Li Mingchen was originally going to come, but because he met Li Mingchen, the mood of standing here was completely different, and he couldn't say why for this difference, he didn't want to believe that Qi Fei's appearance could change his mood once.

Li Mingchen comes every year, but today he spent a lot of time at the cemetery because his heart was not very calm.

He had to stand in this place and feel the pain again, and he had to remind himself of the pain all the time.

He didn't know what his heart was shaking for, he felt that maybe it was too long, there wasn't so much pain, maybe it was human nature that time would make many things forgiven, but he had to be sober, because some things could not be forgiven, and he had told himself a long, long time ago that he could not forgive.

Qi Fei watched quietly from a distance, watching Li Mingchen sitting silently by the grave smoking a cigarette.

He is not unfamiliar with this place, he has been here often, not only with Li Mingchen, he himself has stayed here alone, here is Li Mingchen's painful memory, but this is also his place of redemption.

Qi Fei regretted it, although regretting many things was meaningless, but he had no other way to vent, to redeem himself, to go back and forth between redemption and more guilt, but only this place could tell him about the past between them that he couldn't go back.

This place is so real, and this place hurts but makes people believe in the past.

In fact, it's been too long, it's been too long to live alone, Qi Fei sometimes feels unreal, has he really ever loved someone so much? That feeling is too far away.

But every time I see Li Mingchen, my heartbeat is real, trapped in such a strange circle, and I will never be able to get out.

Li Mingchen smoked several cigarettes in a row, and Qi Fei also stood up and slowly moved forward after snuffing out the cigarette butts.

He got closer to Li Mingchen, his steps were a little dazed, and he didn't know if he was testing himself or Li Mingchen?

Not close or far, Qi Fei felt as if he had walked for a long, long time, and every step seemed to be a kind of torment.

Li Mingchen watched Qi Fei get closer and closer, his footsteps didn't move, he felt that he could face Qi Fei, just like countless times before, whether he was high or indifferent.

But when Qi Fei's face began to come into view clearly, he didn't know why he was retreating, his steps unconsciously took a step back, and that feeling came to his heart again, the fear that love and hate were not extreme enough.

Li Mingchen didn't know why this feeling came from, but he didn't want to make himself look as embarrassed as he was inside, so he took a step back and stopped, standing and watching Qi Fei stand in front of him.

When you look at each other, there is a subtle smell in the air that makes your heart palpitate.

"Are you alright?" After a long while, Qi Fei took a deep breath and opened his mouth.

After a few seconds, Li Mingchen felt that he had just found his voice, "It's okay", his voice was as cold as ever.

With such a cold voice, Qi Fei felt that he couldn't adapt to it, maybe because they had both seen each other's gentle and enthusiastic side, and when that side was deeply engraved in their hearts, everything else seemed to be unreal.

But this state of indifference is the truest state between them, and this state has been maintained for many years, and may continue like this, but they can only go on like this, because even if they are cold, they are not willing to leave.

After a long silence, Li Mingchen still wanted to escape, and Qi Fei just looked at Li Mingchen, no matter whether he continued to stand or turned to leave, he could only stand in place and stare at him like this, wanting to take a second look and engrave him in his mind.

Seeing that Li Mingchen did not leave immediately, Qi Fei took another step forward, he actually needed a lot of courage to dare to stretch out his hand, he reached out and wanted to touch Li Mingchen's face, this action was like a slap in the face for Li Mingchen.

He took a quick step back and slapped Qi Fei's hand away, his face was pale, and there was some inexplicable anger hidden in his eyes.

"Can you stop showing up again?"

Qi Fei stared at his empty hand, he didn't seem to hear Li Mingchen's words, but he actually heard it, and his chest quickly reacted, the pain was like being cut by a knife, every time it was very painful, but he couldn't control his steps, and he had to find pain for himself every time.

Qi Fei put his hands behind his back, then took a step back, still looking at him with gentle eyes.

Qi Fei seems to have regressed and doesn't seem to have regressed, in fact, Qi Fei takes a step forward and takes a step back, it is the same suffocation for him, as long as Qi Fei exists in his world for a day, such a suffocation will not disappear for a day.

In the past, Li Mingchen felt that this tossing was because Qi Fei was more painful and revenge for Qi Fei, but the more time passed, the more tired he felt, and there was no point in it, because Qi Fei was in pain and he was not happy, and he was exhausted.

"Let's go. ”

Li Mingchen's voice was still cold, but there was a little more undulating fluctuations, maybe angry, maybe excited.

"I'm sorry. ”

Qi Fei was silent for a long time before he came up with such a sentence again, I'm sorry, but I'm sorry for 110,000, it's useless.

These three words are never redemption and liberation between them, but like a kind of one-touch explosion*, which can easily make each other's emotions collapse, and Li Mingchen is about to collapse at this moment, his heart is beating wildly, all the past, all the dissatisfaction, all the powerlessness is infinitely magnified at this moment.

"I'm sorry what? What's the use of you saying I'm sorry now? Qi Fei, what do you want to do?"

Li Mingchen's emotions were obviously excited, there were some things that he had endured in his heart for many years, he didn't want to say it, as if every time he said it, it was as if he had set back time again, and returned to the beginning when he was most unwilling to face.

He thought he wouldn't care by not saying it, but didn't he care?

"I'm sorry, I don't want to argue about anything, I was wrong, all the results you didn't want were brought by me, but, I love you. ”

I love you, what an ironic word, loving someone has given him the most painful and unbearable result, that is, this person who said that he loved him, ruined everything, ruined his warm family, ruined his heart, and ruined his heart that he could no longer believe.

Everyone understands in their hearts that meeting someone and then falling in love with someone is actually the best way to end everything, when you fall in love with someone again, everything before will naturally be forgiven, because of love, his heart can come back to life, but Qi Fei even blocked his way, he can't love anymore, he can't believe anymore.

Qi Fei once appeared in his world so perfectly, what kind of person can he fall in love with in the future?

He had been hurt by such a beautiful love, who could he trust again? It is not terrible to lose a love, it is not terrible to lose a lover, but the terrible thing is that the person he lost has also killed his heart, so that he can no longer believe it.

Li Mingchen's eyes turned red instantly, he took out a cigarette in a little panic, and his hands trembled a little when he lit it.

Qi Fei looked at Li Mingchen, and was suddenly stabbed in his heart, Li Mingchen's reaction at the moment was both reckless and inexplicably familiar, he hadn't seen Li Mingchen's reaction like this for a long time, such Li Mingchen seemed to be the one who was wronged many years ago, he was sad and violent but couldn't bear to break out, although the way he behaved was different, but the feeling was inexplicably familiar.

In the past, Li Mingchen would explode directly when he was like this, Qi Fei liked Li Mingchen very much, like a child, he was really willing to release his emotions completely, he missed Li Mingchen like that very much.

Later, Li Mingchen was able to bear too much, and he also learned to be silent, he never saw such a look on his face at this moment, Qi Fei's heart was indescribably sad.

After taking two puffs of cigarette, Li Mingchen stepped on the cigarette butt fiercely, he felt that such a thing as cigarettes could not calm his mood at the moment.

Li Mingchen looked extremely helpless, and the more he tried to pretend to be indifferent, the more he exposed the chaos in his heart at the moment.

Qi Fei stepped forward and hugged Li Mingchen into his arms, he felt that this was an instinct, he had done this countless times, and now he still wanted to do that, he couldn't look at Li Mingchen's helpless eyes.

It's a pity that the current Qi Fei, his arms can no longer give Li Mingchen the sense of security he once had, Qi Fei's touch was like an electric shock, which made his body tremble even more, and in less than two seconds, Li Mingchen pushed Qi Fei away.

He looked at Qi Fei who was pushed away by himself, and his heart began to be uncontrollably afraid, Qi Fei is too terrible, or is love too terrible?

Why? Why can he never escape from this person? His body can escape from this person, but his heart can't, as long as his heart knows that Qi Fei still exists in this world, as long as he knows that Qi Fei is still watching him, he can't escape at all.

Li Mingchen looked at Qi Fei, his eyes became desperate, it was fear and despair for himself, this despair was even worse than when he faced life and death, he felt that he was bound by a powerful thing, and he couldn't break away from the fate.

Li Mingchen almost ran away, he hated this feeling extremely much, and he refused to let Qi Fei see his fragility at the moment.

Qi Fei watched Li Mingchen flee, but he didn't have any words to keep, and he didn't have any reason.

Do I love you? I love you is not a reason that can be recovered, he will eventually become the reason for Li Mingchen to get farther and farther away from him, but he has no way not to love, so this matter is like a vicious circle with no solution, and no one can escape.