"I wish I was a tumbler, and I wish I would never fall, but I'm not. "I hung my head, as if I was pressing a stone in my heart, and it always felt heavy.

Like a wronged child, I tried my best to talk to adults about my grievances, as if only in this way could I feel better.

I said, "You don't know what kind of existence the word father is in my heart. It is not only a representative of my relatives, but also my spiritual pillar, and a beacon on the road of my life from childhood to adulthood. I grew up in the army and in a harsh environment. What they have instilled in me since I was a child is positive energy, to be a good person, to contribute to society, and to be a valuable and useful person. This kind of thinking is ingrained in my heart, and it makes me know very well what I want and where I want to go. ”

"Especially, when I knew that my father was once a great hero, when I knew that he had been a brilliant deed, the positive energy hidden in the depths of my heart was like a small sapling that had dried up for a long time and absorbed water, growing like crazy, growing crazy. Before I left the army, that belief never wavered, and in every difficult mission, as long as I couldn't persevere, I thought about my father, how great he was, and I couldn't afford to lose his man. ”

"It was he who made me survive in life-and-death moments again and again, and it was he who inspired me to always stand straight. He was more ingrained than those thoughts, and it was deeply engraved in my heart. The accident three years ago had a great impact on me, and I was about to lose my life, and I wanted to leave with my comrades. Every time I have those negative thoughts, the word father comes to my mind. ”

"Suh, how to put it, it's like, he's a lifesaver in my life, and every time I'm about to drown, he'll show up and save me from danger. When I first came to Rongcheng, I was very, very negative, I often lived in confusion and illusion, unable to distinguish between reality and dreams, and he was also he who often inspired me and let me step by step out of the illusion. ”

"Although he never took care of me or was by my side, he will always live in my heart. In this materialistic metropolis, I was not assimilated, I was not influenced by those outside my body, I always knew what I wanted and what I wanted to do, all because I had a light in my heart that lit the way forward for me on the dark road. ”

"So you can see how important his place in my heart is. But suddenly one day he appeared in front of me and told me that everything I had fantasized about before was false, false! Justice and light, these were all fantasies of my own, and he had already stood in the shadows and became the opposite side of me. ”

I smiled bitterly, as if my throat had been stabbed by something, and it hurt and hurt.

I heard Zhao Xiaoru's sigh, she still didn't speak, and I didn't speak.

The two of us remained silent like this, and after a while, Zhao Xiaoru said, "So there is another reason why you are doing this, you are fighting against him?"

I nodded, not denying the statement, "Yes, against him, but also against myself." Which one is good or evil, which one can always be invincible. ”

"I can understand what you said, maybe I haven't experienced it, so I can't feel how entangled your heart is now. But I understand why you're doing this, Zhao Suo, I don't have anything else to help you, so let's talk to our director again and see if he can reduce the asking price a little more. ”

This is a very real help, and I am very grateful to Zhao Xiaoru.

"Thank you. I say from the bottom of my heart.

Zhao Xiaoru didn't leave in a hurry, it seems that she still has something to ask me.

Sure enough, I only heard her say, "Then does Sister Xiaoqing know about these things?"

I shook my head, "I didn't tell her because I didn't want her to worry about me, and I didn't want to bother her with all this mess." Just like you said, I can't give her anything, and if I don't add trouble to her, that's the best protection I can do. ”

Zhao Xiaoru disagreed with me, "I believe that Sister Xiaoqing definitely doesn't think so." You always say that you know her, so do you know what she wants? I'm not a roundworm in Sister Xiaoqing's stomach, so I can't guess what she thinks, but I know one thing, I'm also a woman. What we women sometimes want is actually very simple, that is, to be with the person we love forever, not only for two people to be together, but also for two hearts to be together. ”

These words touched me, I remembered what Ji Muqing once said to me, she hoped that she was Huang Rong and could always be by Guo Jing's side and be the woman behind him.

Ji Muqing has expressed such thoughts to me countless times, but I only think about her from my own perspective every time, and I never think about whether the good I give her is what she wants.

Zhao Xiaoru reminded me, "I think you should tell Sister Xiaoqing about this, although she may be worried that she will not be able to eat or sleep well, but her heart is steady." You can't guarantee that you won't show any of your feet in front of her, how smart Sister Xiaoqing is, she will find out sooner or later. Don't you think it's too late for you to tell her then?"

"If it were me, although I knew that you were for my good, I would definitely feel uncomfortable in my heart, and I would think that you might not believe me and treat me as an outsider, that's why I would be like that. Sister Xiaoqing may not be as squeamish as me, but I believe that she will definitely have a mustard in her heart. ”

Zhao Xiaoru's words left a deep impression on my heart and made me think a lot.

I said, "I'll take her opinion seriously." ”

Zhao Xiaoru nodded with satisfaction, "I shouldn't have said so much about your affairs, but who told you and Sister Xiaoqing to help me." Okay, I still have something to do, so let's go first and wait for my call. ”

I nodded, watching her go.

Although Zhao Xiaoru is gone, her words have made me reminisce for a long time.

Maybe she was right, I should tell Ji Muqing about these things.

Ji Muqing's two favorite martial arts novels are "The Legend of the Condor Heroes" and "Dragon Babu", she likes to read the heroines in the books.

Huang Rong in the Condor and Ah Zhu in Tianlong, they are all very smart women, and they have a lot of help around the male protagonist.

Ji Muqing has never been an ordinary woman, she is independent, strong, kind, and brave, much like Huang Rong and Azhu, so she also wants to be a woman like Huang Rong and Azhu.

It was her dream, her ideal, and her belief.

I have the belief to persevere, why can't her belief be persistent.

After thinking about this, I suddenly became enlightened, and I called Ji Muqing and told her, "I'll be back soon." ”

After leaving the martial arts hall, I was afraid that she would be too tired, so I sent her back.

Ji Muqing will definitely care about my negotiation with Zhao Xiaoru, and I will tell her everything that happened here.

When I got home, I stewed the pork rib soup I bought, which needs to be boiled slowly over low heat to bring out the flavor.

"Xiaoqing, come, I have something to tell you. Ji Muqing was lying on the bed reading a book, I reminded her many times, now is a special period, let her not worry about the company's affairs, but she just didn't listen.

I put the book aside and dragged her to the living room, where we both sat down on the couch one after the other.

"How is it, is the conversation with Xiaoru going well?" Ji Muqing snuggled in my arms and asked me.

I told her exactly what happened, "The director asked for 8 million before he was willing to help us talk about advertising." ”

"Expected. Ji Muqing was very calm, she smiled and said, "When Xinrui was first established, it was inevitable to cooperate with TV stations and rely on advertising to attract traffic. At best, 8 million can only receive advertisements from some TV stations with general traffic, and if you want to get advertisements from traffic and satellite stations, you can't get them without tens of millions. It seems that the director's channels are not very wide, otherwise, he would not have opened his mouth for only eight million. ”

I almost forgot, Ji Muqing is a veteran in this area, how can it be worth it, I forgot to consult her first.

"But eight million is not a small amount, with so much money to advertise and serve the people, do you think I'm stupid?"

Ji Muqing looked at me very seriously, "Are you stupid, I don't think you're stupid at all." At first glance, eight million sounds like a lot, but if you think about it, it doesn't seem that much if you use eight million to buy the lives and peace of many people. ”

I looked at her puzzled, "You really don't feel sorry for this money at all? It's all your hard work, besides, other people have nothing to do with you, why should you care about them?"

Ji Muqing straightened up and faced me, "Those people have nothing to do with me, but they all have something to do with Xinrui." I told you that Xinrui is like my child, I love him, take care of her, and am willing to protect him with everything. It was his parents who kept him alive, and I, like a nanny, kept her fed and clothed. ”

"If it weren't for the recognition and support of those people, there would be no new talent now, and you ask me why I care about the safety of those people, and that's why. ”

I knew that Xinrui occupied a very important position in Ji Muqing's heart, but I didn't expect that this position, this weight, would be so important.

Food and clothing parents, this word is good, very good, I'm afraid that in this world, she is the only one who can think like her.