125 In my dreams, I am alone
Yao's funeral took place a few days later, and it was still rainy. The heavy rain has been falling since it was caused, and it has not stopped.
"There is so much rain this autumn, just like Yao Yi's tears, I can't stop. ”
Lin Manshu commented on the rainy day, and it seems that she was also impressed by this incident, and she was immersed in a sad atmosphere and couldn't extricate herself.
It is not easy for an emotionally cold person like her to resonate emotionally with others. I haven't known Yao for a long time, and I am a rival in love, so I can't say that they have any deep feelings.
It's just that why is she so sad? Maybe she was moved by the love between her and Gao Yunxuan. Because we can't be together, we are sad, and because of sadness, we are memorable. When Yao still chose to use her life to commemorate this relationship, that persistence was touching in itself.
Xiao Mubai and Lin Manshu stood in front of Yao Yi's tombstone, wearing black clothes and holding a black umbrella, placing white chrysanthemums in front of the tombstone to mourn the deceased.
They were silent in front of the tombstones, not saying a word, not knowing what tone to use or what to say. In the end, you can only express your feelings in silence.
Before Yao was still alive, Xiao Mubai had already said everything he wanted to say, and he also saw the last meeting, and the regret in his heart was much less, but he was very melancholy. Maybe it's because the rainy day makes the atmosphere even more depressing.
After Yao's funeral, this matter is over, it is a complete end. But there are always some regrets that make people feel relieved, they all feel that it would be good if Yao still saw Gao Yunxuan for the last time.
On the day Yao still died, until the end, Gao Yunxuan did not appear.
"I feel that on that day, I should have forcibly taken Gao Yunxuan to the hospital. Lin Manshu said regretfully.
"Forcibly bringing it over, if he says something bad, it will only make it more uncomfortable. ”
When it came to Gao Yunxuan, Xiao Mubai was not only disappointed, but simply angry. There was no doubt that if Gao Yunxuan appeared, Xiao Mubai would definitely punch him without hesitation.
In the cemetery, a man in a black suit appeared, his black leather shoes stepped on the stagnant water, making a "da-da" sound. The sound blends with the rain, and it is not really audible.
The black umbrella shields the owner from the heavy rain falling from the sky, and the rain flows down the outline of the umbrella bone, forming a rain curtain in front of him.
The scenery of the cemetery is good, the road is lined with tall plane trees, even in autumn, it has not yet withered yellow, but the leaves have changed to the color of oily green, maybe the leaves are old.
The leaves could not withstand the baptism of wind and rain, and fell weakly. It's like Yao still can't withstand the devastation of life and finally falls.
The heart-shaped lobes of the trees fall melodiously and plunged into the stagnant water on the ground, giving the desolate effect of the autumn wind sweeping away the fallen leaves.
It is surrounded by uniformly shaped tombstones, the only difference being the photographs on the tombstones. Some of the photos, because of their age, have faded and cannot be seen before birth.
Among these tombstones, Gao Yunxuan prepared to find Yao Yi's tombstone. When he went, he happened to run into Xiao Mubai and Lin Manshu leaving.
The moment he saw Gao Yunxuan, Xiao Mubai felt that the anger in his heart rose suddenly, and he couldn't suppress it. He immediately threw away the umbrella in his hand and rushed up to punch Gao Yunxuan to the ground.
"Didn't you come? Why did you come? Why did you come now? Where did you go when she needed you? Why do you still have the face to come?"
A series of words, Xiao Mubai continued to shout. It wasn't enough for him to knock Gao Yunxuan to the ground, he stepped forward and grabbed him by the collar and punched him again in the face.
A trace of blood oozed from the corner of Gao Yunxuan's mouth, but he didn't fight back, just silently accepted Xiao Mubai's anger.
"If you can't be responsible for her, why should you shake her heart? If you can't give her happiness, why do you want to make her vows? She has always loved you, what are you going to do?"
"Do you think I don't want to give her happiness?" Gao Yunxuan finally fought back, pushed Xiao Mubai away, and continued: "I once thought about giving her happiness, but ......"
"Then what have you been doing? What have you been doing all these years? Even if you rob her, you have to snatch her back, but what have you done all these years besides drinking?"
The two men screamed and roared in the heavy rain, venting the anger in their hearts. The rain soaked their hair and clothes and blurred their vision.
"It was she who betrayed our feelings first, she gave up first. ”
Gao Yunxuan still doesn't know why Yao still suddenly left her ten years ago and married his father. So he always has a grudge against Yao.
Yao still didn't tell him those things, because he didn't want him to be more upset. It wasn't worth it for her to keep all the pain and bad things to herself, and to leave with a lot of pain.
Xiao Mubai punched Gao Yunxuan again and said, "What qualifications do you have to make her sad, you don't know anything about what happened ten years ago, why should you blame her." ”
Lin Manshu was just watching the battle from the sidelines at first, and she also felt that maybe he could only cheer up by beating Gao Yunxuan. But now, the anger of the two is getting worse and worse, and the attack is not serious, and it will not be good to cause any more trouble.
Lin Manshu ran to them with an umbrella and said, "Don't fight, stop it." ”
Neither of the two of them stopped Lin Manshu's words, and continued to fight in the rain. Lin Manshu, who was standing nearby, was affected and fell to the ground. The icy rain instantly drenched her whole body.
Outside, the rain was still falling, and it was much lighter than before. Lin Manshu sat in the car, alternating between hot and cold, and couldn't help sneezing.
"Are you okay?" Xiao Mubai asked with concern.
"Not good, it's a little cold. Lin Manshu said.
"You won't catch a cold, come on, dry your hair with a towel first. Xiao Mubai said and took out a dry towel to wipe Lin Manshu's head.
There were other people in the car, so Lin Manshu said, "I'll do it myself." ”
"Lawyer Lin, I didn't say you, how can you rush out when a man fights, you should find a place to hide. ”
Gao Yunxuan sat in the back seat of the car. He and Xiao Mubai sat in the same car, and there was no fight, which was already thankful.
"Shut up, I'll educate my woman, I don't need you to talk too much. Xiao Mubai said in an unkind tone.
"Waiting for your woman's face, because other women are fighting, you are really amazing. Gao Yunxuan said sarcastically.
Xiao Mubai felt harsh when he heard this, and he almost threw the things in his hand over to smash Gao Yunxuan, who had already made a protective posture.
"I'm going to go out and come back after a fight, I don't want to be hurt. Lin Manshu said.
The reason why the three of them were able to sit together peacefully as they are now was because Xiao Mubai and Gao Yunxuan had a fight just now and wasted a lot of physical strength.
After exhausting their physical strength, Xiao Mubai and Gao Yunxuan lay on the ground, letting the rain slap their faces at will. Although there is a wound on his face, the pain is less than 1/10,000 in his heart.
After calming down, Xiao Mubai accused Gao Yunxuan and told everything that happened to Yao Yi ten years ago. told how Gao Yunxuan's father, Gao Xiaohai, forced Yao to marry him step by step, and told him word for word.
Gao Yunxuan was obedient, and his heart was even more complicated. He didn't cry, because Yao had already cried on the day he died, and he cried very sadly.
It wasn't that he didn't go that day, but Yao was still dead when he went. He looked through the window of the hospital bed and saw that Yao was still taking his last breath, and his heart was full of grief.
He finally walked to a place where no one was around, crouched down against the wall, hid his face and cried. At that moment, it was as if countless knives were stabbing him in the heart, making him breathless.
He wasn't so ruthless that he didn't look at Yao Yi, but he didn't have the courage to look at her. He was afraid that he would lose control in front of Yao Yi, and he was afraid to see Yao Yi's tears.
He tried to restrain himself from crying, but sobs still echoed in the hallway.
The sadness in his heart could not be vented, and he pounded the wall around him with his fist, trying to relieve the pain in his heart with physical pain, but it was all in vain.
So he didn't show up that day until the end, because he really couldn't muster up the courage to look at Yao Yi's body, he hoped that the Yao Yi he remembered was the smiling woman when he first met.
Don't leave any bad memories of her.
"What are you going to do in the future?" Lin Manshu asked Gao Yunxuan.
"What else can I do? Of course, I have to live day by day. Gao Yunxuan said.
"Do you still plan to drink every day?" Xiao Mubai asked.
Gao Yunxuan didn't answer, because he hadn't thought about it yet, and he didn't know how long he could hold on to such great pain.
"Don't go over that, raise your children well. You are Yao's last love in this world. Lin Manshu said.
Gao Yunxuan took a deep breath and said, "Of course it has to be raised, it is a child who survived by borrowing his mother's life." ”
"Don't blame the mother for her death. Xiao Mubai reminded.
Gao Yunxuan chuckled and said, "I don't blame anyone now, I only blame myself for not listening to the explanation at the beginning." ”
"If you want to blame it, blame fate, the gears of fate have nothing to do with you. Lin Manshu said.
Later, Gao Yunxuan left China with his child, he didn't want the child to grow up in a dull environment. Everything about Yao is still sealed in his memory.
Later, Lin Manshu didn't know anymore, because she hadn't heard the news about Gao Yunxuan for a long time.
However, for those who haven't seen each other for a long time, no news is good news.
I only hope that Gao Yunxuan can forget the sadness of the past and live a good life. In fact, he is the best, even Yao still forgets, only then can he forget his sadness. It's just someone you really love, can you forget it?
It seems that it can't be because someone has experimented. It took a few years to meet a person, and for the rest of my life, in my dreams, I was the only one.