Chapter 40: Divorce Unless I'm Dead
"Mr. Xiang, this is my legitimate income, okay?"
"Take you on a date, will you?"
Su Ye's eyes were a little more expectant, and he replied without hesitation: "Go!"
After knowing each other like this, the two of them are also married, and Su Ye has never gone on a date with him, so he is still a little excited when he thinks about it.
Halfway through, Su Ye couldn't help but ask, "Where are we going?"
"You'll know when you get there. ”
After getting along for a long time, Su Ye got used to his mysterious tone, and sat in the car obediently, waiting to reach his destination.
The car drove all the way, and soon left the city and drove all the way to the suburbs, and it took a long time, and Su Ye fell asleep leaning on the car window for a long time.
In the dream, Su Ye dreamed of a clean sea, but after a while, the painting style suddenly changed, her body was a little hot, and her lips seemed to be blocked by others.
Su Ye woke up faintly, blinked, obediently hooked his neck, responded to his kiss, finally had a chance to breathe, and asked breathlessly, "What are you doing?"
"Isn't the prince all sleeping beauties who wake up with kisses? Besides, I haven't eaten meat for a week, can't I kiss it to satisfy my cravings?"
Su Ye understood the hint in his words, quietly blushed, and whispered in his heart, how could the cool and indifferent temperament when he first met be gone.
Xiang Chenglin bowed his head and stole another incense, and there was a desire in his dark eyes that made Su Ye familiar: "What are you thinking?"
Su Ye hurriedly shook his head: "No, it's nothing." Where's this?"
The wooden hut is surrounded by flowers, because there are no flowers in full bloom in the middle of winter, only a few evergreen plants hanging on the eaves grow very well, it is not difficult to imagine how amazing it would be if it were spring here.
Xiang Chenglin let her go: "Take you there to see." ”
Su Ye was pushed by him to the glass room next to the wooden house, which was full of pink lilies and elegant champagne roses, which could bloom so well in a greenhouse at this temperature.
"Do you like this gift? I was going to bring you back in the spring, but the lilies I planted were in full bloom this season. ”
Su Ye stretched out his hand to touch and feel the delicate lines on the petals, and was indescribably moved in his heart: "I like it, thank you, Chenglin." ”
Even if it doesn't cost much now, it is hard for her to imagine that such a proud man can bend down with fertilizer on his hands and stir the dirt with a shovel for her.
In this world, this man is willing to hold the whole world in front of him.
Xiang Chenglin picked a rose that was just in bloom and handed it to her, with a lot of apologies in his eyes.
"I haven't been with you well on a rare vacation because of Gali's affairs in the past few days, and I haven't even been home much, I'm sorry, baby, I apologize to you. ”
Su Ye was taken aback by his cautious tone, and then laughed: "I'm not angry with you, I'm your wife, I will support you in whatever decision you make." ”
In the past few days, she has also figured out that the man she married is a man with a strong sense of responsibility, and if she asks him to make some choices willfully, both of them are very tired.
She tries to understand his decision, believing that he will not have feelings for Eucalyptus beyond siblings.
Xiang Chenglin was moved in his heart, reached out to pull her green silk, and decorated the flower on her black hair.
"When Gali's heart source is there, we will make up the wedding and go on a honeymoon, okay?"
As a woman, Su Ye looked forward to her wedding with him, but she was too embarrassed to speak, and she was much happier when she heard him take the initiative to mention it.
"Okay, then I want to go to the Sea of Love, but now I'm a little hungry. ”
After the delay, the lunch between the two turned into dinner, and Su Ye held a basket of freshly picked oranges from the tree in his hand.
The heating in the wooden house was turned on in advance, and it quickly became hot, and the white apron was a little small around him, but it was probably a mental effect Su Ye felt that he looked more handsome than usual.
Su Ye wanted to take a picture of Xiang Chenglin's appearance with his mobile phone, but before his hand touched the mobile phone, Xiang Chenglin took it first and turned it off.
"What are you doing. ”
Xiang Chenglin bent down and pecked her on the lips, looking natural and domineering: "Today's you belong to me completely, you can't be disturbed by others, the mobile phone is handed over to me for safekeeping, if I find out that you have stolen it, you will be punished." ”
Su Ye couldn't help the burst of sweetness in his heart, he had long forgotten what he was going to do just now, and obediently responded: "I know, then shouldn't Mr. Xiang go cook now?"
Xiang Chenglin Mali washed his hands, picked up the kitchen knife, pretended to be a waiter ordering food, and asked respectfully, "What does Miss want to eat?"
Su Ye was amused by him: "Sweet and sour fish, braised pork ribs, fried shredded potatoes, scrambled eggs with tomatoes." ”
"Okay, please wait a moment. ”
Su Ye held a basket of freshly picked oranges, went to the bar to prepare the juice for the two of them, and just peeled two, Su Ye found that when he had just picked the oranges, his sweater was stained with some dirty things.
She frowned and asked, "Chenglin, is there a change of clothes here?"
Xiang Chenglin was chopping vegetables: "There are clothes in the first bedroom on the left-hand side, you can go and take a look." ”
"Oh. ”
Su Ye opened the wardrobe, her heart was pounding like she had lost control, there was no serious dress in it, what a nurse outfit, a rabbit girl, and some strange clothes, she searched for a long time, but she didn't find a normal one, forget it, let's wear this.
Xiang Chenglin came out with the food and saw that she was still wearing the clothes she had just made, and asked, "Why didn't you change it, didn't Tianlin prepare new clothes inside?"
It turned out that those clothes were prepared by Zhao Tianlin, and she said how could Xiang Chenglin be perverted to such a degree, and those clothes were not for people to wear.
Su Ye said with a dry smile: "I suddenly think this one is very good, just wear this one." ”
Xiang Chenglin saw the suspicious red marks on her face, and thought of Zhao Tianlin's cheap expression yesterday, as if he understood something.
"There's a problem with the clothes in there?"
Where did Su Ye dare to admit it: "No, no, the fish you made looks delicious." ”
"Well, let's try it. ”
After dinner, Su Ye originally thought that he would take himself to see the stars, but who knows, he was immediately taken into the bedroom.
Su Ye resisted: "What are you doing, didn't you say you were going to see the stars?"
"yes, but I've got to eat first. ”
"Didn't you eat a lot just now?"
Xiang Chenglin chuckled and looked ambiguous: "I want to eat you, and I also want to know what clothes are in the closet." ”
Su Ye was anxious and wanted to get up to block the door of the wardrobe, but he still took the lead: "Hey, hey, Chenglin, don't look at it!"
Xiang Chenglin's big palm fixed her soft waist, and her voice was low and sexy: "These are the clothes prepared by Zhao Tianlin?
"Where can I wear those clothes? ”
"I think it's pretty good. ”
Every piece of clothing in it is a naked temptation for a man, as long as he thinks of the way she wears it, Xiang Chenglin is a little uncontrollable.
Su Ye's face was so ashamed that he was about to bury it in his chest, and his hand grabbed his clothes: "I don't want it!"
A glimmer of light flashed in Xiang Chenglin's eyes, and the coming days were long, and he had time: "Okay, okay, don't, but you compensate me." ”
"Compensation......?"
In the end, Su Ye didn't go to see Chengxing because he was too tired.
The sound of ticking water in the bathroom, Su Ye watched himself in his dream soaking in the bathtub, and his back was full of bruises and purples.
Su Ye's heart continued to twitch, clenching her chest in pain, empathizing with herself in her dream, her despair, helplessness, and her heart was like ashes.
Outside the bathroom door, a faint figure, short and fat, looked very familiar: "How good it should have been like this a long time ago, serve me well, and your family's business can be financed normally, Su Ye, you should feel honored, you saved the entire Su family, it tastes really good." ”
The self in the dream frantically wiped his body, hysterically yelling: "Get out!!Get out!!I hate you!! I hate you!!"
Boom!!boom!!
The lightning in the dream frightened Su Ye out of the dream all of a sudden, but the feeling of heartache and suffocation lingered in his mind.
It was so deep and clear, the sound of the rain in the middle of the night came quickly and quickly, Su Ye curled up on the bed, his body uncontrollably cold and nauseous.
A tilted head: "Vomit ......"
I vomited everything I ate today, and the smell of the food gradually filled the whole room, so disgusting, really disgusting.
The rumbling thunder outside the window illuminated the dark room, oppressive and terrifying, and she had never been more afraid of these sounds than she was now.
She seemed to see that face, and that voice that she will never forget: "Baby, you taste so good, you are mine." ”
She fell to the side of the bed in a panic, her face pale and covered with tears.
"Chenglin, where are you...... ...... to Chenglin"
She crawled to the door, shouting softly that she should have hugged her man in the first place, but she didn't get any response.
She's going to run, get out of here, get out of this room.
She grabbed the landline phone next to her, and the cold sweat that kept dripping down her forehead wet the buttons, but no matter how many times she pressed it, the screen was always black.
"Why can't it get through, why ......"
The sound of the flower pots on the trellises outside the house falling to the ground was terrible and harsh, and then it was drowned out by the thunder.
The sound was like a switch, turning on the fragments that had once flashed in my head, and everything became clear.
From a glance on the playground, she fell in love with the cold and arrogant boy.
It was she who kept chasing him: "Xiang Chenglin, can you stop fighting, look at these injuries on your hands." ”
"Su Ye, you manage so much. ”
It was she who fell in love with him first: "Xiang Chenglin, do you like me?"
"You didn't wake up, did you?
It turned out that he never said that he loved her, it was her eternal wishful thinking.
She only remembered that the heavy rain could not wash away the filth on her body that day, and she saw the white sneakers stop in front of her from far to near, and the wounds on the wrists were covered by his black shirt, and only the pale red diluted by the rain could be seen.
"Xiang Chenglin, I'm so dirty, really dirty...... Don't touch me, I beg you, let me die, I'm living so painfully. ”
Lost everything overnight, her innocence, love, affection, clean, nothing left.
He hugged himself and apologized over and over again: "Yezi, you look at me, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, I should send you home, you're not dirty at all, I love you, I love you, you know?"
No, he didn't love her, never did, and she didn't want his charity.
Lightning accompanied by thunder, giving the room a moment of light, Su Ye put down the phone in a daze, stretched out his hand and covered his mouth tightly, not letting himself cry, but the tears fell on the floor in large pieces, forming a circle of small droplets.
Her throat felt like someone was pinching, and like a fish dying on land, she gasped for air, trying to breathe in the air something that didn't belong to her.
"To Chenglin, to Chenglin......"
Outside the hospital emergency room
Xiang Chenglin looked at the heavy rain outside the window uneasily, reached out to touch his mobile phone, only to find that there were two more mobile phones in his bag, and in order to be alone with her, he unplugged the network cable in the wooden house.
Wang Siqin saw that his face was wrong: "Chenglin, what's wrong with you? ”
Xiang Chenglin shook his head, always feeling a stuffy pain in his chest, as if he had lost something important. Trying to comfort yourself: "It's okay......"
Yes, it's okay, she's waiting for herself in the cabin, and she'll be fine.
Su Ye grabbed the edge of the cabinet and moved to the windowsill, she remembered everything, and also remembered everything he had said to herself, sometimes crying and sometimes laughing, but in the end.
She spread her five fingers to look at the diamond ring that was dazzling under the lightning, and reached out to pull the ring from her ring finger little by little.
Along with Su Ye's heart, what kind of love, he is just guilty of himself, the moment the ring is out of sight, Su Ye's own heart also died together, accompanied by heavy rain, crying silently.
In the early morning, the rain on the eaves trickled to the ground, creating a small puddle in the dirt under the eaves.
Su Ye held a bouquet of blooming lilies in her hand, and sat quietly outside, waiting for someone who didn't know how long it would take to come to pick her up.
As soon as Zhao Tianlin got out of the car, he felt that something was wrong with Su Ye today, although he looked no different from usual, but the whole person was a little strange.
"Sister-in-law, Brother Chenglin is guarding Gary in the hospital, so let me pick you up, this is your mobile phone. ”
"Well, you can take me to the mall first. ”
Zhao Tianlin asked more: "What are you doing in the mall?"
Su Ye pressed his hand on the keyboard of the mobile phone, with a faint smile on the corner of his mouth, and his voice was almost minimal: "Buy clothes, you can't wear this." ”
Zhao Tianlin shook his head a little confused, women are really scary, and they have to buy clothes when they go to the hospital.
Eucalyptus was lying on the bed sickly, and the little improvement that he had just raised in the past few days had also been exhausted, and said: "Brother Chenglin, where did you go yesterday, I waited for you for a long time and you didn't show up." ”
"Gary, how long are you going to finish tossing, and you're going to spoil your body like this?"
He received a call last night, and he heard that she had quietly stopped taking the medicine, and those medicines were life-saving for her, and she didn't even want her life?
Eucalyptus whispered, "I don't want you to go to her side, I just want you to stay by my side." ”
There was some anger in Xiang Chenglin's eyes, and before he could open his mouth, he heard Su Ye's voice from behind him.
"Gary, I've come to see you, and this is the lily I brought you. ”
Su Ye had light makeup on his face, he looked a lot more energetic, and the clothes on his body had also changed into a new set, wearing a white shirt inside.
Xiang Chenglin looked at her translucent eyes, and felt a little uneasy in his heart: "Why are you here?"
Su Ye put down the lily in his hand, his expression was gentle, and he took out a document from his pocket: "I'll come and see Gali, and by the way, I have something to tell you, you can see if there is any problem with this document." ”
Xiang Chenglin looked at the ring finger on her left hand without a ring, took the document, and after seeing the big words on it, his eyes were full of shock and anger.
The document in his hand was tightly crumpled into a ball, making a screeching sound, and squeezed it in the palm of his hand.
"You go out with me, and we'll talk. ”
The incandescent light in the ward illuminated Su Ye's already uncomfortable eyes were a little dry, and Xiang Chenglin tried to calm down the irritability factor in his heart, and asked Su Ye out loud.
"Why do you want to get a divorce? I ask you why you want to get a divorce?"
The word divorce seemed to draw two heavy and deep cuts on Cheng Lin's chest, and his heart was constantly dripping blood.
Obviously, they were all fine before, why is this happening.
"Let's find a time to get divorced. ”
Xiang Chenglin refused without hesitation: "It is impossible for me to agree to the divorce, unless I die Su Ye I tell you that I don't agree." ”
Su Ye blinked, there was no trace of fluctuation in his eyes: "This is what I have carefully considered, I just think that we are all tired in this way, you have a responsibility to Eucalyptus, don't you? You can leave me anytime and anywhere for her, you can't give up Eucalyptus for me, right?"
Xiang Chenglin took a deep breath, trying to sort out his messy mood, holding her tightly in his arms, and truly feeling her existence.
"Are you angry that you left suddenly last night, just because Aunt Wang told me that Gali's illness is a crime, and she won't take medicine if I don't come back, I'm sorry, I didn't leave on purpose, baby, I'll apologize to you, okay. ”
Su Ye held back the tears that were about to fall off his eyes, and forcibly endured the tingling feeling in his heart: "There is no right or wrong between us, it is me who can't get along with you." ”
You shouldn't apologize, it's me who is wrong, it's me who shouldn't have fallen in love with you, I shouldn't have tied you to me.
Xiang Chenglin's heart twitched fiercely, raised her head, and forced her to look directly into her eyes: "Can't get by?" Su Ye, you can't fool me, you look at me, look at me!"
"Baby, tell me it's all your angry words, huh, I'll tell you about it before I leave, okay?"
Su Ye stared at his eyes, tears suddenly came out, and the smile on the corner of his mouth twitched and was about to hang up: "Xiang Chenglin, I'm dirty, I'm dirty, don't touch me...... I like you, even if you don't like me......"
She's dirty, don't touch her,
This sentence was Xiang Chenglin's nightmare once upon a time, but now that it comes out of her mouth, it hurts ten thousand times more than it was at the beginning.
He lowered his head and locked his lips, terrified of every word she said next, which was to sentence him to death.
Su Ye grabbed his broad shoulders and indulged himself in his kiss for the last time.
He let go of her lips, but he didn't dare to let go, afraid that she would leave his world without hesitation.
"Don't say it, don't say it again, I'm sorry, Yezi, I'm really sorry, what I said at that time was just angry words, I didn't expect you to encounter that incident on the way back, when I caught up, I couldn't see you anymore, I'm sorry, I love you, I love you. ”
This late I love you, eight years late, but I can no longer arouse Su Ye's already dead heart.
Su Ye couldn't break away from his impregnable arms, and tears quickly wet Xiang Chenglin's clothes, how much she hoped that she didn't think about it, and then continued to deceive herself that he loved herself.
She can't do it, she can't deceive herself, and she can't face the past bravely.
"Xiang Chenglin, you don't love me, you never love, what you have is a responsibility to me, a debt to me that day, you are just sympathizing with me. ”
Xiang Chenglin has never trembled like this moment: "I love you, have you forgotten everything?"
Su Ye shook his head, resisting his every word: "Have you forgotten? The Su Ye who loved you eight years ago is dead, you don't have to say to me like this, we can't go back to the past, you don't have to be responsible for me, and there is no need to please me anymore, my car accident, my legs, have nothing to do with you, it has nothing to do with me, why do you want to catch me, Xiang Chenglin, my heart is really painful, and I am about to breathe." ”
Xiang Chenglin smiled lightly, and his hoarse voice seemed to be able to hide the surging pain in his heart: "Do you think that I have been with you for so long, and I have tried my best to get close to you, just to atone for my sins? Su Ye, your heart hurts, doesn't my heart hurt when I hear what you say? How cruel are you to say that, huh? You tell me, baby, you tell me." ”
He didn't know what to say, what to do, to make her believe that he really loved her, not for that ridiculous atonement.
Su Ye's heart seemed to be missing a piece of it, and he was about to become numb in pain to the point of losing consciousness: "I'm dirty, I don't deserve you, I care about all the things you don't care about, Xiang Chenglin I want to leave you, I want to be quiet, do you know how much I hate myself for thinking about all this......?"
Xiang Chenglin shackled her thin body, the kiss was no longer as gentle as usual, but there was a hint of despair, he couldn't lose her, and he would never let go.
Eight years ago, he had already made a bad decision, and this time he said that he would not let go of anything.
His movements were much wilder, like a desperate and helpless traveler, and his voice was hoarse and trembling: "I will not divorce you, unless I die, you cannot leave me." ”
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