the child in her arms to feed, before she always had a cowardly look and never dared to talk to people, since she had this child, she has changed, she has become very angry, dare to hold the child and wander around, and the mouth is still verbosous and shouting: "Oh...... Oh oh...... "Strange is her child's name, and no one knows why she gave her child such a strange name."...... Yingying really didn't want to see her, crazy, stupid and sloppy, especially the shallow or deep scars on her chest, she felt very good at a glance, she heard that she came with her mother, but her mother was gone, and she was crazy and stupid. I heard that she was trafficked when she was very young, and she was still a student, so she was her age, and the bottom of Yingying's heart felt hissing and terrifying when she thought of this.

I don't know what kind of psychology she had, Yingying walked over, and Sister Yuelan followed her. Before she could get to her, she smelled the rancid body odor coming from her mother and son. Yingying stood still, looking at her like this for the first time in her life, in her impression she only knew that he was a crazy woman, a stupid woman, she never knew that she looked like this, on that yellow-skinned face, a pair of eyes were as dry as a burned-out oil lamp, but that pair of eyes, the pair of eyelids that had been dusted by the wind and dust, were like mosquitoes and flies hanging on the dry branches of the years.

"Do you know my mother?——" Yingying looked at her and said deeply, although she knew how weak this question was, but after all, she had exhausted her last courage.

Xiao Bin didn't react, still coaxing the child in his arms with a "...... snort", and turned around as if he was afraid of being robbed when he saw someone standing in front of him. When Yingying was sad and desperate, she suddenly thought strangely that Sister Yuelan had said that her mother's name was Lin Hong.

"Lin Hong, you know——? the two of you came together! Lin Hong!" Yingying said vividly.

Xiao Bin still sat blankly facing the sunset, the sun shone on her mother and son, and the world seemed so peaceful. After a long while, Yingying thought that she probably really couldn't remember anything, a person with a bad brain like her, and suddenly heard something muttering something in her mouth: "...... Forest...... Red!...... Forest...... Red - Lin Hong was ...... by that bad bear "......Xiao Bin said so eloquently, if she didn't listen carefully, it would be difficult to hear every word she said, but in the last two words, she was said very clearly, not only clear, but when she said those two words, her originally chaotic eyes immediately became frightened and vicious.

Yingying looked at Xiao Bin in a daze, Xiao Bin's words buzzed in her mind for a long time, she still didn't react to Xiao Bin's words for a while, but this impression was deep in her life for a lifetime.

This summer vacation is destined to change something, and Yingying can feel her embarrassing situation in this family. As the relationship between Li Jinfeng and his grandmother intensified, Liu Dazhu also blew on both sides like the grass on the wall, on the one hand, he was more inclined to his mother's side than the halfway husband and wife Li Jinfeng, on the other hand, he was subject to Li Jinfeng, the mother-in-law and daughter-in-law chattered endlessly every day for trivial things, and the contradiction also affected Huaibei and Yingying, Huaibei didn't go to school for two years, so he went outside to find a job to dry the lees, and came back once every two months; , The old mother was speechless and helpless, only one ear went in and one ear out, but the cheeks of a twelve- or thirteen-year-old Yingying were red and red all day long. And what made her even more frustrated was Huaibei. It wasn't so much frustration as it was more disgusting to her. Yingying didn't know if it was her subjective consciousness, or if Huaibei was really disgusting, as soon as she saw his appearance, she couldn't help but hold her breath, frowned, and her eyes immediately swept to the side. Every time Huaibei came back, he was tanned and tanned, and he wore a nondescript brightly colored flower shirt, Yingying felt more and more disgusting, especially the two hairy beards above the corners of his mouth, and his voice suddenly became surprisingly hoarse and ugly, he was no longer as deliberately difficult as before, but always wanted to get close to her from time to time to say a few words, whenever this time, Yingying always had a long face, her eyelids drooped, "Well!" "Ah!" After he finished speaking, he quickly left.

And the secret started from Huaibeikou. One day, after Huaibei performed carefully in front of Yingying, he saw Yingying's elongated impatient face, he was impatient first, his expression changed, his mouth was pulled, and he took the pair of dead fish eyes that looked exactly like his mother to glance at her, and then said: "Don't think that your status in this family is higher than anyone else! I pull a face all day long, who to show it——?——? let me tell you, in this family, I still have my mother to support, who do you have? I don't know if you live and die, you will have your teeth cripped when you drink cold water! Who are you?—— do you know who you are? Don't be arrogant all day long......

Yingying felt more and more disgusted when she heard his words, and she turned her head angrily to him, "What are you talking about? I don't understand! Get out of the way!"

When Huaibei heard this, he looked at Yingying and retreated a little, but his face looked even more corrupted, he looked at Yingying fixedly for a while, and finally spoke: "Do you know who you are? Liu Dazhu, he is not your father, you are a wild child brought back from outside by your mother—— wild child, do you know the wild child? Your mother doesn't want a wild child! She is ashamed of taking you, so she throws you into this house and runs for her life——

Yingying listened to him in a daze, Huaibei's words pierced into the depths of her heart word by word like an awl, she looked at Huaibei with a blank expression, who knew that Huaibei was so frightened that he turned his head and ran away when he saw her looking at him like this.

Huaibei's words were indeed like an awl, and they were pierced too deeply, but she felt that her nerves were numb and dull, and that sentence hit her heart word by word like a spell, carving an eternal imprint on her life. However, Huaibei was like a cunning cat, as soon as she saw her, she jumped away, Yingying knew that the miserable and sad stories she had seen were actually not far from her, maybe they were on her.

After another day like this, Yingying finally saw Huaibei alone sitting on the manhole cover at the back of the house in a daze, with extremely nervous and excited mood, she quietly walked over, also sat in the corner of the manhole cover, and asked quietly: "Brother Huaibei, what you said the day before yesterday, is it true?...... Who did you listen to?" she deliberately set up, in fact, she hadn't called him Brother Huaibei for a long time in her memory.

When Huaibei heard this, he turned his head in a little shock: "What did I say ?—— day before yesterday?"

When Yingying heard this, she looked at him stunned and helpless, and after a long time, she muttered: "The day before yesterday, you said,...... I'm a wild child......" she said as she snorted awkwardly.

Who knows, Huaibei seemed to be a little unbearable when he heard it, he shook his head again and again and jumped away: "I didn't ...... I haven't said anything like that to you, and I didn't say that, I ...... I heard from others, too!" Before he could finish speaking, he jumped and ran away.

At this point, Yingying had pursed her lips aggrievedly, tears swirling in her eyes, she knew that the secret that had been tangled was being broken layer by layer, she finally understood why her mother, who had been haunted by her dreams, abandoned her so decisively, Xiaobin's words were like awakening,—— she felt that the dark sky above her head was surging and enveloping her, and she actually felt that the last trace of weakness and inordinateness seemed so powerless.

From then on, her little sky seemed to be shrouded in a thick cloud that could not be dispersed, and this thick, thick cloud surrounded her, and she could not go out, nor could others see her depression. So she likes to sit alone in a daze where no one is, or play with Sister Yuelan, or take a novel that she has chewed on a thousand times and immerse herself in it. Yingying likes to give herself a place in those beautiful chapters and other people's sad and sad stories, and the thick melancholy seems to have been resolved, and slowly she pays her sorrows, troubles, and thoughts to the paper, emotions and flesh and blood, so when Lily showed her "Old Jujube Tree" to the head teacher, who knew that the head teacher just looked at it and threw it on the table with a disdainful laugh: "I must have copied it somewhere!" Although Lily said on the side: "It's not copied! Yingying's heart continued to sink again and again, as if it had sunk to the depths of the sea, and since then she has become silent, and then in the silence she has become more wanton in her love of writing. It's just that she doesn't show it out for others to see, and only Lily can sometimes take a full view.

Soon, her menstruation came. Before this, Yingying had always felt that her heart was depressed and depressed every day, as if she was going to die, and she even felt that if she really died like this, no one would be able to relieve her sorrow and sorrow, just like the girl in the Thousand Eyes Lake, when her unrelieved mood turned into a pool of still water, when someone walked by, could she also understand her original sorrow.

One afternoon, everyone sat under the neem tree in front of Yuelan's house, and said that Xiaoqi's daughter-in-law Xinxia was greedy and willing to eat and ran away with the longitudinal hair cake. Yingying sat on the side and listened to the feeling of wetness, but she didn't want to pee, so she didn't care about it and sat for a while, and when she was together, she inadvertently noticed a large blood stain on the ground, which was red and red, and actually seeped into the soil. Xiaoguang, and Xiaojun followed his mother Shufen to see this scene, it happened that Li Jinfeng was taking off her shoes and sitting barefoot on the ground at that time, she reacted quickly, and picked up the sole of the shoe and covered it with the blood stain, and then rolled her eyes at Shufen who was sitting opposite, Shufen met Li Jinfeng's gaze although she was silent but understood, Xiaojun sat with his mother sitting down, looking very dazed about what happened in front of him.

Yingying looked at the scene that suddenly happened in front of her, and was stunned for a moment, and when she came to her senses, she screamed "Ah!" and ran away.

Yingying ran home in one go, and didn't see her grandmother, so she broke into the east house, she randomly found a pair of pants and replaced the bloodstained pants, but after putting on clean pants, it still didn't work, so the clean pants were dirty again. So she searched everywhere again, but couldn't find anything suitable, then Li Jinfeng came, holding two big cotton covers in her hands, and handed them to her: "Well—— take this mat and take care of it, I don't care about it, and I run into the crowd!"

Yingying's eyes immediately filled with tears when she heard this, she wanted to say that I didn't know I was going to have this, but the tears fell and she didn't say anything.

On the dirty cotton sleeve, Yingying lay on the bed and cried motionlessly, she didn't have a mother, and her grandmother didn't tell her about it, she remembered that she seemed to have seen someone take out the blood cotton sleeve from under her buttocks, she didn't dare to look at it, she didn't expect such an embarrassing thing to fall on herself again, and in front of so many people, she felt really unbearable, the worst thing was that the thing didn't leave for several days, Yingying felt that she was exuding a thick bloody smell all over her body, and she was so depressed that she was really going to die, Li Jinfeng saw the piles of blood cotton condoms in the toilet, and muttered to her in private"I've never seen someone like you, once I came, so many, I passed in a day or two!" Yingying only felt pitiful and unlucky when she heard this, and couldn't help but become even more depressed.