The sky outside was very dark and heavy, and when I walked out of the house, I found that it was raining lightly in the sky, and the rain was blowing in the wind.

My legs, like lead, were unusually heavy, but I still insisted on moving forward, and in the silent night, only the sound of my footsteps on the ground, this desolation and gloom, just like my heart at the moment.

My heart seems to have been dug out, empty, and very painful, I am really reluctant, reluctant to leave this home, the past ten years, this home is heaven for me, and Feng Xue is my angel, she made me feel the sweetest happiness in the world, however, overnight, everything came to naught, Feng Xue and I can never go back to the past, this home can not accommodate me, I stay, it will only add blockage to everyone, only to leave, is my only way.

I closed my eyes and quickened the pace of my feet, I didn't dare to hesitate, I didn't dare to look back, I was afraid that I would regret it, I was afraid that I would run back without backbone, I could only hold on to this thin body, move forward quickly, there was darkness ahead, I didn't know where I was going, I just walked randomly, kept walking, I was like this, alone, from the night to the day!

The day dawned, the rain stopped, the sky cleared, and the morning sun gave off a golden light, shining on me, and it was only then that my consciousness slowly returned, and I found that I had walked out of the city and into the county next door.

Looking at a strange, unfamiliar environment, strange people, I suddenly felt very lonely, very desolate, at this time, I especially miss Feng Xue, homesick, I walked in the rain all night, the whole person is very tired and uncomfortable, I want to go home and rest, I want to go back to the former warm and happy life with Feng Xue, but, I can't go back, Feng Xue's leg is lame, her life has been branded with the biggest regret, she will never forgive me for the rest of her life, I can't go back to stimulate her, I only disappear, is good for her.

But, the world is so big, where is my foothold, I have no home, when I was a child, I live with the blind grandmother in the small mountain village, I don't remember the specific location at all, only vaguely remember that it seems to be called Wangjiagou, but this name is everywhere in the country, I tried to check before, but found nothing. As for my biological parents, I don't even know where they are, the only impression is that they work in the south, and I don't know anything else. I'm completely helpless now, and if I want to survive, I have to rely on myself!

After thinking about it, I continued to drag my tired body, walking blankly, my two legs were about to break, but I couldn't stop, since I had decided to disappear from Feng Xue's world, I couldn't give myself any possibility of wavering, I had to go far, and this county town was not far from Feng Xue's house, and there might be people who recognized me, so I couldn't stay here, but if I wanted to go far away, I needed to at least take a car, but the problem was that I was penniless now, and the only pocket money I had was given to the man in black that night, and then my adoptive parents didn't give me a penny, and there was nothing valuable in my schoolbag。 I had no choice but to sell my schoolbag and the clothes inside to the thrift market vendors in order to make up some money.

After selling all my belongings, I finally had a hundred yuan on me, and a hundred yuan was not a small amount at that time, I didn't delay, bought a ticket, got on a long-distance bus, and went to a city in the south!

After twenty hours of bumpy rides, the car reached the finish line. When I got out of the car and looked at the completely unfamiliar world in front of me, I suddenly felt a strange complex emotion in my heart, both the fear of the unknown future and the faint fighting spirit to fight. I know very well that the reason why Feng Xue is indifferent to me and refuses to forgive me should not only be because I indirectly caused her to be lame, but more importantly, I am too cowardly, too useless, which makes her disappointed in her heart, I still deeply remember the look in her eyes when she jumped off the building, it was a real despair that erodes the bones. Perhaps, in Feng Xue's heart, I am not worthy of being called a man at all. So, at this moment, I suddenly wanted to prove myself and prove that I wasn't complete waste.

Thinking of this, I couldn't help but take a deep breath, and then, I told myself in my heart, I must live well, I have to rely on myself, break out of a vast sky, and when I change my face in the future and really have a chance, I will go back to see Feng Xue, I want to use another way to atone for my sins and make up for her.

With this determination, I took a step into this new city.

In order to establish myself here, I first had to find a job, so as soon as I entered the city, I immediately started the process of looking for a job!

However, at the end of the day, my fighting spirit was almost completely submerged, and I hit a wall again and again, and finally made me realize how cruel the reality is, it turned out to be so difficult to find a job, people like me are really no different from waste, I have no ability, no diploma, and the most important thing is that I don't even have an ID card, I am just a minor with nothing, everyone is afraid to accept me, and I was finally kicked out wherever I went.

At night, I wandered alone on the street, physically and mentally tired, I felt very swoon, very sad, so many years, I just grew empty, but I don't know anything, the school environment is simple and pure, I rely on Feng Xue's home, and Feng Xue grew up carefree, I never knew that it was so difficult to live alone in society. I am now like a boat that has lost its oars, drifting in the vast sea, directionless, helpless and powerless.

What makes me even more anxious is that I only have a few dollars left for my 100 yuan, not to mention staying in a hotel, even a very ordinary small hotel can't afford to live, and even a dinner, I can't afford to eat, I can only buy a piece of bread and a bottle of water to deal with a meal, and then, I slept on a bench in the park for one night.

The next day, I woke up and felt dizzy, it seemed that I still had a fever, however, I still did not give up looking for a job, now I, the most urgent thing is to find a job with food and accommodation, but, no one needs me as a sick man, I looked around, even the lowest job, I can't be hired, I ran for a day, still nothing, I have little money left, all used up, I really have nothing, only this alone.

Hunger and illness made me have no strength to run around anymore, I squatted on the side of the road, thinking about the experience of this time, my heart was overflowing with endless sour bitterness, tears, silently slipped from my eyes, I felt that I had no future, the future was dark, how should I live in the next few days?

The more I thought about it, the more fierce my tears flowed, especially when I thought of the happiness I had with Feng Xue, I couldn't help but feel sad, this contrast from heaven to hell really made me unbearable. Originally, Feng Xue and I were so good, but now, I am homeless, Feng Xue is even more disabled, and I have carried this indelible pain for the rest of my life, and all of this is thanks to that thief, it is the devil-like man in black, who has harmed me and Feng Xue!

Before I knew it, I had the figure of the tall man in black in the night, he had terrified me, but now I hated him more, I hated him, hated him to the core. I clenched my teeth secretly, then closed my eyes, squeezing out the remaining tears in my eyes, and when I opened them, the familiar figure that had just appeared in my mind really appeared in front of my eyes.

Immediately, my heart jumped suddenly, and I quickly wiped my eyes and looked carefully at the man walking in front of me, he was wearing a peaked cap and a black T-shirt, his back was very familiar, and the posture of walking was the same as I remembered. Suddenly, I noticed the watch he was wearing.

As soon as I saw this watch, my heart beat faster, almost breaking through my chest, this watch I am very familiar with, it was given to me by Feng Xue, and it was precisely because Feng Xue wanted to return this watch that I was violated by the man in black, I will not mistake this watch even if I close my eyes. This time, I am even more sure that the man with the peaked cap in front of me must be the man in black that I hate to the core.

Suddenly, a monstrous hatred suddenly welled up in my chest, and my body was even injected with an invisible force, and as soon as I got to the ground, I stood up from the ground, and then clenched my fists with both hands and yelled at the back of the man in black: "You stop me!"