"When is the loneliest time for people?"

Han Yu also has his own answer to this question. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

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When you have a secret that no one can tell, you feel as if you are out of step with the world.

No matter how well you get along with other people, there is always a layer of estrangement in your heart that only you know.

Always subconsciously wanted to ignore it - in fact, he did it a lot of the time.

Negligible, does not mean non-existent.

It lies beneath its casual façade and spreads deeply.

You can't get rid of it, and you can't forget it.

Today, perhaps the once gloomy character has been gradually healed by many good things in the past few months.

Han Yu suddenly realized that his views on some issues were not the same as before.

Xiujing's matter was indeed difficult for him to accept in the past.

However, the reasons and hidden secrets in this can be understood when he thinks about it.

So although I still feel a little uneasy, I am more or less relieved about this matter.

The reason why he couldn't say the words "I like you too" to Xiujing at all was precisely because of the secret hidden deep in his heart.

In order to keep that secret, he didn't even dare to let Kwon Yoon-a do any hypnotherapy on him.

It feels like protecting a fragile bubble, for fear that if the bubble bursts, the sweet dream will wake up.

What's more, the problem between him and Zheng Xiujing, even if he really told her the truth, it would be useless.

The girl you like, the eyes you look at, the smile you show to yourself, and even the feelings in your heart are actually sent to another person.

For this situation, to be honest, Han Yu didn't have much real feeling in his heart until now.

Maybe it's because the time they get along is so short, and they are so clumsy and late aware of each other's feelings.

However, Han Yu had no intention of experiencing such feelings further at all.

That's right, he is indeed determined to let himself live with the lives of two people in the future.

However, family affection and love, in Han Yu's view, are two completely different feelings.

He can be the son of the Jin family, to love Xia Yan and Taeyeon, he can be the adopted son of the Lin family, to be filial to Father Lin and pamper Yun'er's girl, and he can even be the half of the godson who has a close relationship with the Zheng family, to get close to Zheng's mother and take care of Maomao.

But...... He can't let himself bear the love that shouldn't belong to him, right?

For Xiujing's girl, she should really have the kind of liking that arises after getting along with men and women, but what about Xiujing?

Most of her feelings for herself are based on memories of what she thinks she once had with herself.

Even herself, in the phone call just now, admitted this fact.

Han Yu didn't mind playing the role of Lin Yunyu and Kim Zhiyu, to be honest, they are inseparable from each other now.

But!

At least......

At least this situation still makes Han Yu have to distinguish himself from another "Han Yu" in his heart.

He can't convince himself to accept a girl who doesn't love him, and he can't convince himself to let himself deceive a girl's feelings as a lover she may be with for the rest of her life.

That's why he has behaved so coldly in the past period of time.

That's why he hung up the phone twice unreasonably before.

He wanted to be calmer and more peaceful.

Because he already knows a little bit about the pride in this girl's heart.

thought that with her own attitude, she should be able to choose to give up at least temporarily because of her temporary anger.

If this is the case, over time, the feelings in my heart may fade, and I can get along with her.

The sentence "back to the previous relationship" in his previous words, such a seemingly heartless sentence, who would have thought that it was actually the biggest expectation in his heart at present?

For the girl who sneaked into her house that night, and for the girl who was really close to her wholeheartedly, even if she knew that the person in her heart was actually not herself, Han Yu still didn't want to really become an embarrassing stranger with her.

At least we will be able to see each other freely in the future.

It was the best ending he could think of between them.

But he didn't expect that he still underestimated this girl's stubbornness.

Maybe it's self-defeating.

Zheng Xiujing did not hesitate to call herself Ernie, and the meaning behind this incident itself was already quite unusual.

Because, this is tantamount to letting this girl not hesitate to show her true fragile and helpless side to her family for the sake of the matter between herself and Han Yu.

With Zheng Xiujing's character, to do this, it can really be said that she has completely let go of her self-esteem and pride.

And she did all this just so that she could have a serious talk with Han Yu one last time.

Thereupon......

has Han Yu's previous answer, which can be said to be very cruel.

The reasons speak for themselves.

Some girls say that men always make self-righteous choices, saying that they are for the good of women, but they never think about whether women want to be so good.

Han Yu didn't know if his approach was also that kind of "self-righteousness".

But he knows very well that if he and Zheng Xiujing are allowed to develop like that, even if that girl may never know the truth for the rest of his life, the secret hidden in his heart is ...... But it was enough for him to not like Zheng Xiujing wholeheartedly.

This kind of affection is an extremely luxurious thing for her and herself.

Because it is false, it is extravagant, and because it is unnecessary, it is extravagant.

Able to solve the ...... in one go It's the best.

……

I sat alone in the living room for a long time.

Han Yu didn't know if this was whether he was punishing himself.

The clock on the wall slowly moved towards zero hour, but the brain didn't feel sleepy as usual.

I felt an inexplicable sense of sobriety.

When I was bored, I remembered something, and turned on the mobile phone that was turned off again.

Seeing that the screen lit up seemed a little dazzling at night, he thought about it, pursed his lips, stood up with his mobile phone, felt the slight stiffness of his sedentary muscles and the coolness of the night air, and prepared to go to the study on the second floor.

"Dingding!"

At this time, a sudden text message prompt sounded, which broke the silence and made him stop his steps.

I raised my phone and took a look, it was a string of numbers without notes, but after a closer look, I found that this number was so familiar.

The handsome face showed a look of stunned and hesitation.

Hesitated for a long time.

He still decided to see what this girl sent to him, if he scolded himself, maybe he could feel a little better after reading it.

However, when the specific content of the text message came into his sight with the swipe of his fingertips, he couldn't help but stand in place.

Her tone ...... There seems to be an unexpected cautiousness.

[Later... Even if you don't like it, even if you hate it, you can think of me for a minute every day..... Is that okay?】

“……”

Suddenly.

A hand couldn't help but press on his chest, his knuckles turned white, and a faint bruise appeared on the back of his hand, and a familiar feeling swept out of his body.

Icy cold and fiery.

The heart in the chest, once again, beat violently at that high speed.

The thoughts in my head became as dazed and blank as before.

In addition to the buzzing sound, there was only a louder gasp and heartbeat.

He closed his lips tightly, let the green tendons in the corners of his forehead burst out, his face turned red, and the whole person half-knelt down in a trance.

This time, he had an unexpected calmness.

As if, already familiar.

"Smack......

“O、OPPA――！！”

A moment before he fell to the floor on his side, his consciousness falling into darkness irresistibly, he vaguely saw the door of the opposite room open from the inside, and a shadow rushed towards him with a cry of surprise, and at her feet, a black shadow also quickly ran over.

The last clear thought in my mind was strange.

- 'Count this little guy still has a little conscience...... I hope this time, don't go so far. ’