In his eyes, I was an ant under his feet, and he was contemptuous of me to the extreme, and after saying this, he removed the foot that was stepping on me, and then quickly turned away.

I have now lost the ability to think, I don't even have basic emotions, I just fell into a coma in endless pain, and in my last faint consciousness, only the lingering voice of the man in black before leaving, "Wait until one day you are qualified to stand and talk to me, and then ask my name!"

I don't know how long later, I was still unconscious in this dark deep alley, the dim street lights at the entrance of the alley sprinkled on me, shining a broken and bleak light, I seemed to have been discarded by the whole world, lying here alone, no one cared about me, and no one took me to the hospital.

God seemed to feel my desolation, and suddenly it rained, and the rain also carried sadness, and finally woke me up.

The moment I regained consciousness, I felt that my whole body hurt my bones, my head was also dizzy and painful, and my heart was like a needle prick, a tingling pain, what the man in black said before leaving drilled into my mind again, hatred and unwillingness hit at the same time, I remembered that I hadn't gotten the watch yet, remembered that the man in black was still at large, he didn't know which city in the world he had fled to, and I couldn't take revenge now, but no matter what, I can't give up hope, I want to get back up and try to live!

With this belief in mind, I struggled to get up and started looking for a job in the city again, I went to a very small restaurant and told the owner that I could help them with chores and do anything, as long as I could eat. However, before I finished speaking, the boss drove me away in disgust: "Stinky food, go away, don't affect my business!"

When I heard what he said, I couldn't help but look in the mirror of their store, and then I found that my image was so miserable that I couldn't bear to look at it directly, a face was red and swollen with blood stains, my hair was dirty and unkempt, and my clothes were wrinkled and dirty. The little self-esteem I had left was shattered at this moment, I can't tell how uncomfortable I am, injured, sick, hungry, humiliated, physically and mentally almost unbearable, but, I still haven't completely given up, next, I'm still trying my best to find a job, even if it's a bad job, I'm willing to do it, but others don't accept me, no matter where I go, I'm blasted out as always.

I know that I really can't find a job, but I don't want to starve to death, in order to live, I can only pick up food from the garbage heap, when I am thirsty, I use the water bottle I picked up to drink, I have now abandoned all my self-esteem, the whole person is left with a wounded and crippled body, wandering directionlessly on the street, occasionally, I can hear children taunting me: "Look, that man looks like a dog!"

What this city gives me is only ridicule and indifference, I live like this, I am really humble and lonely, and my heart is cold, but for the little faith in the depths of my heart, I still insist and insist on living. However, after a long period of time without decent food, nowhere to live, and no money for treatment, my body is getting worse and worse.

A few days later, I finally couldn't bear it anymore, I fell headlong on the side of the road, the disease had completely swallowed me, I couldn't get up anymore, I lay on the ground softly, my body and mind were tired to the extreme, I wanted to rest, completely rested, it was too tired and too difficult to live in the world, I really wanted to never wake up, I wanted to leave this world. But at this moment, I miss Feng Xue very much, I still have some worries in this world, I miss Feng Xue, my numb heart is also a little painful, I squinted, looked into the distance with difficulty, and muttered: "Xiaoxue, I miss you very much, can you feel it?"

After saying this, I no longer have a trace of strength, my eyelids can no longer hold on, my eyes, slowly, slowly closing, just at the moment when I am about to lose consciousness, suddenly, a twenty yuan bill fell in front of me, this banknote in the sun, emitting a special light, it seems to have energy, so that my heart suddenly moved, involuntarily, I raised my eyes, looked up. I saw a junior high school girl wearing a school uniform and a ponytail standing in front of me, her eyes blinking, as bright as stars, shining, at this moment, she was looking at me, showing the most innocent smile, and said, "For you!"

With that, she turned and left. Immediately, a fat girl wearing the same school uniform chased after her and muttered to her: "Xiaowen, isn't it just a beggar, why do you give so much money!"

The girl who was called Xiaowen replied simply: "I see that he is very pitiful, so I will give it!"

After that, the two of them walked farther and farther away, and I couldn't hear what they were saying.

At this time, my heart seems to be injected with an invisible warm current, the cold despair finally has a trace of temperature, it turns out, there are still well-wishers in this society, there is also warmth in the world, this kind little girl, give me not only money, but also the courage to let me live, even if it is a beggar, can live well, I have no reason to fall on the side of the road, to fend for myself. Thinking like this, I gritted my teeth, struggled to get up, and then walked tremblingly to the pharmacy, and used the money to buy fever reducers.

After taking the medicine, my health finally gradually improved, and when I thought of the girl named Xiaowen, I believed that there should be many kind-hearted people like her in this city, and if I could beg here, maybe I could live in peace.

I couldn't control the thought, and early the next morning, I took a broken bowl to the most crowded flyover in the city center, ready to start begging. It's just that as soon as I squatted down, a middle-aged man with a serious face came to me and said to me dissatisfiedly, "What are you doing here?"

I couldn't help but feel fear when I saw him being fierce and stern, and although I didn't know why he asked me this, I still answered honestly: "I don't have any money and I can't find a job, so I want to ask for some money here." ”

When the middle-aged man heard my words, his brows suddenly furrowed, and his tone was not good: "You have hands and feet, what are you not good for, why do you want to be a beggar, this kind of thing is not something that anyone can do, besides, this is my territory, you can't stay here, hurry up!"

Hearing this, I was stunned, I thought that being a beggar was already the worst, but I didn't expect that I didn't even have the qualifications to ask for food, and I had to be driven away for this matter, I couldn't say the grievances in my heart, I looked at the middle-aged man, and said earnestly: "I have no way, I am really desperate, and I will be reduced to asking for food, I beg you not to drive me." ”

The middle-aged man sarcastically said, "There's no way, there's no way to pick up garbage, it's also a job!"

Picking up garbage? Yes, it's at least making money by working on your own, even if you don't make a lot of money, even if you don't have a decent job, it's better than being a beggar here.

I thought about it for a while, and then I quickly made up my mind, and then, I stood up and said to the middle-aged man, "Thank you!"

With that, I left immediately.

As soon as I walked away, the middle-aged man took my place, and then, at the speed of light, opened his backpack, and then quickly made his own image, and then lay down on the bridge, and in the blink of an eye, he lost his glossy appearance, and became a poor beggar with crippled legs.

When I saw this, I couldn't help but be shocked, it turned out that he drove me away because he was a beggar himself, and he still pretended to be a beggar who knew the way, at this moment, I suddenly thought of the news I had watched before, some beggars are organized, they can pretend to be very pitiful, or the leader of the organization broke their hands and feet and became very pitiful, and let them beg on the street. It seems that being a beggar is also an art. As the middle-aged man said, this is not something that anyone can do.

I sighed inwardly, and then finally took a step away.

Next, I began to pick up the rags seriously, this thing is more hard, I broke my leg in a day, and finally earned a few dollars, but with this money, at least I don't have to pick up things in the garbage heap to eat, and I can rely on my own ability to solve the problem of food and clothing.

It's just that my heart has always been heavy and depressed, especially whenever I carry a garbage bag to school to pick up bottles and cans, I am even more uncomfortable, if I didn't have an accident, now that school is also in school, I am also in the second year of high school, I should have been the same as other students, happy to go to school, but now, I can only watch others read, and myself, is picking up garbage at school, this kind of life, not what I want, but I have no other choice.

Slowly, I became a little numb, I didn't think about how humble I was, I didn't think about my loneliness, I just kept picking up the rags every day like a walking corpse, I just had to close my eyes now, my mind was full of cans and plastic bottles, I had lost everything I should have at this age, just to live for the sake of living.

In this way, a month passed, the time entered October, the city ushered in the eleventh Golden Week, this is a good time for tourism, some outsiders will run to the city's attractions to travel, there are more people, I can pick up more things, this day, I got up early, carrying a hemp bag, began to search for waste everywhere.

At noon, at the entrance of a scenic spot, someone threw the finished Jia Duobao directly on the ground, as soon as I saw the can, I instinctively ran over, and then quickly stepped on the bottle and threw it into the sack, after that, I immediately turned around and left, but, I just took two steps, a voice suddenly broke into my ears: "Feng Hao?"