"But Xiaoxiao, the home with my family is also my home. Cheng Lie said in a deep voice, "Until now, have you not been able to treat that home as your own home, and my family as your own family?"

With Cheng Lie's question, Tang Xiao's eyes suddenly widened.

"No...... No. Tang Xiao said hastily, "I like Meng Meng and Cheng Feng, they are all very good to me, in my opinion, they are my own younger brothers and sisters." Mom is also nice to me, will take me to the haute couture clothing store to buy clothes, will teach me to dress up, will buy me a lot of expensive jewelry-"

"Enough. Cheng Lie suddenly interrupted her, "Don't deceive me anymore, and don't deceive yourself anymore." ”

For a moment, Tang Xiao seemed to have forgotten to breathe.

“……”

Is she deceiving Cheng Lie, deceiving herself?

Right...... She couldn't even convince herself.

How can you hide Cheng Lie, who has a high IQ and amazing insight.

She crouched on the windowsill, staring blankly at the lights of thousands of homes outside the window, and her mood at this time was already completely different from just now.

It was also at this time that she realized one thing.

She and Cheng Lie are different after all.

Cheng Lie has a family, parents, and younger siblings.

And she Tang Xiao is a person without a home.

It's also hard for her to accept others as her family.

Cheng Lie is right, in the final analysis, she still hasn't been able to treat Cheng Lie's family as her own.

In her mind, her home is this small and warm home, and there are only two people in this family, she and Cheng Lie.

This is their world of two.

But what about Cheng Lie?

His home is the one with parents, younger siblings, and hers.

The two of them have different definitions of "home".

At this moment, Tang Xiao finally deeply realized the problem.

"I'm sorry, Lie ......" she lowered her head, looked at her fingertips, and said softly, "I don't want to do this either, but I don't know what's wrong with myself...... Maybe I'm such a selfish person in my bones, right? Everyone is very good to me, but I still can't treat everyone as my family...... I'm sorry, Lie, it's me who is not good, don't be angry with me, I ......"

Tang Xiao was a little dazed, what was she going to do, what was she going to say to Cheng Lie?

She licked her lips that were a little dry, and said mechanically: "I'm sorry for you, and I'm sorry for Meng Meng and Cheng Feng who were kind to me, as well as my parents...... Lie, your family is good, it's me who is bad...... Don't be angry, I'll ...... later Will try. ”

What are you working on?

Try to treat them like your own family?

But how hard do you have to work on this?

No one had taught her how to treat her lover's family as her own.

Even, no one told her what the hell was in the family.

Tang Xiao exhaled softly.

She understood.

For so many years, she has been living in a loveless family, and in her own home, she still does not feel the warmth of family, and she is always alone.

She never had a home.

Since her mom left, she hasn't had a home anymore.

A person who has never been at home, who has never known what family is, how can he accept someone else's family?

It's ridiculous.

Tang Xiao realized this, and her soft and pure lips were slightly raised, revealing a bitter smile.

"Why didn't you say it?"

Cheng Lie's voice.

Tang Xiao was stunned and opened his mouth, but he didn't know what to say.

I heard Cheng Lie's slightly sarcastic sneer in his ears: "Keep making it up." Why don't you make it up? I can't even listen to the lies, right?"

Tang Xiao was silent: "......"

"No one wants to force you to do anything, let alone force you to do anything, Tang Xiao, you are honest, have I forced you to go home to live now, have you forced you to have children?"

Tang Xiao shook his head slowly: "You don't." ”

However, he forced her, which does not mean ...... This kind of pressure does not exist.

Tang Xiao had no way to argue anything for himself.

She knew that Cheng Lie was under more pressure.

Why should she argue with a man who has sheltered herself from the wind and rain and endured all this pressure?

She was silent.

"Don't always put yourself in the victim's position. Cheng Lie's calm and seemingly indifferent voice came from the phone, "If you are always like this, you will look more and more pitiful." Tang Xiao, think about it, are you really so pitiful?"

"I ......" Tang Xiao was speechless.

She wanted to say she didn't — she didn't put herself in the victim's position.

She didn't want to make herself look pathetic.

She's just ......

It's just getting used to being alone.

It's hard to accommodate another person in her world.

However, the other person did not allow the two of them to be the only ones in their world.

She's just ......

I was very flustered and at a loss.

However, from Cheng Lie's point of view.

There was nothing wrong with what he said.

If she were Cheng Lie herself, I'm afraid she would think the same way, right?

Even, if she was Cheng Lie, I am afraid that she would not be able to stand this woman named Tang Xiao for a long time!

Tang Xiao sighed inaudibly.

"I'm sorry, ...... Lie," she said in a panic, "I said something I shouldn't have said and affected your mood. Don't take that to heart, Lie, just because I didn't say that, okay?"

Tang Xiao really wanted to go back to just now, at least ten minutes ago, she and Cheng Lie were both happy.

Why is it that when you think of home, the atmosphere becomes like this?

Tang Xiao regretted it very much.

What shouldn't be said –

You shouldn't say foolish things that deceive yourself.

Sometimes, words really don't solve the problem, but are the trigger/fire/clue for all problems.

Maybe silence is more useful than talking, right?

But......

If one person is always silent, will the other person feel miserable?

But if you don't be silent, it will inevitably lead to a dispute and affect the relationship between the two.

It's an unsolvable problem.

Tang Xiao fell in love with a man for the first time in her life, and no one taught her how to get along with the man she loved.

In this regard, she obviously does not have any unusual talents.

She was just lucky enough to marry a very good man.

However, if she can't learn to get along with this man, can't learn to manage this relationship, and maintain this marriage-

Then one day, her good luck will run out.

Tang Xiao's world finally had another person, and he finally got used to Cheng Lie's existence.

She couldn't imagine what it would be like if she lost him one day.

Just trying to imagine it hurts as if my heart is about to burst.

She told herself that she had to hold on to him and never let him go.

But deep down, there seemed to be another voice asking her-

Are you really a good fit?

Should you really be together?

Can you really love forever?

……

Needless to say, she was deeply in love with him.

But are they suitable?

She didn't know.

At least, she doesn't fit into his family.

Tang Xiao imagined countless times how good it would be if Cheng Lie was as alone as she was, and he didn't need to explain everything to his family, but only needed to be responsible for himself.

But countless times, she clearly understood a truth-

If Cheng Lie didn't have that home, there would be no Cheng Lie now.

A family is crucial to a person's growth and character formation.

Even, isn't her Tang Xiao also a product of the previous family?

Or rather, she's a deformity, a freak that everyone hates.

Tang Xiao still can't forget Li Yan's hatred for him.

She always looked at herself like a disgusting piece of garbage.

If you have been looking at it like that for a long time, you will not like yourself so much.

Perhaps, deep down, she spurned and despised herself.

She yearns for Cheng Lie——

What a bright and beautiful existence Cheng Lie is.

She tried to grab Sung Yeol, as if she were reaching out with her hands trying her best to catch a ray of sunlight shining at her.

……

"You're always like that, constantly deceiving yourself and trying to deceive others. Cheng Lie sighed in his ears, "What has been said is what has been said, what has not been said is not said, admit what you have said, face up to the problems between you and me - is this difficult?"

"Right—"

"Don't say I'm sorry again!"

Cheng Lie interrupted her suddenly, with a hint of anger in his tone, "The woman I love is resolute and resolute, and she has a clear conscience in life and work, so she won't say sorry to people at every turn!"

"......" Tang Xiao closed his mouth blankly, thinking to himself, what do you want to say?

She was wrong left and right.

All bad situations are caused by her inappropriate words and deeds.

"Maybe it's not time to talk about it today. Cheng Lie said lightly: "Rest early, you need to calm down." ”

Realizing that Cheng Lie was about to hang up the phone, Tang Xiao panicked.

Even inexplicably thought, will this be the last phone call between them?

Will Cheng Lie be so disappointed in her from now on that he will never call her again and never see her again?

For a short time, a wave of uneasiness seized her.

This uneasiness caused her reason to drain rapidly.

"Lie...... Wait, wait, don't hang up the phone yet!" Tang Xiao said hurriedly.

"What's wrong?" Cheng Lie seemed a little surprised, "What do you want to say." ”

"Lie...... Are you going to be disappointed in me and be disappointed in me, and then ...... Don't you love me anymore?" Tang Xiaocheng asked with trepidation, "Will you......?"

Cheng Yeol laughed briefly, as if he had heard some joke.

Then Tang Xiao heard Cheng Lie's voice that was a little chilled: "Tang Xiao, what do you think of me?"

Tang Xiao said in his heart, what do I think of you? Of course, I think you are the most beloved man in the world.

But Tang Xiao didn't say it, and Cheng Lie didn't seem to need her answer.

"What do you think of our marriage?" Cheng Lie asked again.

Tang Xiao thought to herself, what do I think of our marriage?

It's the first and last time I've ever gotten married.