Chapter 21
Xiao Yang's heart was actually somewhat annoyed, and many times he couldn't control his emotions and temper.
When he couldn't control it, the result was often out of his control, he never thought of saying those words to Qi Zhixuan, but he couldn't control himself, especially in front of Qi Zhixuan, his emotions were even more out of his control.
He didn't know what he said, and he didn't know what those words meant to Qi Zhixuan? He had never been a person who could understand the feelings of others, he had been used to it since he was a child, and he would make his heart comfortable first and not care about others.
The documents that Assistant Feng put on his desk early in the morning are still there, Xiao Yang has not moved at all, it has been like this for the past few days, Xiao Yang's mood is not too high, and he has a stinky face all day long, which is really a waste of such a handsome face.
When Xiao Yang is in a bad mood, he doesn't need to speak at all, he can make people automatically retreat, the aura that can tear people apart is too powerful, Assistant Feng has long been familiar with Xiao Yang to the point that he can know whether he is happy or angry at a glance.
Xiao Yang like this made Assistant Feng learn to knock on the door again, and he didn't want to be scolded for no reason.
When Xiao Yang started the fire, it was really heartbreaking, if it weren't for Assistant Feng's strong heart, he would have run away a long time ago.
Assistant Feng knocked on the door several times and waited for Xiao Yang to call him in, he obediently went in, so well-behaved, he had to increase his salary, right?
It is necessary, such an assistant and nanny occasionally have to be responsible for making fun, and it is impossible to say that there is no salary increase, although the salary is already very high, Assistant Feng's salary has long exceeded the salary of an assistant, which is enough to see Assistant Feng in the company.
After Assistant Feng went in, he cleared his throat, "Brother Xiao, that Xiao Ji ......", "I know", Xiao Yang didn't listen to him, he didn't need to listen to it to know what he was going to say, it must be his father who was so blocked that he owed money outside, which is why Xiao Ji followed him, Xiao Yang waved his hand and motioned for Assistant Feng to go out first, and after Assistant Feng went out, Xiao Yang sent a message to Xiao Ji.
"I'll go see you at night".
"Good".
Xiao Ji has always spoken very little, and he never takes the initiative to call and send messages to Xiao Yang when he is fine, even if there is something, he will go through Assistant Feng first, he knows his identity and position very well, and Xiao Yang also likes his self-consciousness.
Xiao Yang is a person who is afraid of getting into trouble emotionally, so he doesn't like people who are too proactive, and Xiao Ji is just quiet.
After getting off work, Xiao Yang drove to Xiao Ji's residence, this place he didn't come to often, and Xiao Ji's sense of existence was not strong.
Coupled with his personality, Xiao Yang often forgets his existence, Xiao Yang doesn't really forget him as a person, but he doesn't want to find him too eagerly, of course, there is no one in this world who makes Xiao Yang feel so eager to feel.
But at least this place made Xiao Yang feel comfortable, the few times Xiao Ji he had been here, he would cook a table of meals by himself and wait for Xiao Yang to come and eat together, this time was no exception, when Xiao Yang arrived, he could almost eat directly.
Xiao Ji's homely personality is somewhat related to his growth process, because he must learn to take care of himself.
Xiao Ji's background is not very good, like Xiao Yang, his mother died very early, but Xiao Ji has a bad gambling father.
Xiao Yang is luckier than Xiao Ji at this point, although Xiao Yang doesn't like Xiao Zhang and even hates him, but at least Xiao Zhang won't cause him any trouble, he just doesn't see Xiao Zhang, and Xiao Zhang does bring him a high-quality life.
Xiao Ji has been terrified in his life since he was a child, because from time to time someone will come to the door to ask them for debts, and they have been moving for this reason, Xiao Ji feels that he is fortunate to have met Xiao Yang, and he feels that it is good now.
Every time he asks Xiao Yang for it, Xiao Yang will also ask for it, he likes this feeling of not owing each other, he doesn't want to owe anyone, he knows too well the feeling of owing others, the feeling of being frightened and unable to repay.
So he didn't want to owe Xiao Yang, but he still owed Xiao Yang, maybe for Xiao Yang, pulling Xiao Ji was just a gesture, but he wouldn't understand that for a desperate person, his gesture was a hope.
Xiao Ji doesn't usually cook much, he only does it when Xiao Yang is there, and he is willing to do this for Xiao Yang.
He is willing to do more things for Xiao Yang, and he is willing to become what Xiao Yang likes or hopes, such as not fighting or grabbing now.
The two of them finished eating quietly, and when Xiao Ji was washing the dishes, Xiao Yang quietly put a card into Xiao Ji's wallet.
"Thank you", when he turned around, Xiao Ji was standing at the kitchen door wiping his hands, Xiao Yang put down his wallet and smiled and reached out to rub his hair.
He thanked Xiao Yang not only because Xiao Yang gave him hope, but more importantly, Xiao Yang was also willing to give him dignity.
He thought that if he followed Xiao Yang, he would embark on a road of no return, after all, how could such a person turn back?
But Xiao Yang gave him dignity, although Xiao Yang didn't say it, Xiao Ji understood that he gave him dignity in many details.
"Thank me for what, this is what you deserve", no, he's not a philanthropist, they just take what they need.
Xiao Yang also doesn't like others to thank him too much, the emotion of gratitude is easy to involve feelings, he prefers to take what he needs.
Xiao Ji nodded a little shyly, he understood all this, but Xiao Yang still made him feel lucky.
At the beginning, he also inquired about this person, Xiao Yang's tone was not very good, but he felt that it was not bad to get along, I don't know if he was an exception or Xiao Yang was the same for all lovers? Xiao Yang is actually not so terrible.
It can be seen that Xiao Yang's mood is not particularly good, he doesn't know what to say at this time, in fact, no matter whether Xiao Yang is in a good mood or a bad mood, he rarely speaks to Xiao Yang, there has always been very little talk between them, he is very measured, he will never say what he shouldn't say, and he will never ask what he shouldn't ask, it has always been what Xiao Yang says he listens to, and what Xiao Yang asks he answers.
Xiao Yang led him to the balcony and smoked, Xiao Ji just looked at Xiao Yang's smoking side face so quietly, and couldn't help but look at Xiao Yang holding his hand out of the corner of his eye, when he was with Xiao Yang, if it wasn't for his identity reminding him all the time, he felt that he would really be moved, he didn't want to disturb Xiao Yang too often, but he was faintly looking forward to Xiao Yang in his heart.
He didn't know which day he would be bored by Xiao Yang, but Xiao Yang didn't like to entangle his feelings, he understood, as long as he was good enough, he could stay by Xiao Yang's side for a while longer, but if he fell in love with Xiao Yang, then everything would be over, Xiao Yang didn't like this.
Xiao Yang snuffed out the cigarette in his hand and looked up at Xiao Ji in silence, and couldn't help sighing, "What are you thinking?", he didn't understand what Xiao Ji was thinking, and he didn't have so much time and mind to think about it so much, he just needed Xiao Ji to be obedient and quiet.
"No, I didn't think about anything, how are you eating?", Xiao Ji didn't think that Xiao Yang really cared about what he was thinking, he just asked casually, and if he really did it, he would be asking for trouble, so he could only ask Xiao Yang if he was eating well, he hadn't cooked for a long time.
Xiao Yang pulled Xiao Ji in front of him, and he didn't answer Xiao Ji's question, but just looked at him.
When Xiao Ji looked up and looked at him, he still couldn't help but feel nervous, he felt a little overwhelmed, he was afraid of Xiao Yang's eyes, Xiao Yang's eyes sometimes gave him an illusion, he felt that the person in front of him was actually fragile, and indeed people may have a vulnerable side, but Xiao Yang's side should never be shown in front of him, even if he saw it, he shouldn't ask.
Because he knew that Xiao Yang was actually more arrogant than anyone else, he just needed to treat him as he is now, and let him solve all the problems for him, unless Xiao Yang wanted to say the rest, but he felt that if Xiao Yang would say these things one day, maybe it would be time for him to leave, Xiao Yang could not let a person who saw through his fragility stay by his side, so he would rather not know many things.
Xiao Yang looked at him silently for a long time before he spoke, "Do you know why I wanted you in the first place?", Xiao Ji himself has thought about this question, he has nothing to do with it, and he is inconspicuous when he is lost in the crowd, not to mention that his character may soon be drowned in the sea of people, but Xiao Yang has taken a fancy to him, and he has fallen in love with such a useless him, it is unbelievable to think about it.
But should I know this answer? After I know it, does it mean that Xiao Yang doesn't want him anymore?
But he has no other choice, he is just a person who can stand where he is and wait, if Xiao Yang comes, he will love him, if Xiao Yang wants to leave, the only thing he can do is to watch him leave, only then will he at least not become the person who makes Xiao Yang hate.
In fact, he has an idea in his heart, an idea that everyone doesn't know and probably won't believe, that he needs Xiao Yang's money is actually a good reason, so that he can take what he needs with Xiao Yang, but if one day he doesn't need it anymore, in fact, he is still willing to stay by Xiao Yang's side, as long as Xiao Yang needs it, Xiao Yang is his first and only man.
It would be nice if they could go on like this forever, he didn't want much originally, as long as Xiao Yang could still appear by Xiao Yang's side when he occasionally remembered him, even if Xiao Yang couldn't give him anything one day, he was still willing.
What Xiao Ji is most afraid of is that he is in love with him like now, and he is in love with Xiao Yang.
Xiao Yang actually doesn't have any requirements for Xiao Ji, and even if Xiao Ji has someone he likes one day, Xiao Yang will be fulfilled.
Of course, this person can't be Xiao Yang, Xiao Yang can't give him any response other than this relationship.
Even if Xiao Ji crosses the line, then this situation will end with it, which is not within Xiao Yang's acceptability.