Volume 6: I Heard That It Was Love (6)
After calming down for a while, Lin Yingkong went to get a lot of food and healing medicines, although he understood that it was useless to do so, and the history that had been set would never be changed, but he still couldn't bear to let his minister suffer when he could see it.
As long as he thought of Feng Rong's current small and thin appearance, he couldn't stand it, and he couldn't wait to send him the most precious and beautiful things in the world, and turn him into the tall, confident minister in the future.
When Lin Yingkong returned to the room that seemed to collapse under the heavy canopy, the little puppet had already changed his mother's clothes, wiped the mud and blood stains all over his body, and the pale and crazy woman was lying there with her eyes closed, even in a coma, a wisp of resentment lingered between her brows—she resented the world, and she resented her only son.
When he saw Lin Yingkong come back, the puppet's performance was stunned all of a sudden, he seemed to have been used to losing everything and never coming back, he was still too far away from the calm and calm minister in the future, in the face of the strange guest who suddenly went and returned, the surprise on his face could not be concealed - he never seemed to believe that anyone would return to him after leaving.
"Why are you looking at me like this?" Lin Yingkong was sour and soft by his eyes, in fact, he didn't know why the dark puppet looked at him like this at this time, and it took a while to think of putting down the big bag of things in his hand, and then found the soy milk and meat buns and stuffed them into him, and said, "Eat something, you haven't rested all night, you must be hungry, eat this, well, and this...... If you have fried dough sticks, you can eat them quickly, and sleep for a while after you are full, okay?"
Lin Yingkong said to him while stuffing things for him, his voice was so gentle that it was like facing the minister he was thinking about in the future, the dark puppet was already a little unable to come back to his senses, and now he was even more stunned, Lin Yingkong took a moment to find out that he was at a loss in his seemingly gentle actions, and had to close his mouth, after making sure that the woman could not wake up for the time being, he sat on the steps in front of the room with the dark puppet, and ate the late breakfast in silence.
The sun had risen very high, shining warmly on the earth, climbing up the human body, entangled and transferring heat to each other, but the dark puppet still seemed to be very cold, he mechanically ate the food that was the supreme delicacy for him on weekdays, his face was pale, and the blue and black bruises that he didn't know whether he was beaten or fell became more and more obvious, Lin Yingkong pretended to touch his face inadvertently, the cold temperature almost made him can't help but hold this thin boy in his arms, but unfortunately whether it is for the current puppet or the future Minister of Spiritual Law Enforcement, he does not have this qualification。
"Are you okay?" After holding back for a long time, Lin Yingkong asked.
"Me?" the puppet asked a little confused, as if he didn't understand why he asked, and mechanically finished drinking the soy milk before saying, "Oh, I, I'm fine." ”
He said this, but not the kind of strong heart or pretending to be calm in the future, but a kind of emptiness, helpless and cowardly, he was like a timid mouse, he was robbed of the piece of meat that he had managed to take into his mouth, not only could not declare war on the beast, but crouched in the corner with a hungry stomach and trembling, trying in vain to comfort himself that it was okay, because he was used to this life until the day he starved to death...... Lin Yingkong didn't want to describe the most beautiful person in his mind like this, but unfortunately the puppet in reality only gave him this feeling.
"Are you really okay?" Lin Yingkong asked again, in fact, he didn't know if he was disappointed that the former Feng Rong was so easy to defeat, he had a strong urge to hope that he would stand up strong-but maybe he was disappointed that he was the closest to Feng Rong, but he never found out where his almost sharp defense came from.
The puppet smiled at him, though it could only be regarded as a weak tug at the corners of his mouth, "I look terrible?"
You look like you've fallen. Lin Yingkong thought so, but didn't say it, only said: "Let's sleep for a while," paused slightly, and added, "I'm not leaving, I'll accompany you." ”
The puppet didn't listen to him, just sat there with half of the meat bun in his hand in his hand, staring blankly at a certain point in front of him, his excessively long forehead hair drooping down from a slight shock, gloomily covering half of his eyes, he looked very similar to his mother at this time, and that world-weary and powerless emotion was unreservedly vented from the eyes of a woman and a boy.
"Mom always thinks it's all my fault," the puppet opened with such a sentence, and the vocal cords looked jerky and dry because they hadn't been used for a long time, "Actually, I also think it's my fault, from the beginning, I shouldn't have been in this world." ”
Lin Yingkong frowned when he heard this, he felt strange and excited because his minister would actually confide in others, this may be something that he will never learn in the future by wrapping himself in a strong shell, but he also felt a little unhappy because of his negative words - every life needs to be respected, how should it not be?
"I'm a child with an unknown father, my mother is unmarried and pregnant, and she won't tell me her real name, and until now, I don't know what my real name is," the puppet said when he introduced himself, a little formulaic, not like his own words, but like someone often reminded him in his ear, mature as if he was not a child, "My name is Puppet, but my mother said that it was a fake name, and she still hasn't told me what my real name is." ”
Lin Yingkong was stunned for a moment, he knew that the minister's family used a pseudonym, but at least the puppet at this time was ...... Hmm, he's ten years old, hasn't the woman told him his real name yet?
"Actually, I don't think she intended to name me, who made me a person who shouldn't have appeared," the puppet lowered his voice slightly, as if something was blocked in his throat, "I heard that the man was my mother doing a mission...... Well, I met when I went out, three months, one night, and there was me...... But he was gone, and he left nothing but me, and just left. ”
This man is a member of the Baili family, Baili Mengyan's own father, he is still with the mother of the puppet when he already has a wife, they met during a mission to be an alien, and after the mission is over, everything is over......
Lin Yingkong thought back to the fragments of the truth he knew, opened his mouth, and then he found that in fact, the puppet didn't need him to comfort, he just needed someone to listen to him, so Lin Yingkong decided to shut up and piece together the memories of Feng Rong bit by bit, and wait until later...... There was always a way for him to heal the scars and despair of the past.
"Mom loved him so much...... Love, that's what I said, mom should love dad, parents will love their children," the puppet pursed his lips, and when he said the word "love", his tone changed slightly, and a flash of brilliance flashed in his eyes, not whether it was longing or confusion or anything like that, but in the next second, his eyes dimmed again, leaving no traces, "But mom loves him, she doesn't love me...... He certainly doesn't love me either. ”
Lin Yingkong took a few seconds to distinguish between "he" and "she" in the boy's words, and felt incredible-that man didn't say anything, as a mother, why didn't he love his son, in cheesy and disgusting words, the puppet was the crystallization of their love, isn't it?
"Actually, I can't blame them, it's my fault. The dark puppet repeated the topic again, and then paused for a while, until the sun that continued to climb up cast the warm light in his eyes through the cracks in the eaves, he couldn't help but squint his eyes, this action reminded Lin Yingkong of Feng Rong in the bus stop in the demon capital, he also did exactly the same action, when mentioning his past, at that time, Lin Yingkong thought that he was avoiding the sun, and now it seems that this is more like avoiding some unbearable burden.
¬ - It turns out that these pasts have always been with the seal, never dissipating?
"You're just a child, only adults do wrong things in this world, you don't have time to do anything, so, don't think too much, that's not your responsibility. Lin Yingkong still couldn't help but open his mouth, and said softly, he didn't know if there were some special emotions revealed in his voice, because the dark puppet's eyes were full of surprise when he suddenly looked over.
"No," the puppet shook his head, "you just don't know anything," he curled the corners of his mouth again, maybe he was laughing at himself, but the muscles on his face couldn't match his expression, and his whole face looked weird, "did you hear me, my mother called me a demon, I was indeed a demon, and my existence ruined everything, everything. ”
"You're just a child," Lin Yingkong insisted, his words cruel but true, "you can't do anything." ”
The dark puppet stared at him for a while, and for a moment he was very similar to the future seal, with a kind of insistence that no one could change his original intention, but in the end he still shook his head, and for a moment the insistence turned into humble cowardice, "I am a demon, I ruined her, the whole family, the whole life...... It's true. ”