Yingying's mind is almost all on Siqi's body, and there is only one thought in her heart, and no matter in the future, she must be fed. Liao Guanghui has recently gotten together with a few street ruffians, and several of them are either playing mahjong together, or taking a sauna in the bathhouse in the market, and the originally good business is not serious. Yingying knew that the coming days would not be long, but she was neither angry nor annoyed, and sometimes asked him with a yin and yang face: "--Looking for your sister Xiaoman again?" Liao Guanghui waved Erlang's legs and said to her: "You can't control —— me!" Yingying knew that a barbarian like him couldn't be forced to do it, the food still had to be eaten, and the husband and wife still had to do it; sometimes she still thought that she would go out with the child in her arms like this, and wander to the ends of the earth, would she survive! If she really went like this, she would never look back, and even Meng Liuyao would not go back, she would not have the face to go back, and she had no face to see people.

However, when she thought that she had resolutely left behind her grandmother, father and everything she had done in the past and flew away, her heart was full of deep guilt, especially when she thought of her current predicament, she felt sorry for their nurturing grace all along, especially when her grandmother was so old.

Whatever comes to mind. One day, Sister Ailing came, her eyes were red, and she seemed to have cried, it turned out that her grandmother was dead.

Yingying's tears burst out of her eyes at once, and she felt more and more guilty in her heart. In front of Sister Ailing, Yingying discussed with Liao Guanghui in a good voice and asked his mother to come. Sister Ailing interjected, you two should go, right? Yingying categorically answered, he won't go back,—— the child is so young, I can't bring it home! Call home, and his mother will come over in half a day. In fact, Yingying's idea in her heart is that she gave birth to a child before she got married, and at present, it is impossible for her and Liao Guanghui to have any ending, so she is one hundred who can't take a child and take Liao Guanghui back to her hometown to be embarrassed, although she really has no face to save in her hometown. Liao Guanghui didn't force anything, but his face was not ugly or good-looking, maybe in front of Sister Ailing; fortunately, the child had just added some supplementary food, but if she wanted to leave her for two days and didn't ask, she still couldn't bear to feel at ease. Before leaving, Liao Guanghui must take a good look at the child, go buy a good bag of milk powder, and remember to stew some egg custard with her in the morning.

Before entering the village, I heard bursts of suona sound from time to time in the Zhuangzi, Yingying didn't know how to express her sorrow, she didn't cry, so the tears kept falling into the coffin, many people were looking at her and discussing. In the coffin room, Liu Dazhu, Li Jinfeng, Honglan, Huaibei, as well as the eldest aunt and the third aunt were all kneeling around a board bed facing the proper door with the body of their grandmother. Yingying won't, just "grandma", "grandma" shouted, tears kept falling. After crying for a while, the second aunt wiped her tears and said to Yingying: "Your grandmother always misses you, saying that you won't come back for a year, and I'm always worried that you will be ......doing well outside" Yingying's tears fell down the bead curtain when she heard this. "She is the one who hurts my grandmother the most...... I don't come back for the New Year, and I don't know how good it is to mix outside!" Huaibei's face was hideous and strange, and he said with a digging. Yingying listened here, she couldn't raise her head to see people, and she wanted to be tough here, but when she thought of her current situation and looked at her shabby dress, she was defeated. When I came, I couldn't find a decent dress, and finally put on the royal blue gown of the previous two years, although I lost a lot of weight, but ** swelled so badly, I couldn't buckle the door strictly, standing and sitting always twisted, at this moment I listened to Huaibei's words and only lowered my head, and I didn't care about life or death, he was right, it was she who was wrong, mixed like this. It's no wonder that when she enters Zhuangzi, everyone looks at her, there is no impermeable wall in the world, and the things she has experienced, after tea and dinner, when the crowd gathers, there is probably no chance that one thing will fall, even if there are some individual things that cannot be known, it will definitely make up for the brain in everyone's gossip. Li Jinfeng's face didn't seem to have any expression, but her air of facts speaking louder than words had already spread. Several aunts are still looking at Yingying, they all avoid it indifferently, pretend to ignore it, and only occasionally look at Yingying with pity, but they are also taboo, and it is inconvenient to ask; because they also understand that their brother Liu Dazhu is old, and he can't count on Huaibei, just such a Yingying, maybe he can often come to see him,—— but he never thought that Yingying would have such a decisive plan.

The second aunt got up and lifted the paper on her grandmother's face, and Yingying saw her grandmother's withered remains, and couldn't help but feel frightened. Suddenly, Yingying noticed a dark brown mark on her grandmother's neck, and she was afraid that there would be no squeak. After the cover was closed, Yingying couldn't help but quietly asked the sister-in-law next to her: "Sister-in-law, how did I see a mark on my grandmother's neck?" Who knew that the sister-in-law was busy smashing her with her elbow, and hurriedly handed her a look, and then she cried "mother" and "mother", and everyone also cried and mourned.

In a small gap, the second aunt tugged at Yingying's clothes, and the two of them were crooked together, and the second aunt rolled her eyes and looked at Li Jinfeng's mother again, and whispered: "I can't say it...... Your grandmother is looking for death!" - Yingying was taken aback when she heard this, and it took a while to react: "Grandma was hanged......" She glanced at her father next to her, Liu Dazhu kept his head drooping, and was very silent, Yingying understood everything.

Next, intermittently, I quietly learned from the mouths of my aunts that my grandmother probably had a few words with Li Jinfeng before she died, and Liu Dazhu didn't say anything about the specific situation, and others couldn't know it. Yingying remembered the things that her grandmother listed with her when she came back from the Spring Festival last year. However, now the whole family is already the world of her mothers and sons, not to mention that the ugliness of the family cannot be publicized, Liu Dazhu doesn't say anything, and her aunt doesn't advocate making trouble, so she has to bury it in the ground, and the inside story is not exposed,—— even if the wind is exposed, he will stand up and be a man, and there is no wall that cannot penetrate the wind in the countryside.

When the meal was served, Yingying stood in the courtyard and looked at this home, only to feel that she didn't know if this home had changed, or she had changed, or the world had been replaced, she only felt that her world had collapsed, she just felt a suffocating discomfort. Suddenly, she saw Sister Yuelan, neatly dressed, sitting in the crowd eating a big feast. In fact, it is said that Yingying and Yuelan belong to their own family, and they should be together when they meet red and white joys and sorrows, but since she is both mentally ill, do you also notify her to come? Of course, there are also Yueying and Yuefang sisters sitting next to her, with rough and vicissitudes of life,—— vaguely flower-like faces have disappeared. At this time, Aunt Dun, who was standing on the side, quietly approached her and said: "Look, like Yuelan, you can't get it,—— and you have a miscarriage...... Yingying listened to it and looked at Aunt Dun in surprise, and Aunt Dun got closer to her and whispered: "Ying'er, you don't know, when Yuelan just picked it up from there, she couldn't look at it, her hair was like a chicken nest, she didn't take a bath for many years, and no one washed her clothes, men, men don't know how to do it,—— even the eldest brother bullied her!" If you are pregnant with a child, no one will bring it, and it will be ruined once you go back, and the sister-in-law is very distressed, saying that it is fortunate that it didn't work out, and this meeting will not let you go, and the man will not pick it up after a few trips, saying that he will be raised until he dies of old age and taken to the coffin-" Yingying listened to the tears falling down.

buried my grandmother and came back from the woodland, and the relatives of each family were busy and went their own way, and Ailing also went back - she was her granddaughter, and she was busy with her if she had something. Yingying and a few aunts were able to sit in the east room and talk quietly, Liu Dazhu also snuggled up to them, and Li Jinfeng hurried back and forth twice, coldly, but didn't even look over. When she walked over, the aunt quietly asked Liu Dazhu: "——How much did it cost to do things? How much did you receive as a gift? Can you get credit?" Liu Dazhu shook the head that had been lowered to his chest decadently: "I don't know,—— I shouldn't be able to take credit, the seat is thin, and there is not enough to eat." The money doesn't let me touch my hands, and I won't look at the gift money I receive, so I will tell his mother to go ......" Liu Dazhu didn't finish talking intermittently, and the sister-in-law here took over and scolded: "Hmph—— actually doing these things in the cone ditch, I think she can still live in this Meng Liu kiln! Don't look at this person as useless, if anything happens, I will see that you Li Jinfeng may give you some thin noodles in this Meng Liu kiln." ”

Yingying sat in the room, listening to them talk and didn't answer, she used her hands to support her two ** from time to time, ** rose too much, she could only unbutton and open her arms. It's been a day and a night since I came back yesterday afternoon, and it would be nice to have a breast pump. The second aunt looked at her a few times, and finally spoke earnestly: "The most reassuring thing now is Yingying—— it's not easy for you to say anything about this child,—— are you doing outside?" Yingying felt cold sweat all over her body when she heard this, she held her cheeks with one hand, and lowered her eyelids silently in shame, and her open gown covered the bitterness she didn't want to tell. - I also know that I can't cover it up, Sister Ailing will tell her about it. At this point, the second aunt asked directly: "-Is the child okay?" Yingying nodded: "It's good......" "What child?" Girl. ”……

Liu Dazhu, who had been hanging his head next to him, was even more silent, and finally he opened his mouth, but he took a deep breath first: "Ho——!...... I'll tell you that I'm here to come, and I don't plan to get any of you—you just have to take care of it, and when I'm old, you can come and see me, and if you can't come, you won't ,—— come......," he said, and his eyes were full of tears and confusion. Yingying also cried.

The yard was almost cleaned up, the aunts were gone, and Yingying came to Sister Yuelan's house.

Yuelan was happily sitting on the wooden pier in front of the earthen wall of her house for decades, her mother carefully combed her hair one by one, the setting sun shone on her body, and the mother and son looked serene.

"Auntie, are Sister Yueying and Sister Yuefang gone?" Yingying asked.

"It's all gone! After eating, it's all gone—— come!Yingying, sit down and play!" Yue Lanniang handed over a bench, and Yingying took it and sat down.

"Yingying——! I like my mother to comb my hair the most!" Yuelan said in a snarky voice, as if she was back in her childhood. In fact, Yingying in front of her, she couldn't remember, as if she was still the little girl who played with her before, her eyes seemed to be gone, staring forward in a daze.

"Hmm——" Yingying looked at her enviously, maybe she is the happiest now!

"Honestly——! who doesn't like to let her mother comb her hair. - Nier's head, with flower oil, combed to more than three zhang, three zhang to find a good mother-in-law, all her life without worrying about eating and drinking,...... "I still remember that year, her mother found a red head rope for her to comb her hair neatly, and sang this sentence in her mouth, and then left with a smile on her eyebrows, and never came back.

"Mother, don't sing, 'Mother-in-law, mother-in-law is not good,—— mother is good......" Yuelan Meimei said beautifully.

Niang and Yingying looked at each other and smiled, and Niang looked at her with infinite pity and said, "Okay! If you don't let you sing, you won't sing, and your mother will live with your mother." Yuelan clapped her hands happily.

"Come-Yingying, the eldest lady will comb your ...... too," I don't know when the eldest lady was already standing behind Yingying, rubbing her hair, rubbing her voice, and said in a loving tone.

Yingying's heart softened suddenly, and she reached out and ripped off the hairpin on her head, "Hmm......"

"Lady will comb you too......" Lady used one hand to hold Yingying's braids, and one hand held a wooden comb and combed it down gently, she knew that this was also a hard-working child, watching her grow up day by day, although she knew that she was also like her mother, unwilling to be ordered by fate, but it was nothing more than a struggle to become more and more miserable.

"Auntie, you're so nice...... You're the best mom in the world......" Yingying said emotionally under the caress of her eldest mother.

"Huh...... That's right——! no one in this world is so good wow...... "Yuelan Niang said and choked up, she knew that from her young age, her mother only left her the warmest and most beautiful emotions, and she left her, she didn't know whether she should miss her or hate her all these years. "My mother always said that little Ninier is good at home for a thousand days, and it is difficult to go out. - I didn't think it was too difficult to come over!" Yue Lanniang showed a wonderful smile when she said this, and this smile made Yingying think for a long time in surprise. "My mother said, follow my mother's sky high and let the birds fly, the sea is wide and the fish jumps,—— the field of running horses in my mother's house is too small, and the place where the grinding plate is big when I enter the door of my mother-in-law's house is turned open. In this life, we are all hard-working people who are reborn as women,...... So, who else loves you if you are a mother, they are all from the past-"

Listening to the words of the eldest mother, Yingying remembered all the things that her grandmother had said in the past, and felt that at this moment, she and Sister Yuelan were really the happiest and most peaceful people in the world, and she closed her eyes tiredly.