I suddenly felt scared, panicked, uneasy, and a myriad of mixed emotions lingering in my mind.

No matter what I do, I can't change the harm I brought to Ji Muqing.

I thought that as long as I worked hard enough, strong enough, as long as I stood at a certain height, I could give them safety and peace, but at this moment I realized that I was wrong again.

When I didn't have the ability, I brought her endless worry and anxiety, pushing her to the brink of death every time, and then pulling her back again and again, and then I would be afraid, I would be afraid, I would be afraid, I would be afraid that I would hurt her, I would lose her. So I tried to change, to get to a higher position, thinking that then I would be able to protect her, but now, I was already doing something to hurt her.

I can't help but ask myself, Zhao Suo, what the hell are you doing?

What exactly are you doing?

Do you think that such protection of yours is really protection?

In fact, the person who hurt her has always been you, you, and you!!

Yes, it's me, in fact, the person who has been doing things to hurt Ji Muqing is me.

I've been making excuses for myself and putting those responsibilities on others.

I can't, and I can't, I don't dare to accept this reality, it's terrible, it's really terrible.

When a person's belief in what he thinks is strong is suddenly shattered, the whole world collapses and everything is gone.

"Zhao Suo, Zhao Suo, don't scare me......" I heard Ji Muqing's worried whimper, the trembling voice calling my name, like a Hong Zhong, slammed on my heart.

The voice was approaching me little by little, and I, little by little, was retreating, it was a knee-jerk reaction, not because I was afraid, but because I didn't want to hurt, because I wanted to protect.

But that's all I can do.

I said to her almost in a pleading voice, "Don't come, don't come near me......"

I heard Ji Muqing's "whimpering" voice, "Zhao Suo, what's wrong with you, don't be like this, I'm afraid." ”

The trembling voice said she was scared, she was telling me that she needed my arms now, that I needed me to hug her, and I wanted to go up and hug her desperately, to give her my chest, but when my feet were raised, those terrible images of fragmentation came back to my mind.

My feet were fixed in the air, and I didn't dare to fall.

No, I can't hurt her anymore, I can't be so self-righteous anymore.

I retracted my feet and took two steps back, "Xiaoqing, let's go, I'll hurt you." You go, go !!"

Ji Muqing won't leave, I know her too well, she can do anything for me.

The only way to protect her is to escape.

But I found that no matter where I fled, as long as it was a place with aura, my body would be like a bottomless pit, devouring like crazy.

I instinctively fled to a place where there was no aura or a lack of aura, my mind was chaotic and my consciousness was not clear, so I had no idea where I had fled to.

All I knew was that my brain was about to explode, and so many things were coming into my head at once, and I hated to pry it open.

Suddenly, my eyes went black and I fell to the ground.

When I woke up, the splitting headache was relieved, but my head still ached.

I looked around and saw that this was a strange place, and the things in the house were a little old, mainly because it was very bleak and there was nothing to ask for.

I suddenly reacted here, this is the Moon Palace, where Chang'e lives?

I sat up, looked around, and once again confirmed my guess that it was really the Moon Palace.

Could it be that I ran here while I was in a daze?

Thinking about it carefully, there is nothing surprising about this, after all, my consciousness was already chaotic at that time, and my body was subconsciously running in the direction that could protect Ji Muqing, and the Moon Palace lacked aura, so it was not surprising that I could come here.

I sat up, adjusted my breathing, remembered what had happened before, and felt as if I was pressing against a stone.

When Ji Muqing saw me like that again, she must have been worried, she must be in a hurry and didn't know what to do?

I subconsciously got up and wanted to go back to see her, but when I thought that I couldn't control myself, I suppressed that urge.

This feeling is very, very uncomfortable, obviously you care about someone very much, but you can't care about her openly, see her, say those words that miss her, you can only hide them in your heart.

In the past, I didn't understand that some comrades-in-arms obviously liked a girl very much, but he said that for the sake of that girl, he always had to use some very irrational means, such as deliberately hurting her, such as creating some misunderstandings, to make the girl leave him.

Isn't hatred also a kind of love, isn't disappointment and despair also a kind of love, this kind of means is simply selfish, I used to look down on those who sit like that, and now I am becoming one of those I despise again.

But I can't think of a better way, right now.

Can anyone tell me what the hell am I going to do?

Just when I was worried, I suddenly felt something soft and fluffy under my feet rubbing against me, and when I looked down, it was the white rabbit.

The white rabbit rubbed my feet, then stretched out his little paws, pointing in the direction of the door, I looked in the direction of its little paws, and saw a little fairy standing at the door, isn't it Chang'e herself.

"Yu'er, come here. Chang'e squatted down and barked at the white rabbit.

The white rabbit jumped over in three or two strokes and jumped into Chang'e's arms.

Chang'e just glanced at me and turned away.

I didn't have the heart to think about why she had that attitude towards me, and I didn't have the heart to think about whether she placed me here, my mind was now full of what should I do to Ji Muqing?

I wanted to protect her, I tried to protect her as much as I could, but I ended up hurting her.

Should I go back to see her, should I give her peace of mind?

After thinking about it for a long time, there was still no answer, and I was tired of sitting here, so I got up and went outside.

The white rabbit was jumping around in the yard, and Chang'e was sitting on a bench in the pavilion watching.

This woman was very quiet, so quiet that people almost thought she was dumb, but she had just spoken clearly and called Yu'er.

I was a little curious about her, and I couldn't help but ask, "Why didn't you salute me when you saw me?"

She didn't look at me, but a shallow smile was drawn at the corner of her mouth, "Does the salute mean that you must respect you and agree with you?"

This is a good rebuttal, and I can't even refute it, but this is not the attitude and tone of a punished person.

I said, "But at least it's an endorsement, isn't it?"

She got up and bowed slightly to me, which was considered a salute, and such a reluctant salute was less like a recognition than more like a contempt.

There are two people here, she and Wu Gang, and the experiences and attitudes of the two people are so similar, if I don't have a little curiosity about them, it is fake, and this curiosity does not come from myself, but from Zhao Sheng.

Today, I heard that Zhao Sheng often runs this way, how can I not know what that kid has in his heart.

But since this is a forbidden place, and the two people here are punished people, he often comes here, and it doesn't do him any good.

I don't want to interfere with and hinder Zhao Sheng's freedom, but I have to think about his safety, so I want to understand them clearly, understand this place clearly.

"Why did you and Wu Gang get punished here?" I asked.

She stared into the distance, which was the direction of the osmanthus tree, and it was also the direction where Wu Gang was, and a strange look appeared on her face, "Is it important?"

She asked me rhetorically.

I always felt that the two of them hated weirdness, and it always gave people an indescribably strange feeling.

Indeed, those that are not important, what is important is that I don't want Zhao Sheng to like an inexplicable woman.

I reminded her, "I hope you can always maintain this attitude towards Zhao Sheng, he is still a child and should not be hurt." ”

Saying that it is a reminder is more like a kind of pressure.

There is no such thing as a father who is not selfish, I just want to protect my children.

She didn't say anything more, and I didn't pursue it anymore, and turned to leave.

And at this moment, a figure stepped on the colorful auspicious clouds and fell in front of me, this person was none other than Zhao Sheng.

Zhao Sheng should have hurried over, and when he saw me here, his eyes suddenly changed.

He came up to me and asked, "Why are you here?"

"Then why are you here?" I asked him in the tone of a father.

Zhao Sheng's eyes were filled with a hint of anger, "I'm coming to you." My mother's eyes were swollen from crying, I looked around and you couldn't find it, and then I heard that you were coming this way, so I came to take a look, but I didn't expect you to be really here. Didn't you say that you hated my mother, why did you make her cry so sadly, why did she cry so sadly and you didn't even go back to look at her, why are you here?"

A few whys, one higher than the other, one reprimanded more than the other.

This kid clearly came to me with resentment and anger.

I looked coldly at this kid's stinky face, only a few days after he was born, he dared to talk to me with this attitude, and there was no father like me in his eyes.

"If you want to know why, come back with me, and I'll tell you slowly. With that, I lifted my leg and left.

Zhao Sheng didn't move, I glanced back at him, he was looking at the woman blankly.

I reminded him, "Not leaving?"

Zhao Sheng turned around angrily and walked in front of me.

This kid is getting more and more excessive, and he dares to contradict me like this in front of others, and if he doesn't discipline him well, he doesn't know what to do in the future.

I chased after him in a few steps, grabbed him by the shoulder, and kept him from moving.

"Let go of me, you let go of me. Zhao Sheng twisted and didn't let me touch him.