After that phone call, Qi Fei's whole person fell into a deep silence, his mood can't be described in words, he just wants to be able to continue to live and get rid of the past, but the past always gave him a hard blow again and again when he felt that he was about to turn the page.

There are too many things that always pull at him, so that he can't get rid of it at all, he seems to be trapped in some kind of cage, he can never break free, no matter how far he goes, he still can't get rid of it, completely powerless.

Qi Fei locked himself in the room alone, and those childhood memories surfaced uncontrollably.

Qi Fei's childhood has almost no good memories, his childhood is dim, he has a mother who loves him but is weak, and a father who completely ignores family affection, the father who disappeared for many years and then suddenly appeared, and he was deeply uneasy and frightened again because of a phone call from that person at the moment.

The last time he met Qi Liuyi was when he was thirteen years old, when the Qi family had just fallen, Qi Liuyi could still mix so-so, and by the time he was thirteen years old, Qi Liuyi had already become a pile of mud, gambling and violence.

He couldn't remember how many times Qi Liuyi had drunk too much and then punched and kicked his mother, Qi Fei felt that if it weren't for himself, his mother would have left his father a long time ago.

It's not that he hasn't left, but after failing, he was treated even more inhumanely.

He felt that he was a burden to his mother, and that without him, maybe his mother could have escaped, could have left, and had a whole new life.

When he was a child, every time he faced such a situation, he always shivered and hid in the closet alone, and then he learned to clench his fists, and when the fear and anger in his heart became more and more strong, it seemed that his courage also increased.

He had thought to himself more than once why he didn't kill him, and he felt that he would kill that man one day.

When he grows up and has the ability, he will definitely take back all the pain his mother has endured.

But this is the way things are in the world, people never choose, and they don't give people the opportunity to prepare, and that day came in a hurry, and he couldn't remember what day of the week it was, and what kind of weather it was.

He only knew that when he came back from school, he saw another atrocity, and this time it was different from the previous ones, Qi Liuyi seemed to be even more crazy that day, so crazy that he seemed to be out of control, so out of control that he couldn't see his mother's begging for mercy at all.

At that moment, he felt that if he continued to do it, his mother would be beaten to death, if he really died, wouldn't he have only one relative left?

He has only one color for the memory of that day, and that is red.

His mother's body was red, and his father's eyes were red, as if he had killed his red eyes, and he himself was red, and there was only one scarlet left in his world, and that scarlet was himself, because he had also killed red eyes.

It was the first time he resisted, and it was also an uncontrollable loss of control, he only knew that he was happy at that moment, and the unwillingness and anger that had been precipitated in his heart for many years all erupted uncontrollably at that moment.

If it weren't for her mother holding his hand tightly, if it weren't for the tears in his mother's eyes that washed away the unbearable thought in his heart, maybe that day, Qi Liuyi really died as he thought in his heart thousands of times.

The memory of that day was very strange, as if he didn't remember it at all, but he could never forget it, he couldn't remember how it all happened, but he remembered Qi Liuyi's blood, and then looked at his eyes, that look was too familiar to him, how many times he himself had seen Qi Liuyi with such eyes, there was fear, unwillingness, anger and hatred.

Qi Liuyi laughed wildly, smiled and said to him, he has my blood in his body, and you will become a more cruel and unbearable person than me.

Those words were like a thorn in his heart, and he couldn't shake them off.

In the days that followed, only their mother and son depended on each other, and he kept telling himself that he must not become a person like Qi Liuyi.

In those years, he thought that he didn't, although he walked on the tip of the knife, he was righteous enough, he had his own principles of survival, he mixed with the underworld and had no regrets, he almost took someone else's life without regrets, even his three years in prison never regretted, he left the original place, came to a brand new city and still did not regret it, he felt that he was just cruel, but not inhumane, he knew that his fist was used to protect the people around him.

The only time he doubted himself was in the matter of Li Mingchen, did he really hurt the person who loved him the most like Qi Liuyi? At that time, he was confused, and during the period when Li Mingchen returned to the Li family, he almost collapsed.

It took him a lot of time to get back on his feet, and now his life seemed to be different from before, but only he knew in his heart that he was still him, he was still the same person who carried heavy memories, and he couldn't escape from the memories.

The memories of his childhood are something he can't escape, and he will wake up from a nightmare no matter how glamorous and beautiful he is, and the memories about Li Mingchen are something he doesn't want to forget, he has experienced too many things in his life, and Li Mingchen's one is not the most cruel, but it is because of the ingredient of love that makes him particularly unforgettable and unable to let go.

He hadn't felt like this for too long, others thought he was invincible, he really thought he was invulnerable, but at the moment he was as fragile as a hypocritical child, and he couldn't find the outlet to release the heavy weight in his heart.

Li Mingchen, he is extremely eager to see that person, for so many years, he has relied on him, relying on the person who is close at hand but far away from the world, he once thought that he had no desire and no desire, as long as he silently guarded him.

But at this moment, he felt that he couldn't do it, and the energy he could get from a distance could no longer support his mood at the moment.

He dragged his tired feet away from home, and he went somewhere as if he were chasing the light.

He sat quietly in the car like a stone, and the place downstairs of the Li family was already too familiar to him, and he had been silently silent and watching in this place again and again countless times.

When Li Mingchen came out of the gate, it was like a beam of light, and like a knife, for a moment, Qi Fei's heart had a place to pout, and he didn't know if it was broken, exploded, or stabbed by a bucket, he only knew that his heart and breathing seemed to be stopped at that moment, and from a distance, he felt that he could smell Li Mingchen's body and feel his breathing.

Li Mingchen looked down and said something to the people around him, and suddenly he paused, raised his head, and looked in the direction of Qi Fei.

With that look, Qi Fei felt that his heart was soft, he felt that his heart was on the verge of death alive again, and he persistently believed that Li Mingchen must be looking at him, and this cognition made him want to step forward uncontrollably and hug him.

He didn't know how he got out of the car, and then walked over, he just followed Li Mingchen's gaze, he was like a subject, he didn't know how he crossed over, he only knew that he was going to go in the direction of the light, and then he was deeply convinced.

Suddenly, a person's hand was blocked on his chest, and Qi Fei, who came back to his senses, saw Li Mingyang standing in front of him, separating him from Li Mingchen, "Are you crazy?

Li Mingchen just looked at him, looked at him deeply, for many years, Li Mingchen had never looked at him like this again, although he still appeared in front of Qi Fei from time to time, but he chose to ignore them all, he never looked at Qi Fei's eyes.

But at this moment, he felt it, and felt the kind of distress-like emotion emanating from Qi Fei's body.

"Mingyang, go and wait for me in the car", Li Mingchen opened his mouth lightly.

Li Mingchen snorted coldly, he was extremely unwilling, but he still complied, and Li Mingyang walked away dissatisfied.

Qi Fei didn't know where he got the courage, and suddenly reached out and hugged Li Mingchen, Li Mingchen didn't respond or struggle, he just stood fixedly, like hugging a wooden man, but this wooden man is Li Mingchen, he has a taste that belongs to Li Mingchen, this person can save him, even if this person no longer loves him, even if this person hates him.

It was only a few seconds, but Qi Fei felt that that moment seemed to be forever, Li Mingchen took a step back and left his embrace, the expression on his face did not fluctuate too much, it was still his usual temperament of the person in the mall opposite.

Qi Fei looked at his empty hand, there was an indescribable sense of loss in his heart, the moment he hugged Li Mingchen just now, he felt that his heart was alive again, he thought that the heart that was dead was beating for Li Mingchen again, but in fact, it was beating all the time.

"Something?" Li Mingchen's tone had no hatred, but no warmth.

Qi Fei looked at him stupidly, and then shook his head weakly, "It's okay, I just want to see you." ”

Li Mingchen hummed lightly, he wanted to lift his feet and leave, but the strong childlike helplessness that emanated from Qi Fei's body made him unable to move his footsteps, this feeling he had seen in Qi Fei before.

Although he didn't want to admit it, this feeling had been played out countless times in his dreams.

Many years ago, when Qi Fei blocked him behind, when Qi Fei felt that he might not be able to take Li Mingchen away, at that time, Qi Fei's body also revealed the same feeling at this moment, a deep sense of fear and powerlessness.

It was a completely different aura from the Qi Fei he knew, the tall and invincible man.