The two of them looked at each other for a few seconds, and the eyes of the two of them were full of bottomless emotions.

Seeing that Qi Fei didn't say anything, Li Mingchen took a few steps back, and then quickly turned around and returned to his car, Qi Fei looked at Li Mingchen's figure and got into the car, and followed back to his car, his eyes stayed in the direction of Li Mingchen's car.

Li Mingchen always knew that Qi Fei had been following behind his car, the speed had not changed, and there was no detour, this was a kind of acquiescence, right?

In fact, if Qi Fei wants to follow, it is really rare to be able to get rid of it, maybe it is because he can feel Qi Fei's strange mood today, so Li Mingchen is too lazy to bother struggling with him on such a thing.

Anyway, Qi Fei is not an enemy, whether he loves or hates, he has never felt a threat in Qi Fei.

Li Mingchen's car stopped at Li Mingyang's residence first, and after Li Mingyang got out of the car, he chatted with Li Mingchen on the car window, and he couldn't hear what they were talking about, but Qi Fei felt that there were eyes looking at him, and they should be talking about themselves.

I can probably guess that Li Mingyang is nothing more than telling Li Mingchen not to dwell on the past.

Li Mingyang was hostile to Qi Fei, but Qi Fei never treated him, and even he was grateful to Li Mingyang in his heart, because at that time, when there were too many things and too much pain Li Mingchen couldn't mention to his family, there was at least one Li Mingyang.

It was Li Mingyang who accompanied him to survive, whether in private or in working together, Li Mingyang was a hero.

After sending Li Mingyang away, Li Mingchen went back to the small apartment, there was still no shortage of bodyguards downstairs in the apartment, but after closing the door, he was the only one left, and he felt that the air was instantly quiet, quiet and scary, but also down-to-earth.

Li Mingchen has become accustomed to the feeling of being surrounded by people, or he is afraid of death.

A person who has died once, he will never let himself be left alone again, maybe he has understood that truth since he returned to the Li family, what he can rely on and believe in will always be himself, and only himself will never betray himself in this world.

Because I have experienced tragedy, I am cautious, hoping that tragedy will never happen again, this is the feeling that everyone who has experienced despair, and the only way to crack it is to make yourself invincible and no longer afraid.

Li Mingchen took off his coat and was silent on the sofa for a long time, he emptied himself, and when it got dark, he consciously rolled up his sleeves and walked into the kitchen, he should have been able to do it all these years, he had to make himself strong enough.

He knows how to cook, and when he has time, he goes to the gym to practice boxing, and he enriches himself all the time, as if only in this way can he feel his strength and settle down, and only in this way does he not feel so afraid.

He had to keep himself alive and survive under any conditions.

Simply got himself something to fill his stomach, he ate quietly, although it was just a person, but he still ate quietly and elegantly, after eating, he silently cleaned up the kitchen alone.

It was his habit, and every time he would restore everything as if he had never been here.

When he sat on the sofa again, Li Mingchen only felt that his whole person was empty, and he didn't know what he was thinking.

He felt like he wasn't thinking about anything, but it seemed like there were a lot of things struggling around in his head, and he couldn't help it.

In fact, he has always felt that his life over the years has been in a trance, he has lived a life that many people dream of, but he is not happy, when he first returned to Li's house, when he was just taken home from the hospital, everyone treated him carefully, unwilling to touch his sad part, and in the end he even followed everyone else, feeling that he was too pitiful.

But what is there to pity him, at least he is still alive and well, and some people will never come back.

During that time, no one mentioned his mother in front of him, and he didn't want to have any burden in his heart, everyone hoped that he could live well, and they all hoped that he could let go of the guilt in his heart, and it was not his fault.

Since everyone wants him to let go, then let him go, and he has always shown himself to let go all these years, but only he knows that there are some things that he can't let go at all.

He can never forgive himself, the person he loves the most died because of him, he has no way to forgive, never.

He can't forget that it was because he loved the wrong person that this happened, he couldn't forget how his mother was scared to death, although this incident was unexpected by everyone, but it really happened, it happened so unchangeably.

That's what happened, it was on an unsuspecting morning that he suddenly lost love, suddenly saw something clearly, suddenly lost some people for no reason, some people he once thought would be by his side forever.

When everyone feels that it is not his fault, it is often when he feels that he is most unforgivable.

Every year, he would go to see his mother, and every time he would say sorry to his mother, the most useless sorry.

What is it to fall from heaven to hell? Li Mingchen felt that he was.

It was really not just a dramatic word, it was a real feeling, so real that it made him feel that living was a torture and a sin, and that he was going to sink into hell forever, that life was better than death.

He lost almost everything overnight, and it is not terrible to lose, because people will lose in the end, and in the end they will say goodbye to some people, but what is more terrible than loss is that because of loss, they can never believe in it again.

If there is no love, no longing, and no belief in life, what is the difference between life and death?

He felt that his own life was over, from the moment he no longer dared to love to face it.

He didn't know why to this day, this place is still intact, maybe reluctant, maybe it is to remind himself all the time, remind himself of what has happened, and he will not forget everything that has happened.

He hadn't forgotten the despair that would have buried him, and he hadn't forgotten the feelings that had made him the happiest and presumptuous.

It's just that in these years, he had to amplify his despair, and then those memories that should have been good were thrown at his feet.

He even hated his own forgetfulness, and those memories reminded him of his ignorance and debity.

It's not terrible to be cheap, but because of your own cheapness, you need to let your relatives suffer the consequences, then it really can't be forgiven.

The clock was ticking, obviously he didn't think about anything, but his head was tired, as if he had experienced a fatal memory, Li Mingchen slowly fell asleep in a trance and tiredness, he hadn't spent the night in this place for a long, long time.

He didn't know why he came, but only here could his heart beat, only here, even with hatred, he could know that he was alive, and only here could he tell himself that he had lived.

He used to live unscrupulously, he loved unscrupulously, he used to think he had everything.

Li Mingchen felt that he had a very long and short dream, which was like a dream for a few months, and the scenes reappeared in the dream, and the memories and sorrows that he deliberately blocked were never far away from him.

has always been hidden in the deepest part of his heart, waiting for a certain day and a certain moment to drag him into the whirlpool again.

He is in that whirlpool at the moment, he can't tell the joy and sorrow, he can't tell everything, the true and the false, only the despair is true, only the despair of him alone is real, his time stopped in that year, and he no longer moved forward.

Li Mingchen can feel that someone is approaching him, Li Mingchen's awareness of danger is unusually strong over the years, although the feeling at this moment is not the sense of crisis of fear, but he still subconsciously wants to wake himself up.

Struggling between a heavy feeling of tiredness and the desire to wake up, he felt as if he was being held tightly by a pair of large hands, making him unable to break free from reality and dreams, and when he finally opened his eyes with all his might, his forehead was already covered with sweat.

He gasped like a prostration, as if he had experienced a life-and-death contest.

When his eyes were full of focus again, the face that had been following him in the dream appeared in front of him at this moment, and time stopped in an instant, and he didn't even struggle anymore, trying to figure out whether he was awake or still in the dream, no longer struggling, everything was in vain.

"Are you okay?" Qi Fei stretched out his hand to wipe the sweat from his forehead, Li Mingchen leaned back without any expression, and avoided it perfectly, he was still at a loss at the moment, but whether it was true or not, whether it was a dream or a wake-up, Qi Fei was a person he should stay away from.

He really regretted it, regretted that there was such a person as Qi Fei in his life.

What an ironic feeling, he once felt that it was the happiness given to him by God, but now it made him regret and suffer, if he hadn't met Qi Fei, his mother was still there, he would still move forward, maybe one day he would meet another person and spend his life, or maybe he wouldn't have the chance to meet anyone in his life, but there was no problem with living alone like this.

Of course, there are some things he doesn't want to think about, that is, if he hadn't met Qi Fei, his mother would indeed be alive and well, but he himself may not be able to continue to live at all, because there should be no second person in this world who can take such a big risk to bring him back safely, and there will really never be such a person again.

When Qi Fei's blood was pushed into the rescue room, for a moment he felt that everything could be forgiven, but when he came out safely again, the hatred spread again, how could he forgive?