This sentence has a hidden meaning, that is, she hopes that I will not have so many things on my mind, and really be with her and Little Pineapple and Zhao Sheng, and our family can really be happy and worry-free, that is what she really wants.

That kind of expectation is even more difficult for us now, or perhaps, it is very easy, because we no longer have to worry about who will bully us, and I no longer have to worry about who will hurt them. However, why can't I be as happy as when I first met Ji Muqing?

Because of the burden on our bodies, because of the pressure on our shoulders, because there are too many things, they are not the same as we imagined, and the freedom and happiness that emanates from the depths of our hearts have long been washed away.

But I don't want to tell Ji Muqing about this, and I don't want her to know.

I told her, "Aren't we happy now?"

How many people have pursued it all their lives, and the intermediate goal may be to be a scattered immortal, and we, step by step, jumped to the current position, I don't know how many times better than those who have worked hard all their lives but have gained nothing.

Ji Muqing looked at me, her eyes were so worried, she reached out to my chest, feeling my heartbeat, "Zhao Suo, you tell me here, you are not happy at all." It's not the life you want, is it?"

She said what was on my mind like this.

This feeling of someone knowing you and someone knowing your heart is very good, very subtle, very happy, but I can only hide this happiness in the bottom of my heart.

I grabbed Ji Muqing's hand and looked at her with a smile, "That was me before, and now I don't think so much anymore." A peaceful and peaceful life is for those who have no achievements, and now that I am the ruler of this world, such a comfortable life no longer belongs to me. ”

"Is what you said true?" Ji Muqing looked at me worriedly.

I nodded against my will, "Of course." ”

"But, why can't I see excitement and joy in your eyes?" Ji Muqing ruthlessly uncovered my cover-up.

I'm always so transparent in front of her, like a transparent person, and what I want to hide, I can't escape her eyes.

I hugged her deeply in my arms and said from the bottom of my heart, "Sometimes I wish you were less intelligent, less understanding of me, a little more selfish, and a little more for yourself." ”

I know that Ji Muqing understands what I mean, and I also know what she means.

In life, there are many things that we cannot control.

Ji Muqing snuggled in my arms, just leaning on it quietly, "You are becoming more and more sentimental now, I still remember when I first met you, you were so indifferent, so not afraid of heaven and earth, there is nothing in this world that can control you." At that time, I always wondered, why do you live so freely, so chic, if only I could be as chic as you. ”

"That's what I thought in my heart, but I couldn't do it because I had too many ties, I had a company, I had parents, I had so many employees waiting for me to support, if I was free, what would they do?"

"When a person thinks too much and worries too much, he will not be so free and chic. However, when I decided to come here with you, I forgot all those ties and responsibilities. Do you know why?"

Ji Muqing raised her head, looked at me, and asked steadily.

I tried to find the answer in her eyes, but alas, I didn't.

I asked, "Why?"

She smiled and said, "Because of life." ”

This seemed a bit inscrutable, and I savored it, but I still couldn't fully grasp the meaning.

Ji Muqing said, "Life is never perfect, you can have whatever you want, even if it is the current you." Since some things are unavoidable, don't let them be a burden to you, try to turn the burden into energy. It's like the saying, since when you're unhappy, you're happy, so why not be happy?"

The truth seems to be this, but it is not so easy to do it.

Ji Muqing said this to give me relief, I don't want me to live so tired and hard, I understand her kindness, but what to do, what to do, I'm afraid I can't control it.

I took her hand, "Let's go, let's go see the sea of flowers, and leave all those messy things behind." ”

As the saying goes, there is nothing in life that is not hard, so you have to be happy in time.

I know that it was not I who convinced her, but that she was willing to accompany me.

When it is peaceful and peaceful, the scenery here is indeed very beautiful and beautiful, very beautiful, and it is very suitable for quiet enjoyment.

The auspicious clouds dressed in colorful clothes, against the blue sky and white clouds, such a scenery is rare to see in the world.

When you raise your eyebrows and look into the distance, there is a kind of washing from the depths of your heart, you will feel that you are so small, so small, in front of the vast universe, like a small speck of dust.

Suddenly, the image of the sea of clouds rolling in my mind came to mind, and soon, it disappeared.

This is the scene of the Xingchen Jue, how did it appear at this time?

finally had time to accompany Ji Muqing out to see the scenery, but there was this annoying scene again, it was really as if it should be.

I tried to restrain myself and let that scene go on, I didn't need to improve, I didn't need to break through, and that's fine right now.

It was probably my abnormal reaction that caused Ji Muqing's idea, and she asked me, "Zhao Suo, what's wrong with you?"

I don't want her to know about those things and ruin our view of Yaxing, "It's okay." ”

Ji Muqing didn't doubt it, and continued to enjoy the scenery, the afterglow of the sunset reflected on her face, it was so beautiful, like a painting.

I laughed, wishing that time would stop forever in this moment.

But damn it, it didn't take me long to suppress that image before it reappeared, and this time the clouds rolled in my mind even more.

It's strange, I didn't absorb the aura, and I didn't do anything, why did there appear a scene of Xingchen Jue in a good way.

Even the images I saw in front of me were changing at a rapid pace.

The sea of flowers turned into small white things, like little elves, jumping in front of me, and the afterglow of the setting sun turned into beams of light, intertwined with those halos.

It's a very magnificent picture, a picture that is pleasing to the eye.

Suddenly, a large amount of aura spontaneously surged into my body, as if something in my body was calling them, making them look like warriors who have come forward one after another.

And the original magnificent and colorful picture in front of me slowly collapsed, like a majestic palace, little by little into ruins.

No, it can't be like this, I can't absorb the aura here!

I tried to restrain myself and fight against the force in my body.

It's like one is greedy and the other is trying to restrain greed, and the two of us are competing with each other.

Greedy, I want to eat something delicious when I see it, and I know what I should eat and what I shouldn't eat, and I can't touch the things in front of me, this is a pure land in Ji Muqing's heart, and it is the only place here that can bring her a smile.

I finally didn't control myself well, and I was exposed in front of Ji Muqing, she looked at me worriedly, worried about me, "Zhao Suo, what's wrong with you, what's going on?"

I hurriedly let go of Ji Muqing's hand, "Don't touch me, I can't control myself now, there is something in my body that seems to be summoning those aura, it will automatically absorb it, if you contact me, the aura in your body will also be absorbed." ”

Ji Muqing looked at me in fear, her hands frozen in the air, and her eyes widened.

I thought she would be scared, upset, and stop touching me, but she grabbed my arm as if she hadn't heard, and her eyes were full of worry.

I knew that she was really worried about me and felt sorry for me, and she tried hard not to let herself shed tears, but the tears still fell after all.

"Zhao Suo, let's go back, let's go back, you won't be so uncomfortable. ”

Seeing those two lines of tears slowly falling from her cheeks, and seeing her worried and worried face, my heart felt as uncomfortable as a knife.

I said that I would give her happiness, give her peace, give her peace, but why do I always bring her hurt and worry.

What the hell am I doing?

When exactly will I be a good husband?

No, I don't accompany her husband at all, because I never qualified.

At that moment, endless self-blame and guilt swept over my heart like a wave.

I gritted my teeth and parted Ji Muqing's hand, but she grabbed it tightly, but she refused to let go, "Zhao Suo, what are you doing?"

"Don't touch me, I'll suck your aura. "I stress again.

Ji Muqing still held my arm tightly and expressed her dedication to me with her resolute attitude. She used all her strength to help me up, "Let's go, let's go home!"

Go home!

What a beautiful word!

I looked at her stubborn and stubborn face, and my heart was distressed.

This woman who should have had children like other women and lived an ordinary but peaceful and happy life, because since she was with me, she has never enjoyed a day of peace.

Ordinary life has become a luxury for her, a dream luxury, and all of this is lost because of me.

I've said countless times that I'm going to give her the life she wants, countless times I've said I'm going to fulfill her wishes, and I've ......

Yes, countless times, but has it really come true once?

No!

Not once!

What the hell am I doing?

What the hell am I doing?

"No!" I staggered away from Ji Muqing's hand, and my mind was in a mess, like a mess.

The scenes of those moments of life and death flashed in my mind one by one, and countless times, Ji Muqing almost ......

My heart felt like it was being clenched by a huge fist, as if it was about to burst.